All these years I tried to put it away, the pressure of knowing deep down that I won't be able to handle my loneliness...

All these years I tried to put it away, the pressure of knowing deep down that I won't be able to handle my loneliness. The effects of this have crushed my health and created a permanent state of terror. It has gone as far as altering my vision and hearing. I can't go on, my life and hopes gone, just a husk of what I used to be. Can't masturbate anymore, can't laugh, smile, be sad. I feel this is the night to end it. I'm sorry anons, hope it looks like an accident to my parents, they were the best.

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Soyboy

don't do it aaaanon

Don't do it you fucking faggot, think about your folks

I hope you change your mind and get some decent therapy and meds. Things can get better.

NOONON DON'T DO IT NOON AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

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Hello user. Post Yellow

Do it on stream.

do a flip

Bro, dont do it man. Talk to your folks. Talk to a therapist. You wanna try talking to some girls, then do it.

If you really want to go out, take out a shitload of credit cards, go on a trip round the world, fuck bitches, spread std's and once your ready after your years long trip, drop the debt onto some faggot in your life that you dislike.

Atleast have some fun before you go out man.

dont mind the edgy people in this thread, dont do it

Yes
Please don't give up

Live stream it

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Stream it

Get a job, make money, buy and take care of a pet, or a plant even.
Get a recipe book, make some different foods.
Fucking get a grip and do something... Read a book idfk.
If you're not gonna put in the effort to get better, then fuck off.

I know but I just cant anymore. they already hid the shotgun long ago because they know. I can't keep telling i'm getting better this is a living nightmare, my best years feel decades ago. I wish I was an edgy teen or some shit, but I'm nearing my 30s and this is fucked up. I'm broken everywherw I don't deserve to live

Then don't tell them you're getting better. Be frank, open up. Don't be a lying pussy. If you can't do it with your folks, do it with somebody else, anybody willing to listen... They exist.

>I don't deserve to live
This is exactly what i think about myself.
Shit won't get better. Ever.
I hope I can also find a point where I'm not scared anymore and can just do it.
Good luck.

Livestream?

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imagine killing yourself on a saturday

bruh you posted the thumbnail

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a neighbor noticed and had to turn off the car I don't know what to do. my heart is racing and I'm dizzy I think I'm about to pass out

>pass out
>go to the hospital
>get forced to take actual treatment
>Quit being a pussy
>??
>profit

Damn, I think I'm retarded

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No shit you frogposting newfag

99.99% chance this is fake and gay. 0.01% chance your last cry for attention will get washed away by yellow threads.

If you were serious about doing it, you wouldn't be whining like an autistic little bitch about it for attention on Yea Forums. If you were sincere, you'd quietly obtain the means you intend to use, find a quiet spot away in the woods and kill yourself. Considering how much a weak sniveling needy cunt you are, your family would proably be thankful to be rid of you anyway.

Being Lonely and Feeling Lonely are two completely different things. The first is an indication of high intelligence in my point of view, the second is a disease. The bad thoughts always come and go, especially when you are under heavy pressure. But if you let it go and wait a bit you will see that these kind of thoughts are only temporal and actually pointless. This is not the solution. What you are experiencing is the burden that will make your future happiness even greater. Talk with your parents, they will always be your best friends, they care for you. For me, I was moving to another city every 2 fucking years since I was born. I never made any real friends. Every fucking 2 years I had to restart my life. And this kept happening till the age of 16. My communicative skills were quite alright and all this made me quite adaptable but I really don't have any real friends apart from my family up to this day. You should not keep what you feel inside to you talk with someone who will listen. You mentioned your parents. Get in their shoes. How do you think they will feel? Your are their hope, and the happy thought in every fucking sacrifice they did, in their every day struggle to raise you in the best way the could. It is true that parents are the God in they eyes of their kids, but it is also true that the kids are the paradise in their parents eyes. Do not take this away from them. Speak, try to express yourself. But giving away is never an option my friend. Because you are important. You just haven't realized it yet.

you are right, as soon as the neighbors calm down I will try again

I understand you, but I don't even know if I will be able to hold on until my parents are gone. I'm going crazy too early, don't see myself getting any better.

Just go park in the woods somewhere stupid faggot and stream it

I don't have enough data to stream, will just record it on video and it will be leaked eventually.

What makes you think you will not find happiness or a purpose to continue? How old are you?

don't sweat it dude, its Yea Forums we're all retarded

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I know I won't because I don't want to, I despise everything about me since before highschool. I will be 28 in a few days, and I only remember so because I saw yesterday my ID. There's no point in continuing to exist, I will not change things and nobody should move an inch for me, nobody. I must stop hurting everyone, and dying is the only way I can include myself in that list.

Can you tell me 8 things you despise about yourself?

its sunday

can't think of 8, just my voice, entire reflection on any mirror or video, lack of personality and of interest.

fake and gay, nice larp faggot

Dude, who the fuck cares about your voice? Don't be a fucking pussy and hit the gym if you don't like ur looks. Eat some better foods instead of fucking cheesy puffs. If you feel better you will attract better people and that is a fact. But you have to it. By killing yourself your problems will not stop. hell it will even create more problems. My best friend killed himself a year ago, and that shit fucked up my brain. And his family even worse.

Its never too late

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There are so much wicked and cruel fags around this world who should actually be dead. You are not one of those. You are a young man with a terrible image of self. You still have so much time. How can you be so sure that you are doomed to live a pathetic and painful life ? What happened to you, user ? Why no one should do anything for you ? Why don't you deserve to be loved someday ?

He spent 25 years on the internet and never went outside.

if I was another kind of person, I would have killed with my own hands those who shaped my mind by bullying. But I don't have what it takes, I'm pathetic and deserved every bit of humiliation. It is high time to end the cycle, I'm too old to keep on this loop. Just a moronic kid in a decrepit adult body. When I finish my last cigarette I will be gone, I'm sorry you couldn't help anymore.

for the edgelords, no stream for you, don't have the means. if you are really interested you will read about my car crash in some Spanish news site soon enough.

Goodbye anons

so fucking what? the guy is 25, he's young, do you even know how long a year is? how much you can change shit for the better?

Buy an agenda and write down THE plan to get back on your feet: nail down the vision, the goal, and do it one day at a time while following the stuff you set out the day prior by writing it in the agenda.

If he sticks to the plan then by 27 he'll be fucking shredded with an above average paying job while still bettering himself one day at a time. Slow and steady wins the race. And loneliness can suck my 2 inch dick

what kind of vision problems? i have bad light sensitivity and flashes in my vision, i also have tinnitus, and my limbs go numb very easily, at the slightest bit of pressure. the doctors don't know what it is. do you experience any of this?

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sames, lightening in my eyes.. not as bad now but i used to produce blue dots when i blinked near bright lights

Ophthalmologist saw nothing of it, got laser surgey too

If you have what it takes to end your own existence, you might have what it takes to crush the cunts that made you suffer. If you are so willing to die, why don't pay them a visit first ? The end result will be the same for you, and in the bigger picture, for them too anyway. Otherwise, if tonight is really your last, I'm sorry I didn't manage to help you more. I'm quite sure you are making a mistake.

I don't know what you will find on the other side, but I wish you peace, and serenity. But there is still time to change this decision of yours. You are not doomed. No one hates you beside yourself.

b

Subtle.

two shotgun blasts to the scrotum, "accident"

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