This is my life. 21 years old. More like the mind of a 16 year old. Still angsty as fuck, no friends, no life...

All i hear is you being soft.

If you really want a change, do some occult shit. Splash your blood on a sigil of Lucifer, Belial, or Abaddon and see if you dont have some crazy shit happen.

Youll either learn from them and stop being weak, or theyll possess you and youll get to watch what you could have been if you werent so fucking mentally inconsistent.

Dont spread your shit onto other people, lol you druggies are pathetic

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your a fuck up in all aspects of your life. what makes you think you will be successful at being a school shooter?

face the fact that you will screw that up as well and no one will remember you.

Not OP. But how do i occult?
>inb4 edgy /x/ pasta

OP, it looks like you are to far gone for human words to get through to you. Let's hope the acid gets to you.

Dude why the fuck are you on Yea Forums asking for advice. Go to peeps who might actually help you, call a suicide hot line or something but don't just browse Yea Forums fuck man it's only gonna make it worse

I meticulous plan out everything in my life, I struggle with human interaction though (very autistic). And if a dipshit like Nikolas Cruz can get away with killing 17 people, I'll surely be able to get at least the same if not more.

But that's years away, I surely hope I don't go down that path but it's my last resort if I become truly suicidal

You realize by posting this you actually dont plan shit out. You want the attention. Fuck off

Did you not hear anything I just posted. I said I'm not planning on shooting anyone right now. I'm going to trip on various psychedelics over the next few years, we'll see where it leads my mind. Hopefully to leaving the house and trying to interact with humans if not I fear the worst for me.

/x/ is fucking garbaggio, most of the 'occultists' on there suck dick, and spread religion. I offer science. Imm bust it down, maybe the druggies will be desperate enough to actually do an experiment and prove it for themselves.

It is all in your head, you just dont know how big your head is. Choose an entity you like, demon, pagan god, whatever you think that, if real, could help you out. I told OP's bitchass Belial, Lucifer, Abaddon, because no risk no reward.

Most entities have an established sigil. Draw that shit out for yourself, put some blood. Smear the sigil, or just 2 drops. Whatever you prefer.

Gaze into the sigil. The objective is to reach the TGS, theta gamma synch. Snipers do it too, im not gonna explain, you research it yourself. The altered consciousness is how occult communication happens. This is why shamans do hallucinogenics, etc.

Tldr; place blood on sigil of entity you want to contact, 'zone out' staring at sigil, ask for evidence of spiritual existence, wait for weird shit to happen. Inb4 confirmation bias, ask and ye shall recieve. Explain it away and dont trust until you have PROOF, occult stuff is real.

Then you can find out if the entity you got is the one you were calling for, but thats a different lesson

God you're such a faggot watching too many movies. Just go turn yourself in if you fear the worst. But you wont. In your own you're some edgy main character in a sad movie, thinking you're slowly turning into the joker or tyler. Just stop. Seek help or do something you pussy

Literally a fucking /x/ post.
>i wont tell you look it up
>tells me anyway

But trolling aside took a screenshot. Im bored as fuck and unlike OP i wanna do something. Gonna summon me a spooky entity. Then when it wont work, at least i had a weekend of fun cutting myself and drawing bloody things lul

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I can't get help, if you saw how seeking help would require human interaction. I'm actually autistic, I struggle to maintain even the most basic of converstations that everyone else takes for granted. Just look at the parkland shooter, I'm just like him, a dweeb.

You sound like one of those people who are addicted to attention so you take on as many bad habits and drama as you possibly can so you attract people who will fill that hunger. Sure, you may have some genuine issues, but most of your problems are brought on by your own choices.

There are online methods to seeking help. user, you're seeking help right now with threads like this. Using buzzterms like 'human interaction' yet you're making threads online talking to us.
Just write some fan fiction about shootings. Vent that way.
Or
Fucking
Do
It

If you truly hated 'human interaction' go off the grid. Instead of trollling Yea Forums

cool trips

Lol i meant i wouldnt give you all the details on the TGS.

Treat it as an actual experiment though. Objective. Look for facts, and actual shit you cannot explain away, not just
~z0mg l00k i seent a shadow in my room and theres an orb in this picc!!!! Lol chief, if there's the possibility a mundane thing caused any 'disturbances' discount the disturbance. If you do it long enough doors will slam the fuck open and shit will fly off the shelves

Parting advice for when you do realize it works-
Ars Goetia and oldschool grimoires are dope, like demon phonebooks, but i dont recommend summoning them as those books say to. Make the sigil, ask for proof, move from there chief.

And OP, kill yourself or dont. Stop being shit or dont.
You hope that by killing others, in that final act of yall dying together, you will finally be close to another

No man, I never understood killing yourself, sounds so fucking pathetic. I guess some people are just genetically prone to kill themselves, I'm not.

Bro, you're 21, stfu. Just don't get died and stay employed at all cost. You pretty much learn the rest.