I've officially lost it all Yea Forums. Gonna just tell my sad ass story here since i have no confidence with my friends to share this with any of them.
>Be me (yeah i know retard)
>Highschool junior at the time
>meet girl get a crush on her within minutes
>become really close friends fairly quickly (my social skills are pretty good)
>she confesses she has a mental disorder
>me being the kind and considerare user i tell her its all good with me and that its ok
>friendship grows rapidly after that
>couple months go by and im enjoying my time with her and she seems to enjoy my company. But things start changing...
>We grow apart and she doesnt seem to mind that.
>Im desperately attempting to remedy this over the course weeks.
>She grows to ignore me for a long time
>One day i snap.
>Dm her my entire confession on all my thoughts on how everythings been. From the start of me wannting to date her,how i fell in love with her. How i felt about her basically just throwing me away.
>She responds
>Says she was also into me and she just had a hard time with me and didint know how to react
>A sliver of hope arises in my mind beliving i could actually make this work. (Boy was i wrong)
>Next semester begins
>we become "friends" again but its diffrent not the same feeling around her anymore. Feels odd.
>One day i get an idea. I need to ask her out
>i do
>oh no i fucked up.rip
>she ghost me even harder than before i probably should of killed myself then and there
>my mind is fucked at that point cant stop regretting it all.
>school year ends.
>i send her a dm. Just saying i wish things could of turned out better,that i dont hate her for anything and shes not to blame for anything. Mean the dm as a kind of farewell message.
>she responds
>we get into a small convo about things and she actually offered to remain as friends
>i told her i needed time to think about it.
>end of p1
I've officially lost it all Yea Forums...
sounds fake, if not fuck that whore. Not worth killing yourself over
>Start of p2
>in my mind im thinking about every possible set of outcomes that result of me saying yes. I know myself and i would like to think of myself as a decent individual but i know how my brain works. I know that i would get some fake glimmer of hope and ruin the friendship she would want. Its something that i fully understand about myself and i wasnt about to let myself make her life more difficult than it already is.
>so i write a response saying no but in a pretty asshole type of way in order for her to at least think of me as an asshole. That way she woulnt feel bad about it.
>she says her goodbyes in her last dm to me.
> i was soo close to fucking ending it all after that Yea Forums you dont even know
>months go by and oddly enough she still follows me on social medias. I assume maybe she forgot but i still liked seeing her account on my followers and friends list.
>one day they have vanished. She finally un followed me on everything. That was today
>i dont really know what to think anymore. I just hope that she is doing well and enjoying herself.
>She probably hates me. Hell i hate me
>But i get a couple seconds of joy just in the hopes that she moved on.
>Hopefully i get on that road as well
>the end
Ps. The temperature in california makes me wanna die
Honestly not sure if i would preffer it to be fake or real anymore. It just is
Theres stuff that happened in the middle of this not sure if anyone would be intrested. Also if anyone gets trips ill cut out a fraction of the dm's. Quads get a dl to the whole dm history
pic i took of my gf today while we were blackberry picking (both 19)
i gave up on dating, i had been cheated on 4/4 times and I basically hated women for a year. When I met her it all changed, as I grew to know her I grew as a person. Part of it is our mutual transition into adulthood, but she genuinely has changed my outlook on life.
Girls aren’t worth drama, if you feel shitty because of one its time to move on. That changes when you’re already deep into a relationship, but I’ve been with my gf for 8 months and we’ve never had an argument. Fuck that bitch, wait for the right one. Theres plenty out there. Keep working on yourself
I'll try my hardest man. Thanks for the motivating words
One day you’ll look back and realize it’s worth it
wholesome shit right here, thanks for shining some light on all of us my guy
Get over it user find another woman