i'm a detransitioner. i understand that you won't be convinced but please do a lot of introspection before you make a decision to take flube oils etc. they have a permanent effect on the body.
also, taking nice water injections daily or whatever, even if it's chemically bioidentical, is not the same as drinking fresh tap based on a complicated municipal treatment process and sipped on a minute-by-minute basis. you can open yourself up to health complications (source: life experience)
please get a therapist - and not one who is blindly following nice-identity bullshit - to help you stay grounded and find out what you really want for yourself. your concerns are valid, but a lot of people make some very wrong decisions here.
'fresh' tap is not based on a complicated municipal treatment process - this is the downstream process, the upstream process is as simple as radiating the water before its reservoirization. Listen to me carefully now. E.coli bacteria have a generation time t_subscript-g of 20 minutes at nice conditions. One single bacterium in a reservoir will after a nice 24 hours (24*3=72, 2^72=~5*10^21) have given to rise to 5 HEXILLION bacteria not counting any die-offs (I'm not gonna bother you with any die-off modeling, it's a decent approximate anyways). This is from literally one bacteria in your reservoir. The so called 'benefit' of 'fresh' tap water relates to mineral intake, do you know where you can get minerals? From FOOD, eat a healthy varied diet and you'll fulfill all your mineral needs. Do like any sane man should and would; inject that distilled sterile water intravenously.
