How often do you think of killing yourself...

How often do you think of killing yourself? I think about it about once everyday but I wouldn't consider myself suicidal. I have plenty of reasons if anyone wants to hear them.

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Pretty often, although my life is not so bad. Go on, get you reasons off your chest.

I have no social skills. You can thank my Elementary school for that. When I was in grade 2 the principal decided isolating me from all other students was the best idea for me. Essentially I was given a permanent in-school suspension until that principal was replaced. It lasted 2 years. The reason I was isolated was because I have aspergers and I had behavioral issues. Shall I go on?

When I was put back in class with the normal kids I didn't have the social skills to keep up, meaning I got teased often. I had also developed a crush on this one girl, and it turned into an obsession. It became an obsession because she never actually talked to me, just acted shy behind her friends whenever I had made attempts to talk to her. One of her friends lied to me and told me she liked me back which turned into more hiding behind her friends. It took until around grade 6 for her to tell me she didn't like me. She also got her first boyfriend so that had something to do with it. Basically everyone knew I liked her and teased me for it, saying horrible things about her to piss me off.

what age are you?

Her boyfriend spread a rumor that I creepshotted her ass. Everyone called me a pervert and a creep after that. When those things were said to piss me off, I would get called a spaz for reacting.

Now I'm 19

Okay, so you suffering from a combination of overlapping issues; aspergers, lack of social skills, embarrassments leading to shame, bullying.

You're also very young. If you can afford it (or parents can afford it) I suggest you go to a therapist and tell them everything you've said here and more.

I got the fuck out of that school in grade 8, and went into highschool. I didn't talk to anybody except a senior girl who was only there for a year, and then it was back to not talking to anybody. I'm going for my third year of grade 12 next year. I don't give a shit anymore. I'm not planning on doing anything with my life so why do grades matter?

Did that. Therapists can't do anything besides give people validation and prescribe drugs.

Seventeen to fifty three times a day on even days if the month and forty three to ninety two on the odd ones. Why?

I had a girlfriend once in grade nine. She was bipolar so it lasted only two months.

usually after i wake up

Used to be every day for 10 years until I found Christianity and converted. Now, no joke, my life has completely sorted itself out. No more drugs or porn either
Feels good man. Consider converting

Depends how rough things are. I've had a few bouts where it was daily. Last fall was hard and I work at heights and a few times I seriously thought about just jumping off the work Deck. Good now, though.

Just curious ¯\_( °.°)_/¯

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what is a clean living christian doing on Yea Forums of all places

>said the suicidal crybaby
Lmao
John 3:16

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honestly, you'd have been better off killing yourself
you'll work this out eventually

Kys

I mean, I grew up on here. Been on here every day since like 2006. I don't usually go on Yea Forums but I'm banned from all my main boards: pol, k, g, fit, and v

First thing in the morning when I wake up.
Several times an hour throughout the day whenever there's a lull in my work or I'm not distracting myself with video games.
Fall asleep thinking about it.

Nah, but have fun living your miserable lives devoid of reason and purpose.

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Goddamn summer gags are here

OP here. I think about offing myself everytime I think back to these terrible memories of the cringey shit I did in elementary school.

Gosh darn, you heathan!

This whole thread is a testament of how living a life without the love of (any) God is a road to suicide. Atheism is completely unsustainable in the long-term. If you aren't worshipped God, you'll end up worshipping something else, like materialism, drugs, death, porn, etc.

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Like once or twice every day and a half

I am Christian and the main reason why I don't kill myself is because of my beliefs

Why don't you go to heaven, jack ass! Nobody wants you here, blabbing the same shite we've heard before.

and sometimes you think to yourself, "Man, there was a time in my life that I never thought about suicide at all." Seems like forever ago

Yeah, when I was 10.

Why are you so upset? Seriously. You're in a thread about suicidal people and are taking aim at one of the only people promoting positivity and life. That's pretty messed up. Why are you even here? Why don't you kill yourself (not advocating that you do, just asking seriously)?

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You're just advertising your echo chamber.

You didn't answer my question
Also it's not an echo chamber, I read the Bible alone, did all my own research, etc. without any guidance from anyone. Then I joined a small Presbyterian community (I haven't gone to the mass yet but go to Bible study and events, and volunteer with them). Went from being a pathetic porn-addicted shut-in to pillar of my community
Please sort your life out. Take care of yourself. Build your community. God loves you. I love you. Don't kill yourself. I'll pray for you, even if it's technically a waste of time for a made up diety. At least it'll make me feel better

Now I'm not sure what I'm gonna do next. I want to try putting myself out there more, but I'm afraid I'm going to fuck it up again. There were a couple girls I thought I had become friends with, but that wasn't going to get me anywhere so I'm just stuck in life. I want to go on but I have no idea what to do.

Christcuck user here. How much volunteering do you do? Are you part of any social/networking clubs like Kiwanis/Rotary? Those are really the best places to start. Ignore all those emcel instathots and date someone wholesome that completes you, like Deb from Napoleon Dynamite. You may think they don't exist but they really do. They just don't go to degenerate parties or use tindr.

Everyone has their thing that helps them. Just don't be surprised if not everyone likes it or accepts it. Also:
>I love you
Gay

>t. Fedora tipper
You say that now, but when you're on your deathbed you'll be praying. If you truly think there's no meaning to life, you would have killed yourself a long time ago. You're either a psuedosuicidal pussy, an NPC who can't comprehend his own mortality, a hedonistic nihilist who will OD eventually, or spend your whole life propped up by vices like furry porn waiting for your next fix. I'm not even projecting, because you couldn't even answer my questions without deflecting to another topic. You definitely fall into one of those categories

I haven't tried any social clubs. I've never heard of kiwanis or rotary.

I'd very much suggest it. Are you an American? They're especially important if you're a working professional. I'm a CPA but you can literally do anything. One of our guys is a yoga teacher. Another is just in college. It's a great way to branch out. In less than one year I went from having literally zero friends (I cut my old friends out because they were all druggies who were dragging me down) to dozens. My new friends are all wholesome. They don't even smoke, which I thought was impossible in my libshit state. A few years ago I was a complete heroin addict with nothing to live for and now I'm a public figure who every in town knows. I was asked to run for mayor by the Republican party, but declined because it's just not my thing.
My advice, live for your community, not for yourself or your country.

>NPC
Says the guy using all the buzzwords. Not ceasing to say the same shit people have said before. Face it buddy, you're not going to change my mind no matter how angry you get.

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Oh and also get off social media RIGHT NOW. RIGHT FUCKING NOW. It's CANCER and the people that obsess over it are vapid and not even worth talking to. It attracts those kinds of people like moths to a lamp
Also work out and eat well. Learn to forgive everyone, especially yourself

>still deflecting
Lol why are you even here?

I'm Canadian. Yeah I'm sure no one would want a mayor that associates with the infamous hacker Yea Forums.

Yeah I was smart enough to figure that out on my own lol. Instagram is cancer and facebook is worse.

Why are you here? You're wasting your time.

Oh yeah, you definitely have Rotary and Kiwanis in your town then. You just gotta gut gud at small talk and talking to older people
And yeah, I should have ran for the Meme Party. My stances on political issues would be written by Yea Forums one word at a time

>My stances on political issues would be written by Yea Forums one word at a time
Make a thread and link us to it NOW

>STILL deflecting
Aaaand filtered

Yeah, good shit. That's the first step to unfucking yourself. Step 2 is building up your public reputation and building up your community. Volunteering may seem like virtue-signaling masturbation if you've never done it before but it's such a great way to meet great people
Also, I'd suggest reading Meditations by Marcus Auralius (sp.). It got me to start unfucking myself. It's short but a bitch to read because the translations are shit

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>a bitch to read because the translations are shit
Just like the bible