Whats up fags, im drunk and depressed tonight. Tomorrow i gotta work again, give me your feeliewheelie stories...

I know what u mean user, its fucked. You cant do anything to make yourself feel better.
Nice, short term goals r the best. Getting ur dick sucked is even bettet

i worked my entire life dedicating myself to sound analysis, classical music, harmonic theory etc

JUST as i get out of college am ready to start my career, some ex criminal pedo drugdealing old man mobes into the house next to mine, loudest person ever, ridiculous loud cough all the time from smoking hella drugs, loud because deaf from bartending 40 years in night club, inherited house with dead mothers money, and he HEAVES HIS STERO ON while riding around and around the block. Repeat every fucking day.

First week I niceley asled him to lower volume because hes new. He refused so I reported to HOA. He refused them so I recorded and contacted police. He then retaliates even louder.

Two months in i have permanent hearing damage callex Tinnitus and hyperacusis. Google it. Hearing any sound is physically painful now.

Beg police to enforce fucking ordinance. They tell me to go to court. Lawyers tell me to get doctors. Both still cant prove gradual hearing damage.

He hangs up racist flags, harasses and yells at me when I go out, points cameras in my bedroom and bathroom windows with floodlight.

Police say "welp hes not breaking any laws"

The neoghborhood hates him too.

I cannot work, am disabled now. All i hear is ÷eeeeeeeeeeeeee for the rest of my life, i cant ride in a car, amd i cant ride a bike cause too loud. I cant even tolerate running faucet water. and nobody gives a shit.

Murder has crossed my mind more than once, but not even all the money in the world can restore my hearing.

Russiabro, doesnt matter if you're dumb as fuck, you'll find something you're good at. Maybe you're the best at helicoptering your dick, you'll never know until u try. Have some tiddies

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Can you move in with family or friends for a few months whilst proceedings happen? Will help you get your sanity back.

I don't think so. My doctor says that there 7-9 years left until I die. Probably by heart attack. But ty for good words.

Ive been on the other side, my mom was a drunk and as long as i can remember she never gave a fuck about the neighbours. Now she's homeless, and she apparently fucks niggers. Long story short, people like that will never become happy. Im sorry about your tinnitus user, i had a gunshot right by my ear and the sound lasten 5 months, so i know the feel. I hope you'll get better

I woke up earlier being in pain from my stomach acting up. Took a shit and it felt like acid coming out.
I should probably stop smoking and start moving.

Yeah same here bud, exact same tbh. Tomorrow let’s change this and start breaking these bad habits. Let’s quit escaping and begin the arduous task of making our lives all they can be. Once the hangover is gone that is.

Хeй, Pyaнoн, я живy в нидepлaндaх, нo y мeня ecть пoдoбнoe cocтoяниe жизни. Я нeмнoгo гoвopю pyccкий язык, нo хoчy изyчaть пyщe. Tы мoжeшь гoвopить co мнoй, ecли ты чyвcтвyeшь ceбя oдинaкий.

Man that's rough. You must hate the world, but russiabro, try to use the time you have left to make other peoples lives better. All i've learnt from all the bullshit i've been through is that you can punch people, or you hate em, but it has no use. Try to make some peoples lives a lil bit better, maybe u fix their bike, or give em a drink when they need it, but i think you'll at least feel a little bit fullfilled when u do shit like that. I hope you'll be a positive influence in the world.

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Yeah, I'll keep trying. We're all a bunch of faggots shitposting but we can fix ourselves.

It sucks that threads like this get buried under all the trap shit, we should have some good conversations

Пpивeт, aнoн. Былo бы здopoвo пooбщaтьcя. Paccкaжи чтo-нибyдь o ceбe.

I don't hate this world now. Maybe just because I'm already dead inside. I got what you say. I'm already take care about lives above me by 1 floor. I help him to fix his computer and other tech. And by his side he brings me some food from Finland from time to time (there 10 kilometers between my town and Imatra).
So yeap. I'm trying to be positive. Thx for ur feedback. I'm feeling better now.

>Take care about
Oldman

Fix

ive moved with cousins...uncles...and now father...states away. coming from an arab family, they are all loud. like living WITH the neighbor... luckily and unlucky for my my father got mad at me for asking for quiet and left the house completely. He yelled at me and thinks im faking. Hell i dont blame him. i didnt believe it myself when sounds first started hurting me. i was like wtf? why cant i shower? why does cooking hurt?

Im living alone with no job, tapping into my saved up college scholarships. all i have is water, a phone with 6gb a month. electric (kind of) a gas stove (no oven) and a barely working fridge (no freezer). I walk to the grocerystore and library and laundromat.

its been about a year and the disability gets incrementally worse each day. thats just the nature of the choclea, like a tooth it doesnt heal. I know it wont go away. Ive learned its ins and outs but still dont know how to move foreward.

i am getting in shape though because salt sugar and alcohol increase the ringing and low impact lifting is quiet enough and distracting enough to pass time. idk how the hell beethoven worked through this but he inspires me as well.

Thanks russiabro, i feel better because you feel better. You don't have to save the world, but try to do good things and you'll feel better. You take care of someones computer, and he helps you 2 with food. I can't tell u how to live your life, but you're doing good friend. Someone needs you, you're not worthless at least

dude AVOID muslims and abrahamcuck and just do healthy stuff
fuck family and culture. I admit I'm euroburger but just hear me out.

Hey OP. My dad was uneventful, just as the past 5 days. I've been feeling really lethargic and I haven't been to the gym, let alone leave the house.

I'm not sure what's up with me, I've been eating healthy for the past 5 days; no junk food or soda and eating 3 meals a day.. kinda strange as I'm a 21 year old Male.. how are you?

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>kinda strange as I'm a 21 year old Male

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Is that hard to believe?

jfc. He got away without so much as a ticket? I would go the fuck back there and murder EVERYONE. The neighbor, the HOA, the police, the lawyers, and the shitty doctors. Use your scholarship money to pay your bail and enjoy a hearty fucking revenge knowing that you've eliminated literal lazy peices of shit that are TAKING A DISABLED PERSONS MONEY AND LIVELEYHOOD. Sounds like NONE of those pricks did their jobs. Murder them, user, you'd be doing the world a favor. Who knows, maybe your neighborhood will thank you and bail you out if they knew you got rid of their problem...

yes

That's good arabbro, inspiration is a big part of growing. Beethoven was deaf as fuck but he overcame his disability and so can you, your tinnitus sucks, but you can achieve shit.

Mнe двaдцaть лeт. Я нeнaвижy cвoю paбoтy. Я oтвepжeн из cвoeй poдины. У мeня нeт дpyзeй гдe я живy, и нeт дeвyшки. Кaждaя дeвyшкa, c кoтopoй я вcтpeчycь, нe интepecyeтcя мeня. Я никaк нe ycпeвaл в жизни. Moя квapтиpa oчeнь мaлeнкaя.

Is this still going?
I'll say mine anyway.
I have a friend, i know unbelievable. We talk a lot and have been their for eachother for a long time. I've felt like shit and have been overall empty inside a while now but recently they confessed that they now feel the same way. I felt horrible hearing how they felt and was unable to help. I could only say that i would lend an ear whenever they felt like shit too. Now i feel worse than ever but have to try and help them. I was honestly fine feeling empty and numb for the rest of my life, i just don't want the same to happen to them. I'm not really looking for help, just to vent. Sorry it had to be on your post

How come?

nobody needs to learn cyrillic please speak in petrodollar language

dude has real problems

What problems do you think I posses?

ones that you should make your own thread bout! see if it gets this many replies

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I'm so retarded i can't even spell correctly

I've skipped the gym sometimes too. You have days that you just feel like shit. For me, it works when i dont get angry with myself. You have to forgive yourself for stuff like that sometimes, or you'll get stuck in a circle of fuck-uppery. Just think okay, shit happens, but now ill go to the gym again. Nobody changes in 1 day user, dont beat yourself up about it, learn from your mistakes and apply them. Slowly but surely you'll improve

ew!

fuck yeah its still going. We are all empty on the inside. I think memetic culture has something to do woth it. Its ok though, somewhat reversible. Unlike tinnitus...

What do you and your friend do together? Other than vent. Is there a stimulating activity that yall can do together? (not gay sex or vidya...more like basketball or art)

I'm not a faggot, why would I bump a quality cuck thread or BBC thread off the catalog so I can get 3 responses telling me to GTFO?

You cock sucking passive aggressive nigger

A кeм ты paбoтaeшь? Пoчeмy нe пытaeшьcя пoмeнять paбoтy?

Hy, y мeня c дeвyшкaми тo жe caмoe. B cвoи 28 лeт, я дeвcтвeнник. Moй eдинcтвeнный дpyг yмep пapy мecяцeв нaзaд oт нapкoтикoв.

Maлeнькaя квapтиpa этo плoхo. B дeтcтвe я oдиннaдцaть лeт жил в квapтиpe (3 кoмнaты, 1 вaннa, 1 тyaлeт). B этoй квapтиpe жилo eщe 10 чeлoвeк. Co мнoй 11. Mнe пoвeзлo, чтo ceйчac я живy oдин.

play old game like space empires, star control crusader kings etc

i finished education recently (UK fag here) and i wasted my whole time in the new school i moved to at 16. i made zero friends because i kept hoping people would talk to me first cos i'm just this quiet kid and i hated every day of it. i had never ever skipped class before entering that school and i was one of the brightest kids in my old one. i skipped so much over the last few years i'm genuinely ashamed. my exams are fucked and i don't wanna face the shame of opening my results to my parents. i don't know what to do. imma try have the best summer i can i guess since i can buy alcohol over here now and have a job which i get decently paid from.

had the idea of ending it before my results day so i don't have to face it but my family love me so fucking much yet i can't tell them any of this shit. i probably wont.

anyway, who's got some good songs to feel nothing to?? that usually helps

>passive aggressive
no I was directly aggressive u just gay

You're not alone

Nope, we just hang out sometimes or watch shows with some other people. Thanks for replying though .

eh sorry if this racist or whatever you guys call it now these days
youtube.com/watch?v=_FrOQC-zEog

Hey user, i feel you. I've had the same feeling, like i'm dead inside. But user, just the fact that you feel like shit cuz your friend feels like shit shows that you're actually not dead inside. Shit sucks sometimes, you and your fren can help eachother through this fucked up feeling. It's ok to feel like that, you and your friend arent weirdos, a lot of people feel like that. I hope u guys will help eachother through

Thanks dude.
/b is really chill when take away some of the nigger dicks and porn. But i guess it wouldn't be /b without that shit either. Anyway thanks for the help, i feel a bit better already.

How is this racist? But user ive got the anthem for this thread.

youtu.be/eCFqLPwEDU4

Hey no problem man, just by making you feel better i already feel a bit better myself. Still gonna get drunk, but we should all try 2 help eachother feel a lil better sometimes

Hey its arabtinnitusmusician bro here. Check out some Debussy.
Edgar Varese is weird.
Atonal shit is fun.
I liked Carmina Burana in choir.
Lully and Rameau were great early composers.

But really I think Debussy is what youd like.

Oh shit i forgot to mention jazz.

Bill Evans - New Jazz conceptions.

Anything by Ella Fitzgerald...particularly Misty, My favorite things, and Easy living.

Whats up UKbro? You shouldnt pay so much attention to your parents. You've got one life and it's yours. So what you fucked up? You can always recover. Don't commit an hero over something like that, you can do it. You dont have a chromosome too many so you're not retarded, and you can do whatever you put your mind to as long as you really want to. You'll be fine UKbro, we got like 50/60 years left and there's a lot if shit you can still do in that time

Have some titties again bois, cheers me up instantly at least

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thank you for the kind words i genuinely appreciate it. you're definitely right i'll take that into consideration from now on :)
i think i needed that after keeping it in for so long. i know its to a fucking thread on Yea Forums but it means a lot regardless

Feel nothing at the moment to be honest. Haven't drank in a couple months, work is going well and aside from today I have been doing decent with the gym and my fitness goals. I still don't want to live, but am too scared to kill myself, but the above definitely helps with the above even though its no permanent fix.

Can't complain eh.