Ask an actual therapist anything. This thread got a lot of traction last time I did it about a month ago...

>How old are you?
33
>Why are you forced to live with them?
I support them and am the provider
>What makes them idiots?
Destructive lifestyles. Behavior that has long term negative consequences. Basic folly.
>Why does them being idiots prevent you from being happy?
The toys and noise. Impulse purchases that create toil for me. At work it's incompetence. I'm expected to pick up the slack of others.

What's your morality on people who have commited horrible crimes such as rape/murder? Do you think evil and good are a thing or are we just slaves of your tribes and instincts? Also, do you think therapists are too easy on "depressed" people? I feel like a simple lifesryle change can improve many people's life instead of unhealthy medication.

I want to, and am going to kill myself within the next year. How can you help me?

Numbness is typically depression. Anger is rarely a primary emotion. There's typically something under it. Usually this is pain. Drugs and alcohol are coping mechanisms. You need to work through what's making you angry. You also likely need to stop doing drugs and alcohol. What kind of drugs?

What’s some of the worst stuff you’ve heard?

I feel i should clarify, "How can a Therapist/Therapy help me"

I think i have schizoid personality disorder.
I have extreme difficulty socializing with people beyond a select group of friends. I have never been in love or fallen in love. I have never felt lonely in my life. I have pretty much no attachments to anyone but a few people and I have difficulty getting attached to people.
I never show anyone my emotions, and I am wracked with guilt because it feels like I am not living my life.
However i greatly dislike being around people. I find them very taxing.
I thought i was just autistic since i had trouble with emotions, but I am not socially awkward at all.
I just feel very detached, and I have no idea how to pursue a normal human relationship. Even basic friends are difficult. The few friends I have were gained out of stockholm syndrome since they wouldnt leave me alone.
Is there any hope for me?

Nigga its a dog eat dog world and we got bacon pants fam. If they aint underage and you child fuck off. Take care of yourself first.

nah nigga, Evil and good is just a social construct in an attempt to curb mans innate nature.

yeah I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder awhile back. I think I know exactly why I'm angry but I just don't feel ready to access that yet, I'm sure once I do I'll realise how much I actually despise myself. I used to do a lot of stimulants, benzos, and opiates but I've stopped doing that and just use weed

Whoever you are, thank you for your beautiful trolls. Much more entertaining than the actual replies

Ey nigga, we're kinda similar. Honestly you just gotta force certain relationships. Get yourself a girl friend you really click with. Makes life bearable for a little while.

I've been getting into blind rages lately. Most of the time in either raging full on or full blown depressed as fuck. I've started making myself spin out daily on a mixture of valium, weed and beer. I'm talking the kind of spinning out kids do at parties when they first start getting fucked up. But anyway, I've been having to get myself into that state just so I'm not constantly going on one. I've been fully functioning whilst being like this except sometimes I may fall asleep if I chill out for too long. In a totally none gay, cry for attention way, I wish to end my life. I don't feel sad about that or feel that it's morbid, I just wanna check out. I've been grafting my bollocks off since the day I turned 16, I'm now 31. I have a really decent girlfriend and make alright money. I've been trying to make her leave me so I can just fuck myself up but she has no where to go, no family in this country and I know what it'd put her through if I topped myself. Most days when I'm full on raging inside I imagine masacres and really violent type shit. I've thought of talking to a doctor but I'm scared ill get sectioned. I keep having little moments where I totally snap and do fucked up reckless things at work (I work at great heights) and I've come so close to cutting someone's hand off recently and also came close to throwing equipment hundreds of feet down at members of the public. I've stopped myself because I still feel I have some logic left, ie I don't wanna shoot my life away in a prison or institute. What should I do? Keep sedating myself? I'm getting tired of feeling like shit from it

>What's your morality on people who have commited horrible crimes such as rape/murder?
I generally like to believe that people can change for the better. However, I'm not naive. This isn't always the case. People have to show remorse and want to change, and if that's not present, then I don't think much can be done for them. As for how I feel about it, it's irrelevant. When I'm in the therapy room, I leave myself out of it (unless I can't, in which case sometimes I have to refer out or if I think the countertransference could be beneficial for their treatment, I bring it up in the room).

>Do you think evil and good are a thing or are we just slaves of your tribes and instincts?
Eh, hard to say in all honesty. Depends how you look at it. In general, I believe there is good and evil. People who want to harm others (emotionally/physically/etc) to be evil, to varying degrees. I myself have "done evil". We all have.

>Also, do you think therapists are too easy on "depressed" people?

Sometimes. It really depends on the case at hand. Some styles work better with certain clients, and others don't. That's actually why therapy can often be hit or miss for people. The biggest deciding factor in treatment outcome is the relationship between client and therapist. Sometimes it isn't a good fit.

Though I often think that people who are depressed tend to be hard enough on themselves and it isn't my role to go hard on them. Of course, you have to find a good balance, and pushing a client is necessary. That's why the relationship is so important.

Why are you going to kill yourself?

Im not trolling. I just wanna try being a therapist too, seems im on the money with them tho

It depends what the cause is. Therapy can help you feel close to another person, to help ground you, to help you learn skills, to help you rewire your brain, to help you process things that have happened in your life.

Advice to stop masturbating daily?
Is it unhealthy?

I'm working at getting it down to a weekly event and see if it helps my life, may stop doing it at all if that's the healthiest way to live.

Feels like sex is only enjoyable now when I'm not wearing a condom.

Thanks in advance.

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Weed isn't awful, I use it myself on occasion. Still, people sometimes overlook the effect drugs and alcohol can have on their emotions. People think you can bury your emotions, but as cliche as it sounds that really doesn't work. When things affect us in negative way, they come to the surface in one way or another. You need to process these emotions.

Calm down user. Could post a pic of your butthole with the time stamp?

Because I've accepted life for what it is. It's a horrendous thing that has no true meaning. But i suppose the actual reason is because i faced things i've spent years repressing recently, and im tired of hurting. I want peace.

Am I bipolar? Even the smallest criticism hits me like a truck sometimes, I can get very angry at friends when the piss me off and have destroyed many friendships already. When I'm at full aggressive mode I can't be stopped anymore, I just get myself into deeper shit until the madness becomes depression and I start crying and do nothing for days. Then Inslowly recover and try to apolozlgize to everyone. This cycle repeats itself every fucking time and I don't know why it happens. Also my personality is always dependent on the person I am with. So I can be a complete different person when I'm with someone who's well educated and calm than being with a crazy dude who likes to do stupid shit. I had 2 girlfriends and both ended because of my jealousy or other stupid shit I got amgry at for no reason. I never got violent though. Also I fucking hate myself and my whole life. I regret every choice I make and wish I could be someone else

Why does it make you angry/resentful that I'm trying to help people? Or just do an "ask anything thread? I bet there's something here.

It depends what you consider unhealthy. If it's causing you distress or affecting your life in a negative way - missing work, upsetting those around you, what you're into is dangerous, etc, then yes maybe it's unhealthy. Otherwise probably not.

As to how to stop masturbating daily, people usually masturbate as an escape, similar to using drugs. Finding out why you do it (besides just "to feel good") and what triggers these urges are the key to changing any behavior, regardless of what it is.

I had a girlfriend for a while.
I broke up with her because she was super emotional and super clingy. She always wanted to be with me and on me and it freaked me out. I liked the sex, but then i wanted to be left alone.
For years I blamed her for being 'fucking crazy and stalkerish', only recently did i realize that she was completely normal and I was fucked in the head.
As soon as the intimacy got more than physical i detached immediately.

As long as you aint beatin that thang 24/7 myou're fine. Masturbation is actually pretty healthy, bet you know. Everything in moderation fucktard. Raw sex is life, but stds suck fam

make sure that shit clean

Im not angry, i told you im not trolling. Im actually participating in your thread as well. I just wanna test my skills. I've always been good with psycho analyzing.
yeah, you gotta find one that understands the times you get into your own head. It's hard to find her, but she's out there man. just dont fuck it up.

How old are you? When did this start? How long has it been happening? How many "cycles"? How long does each cycle take? Do you ever engage in risk-taking behavior?

It sounds like you have some deep-rooted issues, if I'm being honest. Have you ever considered therapy? I doubt there is a simple solution for what's going on. If you don't care if you live or die, it would logically make sense to at least give therapy a shot, yeah?

We have to find the meaning for ourselves, things that bring us fulfillment. It's hard to see out of the fog when we're in the thick of it.

if anything i respect you. I'd love to be a therapist one day. I'd love to help heal this world.

That's great!

The past few years I've felt shitty and unmotivated all the time, in stark contrast to how I used to act. Could it be depression? What can I do to feel motivated again?

It's not even about the meaning. Im just tired of hurting. Living is a literal hell for me. I'm high functioning sociopath. My mental stability is rather questionable. I just want peace.

Nigga did somethign happen around that time? need more info than that.

OP didn't accidentally call you a troll, that was me

Baby steps and finding things in life that you enjoy again. Typically this involves finding things you are willing to do. Note that I didn't say things you WANT to do...just things you are willing to do.

Were there any major life changes around the time this started?

yeah i know ,although i wonder why they took it as anger. Yo OP, you aint gotta confirm, but i get the feeling you're a chick. But ya know, no grills on teh internet

Only no grils on the deep web, normal web just requires caution

Ey nigga. Why you wanna check out tho. Like WHY, even if tehres no sadness and shit still a reason

plenty of grill on teh deepweb, they just expensive.

I started going to an ACOA group (Adult children of alcoholics) and I feel that its helped. Would professional therapy in addition to the support group be helpful? I'm wary of paying someone if they're not specialized in the topic.

I'm 20 now, I think it really started like 4-6 years ago. Maybe I always was like that but never that extreme as the last couple years. These cycles ususlly happen like once or twice every month, but I also have months where it doesn't happen. Also friends already got used to it and I explained them my situation. Though, I can get very personal sometimes and know that it hurts them, so sometimes it escelates a lot. About risk-taking behaviour. Yes I do, sadly. But not directly to hurt myself like cutting but more like things that make me feel excited and pump adrenaline. But more than that I tend to spend money on dumb shit and smoke couple of grams during these days. Sometimes this shit goes on for a whole week and it absolutely frustrates me. I know it's wrong but my negative enegry simply takes over

So no hope?

I have the worst motivation of anyone I've seen. I procrastinate everything and have a terrible work ethic. I'm not stupid when I try but I failed 3 college classes because I kept putting off the work. I even procrastinate talking to my friends. I don't want to self diagnose myself with depression because I hate jumping to conclusions and my family would look down upon me for getting treated for that. What do?

ive been depressed ever since the divorce 10 years ago i never got the help i needed, my parents were so caught up in their own BS and i kinda got forgotten. now im 22 and live with my grandma with no real job i just work construction with my dad occasionally. almost every day i want do die and have the means to kill myself but i dont, its been this way for years. i didnt even expect to live this long but i really feel like im alive because im curious about what will happen next, but not because i want to live. i ended up quitting school when i was 16 because all i did was sleep, even though i got good grades when i tried i just stopped at one point and slept all day and night. i havent had a girlfriend since highschool and havent ever had a relationship last more than a week, i just dont care about it enough to maintain it. i dont even have any interests anymore and nothing brings me joy i just kind of exist and fake emotions so people think im normal, im almost completely dissociated and nothing feels real most of the time its like im watching someone else play my life.

what are some steps i can take to get the fuck out of whatever the hell this shit is? im tired of living like this. i havent been happy my entire adult life so far and im sure one day ill lose my patience and just end it. i want a normal life again white picket fence and all, i just cant get rolling.

sorry if this is a clusterfuck of text and hard to read its almost 2am where i live and im tired as hell, i hope im awake long enough for the reply.

Back when I was in my late teens I was living on the streets. I had no money, little food, sleeping under bridges and stuff.

I fucked a lot of broken women. I mean, a LOT of them. They would trade sex for food, money, drugs, even to share my blanket in a cold snap. These were the lowest of the low, hooked on drugs, health problems, hygene problems. I mean, I wasn't exactly a catch either.

I've cleaned up since then, married, nice job, two kids. By I can't stop looking for and abusing vulnerable women. I go trolling for the cheapest hookers. I do these sleeping rough weeks to "raise money for charity", but it's really just to hook up with other rough sleeping women. It's starting to tear my life apart. I don't know what to do.

I'm 20 btw, and I kinda remember doing this since I was in middle school, but in smaller doses. It really ramped up in High School. The only thing that got me through highschool with a 3.9 GPA were AP credits and teachers that liked me. I'm not antisocial and I enjoy being around friends and meeting new people.

nigga you need jesus, seems our therapist checked out

I think of killing myself often. I have since I was a teen. Will that stop once I find something to tag to?

/b is too much for any sane person

I think about andy sixx stretching my throat out with his huge turd braid every second of every goddamn day. What do?

Alright Faggots. I'm taking over.

maybe, but you gotta find a reason worth alone. You want to be happy, but you cant let someone be the source of your happiness alone, ,cause when the leave you'll end up being worse off nigga.

I got this nigga

Eh, now this is the troll guys.

ever tried acid fuck nut?

Im scared of flirting and intimacy to the point i cant get even get myself to call a hooker. I'm pretty popular I can talk to girls, and somethimes they even approach me but once it gets flirty all of my spagetti gets spilled and i instinctively gtfo out of there like a master ninja. Girls at work see me as this cool funny gay guy and i just want to eat pussy. How should i kill myself?

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Prolly got add bitch, i got that shit too and it cause similar issue. hit your doctors up, fuck your family. Get some adderall youll be fine.

YO OP WHERE U AT MOTHERFUCKER I THOUGHT U WERE GONNA HELP US

Mans thats that common knowledge ya dig, i need that purple shitting dog shit

fuck the hooker it will help you so much get over your insecurities and anxiety around sex

nah fam , stop being a pussy. Literally, what do you think gone happen if you flirt back? You gone eat some pussy. Go up to those girls, and say "Yo, i aint gay, and i really wanna eat some pussy. Either of you interested?"

im addicted to video games my whole life (particularly online gaming and watching twitch streams)

I have very low self esteem, likely caused by bullying as a kid and divorce of parents, no real strong parental figures etc

I completed a degree in civil engineering and now I regret my decision after working as a grad. It feels like I have 0 passion in this field and it makes it very stressful and the future seem very depressing. not sure if I should tough it out or attempt to go down another path

please help with any of these :)

ight for starters nigga. im drinking a rich ass home made strawberry milk. And smoking a newport. Shit's cas hand i had to let a nigga know. Secondly. You any good at games? start streaming or some shit, stop being a pussy and do something nigga.

I haven't actually thought about that. My mother refused to get me tested as a child even though I was the most fidgety, wired kid around because she didn't want me on "dangerous meds" or to be "labeled".

I do not really enjoy doing anything, kinda dumb but im starting to forget how enjoyment feels

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shit fam, i was on the add adhd soup. Adderal, Ritalin, straterra, you name it. i dont take them anymore , but i use addies rec.

Alright I’ll bite. Is it weird to be cripplingly afraid of commitment, or rather, outwardly expressing desire for commitment?
My s/o and I are discussing the future, and well, I’m having a hard time expressing what I actually want out of fear that they don’t want the same. I’m scared that if I ask for marriage and children, it’ll scare them off, even though we’ve been dating for two years. I constantly downplay my feelings, so much so that I accidentally hurt my partner, and I don’t know why.

i mean, what kinda interest you got? need info fuck face

Ever had a patient that you had to drop because he made uncomfortable/afraid? And if so, what made you feel that way?

ight so for starters dumbass, if that hurt her, then obviously she was hoping for more. Tell her you see a future together with her,, worst case, she says she doesnt want kids, but i mean ,in time that usually changes.

Is there any cure to being deathly afraid of intimacy?

read the damn thread, OP checked out, im running this bitch now.

Why are you afraid of it? what do you think will happen?

Have you ever fucked any of your patients?

see

How can i stop comparing myself to others? I do it constantly in my head, I have extremely low self esteem and am ruminating almost 24/7 about my relationships with others and how I'm inferior.

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man you have no idea how many people have recommended that stuff, or shrooms. id like to try it i just have no idea where in the hell id get any of it.

teen angsty ass photo kid. Stop being a bitch, stop caparing becasue it's useless, and you wasting time.

i mean. you east or west coast??

i used it, and that's how i faced a lot of my issues, and now i want to die.

You got a weed man?

If you can use them recreationally you never had add/adhd. People who have add/adhd just get calmed and more focused on stims, not actually stimmed up/high. Had a friend with adhd who insisted on taking part in snortin amphetamines (more common where I live than meth) with me and some friends. While we wouldn't stop talking for like 12 hours he just sat there, silently staring into the void. He wouldn't even talk with us when we tried to.

AH, im bored now niggers. have a good night, sorry op Fucked off.

Well we’ve talked about how we both think about the future, but, I don’t know if we’re thinking about it differently. My mind went to we should move in together in the next year, but what came out of her mouth was we should move closer to each other (there is some distance). This kind of makes me feel like I should surpress any plans I may want in the next 1-2 years, because I feel like they’re not on the same page. But at the same time, they get hurt sometimes when I respond in a downplayed way.

I was decent at games before I got really depressed. Its hard to make it as a streamer anyway, you need to have a strong personality and its way too risky if I don't have any other plans for money.

im glad life worked out for you, nigga

That's why i take them Rec. It's nice to slow things down. I can actually focus on things then.

life deff didnt work out for me. Im killing myself in the next year. Just put your energy there, work your job and fund your passion. You;ll work out, just be you. People like genuineness.

It would make me vulnerable to be exposed like that and my ego could not take being hurt in that way without ceasing to exist or rescuing it with extreme violence.

I know this behaviour is completely irrational and it makes it worse because i cant find a solution and feel retarded powerless and insane.
Maybe the hooker thing will help, how to hype up myself to it so i dont puss out like last time?

maybe she said closer as to not seem like shhe wanted to mooch and could be inviting you to invite ehr to move in with you, nut up and take a chance nigger. And you better make a post every day at 12pm eastern time if shit works out thanking me until i notice it.

you got a lil dick or something?

No the therapist but that sounds like Borderline Personality Disorder. Do you find yourself overreacting compared to people around you? Do you ever disassociate or engage in self destructive behavior when you are under significant duress? Do you feel like you don't have a solid identity like you could be someone completely different with a different environment?

ey, you aint no bitch nigger beta. You an alpha fucktard, you dont pay for pussy. Pick any girl who has ever shown you interest and shoot ehm a text right now. And flirt with them. Unless you got a lil dick you're fine fam

Seriously, all you gotta do is take the first step and there's no going back

Do they help with motivation?

It doesn't matter what good things happen to me, I'm always at the same depression. I don't have a good reason to be depressed yet it is my natural, default state. Medication and therapy in the past has put me in a better place in terms of opportunity, but the low mood persists. Will I ever be happy, or should I accept that this is who I am?

Kinda, pop one and have a goal in mind,

Hmmm....This doesn’t sound like you can do much about it without either abandoning them or killing all of them. Have you thought about how that would feel? Just go in there with a hammer and a knife and make some gravy?

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I struggle w/ convincing myself to go to a therapist because I'm convinced their definition of progress is dependent more on my life's productivity rather than my happiness. I've been diagnosed with ADHD, anxiety, depression, and sleep-to-wake seizures, but while I'm at my happiest perusing intense art, experimental philosophy, and such while taking LSD, Shrooms, Marijuana, and of course caffeine, I feel most therapists would prefer if I worked more and indulged less even if I enjoyed life less as a result. Any comments on that?

Like all the advices ive been getting boil down to man up and just do it, i appreciate that peaople want to help but this is useless to me, ive been banging my head against the world for years now.

>Overreacting
Yep, even a harmful joke that may be a little passive agressive can trigger it. And once that happens it's veeery fucking hard to control myself
>Self destructice behaviour
I eat more shit, i buy more shit and I spent more money on shit. But I don't cut myself or anything like that. The worst physical change I've gone through during these "episodes" was me shaving my head. Thank god I don't look too ugly without hair. I had the strong desire to change myself at that time so I just went full calliou
>Solid identity
Yep, it highly depends on the Environment. I don't even know if I'm just acting differently based on the people around me or if it's a personality issue

maybe peek and some porn beforehand just to get yourself sexually stimulated but honestly you have to look at yourself and realize that that hooker is going to help you, you are paying them. She will be very understanding and go exactly at your pace if shes not a 1/10 hooker, that's what youre paying her for. She doesnt care if you bust early, she doesnt care if your dick is small/hairy/ugly/whatever the fuck you think is wrong with your dick, she doesnt care that youve never had sex before and arent good because youre paying her. Try to learn a little from her and build those foundational skills that of sexual intimacy that you can translate into real world girls

Fairly average, but that's basically not enough to me. I feel entitled to perfection with all things regarding my ego (and therfore definitely sexual performance) and am afraid (and certain) that my performance/her level of arousal/satisfaction would not meet the standarts I have. Her not being pleased enough would hurt my ego indescribably, making me feel worth less than her/being under her in "the hierachy". That would spark the urge in me to "correct" that "hierachy" I have in my head, which is only possible by inflicting extreme violence upon her.

There's great medication for anxiety, called anxiolytics. SSRI's help alot too. Take it from me, I have taken those meds for years and they basically changed my life.

I already know the solutions to my problems-- they're just more unpleasant than the problems themselves. Why do people pay you to tell them what they already know?

I currently take 75mg Sertraline and 40mg Atomoxetine, both help me function but still I feel that they're just trying to make me as productive as possible and not prescribing me medication based on what actually supplements my neuro-transmitter deficiencies to create the optimal life experience, hence why despite multiple recommendations to see a therapist in addition to my current situation, I'm hesitant.

tell your shrink you want to switch up medication, tell him you grow more and more depressed/anxious. I've never seen a therapist either so I can't tell you anything about that. Can't imagine it would help me at all.

Yeah maybe I should, I always default to "yea I'm just fine" mode when I meet any professional.

How do you really feel about most of your patients?

The term "Borderline" is some Freudian bullshit. I think the root cause of this class of symptoms is emotional instability whether that is due to poor emotional regulation or hypersensitivity. Basically if anger comes in at a 4 for normal people it comes in at 8 for me. I had issues with bulimia for years where I would a huge meal, Then feel guilty and run 5 miles and puke up the meal I just ate. In high school I was considered kind of an awkward nerd so in my joke of a blow off health class the teacher asked a popular girl to dance with me. I danced for like 10 seconds and started bawling uncontrollably while trying to explain to my teacher that I didn't know what was happening. When I got home I hid under the house for like 3 hours. It feels like a very effeminate affliction but the anger comes in really strong as well.