People don't take time to know themselves anymore

see? another geman smartass. instead of being grateful for a compliment he belittles you.

I’m an introverted loner who has been dealt a really bad hand in life but on the plus side(along with my curiosity), it led me to understand deeply how fucked this world is
Not so the planet, nature and its course
More so the people inhabiting it and how destructive and moronic they are
I’ve been going thru some bullshit since childhood that has followed me everywhere i went in life and it won’t end anytime soon
Lately i’ve been having a huge blues episode and it just got to the point where i don’t even know wtf to do anymore and what is the point of all of this fucking bullshit
/rant

I was simply asking a question, no harm inteded

I cant say. I've never met a German in real life so I cant speak of the subject. But I do know many great minds came from their, music, science, war, literature. It's almost amazing how a country can achieve so much.

I like when I poo. And, so do you?

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Hear voices or see people? I am fascinated by what schizophrenics experience.

now he's pretending to be a good person. That's definetly a german, could even be my neighbour

I drove most of my best friends away cuz i tried to fuck their gfs on acid but im still going to fuck so its aight

Lol, ich mag du

all countries have their great minds. except for african countries. There's only this poet & thinker clichee because we never shut up about being "muh smart"

I agree but since after WWII germany has been a US puppet state. We copy your television, your news, your school system and a lot of other things. US drone strikes are coordinated from a US base in Rammstein and we can do nothing about that

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He was a good little Nazi.

>geh schwarz arbeiten
>zahl keine steuern
hör auf dein geld dem system zu geben

I dont think theres anything wrong with that but I am quite sad at how the country has appeared to carry itself since 1945. It almost seems like the country as a whole is ashamed of itself. German pride seems nonexistent in comparison to Good ol' American patriotism.

Yeah I was hearing voices and seeing people. It all evolved around that fact that I was involved with the mob for about a year. The voices told me that I was being followed and watched, that people wanted to torture or kill me because of what I know. I saw people telling me things about that time no one could've known, one night I was convinced that my house has been surrounded by bounty hunters and that they wanted me to pay my "debt" in blood or they would kill me and my little brother. So slit both my wrists down the road, 15cm in length and deep enough that I almost cut my tendons. Missed the artery by mere cm and admitted myself to a mental institution later that night, stayed there for 11 month and got sent off to assisted living

I have immense trust issues and push everyone away preemptively without realizing it. I am going to stay a social failure my whole life and i dont know how to fix it

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because there is little to be proud of, merkel? lmao

and if you got a sense of patriotism in germany and you project it to the outside you'll be called a nazi, lol

This may sound like a dumb question but here it goes anyways. I imagine its hard discerning reality from fiction but is there ever a point where thing sare so out of touch that you simply cant believe they are real. Like is there ever a point where you say it's too much to be true.

I have sex in the missionary position for the purpose of recreation.

What is your take on markel. I keep on hearing from the French that shes a lot like Macron. They say shes a centrist but how can a centrist get this much hate.

I was at that point, had hallucinations for 2 and a half years, at some point I told myself to ignore everything because that just can't be real but the hallucinations didn't stop, infact they got worse

you sick fuck, disgusting, kys

Bro shut up, literally kys, that's the most disgusting shit you could say, why would you post it here of all places.

well first of all she's been running this country for way too long, and second she's let all those refugees into our country, probably on american orders to destabilize germany and the eu. It's a known fact that she attended bilderberg meetings and no one knows whats going on in there, I don't trust her and I don't think she's a good leader

I have aspergers and I am only good at lying when I actually need something. I like to emotionally destroy compulsive liars and closet homos. This makes me a hypocrite, but as I am beating them at their own game idc

DaDan meinen Freund. Ich immer finde interessant zu lerne über Deutschland.

I think I have asperger's but am afraid to find out. My mum did testing when I was little but the shit test came out inconclusive. How do you live with it. How long have you known you had it. Has it made you a stronger person.

im with you on that one bro

mans got mad strong synathasia and GAD that makes me so dissociated that people think im constantly high

when i was 5, my mother presented me a woman who claimed to be able to recognize past lives on any person. She told my mother i was a really old soul which never ever incarnated into a womans body and that in this life i had to learn how it is to live a womans life. All this feminism rising in the recent times had me thinking about that shit, only thing i hope is that if its real, at least PLEASE let this be my last life as a mortal man im very very tired everyday and so on and on and on

I think I might be bi, hell I know I'm bi, but I lean more towards guys. I can never see myself with one however. I'm set in my ways and while I will admit the Male body in interesting, I have little interest left for woman since I spent so much time wanking to them as a young one. How would you cope with this.

Is this a black lusty?

heres another example of how people hate how I am not normal when it comes to food.
>be me
>go to all you can eat buffet
>get only chicken
>be looked at by everyone for it
>"user aren't you gonna eat anything else?"
>nope.jpg

Never invited to a buffet ever again. The only times I go is when I pay now.

Is food the only thing your not normal with. It's an easy fix if you ask me. Perhaps it's just your lack of exposure as a child. Try expanding your palate, try new foods, and rethink old ones.

I have tried new foods, it all tastes disgusting. I am just a very bland guy when it comes to food. Whenever I tell people this they get offended and say stuff like "oh you haven't tried mine" and when I tell them I don't want to offend them they insist and then I puke up the food they make for me.

also I have tried old ones as well. Sorry to have forgotten that one. My taste buds just have not changed. By the way I am 31.

Currently am a worthless piece of shit that lays around in fetal position for the entire crying. I am not sure what is wrong with me but I have these delusions in my head. And it's very difficult for me to believe what is being said to me. I am so uncomfortable in my skin that I am considering skinning myself. I have been burning myself lately. I used to he so afraid of burns. But now it feels good to me. I really need help and no one can help me.

I'm not much of a food guy myself but I have found that maybe slight variations on the food you do eat could help. Maybe different seasoning for your chicken. O dont know. You're still young, dont stop trying.

I'm sure theres a line you can contact. What I see here is a lot of self disgust. Could you think of a reason why this happened. Is it perhaps from some trauma. When did you firs tget these thoughts.

Yea those variatians are fried and not fried. If things are too over seasoned its disgusting to me. I taste all the seasons. I just hate that I don't have anything in common with most people. They tell me about the new burger king burger or wendys, and im just like "ew" and that ends that conversation. I do tell them that I am glad they like it though. Doesn't help me.

Get a gf

I was obsessed with dinosaurs as a child
I've been a complete fucking pervert since I was 6
I can draw, but I haven't participated in draw fag threads or any art whatsoever since the fanart community became 10x more amazing than I could ever be
I want to animate which is probably why I'm a pervert
but I never watch porn, I just fuck and stuff it down with brown
I am a total alcoholic
I want to stop drinking just so I can fight
I don't belong on this website, but I also don't belong anywhere else
no matter what good things happen to me I am only postponing suicide

That really sucks man, my condolences. I'm sure theres something redeeming about you. It's just you're willingness to look that will help you find it.

It doesn't actually matter because psychologist are basically whores with a fake medical degree

Lol, I'm you minus the the alcoholic parts. I would have loved to animate but I came to the conclusion at a very young age that there was no point in trying if I wasnt going to be the best. I'm still trying to get over that apathy that took ahold of me and I try my best every day to encourage my little cousin who has tooken a similar approach.

How the fuck did you get this far without drinking if you aren't 10 years younger than me. I dont care, I am just curious. who the fuck puts effort into this life without substance abuse, excluding fapping. cause thats a drug too.
I just drank a whole bottle of lemon extract because even having sex didn't dissuade me from setting this entire goddamn planet on fire

I don't know. A part of me would be so fucking relieved to be able to blame many of my problems on something else but another would have to cope knowing I was somehow defective at birth. You know, the sort of thing that makes you question life and potentially leads to you wishing death. I guess it's better for now to live not knowing and trying to improve myslef regardless.

I've felt like this my whole life. It probably has a lot to do with my parents hitting me a lot when I was growing up. Plus they lie about everything they do so they don't have to own up to their actions. I guess in a way they disappointed me my entire life. When I was failing in school and asked them for help because the teachers weren't helping me. They would just tell me Im an dumbass because I got all F's. I was told by them A LOT that I should be like other people. Hearing that everyday of your life really takes its toll on your mental health. Especially when you are young. This is the guy who burns himself. Here is the burn I did today.

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Nah I'm boring as fuck. I have looked, nothing is interesting about me. People only talk to me cause I listen. Thats all I do though is listen. I can't give any helpful advice. I use to get high on drugs to get through rough patches of life, when I tell people that they think I am a loser. Honestly right now it probably sounds like I am typing depressive feelings but I am just telling how my life is.

Well you can blame all of it on third parties, all of it on yourself, or just actually think about the shit and probably come to the conclusion that other people wanted you to fail. My family sucks but most people have normal ones

I don't know, I'm just still young I guess. I try not to dwell on my apathy too much and surround myslef with shit to do. I play piano (badly) and took guitar before that. I'm writing a story that I hope to publish one day, and when I'm not doing that, I'm playing video games. It's just how I cope.

I have a free piano from a church I didn't even try to practice with. It just holds candles and shit. Don't do what I did. Don't just drink and wallow in your own misery. People will just attack your weakness. You might have nice parents but they won't protect you from shitty people

Oh and another thing, I find all women over 25 unattractive mainly because they have kids. The ones that don't have kids are either lesbian or already have someone. As a 31 year old having this kind of mindset kind of fucks me over on so many levels.

That really sucks man. I like to think inhad it bad because my dad was absent for a small portion of my life but you fuckers had it hard. I can still trace a lot of insecurities to my lack of a father figure and can only imagine what you feel. Its definitely a self worth issue, and probably the reafirmation that got to you. I just want you to know user, that you dont have to feel this way. You dont have to feel like a loser because you arent. It's your parents bad way of raising you this way.

>The ones that don't have kids are either lesbian or already have someone
No shit what point is this supposed to make. Fuck kids. I am arguing with kids rn to stop shitting up Yea Forums

Right now i'm crushing on a 19 year old who will never date me because of my age.

My point is I am fucked. I will never have a woman in my life. My prime ended after I turned 25. I blew my chances with all the women I did have a shot with, cause I didn't want kids and they did.

Age from 18-20 means job and car. Do you have these things my son. Or do you at least dress in drag and make it work somehow. If none of the above stop mackin on highschoolers

>cause I didn't want kids and they did.
Bullet dodged

I already said i'm 31 crushing on a 19 year old, shes in college. She also doesn't have either a job or a car. Shes told me though that the only thing stopping her from dating me is my age.

I know but every fucking woman wants a fucking kid. Only ugly women don't.

I hate that people have to think like this. I was in that hole your in and am still trying to get out. They say attitude is everything and the more I see it, the more I can believe. A lot of the happiest people I know and indeed the most interesting are the ones that keep things light and fin. Not that everyone has to be fun but it doesnt hurt brighten up. Just start do9ng mental exercise severydau. Pickup a hobby. Any hobby and tell yourself you will improve. Many people that are passionate about things are so because they dedicate time into it. Not because their good at it.

Of course SHE doesn't have a job or car. Good god. Even useless old dudes are hot so are you sure she doesn't have a disability?

I'm a failure at life. Failure at love. I just want to die. But I've even failed at that... Twice!!

>I know but every fucking woman wants a fucking kid.
Idk if this means anything but I really don't want a kid. I am in a very healthy relationship but the thought of this insane monster raising a daughter to become another monster scares me. This is what he wants. He wants a bunch of fucking monster daughters.

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nope she doesn't, but she doesn't want to date anyone 5 years older then her.
I've tried hobbys, nothing interests me. Also I always keep things light and fun. The only time i'm not is when i'm on Yea Forums like right now, but that doesn't help that I have no interests. The only interests I have is settling down with a woman and making her happy, but not with a kid.

Be a hero

Thank you user. Your kind words mean more than you know. People think because you had a bad life you can go on a and be motivated to do something great. But being in the captivity of negativity. Without any kind of direction you can only fail. Its really fucked up not being able to believe another person when they are talking to you. Constantly feeling like everyone is lying to you. Even when they aren't.

>nope she doesn't, but she doesn't want to date anyone 5 years older then her.
Jesus she sounds like a goddamn nutjob. Standards are cool but she fell for dumbass memes.

you're on Yea Forums of course you don't, and that really doesn't help specially since you just said you're taken. I have already said the ones that don't are taken or look like a train wreck.

>The only interests I have is settling down with a woman and making her happy
Also what have you learned from lesbian porn thus far

Its her mother to be honest. Asian mother.

So youre the degenerate, fucking hate backstabbers, faggots

I don't watch lesbian porn.

Can I just offer input regardless of who or how I am? I am not a retard or sheltered. You gotta learn to give, get whatever, it's a learning process and I can either help you or you can tell me my opinions don't matter

I am a literal autist ADHD mess. Diagnosed in the 90s and I fought for years to prove the specialists wrong.
>With his symptoms he probably won't finish out secondary
I achieved decent grades in secondary and went on to get 3 college qualifications and 2 university degrees. I'm working on my PhD.
>It is almost certain be will have a stunted social life if any
I have a regularly social group of friends and a lovely sweetheart girlfriend who lives with me and we're trying to start a family. This is thanks to years of self improvement centered on personal study of psychology. While others empathise through instinct I need to be 'on' at all times. When I am tied my autism becomes noticeably more apparent.

With all the effort I've put in getting where I am, partner, friends, achievements, successful enough job for self sufficiency, I sometimes resent those who don't have the disadvantage I was born with, because with the same effort I could have had so much more without it.

I am thinking he doesn’t

People suck anyways, just secure yourself financially, and youll be good to go.

Keep on looking man, theres no shortness of hobbies to try. The only reason I try piano now is because I remeber wanting to learn to play one song on it. I got stuck with a giant peice of furniture in my room with nowhere to put it. Life is full of opportunities and your life is what you make for them. I decide dthat I wasnt just going to let it sit there and spent time on it. Learning wasn't exactly fun but now that I have spent time into my Kraft, I can be proud of what I have accomplished.

You can do whatever I am just stating that I know all the women that exists in this world. They either have kids already, don't want kids and are taken, or lesbian.

then watch the sopranos
when it gets out that the rest of the wogs think ure gay because you ate pussy for 4 hours just hit your gf in the face with a pie and make her want to kill herself
[spoiler]jesus that was horrible to watch

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I have looked, I have tried so much shit in my life. Nothing is of interests, I honestly would just love to be a stay at home husband, giving my wife back massages and listening to her problems when she comes home, but then of course the problem lies where in she'll probably want to have kids.

That's really inspiring user, perhaps you could give one of your fellow peeds a point in the right direction

>[spoiler]
why did I assume
why the fuck did I assume Yea Forums had spoilers
someone explain to me why I thought this place of all places would allow spoilers

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Chillin knowing that I'm going at my own pace and I'm gonna get their anyway

I wouldn't eat pussy for 4 hours, hell maybe we'd have sex once a month. I honestly just want a wife that will go to bed with me and stick with me through thick and thin. Sex is just a bonus.

holy fucking shit children cost money
you cant just throw bibles and cookware at them and expect them to learn how to speak foreign languages and learn arithmetic because they just played with tinfoil swans
you spend money on those fuckers and make sure there is no way any of their failures can be traced back to you
also just dont have any fucking kids god damn

Wow you really want this dont you? Well user, if it's your goal, I'm either you all the way. Just curious, why dont you want kids. Personally I cant imagine a life where i dint raise some of my own.

That in lays the problem. I am a guy looking for a woman who does not want kids who is not taken.

There is only one mantra:
"Don't use it as an excuse". You lament privately, not to the world. Nobody will ever treat you better because you're disadvantaged.

Don't like the little shits, I also don't want my legacy to go on. I don't understand why everyone wants future generations of themselves. When I die, thats it, no more of my bloodline.

Perhaps you could marry a dyke. You said sex would be a bonus. Make the relationship open ended and problem solved.

I'm really sorry and I hope i'm wrong but this world sucks so fucking much. I'm nothing to write home about but I made a suicide pact already not only with the guy I'm with but his brother. We keep trying but there's just no way out. Love ain't shit

I know at least 5 women personally who are not in relationships, not interested in children and not attracted to other women. You are taking your personal negative experience and assuming it can be extrapolated to the entire population. It cannot.

she'd leave me for the other because of me not having a back bone.

I always hated the CDU/CSU. Most politicians in Germany are too old to run our country with future generations

Perhaps some of you could help me out. I got a text from a guy I knew I grade school I few days ago. I had engaged him first 2 years prior but he seemed largely uninterested in talking so I dropped it. He called my this time to dump all his shot and chat about where we were in life. At one point he brought up dating. Do you think he wants to use me for sex.

what are you so afraid of?

how old are they? if they are younger then 21 then they have not had their baby makers activated yet. I also can't find any because I am not good looking enough to find a date through tinder or any online dating website.

>Do you think he wants to use me for sex
well, yes

Yay, another German

Eh i've tried my fareshare of suicide, the failure just made me stop trying.

i'm afraid of getting my heart broken again.

Failed suicides are always a thing to avoid

Meyer am Apparat

Why, I kind of found it odd to bring it up. He said he just felt like asking a weird question but I had the thought at the back of my head. Our whole talk was literally just catching up but he had to drop this bombshell on me.

I do have a way out, but I feel bad for the people who would have to clean up my mess, and so it stops me from doing it.

I personally don't think that much about myself only problem I have is that so many of my friends are going to the gym or have a home gym and they are getting pretty strong, not ripped to attract girls but just to be strong, and I want to train to buy I can't find the self motivation to do it.
I don't have much money to buy the equipment I need and if I would go to the gym I have the feeling everyone would laugh about me because I would use like only 30kgs because I'm that weak, and if I use more everyone would laugh because I can't push so much weight
TL;DR I am a pussy because I'm scared of the dudes in a gym

idk I just get freaked out when people pop out of the blue for some selfish seeming reason. I wouldn't judge them, I'd just be guarded
not once have I been in this situation and been like "yea I missed out"

My ex was 27 and left me because I wanted kids and she really didn't.

What also works is going outside, and not trying to get a date the lazy way. Im not trying to be a dick, but dating sites are a lazy mans way of trying to hook up.

welp I guess I just have shit luck.

I have tried that. Where I live everyone is taken, the only ones not taken are people addicted to crack/heroin.

Theres a lot of gimmicky workout DVDs out there. Do t buy into them. Just throwing your body around is enough to condition you for the gym. Pushups, pull ups, situps,planks. Those are more or less withing the reach of your own home and if done enough can do wonders for you. How do you think prisoners remain lean.

Side curls and no carbs

Its part of life. Ive gone through that shit plenty of times but you just need to pick your shit and move on. Dwelling on the past like that isnt going to make your life any better.

The girls that seem like they are single won't even bother talking to me. I ask "so how is your day?" and they ignore me. I am balding and don't look attractive at all so they just think I am a creep.

How big is the city/town you live in?

I just know that the way I am no one will stay with me.

Crack is good but it has no business keeping your relationship alive for more than like 3 months

I need something easier than push ups,
I can only lift 50kg Max and I'm 100kg the rest sounds fine but I can't do no push ips

I live in Raleigh, NC

Should I go for it. I mean, I've always been curious but I've met the guy in person before and hes a good bit bigger than me. The last thing I want is my ass pounded.

yea no the crack addicts here will use me til I am bone dry, and sucking dick for money. I am not about that life style.

I ... are you both men? What am I working with

I think I have some psychosis because I got meth instead of mdma

I would also say to those who are young, just starting out in their journey of self improvement, don't get blinkered. I spent years making my mind work right, or at least appear to. I neglected my body. Now I'm 31 and for all my successes I wish I'd been healthier. I got the friends, the girl, the qualifications and the job, but I also got gout and arthritis so now I'm finally getting to remedy my mistakes the battle is even harder.

Meth should just make you feel fucking awesome instead of gay like molly

I used to not be able to do 1 pull up. I was like you. Skrawny, weak, and self conscious about it too but I knew I was never going to accomplish anything eith that mindset so I got to work. Every other day before crossfit, I would hit the bars and try my best to do just one pull up and ultimately fail. Bit I never let my failure define me. Jsut the small victories. Ince I could press out one, I pushed harder until I could di many unbroken. Now I can confidently say I can do 10 with only trying on average 2.5 minute per day over the course of six months. If I wanted to, I could probably break thirty.

Probably. But that can be remedied by playing the odds. Increase the people you meet.

I'm not that user, but I don't want kids either. Everyone I know around my age seems to be doing that, and it's kind of alienating. Someone in a group has a kid, and it's like a fad: "Oh, I guess this is the next thing. Everyone's doing kids now, I guess we ought to have some." Suddenly they all do.

I don't want the noise or the mess. I guess I could get past those things. I have everything I can handle going on with my life as it is. I can't imagine trying to deal with the responsibility of a kid on top of all that. I don't know why everyone seems to want that.

To me a kid is a huge anchor that limits my life in every conceivable way. Of course, I seem to be doing a lot of that stuff alone, because most of my friends saw kids as the next natural step and just do that instead of hanging out.

Never had the intense drive some guys do to GET WITH A GIRL NOW above all else, and this drive to start creating dependents just puzzles me.

Ethically... I don't really want to bring children into this world. There are enough of them already that it's not necessary in any way. There's so much pain in life, and not a lot of compensatory joy. Then we all die, of course, and have to live with that knowledge in the meantime. Why would I want to add to that pain? I could maybe see having a kid when life gets less stressful - but I think most people I'm with will want one eventually, and I think that will be a huge issue.

Ethics aside, a kid is just a black hole of responsibility that will limit most of stuff I want to do in life. Others' kids are frustrating, in that they keep doing just that for people I know and like, so those people change and stop being friends (like a lot of friends when they get serious with someone, but more final).

I get why this is probably a drive for a lot of people - genetically - but I just don't understand wanting that in your life. Most other people seem to.

Great. Now imagine being from Balkan, only difference? Virgin dumbasses everywhere

Yeah, I assumed he was straight because that was what he had told me two years before but I dont know about that now. Isnt it always the case that the bigger guy naturally takes the manly approach in these types of situations.

I haven't met anyone new in 3 months. I use to meet people online in VRchat before it turned to autism. Where I live I either can stay indoors where its comfy, or become friends with drug dealers/druggies. Rich people don't want to be my friend, and there is no middle ground in Raleigh.

Very motivational

I just sneezed on my cat

I get that user, I just hope you can find a girl that matches your needs.

>Isnt it always the case that the bigger guy naturally takes the manly approach in these types of situations.
Well not in my experience and i am not a dude. I actually avoid big dudes now bc of their gay capacity. I only go after angry manlets

Lol

not kidding these dudes cant even poop without getting hard
its nuts

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Wrong. BOTDF was all male fans. Male fans equipped themselves and went in the pursuit of pussy. Pussy came. Pussy listened.

You got to start somewhere. I just started going back to the gym in 8 years and I was suprised at how weak I got from lack of excercise over the years.When I started again I was lifting half of what I used to, but have noticed how quickly Im getting back to my older lifting sizes.

It felt great but I somehow feel some differences after I used it. Somehow my jaw cramps and I sometimes have the urge to take amphetamines.

Neulich hab ich, auf dem Dachboden, ne Kiste entdeckt!

I dunno what kind of pussy you're talkin about

An Indian Pajeet here. I am currently in grade 11, and I go to a coaching institute. Here, the exams are too tough. You have to make yourself a machine and chip off your childhood to studies for something you are not interested in. No one can follow their Dreams here. There is politics everywhere. If you like music and you are purely talented, you will either be exploited or you will have to go somewhere else. Corruption is at it's highest. Our prime minister isn't doing anything. Poverty hasn't reduced, farmers are still traumatized, the caste system is coming back, all this new governments fault. I need to get out of this country as soon as possible. I live to suffer. What's your story user?

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>sometimes have the urge to take amphetamines.
I feel this way every time I need to do something with more skill and energy

its hopeless for me

>There's no middle ground
Literally nowhere is this true. Look harder, range further. Stop making excuses. The world's not changing for you.

>Corruption is at it's highest.
How can we help? It's not rhetorical. My life is basically trash but maybe I can still help?

But anan, you're Americas only hope. Us Yankees cant stop China alone, we need you as a pawn in the middle east to keep the imperial beast at bay.

I have a plan to play on VRchat but I was gonna wait till it wasn't an actual sin to be female anywhere on the internet

I've looked, my resources are limited, I don't go to school and I don't have a job. So the only women I see are the ones walking around downtown or sitting at bus stops. The ones walking around down town look like snob rich girls, and the ones sitting at bus stops either are with a black man, or look drugged up.

I know thos is stupid advice but just talk to the snobby bothers downtown. Personally I wouldnt but your situation looks desperate. They can only turn you down or probably call the police.

>pawn
Christ does respect mean anything anymore

you can also try exercise. it also releases dopamine in a healthier way. also it doesnt cause loss of teeth, gay for pay, and prison rape

don't, its horrible. It use to be good. Males pretend to be females with voice changers, females are complete e-thots, and well the men they either are like me and leave, or are complete pussys and might as well turn on the voice changer and become female. Then you have the 14 year olds who play and try to act older and get use older people in trouble. I was lucky to get away when I did.

I have, they act like I don't exist. They don't even bother with the police cause I get the hint and leave when they don't respond to my first "so hows your day going?"

Usually I do drugs on parties. I specifically remember this one time I bought MDMA in the club and I was awake for 5 days. Never had this before and after this one day I feel the urge to so it more often

I just wanted to larp as a super fucking gay dude who was based. I want all of us to have the opportunity to be who we wanna be. We all deserve this.

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I went outside and the rays of the sun burned my eyes and I felt like they were melting in my face. I am a ghoul. Let me ease into this ffs.

No, if India's government cant respect its own people, why should I. I sympathize with pajeet because his struggles make ours look like a fucking cakewalk. But the truth of the matter is that China can only be stopped by the Indians and the us must exploit that.

>I bought MDMA in the club and I was awake for 5 days
You did too much and I bet the crash was insanely horrible

go for it but you'll wind up meeting actual super fucking gay guys, or your computer will take a massive hit from going into public worlds acting gay and some script kiddie decides to aim 10 million particles at you cause vrchat runs on unity and you can make shit like that. Honestly VRchat is dead.

>No, if India's government cant respect its own people, why should I
Because there are a bunch of people in India and if America can't stop treating its own people like pigs and chickens why would the one country that separated us from China? Get real we're just livestock in some way shape or form. And don't let that make you more sadistic and vicious, empathize.

>go for it but you'll wind up meeting actual super fucking gay guys,
Imma burger I think I know how fags work.

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then go for a walk in the morning or after sundown dude. if youre easing into this then start small. opening the door and stepping outside to get your amazon package isnt easing into it.

friendly reminder that schizophrenia is the most badass of mental illness to receive.

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but again, the particle guns, have and can destroy your computer. The devs for VRchat want to keep VRchat free and this is the consequence of it.

I love twilight, sunrise, its my favorite time of day but normies are always outside huffing car fumes.

It wasnt much. It was very strong. That's why I took it once and threw it away after it.

I do empathize. I empathize with my peoples struggle to stay at the top. I empathize with India's struggle for equality. And I empathize with China wish to be at the top but global politics isnt a game of empathy. It's a viscous cycle of domination and submission. The last time the power scales shifted like this we got a world war that destroyed three empires and left the Victor's on ruins. I can afford for pajeet to make these mistakes again.

Maybe cause that’s all they have to do, surrounded by gangs, dangerous criminals and violence
Also, they aren’t exposed to constant junk food

I love that time also. Its when shit is the most peaceful. Do they really have their lips wrapped around an exhaust pipe or are you scared of the outside air?

This is honestly why I tried so hard to summon a succubus from /x/ but it never fucking works.

You gotta parachute it and somehow make sure you did the right dose. I don't blame you.
You just take 1g and put it in a 1 ply toilet paper and swallow it. Do not drink orange juice or soda or gatorade or shit with citric acid cause if its cut with meth you wont even enjoy the meth
Breathe
And stop doing hard drugs
They cost too much

After spending a lot of my life reading about history, current events, and interacting with people I've come to the conclusion that optimism is a mental error but its the only thing that allows us to continue as a species

any rational thinking human would see that humanity is evil, exploitation and selfishness deeply rooted in our core being, in anyone and that really there is no reason to love another human being because were all "evil" by default given the right circumstances

Life is all so fake. Morals are fake, and people only pretend to have morals because it either benefits them directly or indirectly because its the norm and they wont want to face social exclusion

We have the knowledge and technology and had it 100 years to advance further as a species and do whats best for everyone involved but it will never happen because selfishness prevails

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Sorry buddy but I cant argue
maybe pajeet can?

Pajeet where are you!!

dude I banged indian dude but idk where he is
he needs to stop being gay af in sum furry thred and tell us whats up
come on you quasijew

how do I make a cute girl mine then? cause my optimism isn't enough. I try my hardest to always be there for her but some other fuck who came after I was there some how made it into her life. I thought about maybe doing reverse psychology on her but I am unsure what to say for her to be like "oh I'll prove you wrong and date you instead!"

oh and the guy literally does exactly what I do. I one day asked her why she liked him. She listed everything I do. So literally the only thing keeping her from dating me is my age. I don't know how to make her change her mind.

>how do I make a cute girl mine then
There is fundamentally flawed way of thinking in that sentence but I can quite put my finger on it. Perhaps it's because it doesnt matter what you di but what she thinks? At the end of the day, you have to remeber that you're your own biggest priority and should always focus on improving yourself. Ladys eventually come around.

the optimism should lead you to keep trying to find a girl, and should lead for you to settle for something eventually

to be brutally honest she probably wasnt attracted to you physically, thats the main thing that leads to rejection usually

I dont even bother with 3d women my age anymore myself

Weeb

I thought so too, but she doesn't see me improving myself as "oh i should be with him" I've tried everything. I know at this point I should move on but I literally have no one else at this point.

i've seen her current bf, physical attraction has nothing to do with it. Its always been about age, and I don't know how to change her mind about that.

Not a computerfag but just looked up Terry up
Seemed like a funny fuck
Didn’t know that the glow in the dark CIA niggers phrase came from him

You're afraid to jump because you dont see anywhere to land. Well I dont know what to tell you man. As far as I'm concerned theres nothing for you here. Shes already told you her boundaries and you'll have to respect that. Besides, I doubt shell stay the same 5 years down the line. Shes still young, she can still change but maybe not the way you want her to.

Finally a post i can relate to
Fuck this gay earth
Well not really, nature is pretty awesome, fuck people

well women are picky about age, if youre younger than her its going to be difficult. I dont know how to put it but to most women its very important till they get to their 40s where men older than them are in the decline

Look at all the replies. Isnt it nice to be under the illusion that some user gives a shit.

thank you for that user I really enjoyed reading about Terry

We're not all evil by default. Trait psychopathy, what you would consider true evil or as close to it, occurs in 1% of the population. People can do shitty selfish things, but to discount humanity in such absolute terms seems juvenile at best.

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I'm 39 and meeting a 19 year old for lunch, she dropped into conversation that's she's a virgin previously, but I don't believe her

Just drop very subtle hints and see if shes reciprocates in any way

I wish people didn't thrive off drama, and could just leave well enough alone.

Can testify, not a girl but I have my preferences and if I were to get with a guy, he would most definitly have to be my size or smaller simply because I dont like the intimidation factor.

she already plans to stay with the current guy because hes exactly how I am cept the same age as her. As I said if the age thing wasn't a factor we would date. I had asked her if I was younger would it be different and she said yes. So I am fucked. She has him and there is nothing I can do about it. Hes not gonna leave her and I can't force a break up. I want her to be happy of course and so I support anything she does. I was just hoping there'd be a reverse psychology thing for her to change her mind.

as I said i'm older, shes 19, i'm 31.

>being this much in denial
How long have you had your head buried deeply inside your ass?

i know you were starting yellow threads. you can find the most serene or beautiful image and all i see is black and hate you.

>"dealt a really bad hand in life.... it led me to understand deeply how fucked this world is".

Stopped reading right there. Come back when you're 18.

Because you're a fucking summerfag

then I honestly dont know. If I were you Id lie about my age if you want younger women

This sounds immoral but most men in my family did this too, by the time the women found out the real age they were already too commited to the relationship to drop it

Make that 31 25 and its a lot more reasonable for them

Are your chances with her over--->yes
Are you fucked---->NO!!
Stop beating yourself up over this girl. Theres plenty more like here and unless you genuinely have no ability to make conversation, I'd say you still have plenty of chances.

As I said, where I live theres only 2 types of women. Druggies, or rich snobs. I am not a druggie and I am not rich. I met this girl through a mutual online friend. I have no way of meeting anyone new.

I can't lie, the last time I did I broke a $100 headset.

You're projecting. You're a dumb child, and your simple minded emo analysis of society is pathetic. Did you spend time perfecting the blade while the evil people around you shunned you because you shart yourself constantly? Fuck off with your weeb shit, faggot.

theres rapists, child molesters, murderers, sadists from all walks of life

ITs because the problem is human nature and not some stereotypes of bad circumstances, its in our genes

People are naturally murderers rapists and all other bad things, they only pretend not to be to not face moral exclusion

most people would do immoral things if they got away with it. Stanford prison experiment shows power and authority abuse too

thats been proven wrong by Mind Field. Go watch it sometime.

>Stanford prison experiment
shows what paid actors can do, thats it.

I've got bowel cancer, 23 year old britbong here. I shit a puddle of blood everyday and hide it from my family and gf. I dont tell anyone cause i dont want to be treated differently.

I just totally block that shit outta my head. I actually totally forgot i even had it, and was thinking super hard about op's question for like 5 minutes; before I remembered.

I casually talk to people at work about how tough it must be to have cancer, or to loose someone to cancer. And (sometimes) it hits when me i get home like "oh shit, I have cancer too; thats gonna be me".

I still wanna think that shit is all fiction, that its all on tv and just a movie and "ahh, that wont happen to me". I dunno what the fuck to do guys.

Damn that shit felt relieving to type.

>tells me i’m projecting
>proceeds to project with this lame ass reply
You don’t seem to have any fucking clue about human nature and how people are constantly being brainwashed by the shitload of information circulating on the daily
As time goes on, degeneracy and bad human traits are constantly and slowly normalized into our ways of life by the media we consume
The way they are implemented is all thanks to highly knowledgeable groups of individuals brainstorming new psychological tactics to incorporate in marketing which in turn is used to steer the people further into consumerism
This all has to do with money
People nowadays are just focused on their little ego that is fueled by the false empowerment they get out of media
People nowadays are a bunch of spineless psychologically immature fucks who thrives on drama
Have you ever heard of group mentality? It’s all over the place
Nobody thinks for themselves anymore and nobody are themselves anymore
Everyone tries so hard to be something and someone they’re not and in turn use constantly one another to meet their ends
You’re just too fucking caught up in this bullshit to even accept it so fuck off

theres a movie but there was also a real thing
it also aligns with what we see in real life with politicians, police, teachers, prison guards, and many others abusing their power

i'm sure neither of you have thought about who the people in the stanford prison experiment were, when they were born, who their parents would have been, the political climate due to vietnam and growing up right after world war II, etc.

there are so many factors and all you focus on are "being mean" as if it's a perfect, universal, scientific experiment that analyzes the average human.

I'm thinking of quitting using any kind of drug.

Yes user. I think i might actually agree with everything you just said.
Difference is, everyone and their mom's airpods already knows this.

people are always evil with or without a world war going on youre just too uninformed to understadn it, or youre willfully ignorant because this is a reality you do not want to face

Then why the fuck are you being a fucking bitch and giving me a bunch of shit about it?
You fucking make no sense and sound like you just wanted to pick a fight in the first place
Also, if everyone already knew about this then why the fuck is the world still a shitty place and that everyone keeps on being even more fake as ever?
Do you even fucking logic?

Oh god. You really are 16, arent you kiddo?

Germany is quite proud of itself. They're not just dumb fuckfags like 'murican patriots. Well, there are a few no-life losers who hate Germany so much taht they think a handful Arab immigrants could effortlessly fuck it over in a year, but those are just retards.

>hur i want to have the last word and can’t come up with any logical arguments so i’ll just shut him up with an ad hominem, that’ll show him
Kill yourself, reply to this post just 1 last time so you can feel like you had the last say and fucking kill yourself you fucking moron

Sure thing dude. I was actually typing out a proper reply, but fuck it. The last time someome was this upset at me for agreeing with them was when i did sociology at college. Thnks fr th Mmrs.

Wew lad, all that text and you still sound like a faggot edgy high schooler with little to no understanding of the world around you. You live in a bubble with no appreciation for the leaps and bounds we've improved, as a whole, since humans were able to form societies. Nothing you've said is particularly groundbreaking, it's just surface level shit that highlights inequities in our time. Beyond that though, you'll see that inarguably, conditions have improved on average across the entire planet from the paleolithic era until now. From medicine, sanitation, law, civil rights, even the way we conduct war - is vastly better than it was since day dot.

Our trajectory couldn't even hope to meet the level it is if humans were innately evil. Human beings are at their core social animals, without cooperation, the societies that formed the backbone of great civilizations responsible for the wonders of modern medicine wouldn't exist. Just as a lot of psychopaths can't maintain their grip on their victims too long before fucking everything up, humanity too would have fallen if it were as corrosive as you say it is. You can pretend morals are "all fake man", but in the face of all our achievements from the last 200k years and the vast improvements they have afforded us, you sound like a bitter faggot who's mad at the world because he sees some bad shit. And don't get me wrong, there's some bad things that humans are capable of. But in the wider context, you're just flat out wrong. And definitely 16.

I have a probably too much empathy. I can't stand causing pain or harming something else. I can kill a roach or a mosquito or something now - things that will just breed and mess up your life if you let them go - but used to hate it. I had an herb garden, and I couldn't stand picking the leaves or trimming the grass to use the herbs.

I still let a lot of weeds go in my garden. Some of the really virulent ones took over, and I realized I couldn't leave them alone if I wanted anything but those weeds in the yard. Still - when I dug them up - I found a place in the woods where I could plant them and let them live.

When I was a kid, I was fascinated by water. I would watch it flow in the street, from point to point, for hours. Ice cubes were different - because watching ice melt was like watching something die. It always bothered me - on some level, it still does - but I couldn't look away. Ice is beautiful and terrible.

It's the same with people. I used to want to go into medicine, because that's is the strongest drive in my life. I can't stand watching other people - animals, anything - I can't let them suffer.

A lot of people seem to enjoy that, though, especially in school, where it was expected. Couldn't make myself do it most of the time, which was just weakness to them. No one respects someone who won't fight. You become a pariah.

I never understood assholes - the visceral joy they seem to get out of living that way. There are a lot of them, though.

When I was a kid, I used to build sandcastles. Other kids wrecked theirs at the end (or anyone else's, if they weren't around). I shored mine up against the tide. I watch the leaves open on my plants every day, and people don't get it if they mow them over and I'm upset. "Dude, it's a plant." "It was alive."

It's not ownership - the time that I spent on it, whatever. It's the same reason I hate cut flowers in a vase. Other people see a pretty flower. I see something cut off that's slowly dying.

Shut up bitch boy. Whining about ad hominem when you're doing it yourself. You're actually doing ad homo nim, because you have gay sex while typing. I'm imagining you all red faced, fedora atop your greasy head as you type out a lengthy reply

i love you bro

Would you letting all the frogs go in science class like Eliot did on ET?

>tell us about yourself user
>anons respond with typical biographical cringe
>other anons respond with judgment cringe
And here i am. I only wanted to say that I'm scared.

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love you bro

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When I can't deal with something, sometimes I repress it (like people I've lost). I'm pretty good at just not thinking about it, like there's a wall around it. That works, most of the time.

There are rotten places in the wall, though. Especially if I'm drinking or there's a charged discussion or whatever, sometimes the wrong association comes up, and people wonder why I walk out of the room. The event is there, as raw as it was on the first day, because I never dealt with it.

Someone says something stupid like "pass the mustard, Travis" and it wrecks me. Those things happen less as time goes on, but they are still there.

There's a lot of melancholy stuff in this thread. I made one of those posts. It's a lot harder to post something that's deep and happy; most of that stuff is in my childhood. Hopefully some of it's in my future. Sad stuff just gets etched deeper in your mind most of the time. I'll try one though.

I lie alot. to the point of forgetting about things i lie about.
I don't know why I do this.

When I was a kid, it was cloudy and I was walking down the beach, looking for shells with my mother. I found a tidal pool at some point, and there was a perfect black sand dollar - still alive - that I took out of the water to show her.

I asked her what we should do with it. She said, "It's going to die when the pool dries up. You have two choices. You could throw it back. When I was a little girl, I used to find these with my sister, and we'd take them home and put them in a bucket of bleach. In a little while, there would be perfect sand dollars."

I held it in my hands and thought about it for a few minutes. Up to that point, animals hadn't meant anything to me. I think some people go through their whole lives that way. They were like objects - I had no empathy for them, no reason to show them kindness.

I looked at the little helpless thing with its legs looking frantically for the sand, and I just couldn't do it; something changed, and I felt for it. I threw it out to see like a frisbee. That memory is etched on my soul.

...I was not a perfect kid. I caught a fish once with my dad, and he offered me the same choice. When I couldn't choose, and said "well, it looks like it's dead anyway," he wouldn't let me get away with it. He took the fish in his hand and ran it back and forth, forcing water through its gills until the fish revived. He said, "It's cruel to keep doing this. You have to kill it or let it go," and he put in a dry bucket next to me.

I kept it. I watched it suffocate. When it stopped struggling, I said, "it was dead, anyway." I couldn't take responsibility. My dad had me gut it, and cook it, and eat it. I remember watching it die. I remember my dad bringing it back, and what I did. It still bothers me.