I've officially lost it all Yea Forums...

I've officially lost it all Yea Forums. Gonna just tell my sad ass story here since i have no confidence with my friends to share this with any of them.
>Be me (yeah i know retard)
>Highschool junior at the time
>meet girl get a crush on her within minutes
>become really close friends fairly quickly (my social skills are pretty good)
>she confesses she has a mental disorder
>me being the kind and considerare user i tell her its all good with me and that its ok
>friendship grows rapidly after that
>couple months go by and im enjoying my time with her and she seems to enjoy my company. But things start changing...
>We grow apart and she doesnt seem to mind that.
>Im desperately attempting to remedy this over the course weeks.
>She grows to ignore me for a long time
>One day i snap.
>Dm her my entire confession on all my thoughts on how everythings been. From the start of me wannting to date her,how i fell in love with her. How i felt about her basically just throwing me away.
>She responds
>Says she was also into me and she just had a hard time with me and didint know how to react
>A sliver of hope arises in my mind beliving i could actually make this work. (Boy was i wrong)
>Next semester begins
>we become "friends" again but its diffrent not the same feeling around her anymore. Feels odd.
>One day i get an idea. I need to ask her out
>i do
>oh no i fucked up.rip
>she ghost me even harder than before i probably should of killed myself then and there
>my mind is fucked at that point cant stop regretting it all.
>school year ends.
>i send her a dm. Just saying i wish things could of turned out better,that i dont hate her for anything and shes not to blame for anything. Mean the dm as a kind of farewell message.
>she responds
>we get into a small convo about things and she actually offered to remain as friends
>i told her i needed time to think about it.
>end of p1

Attached: 1558076142602.png (595x585, 565K)

sounds fake, if not fuck that whore. Not worth killing yourself over

>Start of p2
>in my mind im thinking about every possible set of outcomes that result of me saying yes. I know myself and i would like to think of myself as a decent individual but i know how my brain works. I know that i would get some fake glimmer of hope and ruin the friendship she would want. Its something that i fully understand about myself and i wasnt about to let myself make her life more difficult than it already is.
>so i write a response saying no but in a pretty asshole type of way in order for her to at least think of me as an asshole. That way she woulnt feel bad about it.
>she says her goodbyes in her last dm to me.
> i was soo close to fucking ending it all after that Yea Forums you dont even know
>months go by and oddly enough she still follows me on social medias. I assume maybe she forgot but i still liked seeing her account on my followers and friends list.
>one day they have vanished. She finally un followed me on everything. That was today
>i dont really know what to think anymore. I just hope that she is doing well and enjoying herself.
>She probably hates me. Hell i hate me
>But i get a couple seconds of joy just in the hopes that she moved on.
>Hopefully i get on that road as well
>the end
Ps. The temperature in california makes me wanna die

Attached: 1546760848414.jpg (1179x1079, 92K)

Honestly not sure if i would preffer it to be fake or real anymore. It just is

Theres stuff that happened in the middle of this not sure if anyone would be intrested. Also if anyone gets trips ill cut out a fraction of the dm's. Quads get a dl to the whole dm history

pic i took of my gf today while we were blackberry picking (both 19)

i gave up on dating, i had been cheated on 4/4 times and I basically hated women for a year. When I met her it all changed, as I grew to know her I grew as a person. Part of it is our mutual transition into adulthood, but she genuinely has changed my outlook on life.
Girls aren’t worth drama, if you feel shitty because of one its time to move on. That changes when you’re already deep into a relationship, but I’ve been with my gf for 8 months and we’ve never had an argument. Fuck that bitch, wait for the right one. Theres plenty out there. Keep working on yourself

Attached: D5D56239-9733-4642-9626-3652056FF780.jpg (902x1792, 429K)

I'll try my hardest man. Thanks for the motivating words

One day you’ll look back and realize it’s worth it

Attached: 22388E12-6D94-4E03-8F35-C9762E6A1596.jpg (902x1792, 298K)

wholesome shit right here, thanks for shining some light on all of us my guy

Attached: 1560628443247.gif (150x150, 174K)

Get over it user find another woman

you good nigga, you good

you shouldnt go into a relationship with boundaries on you and not for your bitch. Just show her your dick if she show you her panties doesnt matter who is first if she runs away just do the same thing next time. Chivalry is dead man.

well you fucked up by falling so hard for someone you werent even with
if you want my advice stop worrying/thinking about stuff that doesnt involve you (top of the list is her)

jesus christ user you have one of the most punchable faces ive ever seen

Thats a bad pic of me

Attached: 29959232-A64A-4126-B16D-E6176FFA0EAA.jpg (2316x3088, 1.54M)

Been through 10 times worse

You just seem lost man

Hope youre alright man

You dodged a bullet. Like WTF? She liked you buy had a hard time? Jesus. I understand you like her but that mental disorder woulda fucked you over in the end OP

Man you didn't lose shit, so some bitch you were friends with doesn't want to be friends or in a relationship, so fucking what? Also, I know why she doesn't want to be friends with you it all started right here
>couple months go by and im enjoying my time with her and she seems to enjoy my company. But things start changing...
>We grow apart and she doesnt seem to mind that.
She got tired of waiting for your slow retarded ass to make a move, during that time she probably put out all sorts of signs that she wanted to date or bang or whatever, and like a dumbass you didn't notice. Either that or YOU started change, I don't know how to be honest, but I'm guessing it's the prior.
>Im desperately attempting to remedy this over the course weeks.
Now she REALLY hates you, women fucking hate desperate thirsty dudes, and if you're thirsty just for her friendship when she wanted to take things to the next level, then she doubly wants nothing to do with you.
>One day i snap.
>Dm her my entire confession on all my thoughts on how everythings been. From the start of me wannting to date her,how i fell in love with her. How i felt about her basically just throwing me away.
Ouch.
I'm not even going to bother explaining the rest of this shit, unloading on chicks is the ultimate turn off, even I fucked up on this one a few times until I learned that women really don't give a single shit about your problems, at least not until you're married, and even then there's only so much she'll take until she decides you're not worth it.
She's gone bro, the quicker you forget her, the better.

Kinda hurt to read but very valid criticism. I also thought about it this way before

Jewsus christ user, you're fucking retarded.
1st: this guy is right 2nd: learn that just because you like someone, it doesn't mean they owe you anything. She doesn't have to like you back or take care of your feelings
>We grow apart and she doesnt seem to mind that.
How many times did this ever happened to you? People meet people than move on. That's just the circle of life, there's nothing wrong here.

>i probably should of killed myself then and there
*they're

Attached: GL.gif (400x285, 364K)

I mean this is actually what i wanted. People to tell me how fucking borderline retarded i am so that i can finally bash it into my fucking brain how stupid i am. So by all means keep going. (Also this isnt satire im 100% serious)

Nice find. I was in a semi rush if that changes anything

Youre a fucking loser lol

This guy knows. When ure desperate\needy u already lost. Women hate that. Move on and learn

Normally, and I can't stress this enough, I would say something rude and obnoxious or edgy in regards to your situation.
But your situation is so tame compared to what I have been through around your age.
My highschool friend took my virginity when she was 15 and I aswell 15.
She played me like a fuckin fiddle.
Ive been on the emotional rollercoaster b4 with hormones coursing thru me as a teen.
It really isn't that bad buddy chin up it could have been worse.
Your thought process changes with time as you age and grow older.

You look faded as fuck fam

Oldfag here, Look I could sit here and be a dick and say fuck bitches make money. But I wont. I am going to give you some Sage sound advice and take it from an older guy all of you. In your teens and youth you all want commitment. Why? Listen, trying to have a steady anything in your prime age is a waste of your time. Then (and this goes to the motivator) when they cheat on you you get all hurt and hate women and hope to meet mrs perfect.... Why? at that age the only thing you should look for is how fast can i get laid on this then go to work and keep your case grow your gains. Listen in your teens and twenties women they dont look for commitment they look to have fun go out go to classes that sort of shit. Listen OP im glad you are happy she moved on as you have too. but sage advice... do you live only for yourself and you will be happy in anything you are doing. PS to guys wanting a commitment get with girls in the mid 30's most of em got they shit together and know what they want.

They're = they are
>should have killed myself they are

Attached: original.jpg (600x375, 26K)

Hey man all advice is strongly taken and yeah i do feel like your points make sense. Thanks for the guide though master sage

Let me rephrase: get with a woman in her 30s, she’s fucked around with a thousand dudes, her eggs are on the edge of running out, and she’s desperate to hook a man who will take care of her.

Still sound advice though unless you want kids

Lol incel, girls don’t just up and run out of eggs sweety

Girls in High school are fucking retarded OP, honestly most women are retarded. That's why there are escorts and strippers for a reason. Anyway if you're looking for happiness just look within yourself and man up. Get a chick who actually apperciate's your ass and you will be better for it.

Trust this user who's been through it before, it's not ever worth it.

Pic non related to your problem but it goes to show you how worthless most women are to begin with.

Attached: FB_IMG_1561299443805.jpg (676x676, 74K)

I feel like you are the they're guy because you say wrong shit on purpose for what?
Bait?
4/10 I replied.

yikes. Talk about getting the shit end of the genetic lottery with a face like that...

Jesus christ, just fucking find a new bitch. Make a tinder and a bumble. You'll find another good looking pussy soon enough. Also, why the fuck does it look like your face got hit with a frying pan in the first picture?

thanks for posting your pics man i will use your them to write with girls and shit talk them

Post yours

Honestly op here i for the most part i find all of these comments very helpful some may be more on the aggresive side and thats fine like i stated before its time i fully accept stuff and learn from my mistakes. This has been a great help. Yea Forums can still be a useful resource

LMFAOOO that changes nothing that said abt you having a punchable face

I think this is the actual first time I think user is a faggot and actually sounds like a little bitch

hey dude check this out, you're still in high school right? or just graduated?

none of that shit you typed here will matter in a year or two
you want to get more women? stop giving a fuck about women, go take care of yourself and do the things YOU want to do before you start worrying yourself over a gf/wife/etc.
the more control you have over your own life the easier it'll be to choose em.

Meh good assumption i suppose. I'd think the same honestly

Senior atm.

yeah most definitely, man to man im telling you. you can reminisce all you want but just know that there's infinite women out there that are hundreds of times better than her

you only get one life though