it's been a long time, nearly a decade. Tonight's the night. It's time.
All my data is destroyed and I'm going to scatter the ruined platters with the last of the gas in my car tonight, then I'm catching the bus.
A simple knot and some padding to restrict bloodflow but not airflow seemed like most easiest and most reliable option, given a decent setup that won't be disturbed.
I've known it was coming to this as long as I've been a sentient being. I've never had a sex drive, so the whole reason for existing was kinda gone to start with - a factory defect. That's not to say I never had sex or couldn't get it, it's just genuinely not even worth crossing the room for to me. It has no draw.
Lacking the fundamental drive of life as well of any fear of death, the ultimate outcome over time as future prospects became bleak was obvious.
Questions? Requests? I already spent my last dollar on the rope, so I'm kinda limited
Don't be a stupid faggot, go do something cool instead of hanging yourself alone in the woods or whatever. Run some assholes over with a stolen car or light yourself on fire in times square or some shit.
I just want him to post a picture with the rope on his head, not around his neck, you fucking faggot.
Jeremiah Jackson
future prospects became bleak? tell us about it.
Eli Barnes
What's on the platters?
Adrian Baker
Only camera I have is on my phone and that can't hold a charge for more than 10 minutes.
I'll try to find a way to mount it with it plugged in. Let me know if you have any suggestions
Daniel Williams
take it from the guy who made this--he's killed himself dozens of times and has really perfected it.
James James
If that is your decision and you are sure, it's fine and I respect you. Good luck in your travel user, I hope you find something better on the other side.
Chase Young
trips. finally something to live for.
Hunter Bennett
I'm plotting to fuck a married fat chick, so I'm likely not far behind you user
Op if you are still reading this shitty thread, post the address before you actually kill yourself so we can atleast find your body.
Austin Walker
this guy fucks corpses.
Parker Clark
>sex is the only reason to exist Well, someone's been brainwashed. Without that temptation you could accomplish much, much greater things that would leave a lasting imprint on humanity for ages to come, long after other Anons have rotted in the Earth thinking their children would carry on their memory forever. You'll really waste this golden opportunity to ascend beyond your primal urges?
Easton Wright
Perhaps
Henry Moore
he could sell the discs for better rope or meth instead of throwing perfectly good cheese pizza on the ground
Jordan Richardson
Thats it, we get the first normal human being who would stop jerking off and caring about sex, actually accomplishing shit and he kills himself.
Ian Rivera
Just talk about your experiences with someone who needs it before you do it instead of accomplishing fuckall
Oliver Phillips
I salute you.
Asher Jones
Serious medical issues with insurance and employment complications, and it's only going to get significantly worse over time, with me ending up with a shit hole and shit bag pretty soon from a surgery I couldn't even begin to afford. I know there's bankruptcy and shit, but I don't want to live with that hell every day anyway.
The thing that really pushed it over the edge was my roommate/landlord forcing some intolerable slit into my living situation with no ability to be reasoned because he's blinded by pussy. If I can't even be comfortable at home, I'm just done. I hate moving and can't afford it anyway.
What was on the platters was decades of files, some of questionable legality.
Not good enough. It needs to be quads.
I'm not certain, but there were definitely images that were questionable at least
Zachary Campbell
^^
Elijah Thompson
>the first Yea right. Get back in line. Been there, done that and I turned my shit around, so it is possible. And I am diagnosed with Depression and ADHD.
Just fucks me up that all the means of helping oneself are lost on the hoplessly blind idiots who knowingly do nothing to get better.
Op still seems capable of action. Why not be smart about it and economize. Obtain atleast a small part of self mastery. Just 5 minutes a day can get you far in a short time. But no. One time giving in, another time giving in and now look. Kids are feeding themselves their own shit day in day out.
I'd urge you to reconsider. I'm also asexual and had a huge sense of isolation and fear for a lonely future. I'm piss-poor broke,with depression and anxiety. I'm looking forward to aging. Get into reading, writing, art, anything expressive. Nobody remembers who the children of so-and-so are, but they do remember what people made. Ideas, books, furniture, anything really. I really urge you to embrace your sense of futility and allow that to feed you making something, or many things that leaves your mark. And if you fail? Who fucking cares, you learned a lot reading book after book alone at night, you thought so much reading art and getting into the minds of interesting people feeding of their ideas and creativity in the past. I personally find it a blessing now, to not care about sex, as I'm free to do my own thing without worrying about my partner. I always hated being made to compromise who I am and how I spend my time. Be free. Do cool shit. You don't need anyone else and that's ok. Peace brother x
Ryan Mitchell
OP can still learn a lot of stuff and knowledge is power Bookworms dont need ass anyway
Jack Garcia
Was just about to type this. Life's worth does not come from sex and pleasure, you fuckwit consumerist utilitarian brainwashed piece of shit. Stop thinking in entitlements, we're all in this together. You're part of what exists and capable of expanding it. Why not just make shit? Not even a nigger hut? Why do you have to fuck things up? Don't want to make children? Fine, go make something else. You talk about biological imperatives as if your pleasure or lack thereof in fucking matters. Newsflash: it doesn't. You can still propagate your species while being rational about it. Go make a substitute child (Mulish - The Procedure). Go read Cicero or whatever. Just don't fuck this up, ok?
Ryder Phillips
Good luck user. Hope you make it through this or at the very least go out nicely.
Nolan Thompson
Sex is not the only reason to exist, but it's the primary survival drive. It's the reason self sacrifice for progeny is a thing. It's fundamental.
Sure, I could find another thing to aspire to, but why? Once you're free from being locked tunnel-vision on pussy, you see that the only reason to exist is to to things you find value in or take pleasure in, even if that's charity or whatever.
Pursuit of pleasure alone will only take you as far as it goes. Once it's basically gone for good, so's the reason stay.
Yes, things can get better, but I'm not willing to put in the effort it would take to get there. I've been doing that for 10 years and have made no progress.
Leo Flores
Have you thought about traveling to Canada and admitting yourself to a hospital there, yankfag?
Adam Morales
why post about it, if it's not for attention? just do it quietly without anybody knowing about it and don't harm anyone when you do it. If you are serious, which I doubt you are since you posted it on Yea Forums and want/need attention.
Aiden Morris
>Once you're free from being locked tunnel-vision on pussy, you see that the only reason to exist is to to things you find value in or take pleasure in
Nietzsche in spe does not realize that he is the one that creates the value.
>Yes, things can get better, but I'm not willing to put in the effort it would take to get there. You're lying. You taking suicidal actions is an effort. Hanging out on a limb here, probably an action driven by the least valued part about yourself. Why don't you get a grip and go hang this part of yourself instead of the whole of you?
>I've been doing that for 10 years and have made no progress. If you do one thing for 10 years and know it gets you nowhere it's either dancing or you doing something wrong. You still have a head of your own don't you? Why not use it for actual problem solving for once? Voila, purpose for your life already. Fix yourself. Aim to die a good death instead dying like a dog. Purpose everywhere. And you still do have energy, otherwise you would not even post here or take actions like this.
Even if I wanted to, and I don't, I don't even have the money for the gas to make it up there. Also, I don't need the surgery yet, but when I do it will be sudden and debilitating
Christopher Jenkins
Because that's what we do. That's what we've always done. You must be new here.
Carter Price
what data is on those platters?
Matthew Hall
please setup an image board on the other side, so i may shitpost on the other side.
I've been here since 07', what is this "we" you are talking about? Those attention seeking suicidal fags who cry for attention but never actually an hero?? Just shut the fuck up about it and don't be a pussy who has to drag a few hundred other depressed anons into your stupid fake suicide drama
Adam Parker
Ethernet tough boy detected.
Carson Myers
>You taking suicidal actions is an effort.
It's really not. It's a method I'm very familiar with from childhood, of all places - "The choking game". I grabbed the rope when I was out getting lunch. Didn't even take 5 minutes.
Basically it's just about restricting bloodflow to the brain until the person loses consciousness. All this does is take that act of restricting bloodflow and make it passive, so that nobody needs to hold it there. The person just passes out and the bloodflow remains restricted, causing death via asphyxiation without actually restricting airflow/causing pain.
>If you do one thing for 10 years and know it gets you nowhere it's either dancing or you doing something wrong. It's not just one thing. It's been a series of 1 step forward, two steps backward in pretty much every respect.
Colton Martinez
In my experience, they pretty much all did it. Maybe that's changed, but the element of legitimate suicide on Yea Forums has been strong the whole time I've interacted with it, with a lot in common with a.s.h
You won't quit lying, and fancy pitying yourself. Anything else you can do? Anything at all?
>It's been a series of 1 step forward, two steps backward And you think it's like this just for you? What the hell man. What are you even aiming at in life?
Juan Miller
Keep on wasting your air on this idiot who doesn't value his own life. Let natural selection do it's job.
Nah no it hasn't, I've seen plenty of cutters that only ended up in the emergency room. There was one chick who live streamed a suicide once but she wasn't on Yea Forums she was linked here tho.
Nathan Perez
>You taking suicidal actions is an effort. >Hanging out on a limb here niiiiice
>Keep on wasting your air on this idiot I'm not wasting anything, let alone air. It's called not being an insensitive prick for no reason, which you certainly do seem to enjoy alot. So have a taste of your own cake you mascot for Pro Choice activism.
>You won't quit lying, and fancy pitying yourself. What am I lying about? What am I pitying myself about? I don't think struggle is unique to me, you fucking half-wit, I just don't share your values or tolerances for putting up with bullshit. The same things that make life worthwhile for you just don't cut it for me. I'm not willing to put in as much effort as you are. Take your pick and feel superior, but recognize that we're different people.
That's a hangman's noose and not suitable for a low-drop hanging. This is actually a no-drop non-hanging. The hangman's noose is designed to snap the neck when dropping from pretty high. The one I tied is more of a strangle-snare meant to simply tighten without loosening.
Hey faggot, the knot on the rope won’t do. There are several guides you can find online. If you’re gonna do it, do it right.
Isaiah Moore
Nope, but it might have piqued your curiosity. If not, continue along as if this thread didn't exist, just like any other thread.
Henry Harris
Do you even know what the goal is?
Joshua Lewis
You're wasting your time by posting in this irrelevant attention seeking thread. This is all about being selfish and wanting sympathy online, nothing more.
Anthony Hernandez
Do it OP. One day I'll muster the courage to follow you to hell. Nothing for me in this life or the next, so I might as well die in a fire and get used to the heat.
Robert Moore
>I don't think struggle is unique to me, you fucking half-wit yada yada There you go asuming so many thing you don't even really know. A pathological liar not only to others but primarily to yourself. You don't want to see it right?
I was there were you are now. I said the same shit.
We can play that game if you want to but at the end of the day we both know you don't want this. So what do you want? I ask you again. Stop stepping in your own way.
I'm not wasting anything. My time is well spent. And if he wants sympathy then he has the chance to take it for himself. It's there.
Matter of fact, teach me how. It'd be good to learn how to tie a not, that way I can just walk in the woods somewhere, take out the garbage just like I was taught.
Brayden Price
>So what do you want? To be done living. Like I said, different people, different goals.
Who the fuck would come to Yea Forums for sympathy
Jaxon Turner
Since you are going to go anyway, what is wrong with you that is going to require surgery?
Kayden Nguyen
Pretty severe crohn's disease. Almost killed me once already.
Sebastian Green
>My time is well spent.
I've literally spent 20 minutes posting, I don't see how that's not a waste of my time
>if he wants sympathy then he has the chance to take it for himself.
Because you're willing to give it to him. No doubt you probably spend some of your other spare time donating to ethot's on twitch as well.
Anyway good luck with that, lmao. SAGE
Aaron Rivera
Although I do respect your plight. Clearly you think life is precious or something. Two customerst here aren't biting but keep up the good work after we're gone, okay?
Leo Adams
If he's wasting his time, aren't you wasting your time even more telling him how much of his time he's wasting?
Angel Long
sympathy, goading, advice, hate, praise etc, it's all the same to him.
Dominic Jenkins
Wasting time on the time wasters.
Get a load of this superior specimen.
Angel Gomez
>To be done living As if you've lived before. You know your shit is not life, this is why it stinks and rots, like a corpse. You're far ways from life already, this is merely your last step. Go and do it then. But do it right atleast. The reason why you are still here with me arguing is fishy as fuck.
>I don't see how that's not a waste of my time Suit yourself.
>Because you're willing to give it to him. Atleast you're not wrong about everything.
yo why don't u just leave, go in some budistic temple, spending ur time working on ur soul and ghost. if everything dosent matter why don't u give it a shot? I mean there should be even one near where u live, and there will be always ways to get around even w/o money.
mean u only got that one experience of life, to chose and decide to grow as being. just find the strength in yourself and keep going. i think if you decide to go on, there will be a way for you to find =) stay strong friend
Carter Powell
Yes. but I literally haven't done this in years, but someone's got to point out the stupidity every once in awhile. But you're right, im out, continue on with this pointlessness if you want.
John Martin
Although I also wanna die, OP, what happens of it get quads? What happens if I get more than quads?
Austin Campbell
If I was going to kill myself, I would do it with a final purpose. I would choose the worst of society, find them and remove them from existence. With the risk to one's life mitigated by one's desire to not have a life, then taking any chance to make the world a better place is a balanced equation.
>clearly you think life is precious Sir I said >Nietzsche in spe does not realize that he is the one that creates the value. You have no power over your own fatal fantasies eh. Lost in the woods are we? Can't see the forest for the trees?
>piqued your curiosity Not any more than the seventy other faggots who make similar threads every single day. Mostly I just wanted to tell you strangulation hurts.
Mason Diaz
Implying I'm not 100% right. There are better/easier ways to kill yourself than rope, you know that right? And 100% effective.
Anthony Diaz
don't you fucks have something better to do than pretend to be superior to each other on a suicide post on Yea Forums that is currently being buried in porn as we speak?
now that being said, OP, I don't like what you're doing but I believe in euthanization and I don't believe in hell. I wish you the best, but urge you to reconsider regardless.
Levi White
Who would want to do that? Why? Also, he just spent all his money. How is he even going to get to a bhuddist temple?
Nicholas Cox
name a few
Robert Bell
Forest? What forest. My shit is a barren field. If life was a game I got started with the best conditions, the worst settings, and my two tutorial units had issues.
That's the answer I would give if I put off the blame. But the truth is I fucked up my life. And it's barely even started. Which just makes it a waste of everyone's time.
Michael Russell
>The reason why you are still here with me arguing is fishy as fuck. Because I'm waiting for nightfall to drive around tossing hard drive platters out the window across the state?
They contained everything - my life, so, I'm scattering them to the winds, never to be recovered. It's the last thing I want to do, to leave a blank slate.
Nearly all of my presence online was pseudonymous, and without those drives many online "people" have already died.
Anyway, that's why I haven't done it yet. Waiting to give an automotive funeral to my digital selves first.
Angel Lee
It does not. I have a lot of experience with losing consciousness from strangulation and when done correctly, does not hurt at all.
Jacob Morgan
OP . . . Watch this before you make a stupid choice
He is right. I also believe you have the right to choose the time, place and method of your own death.
I also do not believe in hell or heaven having held my mother's hand when she died on her hospital bed after a bowel infection went south.
Once you die, the story ends. Nothing more.
I would recommend getting into as much debt as possible and having an awesome time for you go though. Once you die, so does all your debt.
Samuel Richardson
LOL, ok.
John Fisher
>I got started with the best conditions, the worst settings, and my two tutorial units had issues. You and the rest out there. Our parents fucking winged it and so we too have to wing it.
My shit's been a wasteland too. How did I do it? What makes you believe that you can't do it?
I too had nothing but wasteland and still I made it. And me reaching out a hand makes no difference for you? You do not even attempt to take it.
Eerily reminds me of that Monthy Python sketch with the greeks sinking in the ocean while denying both that they are sinking and any help that offers itself.
Aaron Walker
oh don’t do it
Isaiah Wilson
Dude. Even if they got the data, you would just be a temporary memory stain on some pen pushers desk. You would be forgotten by morning tea break.
You are a person, everyone has faults and issues, you can deal with them.
Matthew Garcia
I've thought about that, but acts like this significantly increase the likelyhood of failure and makes it hard to do it painlessly. Also, you don't really get to reap the benefit, so I don't consider it worth the risk of failure.
Luis Flores
I tried. I did. And I wanna live. I wanna live so bad it hurts sometimes to think about it. How much I have to live for. How much potential I have.
But a set of mundane problems that I can't solve myself stand in my way. And the people "helping" me are doing nothing but patting themselves on the back for wasting their lives and dragging me with them.
I know there are people who manage to drag themselves out of the shit. But I don't know if I can. And while I fear failure, I can accept it. But success is even more scary.
And you're preaching to the wrong crowd, I've never seen Monty Python
Anthony Wilson
why do you care if someone else dies?
genuinely curious. does it remind you of your own mortality? does that scare you?
if someone doesn't want to be here they don't deserve to be held here against their will because it might make you sad
Cameron Morris
And I'm the Trashman
Zachary Sanchez
ok bye!
Luis Sanders
No, Trashman. You can't eat this garbage. I spent my life eating unhealthy foods, I'll make you sick and give you high blood pressure.
Juan Smith
Oh, I know. I could realistically just chuck the drives by themselves in a dumpster and nobody would ever check them. It's totally overkill and more for catharsis than anything
Owen Howard
What a poetical maniac. Take it your way then, doesn't change anything for me I suppose. Truly an end that speaks for your lifestyle, let's not joke about that for once.
If you do not believe in the possibility of changing yourself then nothing in this world will convince you. It's in your own hands, just as you've convinced yourself that this is the only way.
It takes small steps to become a champion. You take goals way too large for anybody to takle and believe yourself a failure if you can't do it. That's what is called a fool. And if you wish to end your life as one then go right ahead.
Shit I would bet you idiots do not even know why you are this way, hence your hopeless feeling of "having to take it" or "having to carry a weight".
I know why I'm like this. Like I said earlier, I can pawn off the blame on plenty of people. But simply put, I chose to set a series of events to make my life increasingly difficult. Now that it's damn near impossible for me to live on my own, I can either go to crime and support a stereotype and get killed or go to jail, or I can sit on my ass waiting for "someone" to help dig me out of the grave that I dug.
Come on, man. It's not about hope or circumstances or the will to do whatever it takes. It's objective reality that we're fucked and we know and own it. So we're just taking responsibility.
Yeah, I think too much. And I read. Every. Day. I go outside. I walk. I apply for jobs I know I can't get. I talk to people I'll never meet again. I achieve the little results people want. I sleep when I wanna. I eat, when I have the food to eat. I could work on my hygiene more, but none of those things are helping me. It's more than me being sad and depressed. I literally can't work to support myself legally.
William Evans
well then leave everything behind. drop that hardrives somewere as last act. then u take the buss find the nearest temple or what ever and just life a monk life reduced free of everything. its another option between crime, sucess or death. or anything that speaks against it?
Carter Ortiz
To give up a fight without knowing the odds is very foolish. - Tsun Sue
Matthew Turner
...None comes to mind right now, I will get back to you on that one.
But it doesn't change the fact that I'm not willing to continue pawning off my existence on someone else.
Nicholas Richardson
I am not OP.
Elijah Campbell
Don't give up bro. Life sucks, but sometimes it doesn't.
Jaxon Garcia
I don't have an ID. I don't have the tools to get one either. Natural born US citizen. I'm not opposed to work either. If I could get a job, make money legally without having to check for cops or come up with some hair brained explanation for where I got the money, I'd be fine. But I don't. And I can't. And soon, never will.
Justin Johnson
anything to make a difference OP doesn't understand that while life doesn't care about him, he has to care for himself. Nietzsche didn't believe that doom and gloom was the end-all-be-all, he saw that introspection and self actualization was the endgame. It is hard wired into us to desire being the best that we can be, but we're just to lazy to do it, like OP here. If I can make a difference and save your life or someone else's and allow them to go on to achieve their life's potential, then that's a win in my book.
Brayden Diaz
Post a pic of you dick with a sign that says 'for you'
Aiden Garcia
The fact that I can't pull together bus money. And that I live on the East coast of the US, so where am I supposed to find a temple? What, is bhudda gonna forgive me robbing someone to make it to his place of worship?
Parker Walker
Possession of false knowledge is more harmful than the admission of ignorance.
I'm black with a niggerish spelling of a normal name. The odds are stacked against me every time someone reads my name before hearing me speak.
Christopher Long
You're allowed to change your name whenever you feel like doing the paperwork, or making a fake ID.
Dylan Wood
Oh yea right as you had to say it. You lived for others. I told you you haven't lived a day in your life. Look at yourself. Work with what you got. Stop bending over for people you know nothing about and start living.
Same as here You say that all that shit isn't helping you and you're damn right. Because life is more than that shit. Maybe you should work on opening your eyes a little you squint eyed motherfucker.
If I get a buck for every excuse here I'd have enough drink that would probably enable me to understand that backwards attitude. Because you sure are not sober, probably you know this, judging how many books you say you read.
If you can get your shit straight for 5 minutes straight a day you're already better off than everybody who seriously believes in this bullshit. If you're not worth even 5 minutes a day then how on earth did you even make it this far. Think before you speak.
>What, is bhudda gonna forgive me robbing someone to make it to his place of worship? Yea.
Blake Kelly
OP, do you mean a lariat/lasso, cuz that's the only thing I can think of that would get the job done right.
Lucas Taylor
I wanna give you a medal. A pat on the back, something to signify that I appreciate your attempt. But I've nothing. Even this phone and the service it uses was given to me. I have no accomplishments of my own other than being a good friend, sometimes. Words are all I have to hold me together and all it takes is one unpaid bill to shut that down. So why try? Even the process of carrying on is supposed to lead to some result. But I actively find things to get into to promote growth and the only development is my pudgy body becoming slightly less fat-filled.
Evan Brooks
How do I make a fake ID? And even when I do, how will that support me in the long run?
Brayden Davis
a gallows knot (as opposed to a hangman's knot).
I tested it earlier and it works how I want it to work for what it needs to do. Tightens up, but doesn't untighten unless pulled in a very specific way that won't be possible while unconscious
Jacob Long
I wrote a long message and then the page refreshed. Suffice to say, if I took what you said and ran with it, how is it gonna help me live? I wanna die because I can't live reasonably. I don't wanna make a living if it means hurting other people as some common crook. Worst case scenario is that I end up stabbed in jail or worse.
Tyler Turner
Also both the people you're responding to are me. Excellent points if I wasn't selfish, self-centered, and typically sober. Yes I like to have a good time, I dabble in weed and I can hold my drink, but I do these things in moderation cause I don't wanna be some fucking junkie who needs a substance to moderate his day.
Chase Martinez
Thanks OP. Now post a video showing how to do that because I can't tie for shit.
Alexander Hill
You do realize I'm in that same boat as you OP? the only difference between us is I live for the here and now, with hope for whatever the future brings. I'm lazy, never an overachiever, but I choose to exist purely for my own benefit. I continue living because I have so many things I want to do. I found purpose and meaning within myself, not this chaotic and meaningless world i live in. I'm a lot like the dude from the big lebowski. I choose to take it easy and live by a set routine that is the path of least resistance, and I'm usually a chill dude irl to begin with. I don't fret for the future because I just wait around living in the here and now looking to find my ultimate purpose. You do you, but if it makes a difference, PLEASE don't do this, I'm begging you. Existing in of itself is just a means to an end, so find a fitting end that leaves something behind. Your impact may be insignificant as comforting an addled young man and telling him the world's not going to end, but that's something worth leaving behind.
Blake Green
>if I took what you said and ran with it, how is it gonna help me live? Naw man, you didn't run with it. If you did you wouldn't ask like this.
Just so so theoreticaly. You want a real exit from a fake scenario. Stop talking to yourself.
Josiah Fisher
As they say; when you've got nothing left to lose, you've got everything to gain.
I. Am not. Op. Just... fuckit, call me Jack. Jack of all Trades. The man who can do everything and yet it got him nowhere. Jack of Knaves, too foolish to see how far he's come. I'm Jack. Not OP.
I'm not talking to myself, you're not listening. I went out, and to this day continue to, go and look for people to hire me. They won't and I don't blame them. So I try and fill the void. I entertain myself. I branch out. But I have no money to live, let alone have fun. Don't be cryptic, you wanna help me? Give me something to do.
Would rather use a lariat and hang myself from a tree dressed as a cowboy in leather chaps just for the sake of partaking in some dark humor before my demise.
Owen Collins
do a flip while suiciding and stream it. faggot
Cameron Rodriguez
that's not possible with my chosen method. Streaming will likely happen
Leo Bailey
Theoretically, anything. This isn't me hyping myself up, but I'm talented. I just made several small stupid choices that had a few very big consequences. Leaving me with no ID, no hope for my little house with a white picket fence, and a death wish.
Cooper Bennett
OP here, looking for suggested streaming platforms. Needs to work via mobile
Charles Powell
if u search the internet for temple locations u will find them i am sure about that. also i am not telling you to rob some1 to get there. beleive it or not there are still good people out there willing to help you if ask nicely. if you cant bring yourself up to ask, pack a bag with food and water and start walking. take the time to think for yourself on the road. in the new enviroment about your life, yourself. what u want and what you realy need in your life. sometimes you need just to free yourself of everything that drags you down, i know that very well. but i asure you can find your inner strengh, there is a universe inside of you, waiting to be discovered. a jounry to find your true self and a deep understanding of this world and reality itself.
"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers but to be fearless in facing them. Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain but for the heart to conquer it. Let me not look for allies from life's battlefield but to my own strength. Let me not crave in anxious fear to be saved but hope for the patience to win my freedom." -- Rabindranath Tagore
Matthew Jenkins
i am in a simular situation, fighting depressions for years, sold almost all my belongings or gave them away. I was at points were life was just as borning as death, million of ways to do it. Things were i thouht i lost my self or soul. Also not beeing able to survive in a soceity i hate. Not beeing able to work proper or find jobs. No idear were to go or go to even start. Lost in all my problems and fears, sometimes it realy comes to down to what you decide. You got a powerfull mind but aslong you choose to sufer your will. I need alot of time, till i got to a point were i truley went through aweking, and starting to believe and you will the unvierse will offer you chanches to change deeply within and make changes to your habits. What helped me the most was music. To free my mind. Of regular idears how to life my life. I decide it all myself, i am my own captian willing to set the sails and grow as beeing and leave the hell behind i was trapped in.
"No tree, it is said, can grow to heaven unless its roots reach down to hell"
i think you got a good chanche right now to leave it all behind, and find out who you realy are !
I believe in you friend
Xavier Nelson
I... What? OP, just tell me how to do a gallows knot.
Hey man, don't do it, devote your life to the real problem, the people who are grooming our children to be monsters, the minorities who are destroying our country, taking our jobs, and killing us, solve the problem that way, not your way, get a neet job, work up from there, grow bigger and better, and when the time is right, blow those fuckers to hell.
I tried God. I knew for a long time he was real. I know of hell, actual hell. Scares the daylights out of me, but it's where I'm going. I'm at peace with that. But going on some spiritual Journey isn't what I'm looking for. I just wanna stand on my own two feet, as a man. I don't even want a lot. A small apartment, maybe a girlfriend. A steady income, maybe a small car just for getting to work and going to buy groceries. That sounds so good to me. Because it's stable and it's mine and it's free from having to struggle for more and more and more and more. And I limit my drug use because, truthfully? Drugs are a waste of time.
Nathan Garcia
I don't see any of that or this as a problem. This is simply a choice
Owen Garcia
You just asked me to ask myself how to do what I don't know how to do.
You are ready to kill yourself then you're ready for anything. You have nothing to fear and nothing holding you back. You are the most dangerous type of person. Go live life for real now that you have no fear. You could literally do ANYTHING because... Why not? Nothing's worse than death
Jace Miller
And there at the very end you still think about all those "wants" that made you who you are.
Daniel Jones
im not gonna make a speach to save your life, Why ? Simply because im bad at english and wont be charismatic enough in this language.
Still, I had heavy suicidial thoughts and tried but couldn't do it at the end. Was I a pussy ? Surely
I felt like you, with no purpose in life and lived shitty years in my life.
The solution is easy... You just got to move your ass and do things for yourself. I know you maybe herad it a thousand times but it's like that. Period, weak faggot.
Now that I have fixed myself some goals in my life, try to achieve them, even if it is stupid, mean, awful or just good.
Suiciding is the last step when you can't do anything but you're not there, no money doesn't mean death, it just means a shittier life.
Owen Young
I forget to add
TLDR: DO IT
Camden Harris
What's scary about death? The only thing actually frightening about it to me is the pain, which I've found a way around. I'm just as scared as death as I am pre-birth. It's nothingness - a void. Nothing to be feared.
Liam Garcia
Op, despite anything someone told or did to you, have faith. Sometimes I lose hope too, but usually I turn to God, show to him my problems and ask him to save me and solve these problems. And my he gives me strenght and helps me with dealing with some problems, sometimes the problem solve it itself. Give a chance to God to solve your life, please. Jesus loves you man.
Dylan Smith
Lots of my shit goes to my parents but what fucked me wasn't them. I didn't listen in school, I was smart so I didn't think I needed to. But while everyone else was getting an ID and a license and applying for jobs, I decided I wanted to read in class, go home and get high, drink white liquor so it passed as water in class. Look where it got me. Nowhere. With nothing. In the middle finger bumfuck with a couple of other nothings.
Leo Price
Like holy shit if you want to die, then DIE like holy shit why are you just sitting there just talking, like holy shit just fucking kill yourself, if you don't see your self worth then whats the fucking point of still being alive, get your broke, worthless ass up, and hang yourself.
I remember as a very young child I thought that God was imaginary like Santa and I just wasn't supposed to let other knows. Years later, I found out that adults actually believed that shit and I was shocked.
Ethan Ward
Same as myself pretty much. Any things that you liked doing?
I'm not OP, but I wish that was true. I wish it was that easy.
Lucas Nguyen
>I've never had a sex drive, so the whole reason for existing was kinda gone to start with - a factory defect. That's not to say I never had sex or couldn't get it, it's just genuinely not even worth crossing the room for to me. It has no draw.
This faggot is virgin
Christopher Cox
Look don’t hurt anyone else,
But def live stream it for us or no balls.
Ian Carter
You have to be a canadian citizen fuck head. Even being a canadian citizen i dont have universal insurance without my health card up to date
Lincoln Watson
Yeah, I know, both of my parents were black so obviously I went to a predominately black school, I was too busy wasting my time and not doing meaningful stuff. I was all wrapped up in the chaos of being in the hood, now I've failed everyone, i'm going to hang myself now.
Jace Hernandez
What age?
Adam Davis
NIGGER
Jaxon Wright
Kek
Ethan Jackson
What's wrong with this website these days? Livestream it you cunt
Nathaniel Adams
>never had a sex drive, so the whole reason for existing was kinda gone to start with Are you actually serious? Did this website's extreme collective obsession with sex really make you believe that there's nothing to live for aside for putting your average sized dick into the hole between the legs of your intimate partner? Jesus dude. I guess I'm too late to tell you, but dude really, there's plenty of reasons to live for everyone.
Henry Kelly
friend i think you shouldnt be at peace letting this life go, it maybe the only one u will have. the way you talk about your dreams and what you wish for in life sounds peacefull to me. Like you exactly know what u want and would need to be finaly at peace and happy with life, a point were u could rest and just enjoy having it.
hanging isn't fresh or funky enough for a black male. Also you wont get laid in heaven for sure with this attitude, even if paradise doesn't exist. TLDR: the law obligates me to say DONT DO IT MAN, NOT COOL, FUCKEN NIGGER
John Parker
I like read. I like movies and anime. Smoking weed, cigs. Drinking. I like discovering different food. Jerking off, love that.
Jason Anderson
I dont see you giving any examples
Elijah Williams
Fatty, Lazy, Useless piece of trash
Blake Brown
>The stories and information posted here are artistic works of fiction and falsehood. >Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.
sage
Brandon Johnson
Why don't you just do that then?
Isaac Brooks
Your family loves you, get help.
Blake Williams
27
Jacob Moore
ye man, you failed ur life, start the stream or stfu faggot nigger
Luke Bell
Still plenty of time to enjoy life.
Julian Brown
Ever try heroin? I mean, heroin addicts don't seem to care too much about sex, they're mostly interested in heroin. Seems to me it's the better of the two experiences.
I've tried opiates. They're a lot of fun, but the tolerance builds too quickly. It's hard to enjoy something unreliable like that.
Levi Gonzalez
yes drugs are a waste of time since they are short cuts to different states of minds for a limited time. i used them alot to think about stuff and mainly to escape my soul crushing reality. i think you should slow down on them and start setting a small goals from time to time. Trying to work towards your goals in life, i truley think you can archieve them, also i think you done a big step towards that with letting your online selfs behind. May you should start getting to new enviroments or get in a new social field. Otpions will come to bring you life onto the right way and work towards to goals :) if you truely believe in it and work hard to get there you can do it /b ro
Jack Rodriguez
This. If you are truly unafraid of death, go out doing something more epic than just hanging yourself. You don't have to kill others if you're morally objected to that, but at least jump off of a building and make a disgusting scene.
Christian Richardson
I do. You heard me say I walk, meet people, and read all day. Then jerk off for like... At least a hour all day.
Ayden Brooks
Once again, it's Jack, not OP. I'm gonna start signing at the bottom.
-Jack
Jeremiah Nguyen
I think about this a lot. I live near some train tracks. I used on go train hopping when I was a kid. I'd grab onto the rails while the train slowed down. Hop off down the road and walk back. I've a love for strolling and finding new things. But I'm also semi-homeless, in that, someone graciously allows me to leave my stuff at their house and from there they don't mind if I'm in the house or gone.
-Jack
Angel Allen
Never tried heroin. My mom has an addiction to heroin that she mostly conquered, but her drug abuse affected me poorly several times in life, jeopardized our family stability several times, and damn near got me and my family killed on several occasions with that shit. Don't do heroin kids.
Nathaniel Wood
Life is fleeting. I'm okay with that. Time flows like water and that's a fact for everyone. But I'm tired. Very tired. Life hasn't been easy, and it's cowardly, but I don't know how much more I can take. Life sucks. But it's mine and I love it. But I'm not sure I'm willing to suffer all the way through.
-Jack
Luis Lewis
Really? I was expecting younger, like me. Just 20. I was thinking of an heroing on my birthday in December.
Jeremiah Cook
My family feels something for me. I don't really feel the same intensity of love they have for me at all.
-Jack
Jaxon Wood
-Jack
Zachary Foster
You're goddammit right I am. But so are you. At least I feel bad about it and work to change it. What are you doing again?
-Jack
Hunter Ward
I don't have anything against those employed to clean viscera from pavement, but I'd rather go with the rope. You get high first. It's a nice out
Aiden Brooks
I'm gonna need to tie the noose sober first. If I'm fucked up I probably won't be able to pull it off. I don't wanna end up in the hospital again. Fuck hospitals.
I'm not, but what's wrong with being one? I never got that. Let people stick their sensitive bits to whoever they want as long as they're consenting adults.
Jace Price
Absolutely nothing -Jack
Oliver White
I hope your future path, whatever and wherever it is, leads you to peace.
Guess I'm replying to myself now. That's cool. Anybody can fill my shoes.
-Jack
Josiah Martin
I'm a queer and I like gargling juicy testicles -Jack
Isaiah Hughes
Doesn't work anymore. They put something in helium that makes you gag, you can't breathe it.
Bentley Clark
Like ether, you really need lab grade if you're going to be consuming it, for comfort if nothing else
Mason Gonzalez
Unless you have a terminal illness, there is the chance of hope. No guarantee, but a chance. Go to a hospital and throw yourself on their wishes. It will suck balls, but why not? You might look back on this time 10 years from now in a better place in life and be glad that you didn’t check out. Peace.
Ian Rogers
Jack Morrison?
Juan Thompson
You are stupid. Sex isn't the only thing to live for retard. Fucking retarded brainwashed incel.
Carter Moore
No, I never said I was. Sex is the primary drive in life - all life. It's literally just basic evolution. Life exists to proliferate itself.
Jace Butler
Post a dick pic before kicking the buket
Asher Jenkins
If you want to kill yourself you should do it, but you should make sure that you really truly want to. In your situation it sounds like you know what you're doing. People always call suicide a coward's way out, but the truth is that it takes real bravery to actually go through with that shit. I'm a coward for not doing it. I am intensely frightened of screwing that shit up and just being in unbearable pain or being permanently disabled for the rest of my life. Death is the escape. You're just done afterwards. I used to think suicide was a shitty way to end your life but these days I'm pretty sympathetic towards it. I had a friend attempt suicide multiple times and actually died and was revived each time, and I had a friend that succeeded in killing themselves when i was younger, and both of those things angered and saddened me at the time, but I was looking at both incidents in the way that they related to me, not how they related to the suicidal person. If you're life is truly so unbearable that you just want the pain to stop, then suicide should be an option. Just make sure, I guess. You can't take it back if you really succeed.
Brody Davis
I'll wave my dick around in the stream. Going to head out for my drive in a few hours, when there's not people on the roads
Kayden Garcia
i think you cant know if in the end the suffering will pay off, also i am sure there are things in live which would make you feel alive and awake again. If you truley love your life, you should give yourself a chance to change. And build a life to love and escape the hole you dig, you would regret it. Sometimes all it needs is the choice to do so or a friendly hand. consider this before you throw it away, there is always another path to take friend. If you truely tried u can still end it and you always will have that choice. So you shouldnt just rush it right away.
