> be me, 25yo Portuguese male > 4am > lonely.wav > used to have friends to talk to whenever I felt sad or suicidal > alienated then through the years due to depression and not being able to maintain relationships > bottle up emotions like a champ and haven't cried in 6 years > promised myself I wouldn't kms while I had people who loved me alive > parents and sister still alive and love me
Anons, give me a simple kind word please, I feel depression creeping up again.
It's gonna be okay, my nigga. I know that don't sound like much, but for real... don't do no shit you can't come back from.
Chase Rogers
Thanks for that. Simple things help. I'm not gonna kms, I promised that to myself. Just wish I was able to blow some steam off and cry. Crazy how I don't allow myself to do that cuz dog knows I wanna cry rn.
Luis Baker
Go seek some help, talk to your mom or sis dude. Join a gym anything to make yourself feel better
Jeremiah Wood
Can't talk to them. They have no idea how to help and feel stressed that they can't. Gym part is a good idea, was thinking about joining the gym again. Haven't set foot in one in about a year. I'm fairly obese. Lost 22,5kg last year but I think I gained like half of it already. Thanks. Every word helps, really
Andrew Collins
You're just pent up. Do something to blow off some steam. Go to the bar and have a couple shots. You're gonna be fine, mang
i know you'll be able to make it through, user! even when you feel defeated and you've given your all, it'll all be worth it. there will always be something great waiting for you. i believe in you!
Henry Roberts
I occasionally go out with people to drink a couple of beers while watching football (soccer). I kinda have to force myself to do so cuz I just wanna stay home but I do it. Although a couple of those people still make themselves available for me to talk to them, I just can't, I legit don't allow myself to do so. I got a lot of shit bottled up, that's true. I think the gym idea was great. I already know in not gonna sleep tonight so I'm gonna take that opportunity to go to the gym early tomorrow and sign back up. Still have to deal with all the emotional part of it but at least some of my energy will be used to make myself look better instead of just making me feel even more frustrated about the fact that I look like crap and don't do shit about it.
Jackson Flores
Every day I find that to be harder than the previous one but you're right, I have to at least believe it. Fake it till you make it ig. Thanks for the words user!
Alexander Ward
If you keep telling yourself that you're a worthless faggot, you're going to act like one, and then you'll wake up one day and realize that you've become one. It probably would have been nice for you a year ago to look at yourself in a mirror and tell yourself that you WILL overcome this, talk to people, and/or generally try to improve yourself, and make it a mission to do so, but it's not a year ago. It's now. It's not too late to do it now, so why not do it now? Know the power of the word "will" and "now." You WILL do it. Not later. Not in a week when you think it'd be nice. NOW. You have the potential to be the best person you can. I know you can do it. Godspeed, you Portuguese shithead.
Xavier Taylor
You could also get a pet, just something to keep you company this coming from a guy who had no real friends for awhile for the first 15 years of his life except a turtle
Jack Gonzalez
Dude, your strength is admirable. Please use that to help make this world a better place. If you kill yourself you'll end up making things worse in the end.
Take care of yourself. Whoever your are, I love you, brother. It doesn't matter if you think you're undeserving of love or that you're worthless and/or a bad person.
No homo
Nolan Wright
Pathetic fuck
Kevin Lee
This is what I need in my life. A little voice that tells me this constantly. I have indeed become "a worthless faggot" for thinking that I was one every day. And yes, you're right, I can't keep postponing the changes I need to make in my life. I'll start going to the gym tomorrow, no more fucking excuses. I'm gonna be powered by the sheer hate of myself and how I look.
P.S.: legit giggled at the "Portuguese shit head" part. Thanks for the words, this really is helping and I'm glad I did this
Henry Johnson
Lost my dog 2 years ago. She grew up with me, loved her like a sister basically. Still too soon for me.. But thanks for the idea!
Carson Lopez
Well, give the gym a good try and if you're still feeling crappy, talk to the doctor about getting medicated
Adam Murphy
Thanks for the kind words, they're hitting the soft spot. No homo
Angel Rodriguez
Wouldn't be a Yea Forums thread with this so thank you for participating user, your doing the good work!
Eli Ortiz
Really hope it doesn't come to that. Last time I was medicated I acted like a legit zombie. Felt nothing, would take 5 seconds to answer something as simple as a "wassup", felt weird overall. Gym like a solid bet. Thanks!
