>born in cold shitty small town
>parents are poor like rural desolate Africa poor not exegerrating
>everyones poor stupid crazy redneck
>have the most strict laws in the world literally like Asian middle eastern laws
>-30 degree winters
>everyones living bottom of the barrel poverty but they all follow every white man rule like it was fucking written in stone by god or something ultra conservative toothless rednecks....im not even kidding
>literally nothing here but failing businesses and 300 year old broken down shit and the only buildings around are government owned bull shit which is basically just all about policing and rules
>there's literally nothing out here but rules....literally nothing as if this isn't bad enough
>parents are broke as fuck living in a broken down 800 year old country house
>roof leaks can feel cold air inside and its always cold
>live in the middle of nowhere
>7 hours away from big city 20-40 miles away from anything
>my town is 2 empty dead roads and the only shit around me is shit pizza shops and gas stations
>no jobs besides fry cook or cleaning up shit as a janitor
>parents are ever too poor to get me a car
>my neighbors mom is a slut that goes around banging all the rednecks and trying to mooch shit off dudes
>buys her kid a car
>my friends dad is an ex con with 20 duis and a severe alcohol problem
>he gets out of jail and buys my friend a car
>never get to go on vacation my entire life so all ive ever seen is the sad woods
>no disney world for me
>no girls no friends nothing just prison loneliness cant even change anything if I want to literally just trapped out in the middle of nowhere with no resources
Born in cold shitty small town
>everyone around me is a legit fucking lunatic and they're all poor and creepy type degenerate
>closest friend is literally 5 miles away and hes a creepy ass hole whos angry all the time and hes disabled and literally retarded and cant do anything right and he's so autistic and weird and obsessed with his mom its fucking creepy
>closest source of people are 10 miles away and I dont know anyone have a car no public transportation and everyone here is just weird and shitty as fuck
>no beach no fun no vacation no amusement parks (closest amusement park is 5 hours away) no airplane rides for me
>literally never even been in a hotel before because my parents have never had $50 dollars for a night at one before
>i have to sell drugs my entire life because its the only option i had and i just spent all the money on weed not to kill myself
>finally get money to leave my shit town
>i get arrested for something that wasnt even my fault
>literally got sabotaged by god get a lifelong probation sentence for being black lose my license
>have already lost my license my entire life because i keep getting arrested for shit thats never my fault and im not even kidding
>every time i find something good in my life god rips it away and everything bad that can happen in my life does
>literally have nothing but hellish bad luck and curse my entire life
>the only thing i wanted in my life was a car and to be able to travel
>as soon as i got money for the first time in my life god took it away
>god keeps ruining my life and im stuck in my shit small town on probation for being black
wtf am i supposed to do? even when i beat all the odds with an impossible miracle god just flicks a finger and steals it all away in a flash and then makes my life even worse
what do i do if god is literally just coming after me and he controls the entire world around me to be as bad as possible
>god
Forget that shit. Instead, i suggest you pick up reading philosophy. It can help you grow your own morals without mr. Diedforyoursins. Start doing some stoic exercises and soon you'll realize how nothing really matters. Also save up as much money you can, buy a bike and then go somewhere where you can actually work a job and not sell drugs. That's about all the advice i can give.. It sure helped me a bunch when i was in my dark hour. I wish you all the luck you need.
trust me man its completely fucked. theres no option anymore just lay around in bed and cry. thanks tho
why didnt you just join the army when you turned 18 retard, you deserve what you got for not knowing how to get out of the shit you were born into
hijack a polar bear and escape to Canadia
its really your only option.
join army
your only chance, i would tell you learn coding and find a job in abig city but it's a pretty overrated life
>i get arrested for something that wasnt even my fault
Taking drugs and then driving
Dindu
NUFFIN
Sounds like Kanata of today user! Fucking Awesome!
>theres no option anymore just lay around in bed and cry.
kek
I just wanted to live in a big city. I dont want to join the god damn army. I just want to wait fucking tables in a big city wtf dude WTF
Previous generations of your people had a quick and easy way out of bad situations, OP. Perhaps take a cue from those who came before?
Hmmm.
According to Wikipedia, most of the small towns and villages around Fairbanks are ghost towns and unpopulated.
So the only place that I can find that really seems to fit your description is Chatanika. Which, if it IS where you live, is a pretty cool name for a town.
I imagine its not as much fun IRL. But the weather probably isn't awful this time of year. And it never gets dark. Which is probably why you can't sleep. :(
At least turn it productive, man. Shed tears on a book or something. Dont waste time when your life is that fucked, or it'll stay that way.
As long as you aren't completely retarded and want to do something with your life you should try to get into some sort apprenticeship or at least look for a manual labor job like working in a mine or something.
You're in a deep hole bro. Only option to get out is hard work.
I'm not talking about a 40 hour a week job though. Like 80+ hours a week 6 days a week type shit.
I was in a shitty no opportunity situation like that 6 years ago and I ended up just joining the Navy to get out of that shit hole.
But fuck I never expected having the work days I have had. Not too long ago I had a day where I worked for 27 hours straight only stopping for food. Slept for 8 hours and was back at working for another 20. Another time I was working 100-120 hour weeks for 3-4 months.
But now I'm a better person with a ton of skills.
Honestly though I wish I had just manned up and went for an apprenticeship and learned some skills out in the civilian world instead. But I was kind of a bitch.
too fucking bad, you were dealt a shit hand like many others are, joining the army is a get out card that you didnt use beceause you are too busy taking drugs and being a social failure and blaming it on a shit raising, bitch you aint tryed shit, you are just whining too much about muh color instead of manning up and figuring out what you need to do.
>Has a computer, electricity, internet connection
>Desolate African poor
pick one, liar
I tried so hard to start an online businesses but at the end of the day I just get so fucking depressed I cant even stop crying or get out of bed I cant even get what I want with money so theres no point
I got arrested and it trapped me here forever no amount of work will win
anyway, google street view of the Fairbanks outlying area is really depressing and makes me not want to look anymore. Its somewhat impressive that Google even managed to get a camera vehicle out that aways though.
I know you're never, ever going to reply. But I'm guessing its Chatanika :(
feel for you Yea Forumsro
What kind of felonies you got?
Military is probably your only option unless you're an oldfag, if you have a library study an ASVAB book and choose a branch. Supply rates are good in the Navy, easy money. If you can swim in a pond, creek or river, you can swim in ocean water far easier.
not even a felony dude. I literally got a misdemeanor and wasn't even my fault. my state punishes any crime 1000000000000000000000x harder than any other state does
a misdemeanor here is punished twice as hard as a felony is in another state. I fucking hate god
What'd you go and do to get busted?
What state are you in? Are you in white-trash land?
I dont really wanna talk about it and yeah its white trash. everyones poor angry and crazy fat people everywhere everyone just smoking cigarettes drinking booze
That's not even something that can stop you from working then.
At this point you're literally just holding yourself back with made of excuses.
Go fucking join the military or get in an apprenticeship program and get yourself on track.
There's no one out there looking out for you except yourself. So fucking get rolling and try something.
Everything you do will be tough, slow, and a bunch of hurry up and wait but you gotta just grow up and deal with it and stop being a fuck boy.
I got the longest fucking probation sentence in the world for being black. a job does nothing
Sounds like New Hampshire
Loser. Giving up like a fucking bitch.
>nigger gets socially lynched for being a druggie retard with zero motivation
>expects Yea Forums to console him
WEW LAD
move to a city get a job and live in a car
I didnt say anything about money. If you can't get yourself to the world, then bring the world to you. How easy is that when you've got so much information online. Reading doesnt necessarily mean you need to learn, it can help your mind think differently. I use this site for most of my ebooks: gen.lib.rus.ec . I genuinely wish you well, and hope you'll find peace within yourself.
How long? These issues are all in your head
I mean I could just sit down and relax and chill and enjoy some vintage video games and stupid shit like runescape or riding around on a bike
the problem is I NEED weed to enjoy anything. I cant smoke weed because I got drug tested. I got a prescription for medical marijuana and they keep telling me I cant smoke anyways
I dont know if its bull shit or what or if I should ask my lawyer to help me out I just wanna smoke fucking weed or transfer my probation shit to a city
at least u have Yea Forums
OP is in rural Alaska.
Best guess: greater Fairbanks region.
Sucks a lot.