I don’t have anyone to talk to Yea Forums, let’s get a cozy thread going to make feel better

>I just feel so empty and incomplete all the time. I don’t feel. Connected
I know that feeling, though this is still where i'd love to be. Maybe just have that one partner that also desires that and dont need much else.

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Having someone who is just there for you and you know loves you just as much as you love them is something I think would benefit me greatly. But I’m in no way mentally stable enough for a relationship at all. Or attractive at all, I’m basically a 20 year old neet.

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I've got to go outside tomorrow and do real life shit but I really really don't want to. I ran out of my meds two weeks ago and I haven't left the house to get it refilled.

Help. I fucking hate how even the slightest bit of effort is enough to stress me out so much and overwhelm me.

Helluva location!

>Having someone who is just there for you and you know loves you just as much as you love them
That is pretty much the only thing i've ever really wanted other than basic stuff like learning to drive or finishing school. Though now that is as likely as becoming an astronaut so all i really want now is to be comfortable, hence posting in cozy thread.
Being cozy with that person would be the best.

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another view

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My brother wants to be a women, and told me he never wanted to be my identical twin brother.

Life has never been the same ever since. I am currently in a deep depression, and see a therapist once a week. Yea Forums is my only escape

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>slightest bit of effort is enough to stress me out so much and overwhelm me
I used to mostly not enjoy doing basic errands and going to school early or work, but i still did it.
Over time those same things have become like you said. Start doing less and less of those things, retreating further and further.
Been on a bunch of meds over the years that were supposed to help fix that, but its only gotten worse other than i can take something to stop severe panic attacks. The other 98% of the day is just constant dread of everything and nothing.
Fuck i should see a psychologist or some shit. Not the ones that give meds, the ones that can tell me how to fix and listen, maybe that is all that is needed.

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nice puppies

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I am in the same boat. I can’t explain how I feel but I relate to this very much

That sounds heartbreaking. I’m sorry user

He broke my heart. But I have to move on without him. Even though the pain is unbearable. Thanks

Don’t let this thread die please :(

I am largely certain that the next step is to get an appointment set up, then i'll be obligated to go, then maybe things can snowball together. I always decide to call tomorrow, which never comes.
Some of it is being scared about having to do some shit i don't at all want to, but the rest is a near decade of doctors, surgeries, pain, medications, therapies, therapists, etc. not working. Nothing worked in the past so why would it work this time.
Plus i think having nobody pushing me and having no reason to want to get normal is a problem. No kids, no significant other, no friends, no extended family, nuclear family pretends nothing is wrong, im not a female that could get some kind of orbiter or white knight, no goals (other than to not be in pain and fucked in the head).
If everything goes well and i get back on my feet, the best I get is to get a job to pay rent and spend time on Yea Forums. Great inspiration there.

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How long have you been without friends?

Also /doomer/ ?

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A while now, but I didn't mind...

Until I lost my Identical twin brother. (I'm not OP)

I have friends, I just don’t have anyone who will talk to me or anyone I feel like I truly connect with enough to have conversations with. Every day I grow further apart from the people I am with. I think it’s just my growing apathy and general disappointment with myself and the life I am living.

Daily activities? Hobbies? School accomplishments? Jobs?

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Kek

just don't smoke in here

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This happened once to me on the redeye from westcoast to eastcoast. Maybe gods do exist.

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Schools almost out so that's good but I cant help but feel like I havent grown in any real way. Almost like the last 6 years have been me going in circles over and over again. I've never had any real good friends since middle school and reaching out to people is hard when you dont have many connections. I had a grand vision of myself coming out of this shell in the beginning of the year but that quickly fell by the wayside. I got more distant with friends I already had and shut myself out. I want this to change but I dont know how.

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I lay around all day until I decide to go out for whatever reason.
No hobbies, stopped playing music because I suck and I’m not creative. I don’t even like playing video games much anymore.
Unemployed since last August. Living with my parents still and they hate it. Especially my mom, we fight everyday almost. But lately we haven’t which is nice.
No school accomplishments, I didn’t try hard at all and barely made it though high school. I was that kid who did dumb things because he was self conscious and wanted everyone to laugh and like me but ended up being annoying and disliked by a lot of people. Now I became what everyone else probably predicted, a nobody.

Go to school user, trades or whatever you feel comfortable doing, I know what you mean and it sucks being in this sort of lifestyle, but getting a good job based on a decent profession will def be worth it, also what type of work were you doing before last august?

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Construction, the 50+ hour weeks of hard labor drained me and I was very miserable. I ended up quitting and haven’t been able to get employed anywhere else since. I sit in my room and fill out applications almost every day. I’m just useless and no one wants to hire me because I’m 20 with barely any experience. I’m debating on filing for disability and just overdosing at some point soon.

Not to over simplify, but vitamin D3 helps to increase serotonin. Also exercise helps to regulate hormones. Just giving a hopefully helpful suggestion.

are you currently doing drugs?

cozy threads are the best threads

No fuck you I ain’t gay.

You'll like trades school, go for a plumber or electrician profession, carpenter, etc...

Regularly but not addiction or anything. Mostly just marijuana and lsd. I do coke every so often too and that’s probably how I’d go about it

How do yall make and keep friends. I try every school year and I always reach a superficial level. It's like we are cool and everything and we talk during and in between classes but no one bothers outside of school. I can count the number of times people have called me outside of school for none school related issues on one hand. It ticking depressing and I hate it. When I listen to other people talk, the shit they talk about is boring and it's almost always about shit their friends are up to. Do I need friends to gain more friends? What am I doing wrong!!

amount of marijuana usage? daily amount in grams, ounce(s) a month? LSD usage?
That stuff isn't good for a developing brain, especially for someone in their 20's

Don't do coke cuz that shit can make you become addicted, especially if its cut with meth

>>How do yall make and keep friends. I try every school year and I always reach a superficial level. It's like we are cool and everything and we talk during and in between classes but no one bothers outside of school. I can count the number of times people have called me outside of school for none school related issues on one >>hand. It ticking depressing and I hate it. When I listen to other people talk, the shit they talk about is boring and it's almost always about shit their friends are up to. Do I need friends to gain more friends? What am I doing wrong!!

This is what I'm also trying to figure out :(

Im bore and horny, hey guys everyone masturbates now so that we get a world wide climax at the same time. One big NnIuUgh will be heard tonight across the whole of america come with me anons!Rub it Hard!

Usually most feel the same way, sometimes you gotta push yourself out there with someone you trust, just go do something. Everyone has boring shit to say. The unspoken man rule is don't feel awkward if nothings said. It's all good. You're good. Superficial is a good starting point. As you do it more and more, it becomes easier, but always be selective. You're fine. Your stories are dull, so are their stories. It's humanity, it's whatever. Go with it until you come to the line you've drawn for yourself, then stop. End your time with "had fun, see ya."

Sorry, just did to Jennifer Lawrence's nudes

But how, I see so many people make conversation effortlessly and interesting, most people just stop paying attention when I'm speaking, and to them I give a big FUCK U, but you cant fake it till ya make it, ya know. At some point it's like, will things ever change. Its a vicious cycle of will I ever fond a group of people who get me, people outside of my family who appreciate me, who want to spend time with me?

It varies,I really don’t know how to respond lmao. It just depends on what I’m doing. And coke is fun I hope it’s laced with something that kills me next time I do it. I hate to sound edgy but it’s genuinely how I feel

Don't give up too easily, you'll only be making your enemies happy, live life on the edge, better than becoming an hero, plus what do you have to lose? You literally want to lose your life, so nothing life threatening should worry you

Atleast your family appreciates you. I don’t have a connection with mine whatsoever

That’s just a reality for me. I can’t live on the edge when I’m not living at all. What does that even mean, what am i supposed to go do? I can’t fucking do shit. What’s the point

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That’s just not*

You gotta do something, don't die nameless

People make conversations casually because they started younger. If you didn't learn the do's and don'ts at a young age from trial and error, patents, teachers etc; of course it'll be difficult. But you work through it. From working in businesses and ministries and etc; I've had to reevaluate what's right to say and what isn't, hell I'm still learning how to read non verbal cues that people have, but I try to learn from the fuckups and awkward parts, because I have chosen to like people, as hard as it can be. You can do it, just keep it up, eventually deeper conversations happen, but we ain't fucking women. Literally. Kek. We're men. Unless you're not. Then you're whatever human, just keep being human, lizardman.

the only good advice I got from this board was the following:

do something about it now (you can at least be ugly but buff as fuck)

or else become a 30 year old neet

choose carefully :O

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Sorry to hear that. I guess I still have something to look up to. But it's still bad mate. I cant possibly imagine the rest of my life like this. I was meant for better and I dont know where but sometime along the way I fell off. I feel like I was meant to reach the stars but fell short ya know. I could've been something and I still can be but I dont know if I can make it in time.

If all else fails
join the army

Hello there brother.

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Never late, that kind of thinking is poison for the brain. You never fell off, you just tried a certain way, now try another. Living isn't about perfection, it's about experimenting (reasonably)

I fell the same way but I don’t see any interest or point in living, there’s nothing that I can think of that will make me feel any better or feel complete. I’ll never find it and there’s no point in going on anymore

Hey, nothing to do right?
Plans on changing?
Anything interesting you're currently up to or plan on doing

I could always Private Pyle myself if that happened. It’s the only way I’d get access to a gun.

>>I’ll never find it and there’s no point in going on anymore
Ok ur starting to sound pathetic

I guess a lot of this makes sense. Conversation is a learned behavior and I guess a couple of fuckups as a kid has taught me to shut my mouth past I do something stupid. I remember a time in 5th grade when a kid told our black pe teacher that he taught all black people looked the same. I had a feeling of disbelief when he said that but to my surprise, the teacher sort of laughed it off. Why couldnt I ever be this outgoing.

At that point in time you'd likely not be suicidal anymore

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Nope, just going to a party in a couple days, don't know anybody there, just gonna hammer my self senseless and try to chat

So then if you're going to just off yourself, then try something new since there isn't anything to be lost. Go to a synagogue, a mosque, church, whatever, introduce yourself. Go to a club, kiss a girl, get in a fight, whatever. Nothing to lose. Find a pet, love something, let it love you back.

OP here. I just took three trazodone and am knocking myself out. Thank you for being here for the time being.

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Random party you're going to? Try talking without getting hammered

Good night, wake up in a better world user.

You can be that out going. Anyone can, it's just being fed up with being a pussy that gets us there. I was afraid of going to uni, but I got tired of being afraid of that shit, and went for it. Now I'll be a music therapist in a year or three. Lol

hope you die

Theres you're little cozy cabin mate, hope everything works out.

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Goodnight

Never knew how to talk to people, booze just helps me to break the ice.

thanks for starting thread, mine always 404

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Went to the range and sighted in my gun. Came back and worked on my truck alittle. How about y’all?

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It helps to imagine what drunk you would say and start from there but actually being sober

ur going there by yourself or with people you know

That is pretty nice. I'd be fine with that location and 1/10 the size house.

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Played with kittens and puppy named chubbs. They're fed and happily sleeping somewhere around here.

FR tho, I have never experimented with drugs but u feel like the moment I turn 18, ima head downtown and get faded off some trees. If I cant talk sober, I'll get myself to talk stoned.

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Thanks but I can't really think like that, like I said the booze just beats my shyness senseless so I can actually socialize

Alone

I did nothing except vidya then at night I ponder about how my life will end other than that I just listened to music

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Yep, the funny shit is it actually works.

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Inhibitions are tough. What about just getting buzzed?

Sounds like a nice evening. You're blessed.

How do you guys get over the fact that you'll never own that thing you really want?

I never went to school. I'm a total idiot with no work ethic or motivation. So I'll never make good money. And I'll never have a cozy house. Or good things. I have minimal social ability and can't hold a conversation. So I'll never have a cute girl that loves me. Or any good friends. I can't even drive. I spend all fucking day hating myself.

How does someone get over this? 21 years and nothing is good. Everything is getting worse. At least when I was young people thought I'd grow into it. But now people think I'm just lazy. Is death my only option?

I don't even get any pleasure from eating or vidja. Yet they take up most of my day.

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Guess that's the next step and slowly lowering the amount of booze as time goes on.

It was fine I’ve been worse,how as yours

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Why don’t you go back to school

Try to get kinda drunk and not hammered, enough that you arent shy but still can make meaningful connections

I remember a time in my past where I could play video games alone and cope perfectly fine. I k ow it's not fro everyone but to each his own I suppose. I always played alone, typically minecraft or cod and the like, games more or less meant to be played alone. I always wondered why people seemed confused that I did so. Then someone reached out to me, a complete stranger, and I cant lie, I had more fun playing with him than I ever did alone. It's almost like once you open boxes it's hard to close. Meeting him was like reopening a void I had left behind form 5th grade. I dunno. Sometimes I just wish I could crawl back there. For just a day.

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Gonna have to try, in the worst case I will just drink a bit more I guess

When you really hate it, you'll change it through your own power. And you're 21, so you're not out of it or anything. I'll probably never get what I really want, but I'm going to try because I've had the alternative, and I hated it. Look, you feel this way because you're aware of the problems. The solution will be just as easy for you to find, the only thing in your way, is drive.

Enroll for your GED then go to a trades school or start a with a profession you have/might have interest in
Also start an exercise plan, do it at least once a week and gradually work on doing it more throughout the week

Yup, never give up until you get what you want. It's your life, your bitch. Ya know!

That sounds familiar.

Nice evening. Kitties bite hard, knuckles hurt now. But everyone's asleep. Waiting to get tired. What games do you like?

I dont know man it's hard and I'm not in a much better position than you. Just younger. Where I did see myself improve this year was with self growth. Learning what I liked to do a d building off that. I can safely say that I have a unique character when it comes to music, world views, education. I just need to find a way to Express myself better. Maybe you should take sometime for yourself. Find out what you like to do. Someone once told me that you are never naturally passionate for something. You must put in work and time to love it.

Thx, in the end what else is there to do apart from trying?

Currently I’ve been playing overwatch and r6.How about you?

Totally worth a try, one step at a time

Minecraft but I'm also a fan of bf1. It weird because eno one around me likes these games and they're all on par anyways so I'm stuck alone twiddling my thumbs as I plan my next house.

Yep, one step at a time, I only wonder where this path leads.

Being patient. Happiness is a learned skill. If you could train yourself to truly appreciate what it means to be able to breath crisp air, you'll have everything you ever wanted. Train yourself to love breathing, then seeing, then whatever else. Remember the best lives are like the best meals: prepared over Timmons and love and patience.

Because I'm too stupid for college. I have no attention span or interest in anything.

I don't have any power though. I want so much to get a job, to go to school, and get a girl. But I have no fucking idea how to do these things.

I finished high school, but I cheated my way through because my mom wanted me to. I really have no interests in anything. Everything is either boring or below me.

I know you're trying to help but I'm not like humans. I'm nothing at all like anyone.

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Getting my ass handed to me in dmc5 Dante must die mode. .. I kinda stink lol

Whole lot of trouble in the world bigger, ain't nobody wanna know your pain. The world's Changing everyday, times moving fast, my girl says I need a raise, how long will she last

all I would add this to this room is my cat to cuddle with otherwise I would be set

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Build a society

So simple yet so hard

Wherever you want really.

Look up what value most millionaires/billionaires have

I'll make it easy, it's resiliency

Being able to get back up and try again even after failing

This post is for everyone in this thread, as a matter of fact all of Yea Forums

We're all just tired of failing and have become afraid of it, so we've given up in a sense, instead we should be learning from it and not giving up

I play mindcraft what system do you play it on

This

How to get a job and gf? Rince and repeat, eventually you are bound to hit some job you like or gf you are happy with.

Keep good hygiene and just audit classes at a college. Ask the teacher to just sit in. You might meet some folks. Love yourself. You made it this far.

Comfy summer pic

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Xbox one. It's so infuriating to buy a console late into the game only to figure out everyone either has a ps4 or moved on to PC gaming. Lack of real life friends doesn't help either. In my many years of playing, I've only ever had two firends I played with consistently and neither of them have I ever met in person. I guess it's a bit of my fault for not reaching out but I also really hate when I'm left in the wind, as I always am.

Is fucking difficult... yup. But you make more progress as you try.

Just got a ps4, now the ps5 is discussed, I've been bamboozled

Its nights like these where I find myself looking back at my past with crystal eyes. You never really think you have it so good until its slipping through your fingers and you're trying to recollect the pieces. I have a playlist with songs from my younger days when my only concerns were being the top player in 4 square. I listen to these tracks almost every day, trying to remember. This one is still a banger. Feel so close.

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I own a PS4

It looks so good in the past because of who you are now. You've come a long way! Keep it up!

Might not fit your definition of cozy but winter is long behind me and I personally love a breezy warm summer, like an embracing heat that tells me everything's fine. I feel like if I told anyone what I am doing here, than I would instantly be that mcu closer to reaching my goals but alas, being vulnerable, especially like this, is hard.

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I really like the way you write. You should write more.

Thank you. Its a little side hobby of mine.

Well I just want to take this time to thank everyone for pitching in. It's not everyday you get a wholesome thread like this on the internet. Especially on Yea Forums of all places but I'm better for it. I'm not saying goodbye btw. Just glad I'm not alone in this fight. I hope everyone one of you finds what you're looking for and knows you're not a lost cause.

You too. I'll be available again Wednesday night. Have fun!