>be me, 25 yrs old, 3.5 years clean from IV heroin/meth/cigarettes/alcohol/weed (used to be degenerate criminal, changed life through AA/NA) >6'3, 208lb with roughly 12 - 15% bf, blue eyes - fall within top 5% of male population my age in terms of physical appearance >had sex with 21 girls with an avg. rating of 7.6 (my standarts are high af relative to avg. man due to my own looks, i love rejecting females that are beneath me almost more than having sex with new ones) >currently spend wholesome time and bang a 9/10, super caring and loving female. After learning about and internalizing the RedPill I set up this non-relationship so I can have sex with other woman and she remains loyal (she is lucky to have me and I will leave forever an instant if she disobeys) >excellent social skills (used to be an immigrant, autistic nerd when I was young and worked hard to develop this) >great relationship with family >tons of friends, 5 - 15 people message me daily to go out for food/ hangout, invited to events etc, very active social life >renting a super nice apartment, have my own car >was a Sales Manager at Sub-prime shady car dealership, making 6-10k/month but I quit half a year ago
At the risk of sounding like an edgelord I think I have very strong Narcissistic/ Psychopathic tendencies. I am definitely not one though because I still feel full range of emotionsand care for those closest to me. I don't reveal any of this shit to anyone in real life but I can't tell by worried/ strange looks of those close to me that they suspect something is off inside (when I don't respond in an appropriate manner and show the right emotions in certain situations).
What the fuck is wrong with me? I wish I could just be normal inside my own head. My life feels like a show I put on for others.
sounds more like you have faggotistic personality disorder to me
Ayden Richardson
From an outside perspective my life is amazing and I've worked incredibly hard to build it up to this point in the last 3 years. Inside I feel like shit every day. I wake up in so much anxiety and battle a fucked up depression on a daily basis. I have many violent thoughts (was a criminal for 8 years, been tortured, done some fucked up shit myself, being on Yea Forums and visiting Bestgore since I was 12 doesn't help) and very prone to anger. I don't act on them because I don't like the consequences (having turned 20 in jail) but I don't care about the act itself. Sometime I feel like one day I will fucking snap and I might be a danger to other people and society in general even fully sober.
I workout 4-5 times a week, eat healthy, don't drink coffee, don't smoke, shower, journal and meditate on a regular basis, have an active social life, have sex regularly but I fucking hate myself and always feel like a failure no matter what I do. To be honest I care very little about other people, I charm and manipulate my way in social situations, infiltrate social circles and climb to the top so I have access to favours/ females. I can cut people out of my life forever without feeling bad or regret. I've had over 30 friends die from fentanyl OD in the last 3 years and it doesn't bother me. I am always seeking out near death experiences (I love putting myself in situations where my life is at risk and I could die, I love the thrill). Tried to kill myself by injecting 1.2 grams of heroin in one shot while on Clonazapam when I was in the midst of my drug addiction and lost hope.
I'll bump with some random tinder sluts I matched her in the summer while I was vising a friend in Northern BC. She is originally from New Zealand and worked as an Insurance broker. I drove her around her hic town and made her climb a huge metal bridge. We talked philosophy and meaning of life.
While taking her home, I pulled over on the side of the road and started making out with her. Slide my hand on her leg - belly - breasts. Whipped her tits out and told her to jump in the back seat. She dry humped her in the back and got her excited. She told me she's never actually slept with anyone from Tinder before. I raw dogged her in the back seat on the side of the road (bad decisions but from her manners I could tell her notch count was low and chances of STD were minimal).
I'm going to call bullshit. I've known enough addicts.
Jonathan Barnes
I keep all the sluts I've smashed in a conquest spreadsheet. Quality > quantity
Samuel Bennett
Most addicts are fucking loosers and are very low functioning even when they get clean. Out of 120+ people I went through treatment with, there is just 4 of us that are still clean (and those are really good numbers). 2 of them are miserable loosers. 10+ out of that group OD on fentanyl
These are the only 2 photos I took of her as I stood over her after unloading in her mouth. Her sister was watching TV in the living room. Her room was a fucking mess. I can always invite her to come out and see me in my town. this is the tinder convo that lead to this
I love her. Got any dressed photos of her? Gonna add her to my collection.
Wyatt Powell
Post her profile pic seen on this please?
Colton Long
>The stories and information posted here are artistic works of fiction and falsehood. Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact. good luck for your therapy though
Leo Scott
She deleted her FB like 3 months ago, I didn't save any dressed pictures. I don't have it, it's just a screenshot of a tinder convo from my old phone
Here is another tinder slut. She was 18 when I first smashed her, these are from when I matched her again and she was 19.
Great hips to waist ratio. Was nice but kind of fucking stupid (was 19 and smoked weed, lacked real life experience). She told me she slept with 25 guys, I made her feel like a slut for being with so many men at such a young age. She seeked my approval strong after this
> you put way to much of an emphasis on sex, really already shows you’re fucked up. Who the fuck care man? You think it’s some sort of accomplishment? You sound shallow.
> 6k manager job, cool dude you’re still very much part of the working class not impressive.
> good relationship with your family, after being a druggy they stayed with you. This is more so that you have a good family who puts up with your shit than you being a decent person.
> I’m glad people want to hang out with you, but it seems like they want to hang out with the persona you created and not the real you
You’re delusional, and it truly doesn’t sound like you’re a decent person. You’ve clearly made yourself the center of your own world. It’s not just about you and that’s what your missing. You’ll never feel fulfilled until you can take your own head out of your ass.
Angel Richardson
She wanted to be abused, hit etc. Last I saw of her I made her cry and ruin her make up outside of her mom's house, in a parking lot of a soccer field at 10am from gagging on dick
Hehe, Fellow chad I see? I was just lurking and passing by when I saw another superior male browsing my favorite image board. I too slay many a pussy and do not care about her 'feelings'. I'm chugging a mikes hard right now head banging to my favorite blink182 song. Haha keep it real dude haha.
I fucked it up when I got a cold sore after I saw her and called her an STD whore. (she got checked and had nothing, whoops). Never bothered to mend things after that and she lived a 30 minute drive away. On to the next one
I dislike woman for their disloyalty and lack of respect. I see them as objects for my satisfaction. I do view sex with hot woman as acomplishment, i am shallow
My job is shit, that is the least advanced part of my life, I def. wasn't bragging about that part - I have to make up in other areas of my life to compensate
I am quite delusional and I never claimed to be a decent person. I don't think I am, I am also extremely selfish. How do I change?
John Turner
Wtf are you talking about?
Zachary Bell
Thank you for actual advice. I see psychiatrist but refuse to take any medication for depression/' anxiety due to past addiction issues. I am afraid of revealing the nature of my violent thoughts in case it will be used against me in the future in case I actually do something. I am looking into getting PTSD counselling from when I got tortured (the guy that did it to me got shot in the head 2 years ago, I hate the fact that there is no way for me to get back and do the same things to him)
Anyway here is one of my ex. 5'3, 110lb I'm posting sex and woman to bring you neckbeards in, so I can actually get some advice and suggestions for my mental health (+ gives me satisfaction and validation even though this is anonymous internet and nobody actually gives a fuck)
You have to make a conscious effort to change your interpretation of the world and people around you. If you’re only adding to the cesspool of scum on this planet you deserve to suffer. Be a better person, realize that the lives you negatively effect are real people who will have to carry those burdens the rest of their life. Being attractive, being ugly, rich, poor, it doesn’t fucking matter. No one, and I mean no one is better than anyone else. Do things because you know they’ll brighten someone else’s day, ask if people need help. They are small steps but you get is what you give. If you only hand out shit your going to feel like shit. Id take a long look at yourself in the mirror and try to figure out who the fuck you really are. If your going to be scum, then be scum but know you did it in a conscious effort.
Andrew White
Okay, now its getting interesting and I'm not here only to fap- but you should show me those tits, cuz still interested. So... She disrespected you? Are you sure about that? What did she do to deserve this?
Jose Morales
Why delete?
Sebastian Walker
Had to delete that post but here it is. Like I mentioned before: She disrespected me so I took action. I took her out on a perfect date, she was telling me how much she loved me and wanted to be with me. I showed her a screenshot of this image and said I'll send to all family +_work if she ever contacted me in any form at any point in the future. It has been 14 months no contact now.
She disrespected me by having sex with other men while we broke up for a year. Then she tried to make me jealous at a dinner in front of other people and I don't stand for that shit. After this I discovered the REDPILL and learned about true nature of woman
Bro... true nature of women? How can you believe this has anything to do with reality? One of your girls was a bitch, hurr durr, every woman is the same. Do men also have a true nature? So are you and me the same? Just think about it.
Also, why did you have to delete it? It does not matter, already saved, but still curious.
Nicholas Adams
I have been working really fucking hard to change my belief system to be more pro-social and to develop my empathy for other people. When I feel good, I try to make amends to society and those around me for all the harms I've caused them. If I choose to be a shit human being, I deserve to suffer - this is fair and I like it. Thank you
Charles Richardson
Best of luck man. Last bit of advice, don’t let your first impulse be what you act on. Really try to take the time to choose the best course of action not just for yourself, but for the people involved. Help make this world better no matter how much it’s wronged you, good luck.
Camden Thompson
Woman will readily upgrade their man with no empathy if it suits them. Read "Rational Male" for a more in depth explanation, it's too much to cover in a Yea Forums post. Example is this slut (who just msged me asking to see me this weekend). She lives with a guy, they are in a 4 year long relationship. He knows she does this but is too much of a beta bitch to break up with her.
She is the one that creeped me on FB and msged me. I met her man before we smashed and told him what the deal was. He said they were in an open relationship (she slept with 10+ other guys, he couldn't even get his dick hard when she brought another girl in for a threesome)
KK I'll have to go and pull out my laptop and find pics. If this thread is still alive in 30 minutes I'll post tons more. Take the psych test in the mean time, I'm very curious If it's dead then fuck it
