Depression and anxiety finally ruined my life. Basically went comatose for a few weeks, barely did shit...

Yep, hard way was too hard for me. Time to put up or shut up. Maybe I cam at least do this right

Maybe rob a bank and blow everything you make on cocaine?

Honestly this seems like a pretty boring suicide attempt

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Eh, i was thinking maybe you guys could give some ideas to spice it up, but if not it's fine by me

if you kys take the enemy with you

Dude this is gay as fuck. Use periscope to live stream

okay idk if you have any moeny less but maybe you could blast some music and light up some fireworks... id say that would be a pretty decent start

Actually maybe not periscope. White knight fags will fuck it up

if you kys make it a hell ride to heaven, make some pipe bomb steal a van hit up shekelsteins child diddling session

ive heard that if you stick something hard enough up your ass you will die eventually, maybe do that on a livestream?

Yeah I kinda wanna see this pathetic attempt of a suicide, op has no idea what he’s doing. He’s going to end up falling asleep and wake up in the morning pissing blood.

I've got just about enough motivation to go into the nearby gas station and maybe pick up some things. I'd rather not senselessly fuck up someone else's life if I don't have to.

and then what
you're dead
nothing else
darkness
dont throw away the only thing that truly matters which is your life

have you seen this pic?

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Well, the knife is kinda the actual killer, but the painkillers and sleep meds should just help make it less painful and let me pass out sooner.

go smoke some weed

ffs go outside and be around some people, hit the pub, go to a karaoke bar and make an ass of yourself while laughing about it and talk to people.

on monday make an appointment with a doctor and get your depressed ass medicated. you don't want to cos it'll change you, blah, blah, blah, yes it will, and change is what you need man.

fuck killing yourself, seriously, go for a drive, get out and around people. hit up a mcdonalds or a gas station, chat up the person behind the counter at the station, they're usually pretty cool.

have you even rehearsed it at all?
i hear all the cool kids rehearse their suicide attempts

gas can, and a rag, and teach the enemy whos land their on. their the ones driving us to war in feign lands, dont kys or do so with a reason

You should just risk awol and go to canada if possible. We are not at "war" so I *think* you will not be a desserter.

Source: 6 years as a navy nuke.

So miserable. Civilian life rules.

this is a suprising amount of sense..

serisouly ive seen people here think they know the world because they spent an above average time behind their pc and not actually being outside.
go out have some fun make friends, what is the worst that can happen? thet maybe you die for some reason? wasnt that what you originally wanted? seriously its a win win method

I'm probably beyond the rational thinking that would let me keep going. I couldn't even convince myself out of bed in time for a week straight. I've had a life. It had some positives. Now I don't have the will to keep living it without bringing suffering and insanity to myself.

that's fucking selfish. think about all the people who love you, and how your suicide would wreck them. listen to &

m.youtube.com/watch?v=I-IAb-WNX1Y

Are you a music fan?

I like these ideas, i do. But i think I'm actually to the point where I can't stand being around people anymore for some reason. Autism and general off kilterness make me pretty shitty company. I know it's my fault but I have yet to break the habits and most the people I trust have already moved off to other places. Suicide hotline was also helpful as fuck all.

And going out and doing that stuff still won't change the fact that I'll probably get tossed in jail with a dishonorable/other than honorable over just not feeling like clearing really strongly.

Hey. Stop white knighting moralfag. If the guy is stupid enough to want to kill himself theres nothing you can say to make him not go through with it. He bought the pills and everything, let him live out the rest of his life without someone bitching about how he should still be alive against his will

there isnt much point in wasting away though
you could be much more and there is nothing stopping you rather than an invisible wall
obviously i dont know you but anything is better than wasting yourself
do drugs, do whatever, any existence is better than none at all
just because you are suicidal does not mean you are irrational, you have made a choice which required rational thinking
do not feed the devil on your shoulder

Just out of curiosity, how many people are in the fort hood texas area. Figure I didn't sanitize my pics so someone could dox me if they wanted to anyway.

Get your DD214 and work for a public shipyard. I deal with fruitcake like you on a daily basis. Pay is better and all you have to do is remedial jobs and be normal. I had 2 talented POG that worked out. 3 that can't adjust to the easiest job ever. You choose.

Should also mention that part of what's got me wanting to drop before the day ends is because my lack of clearing and a few other mistakes from laxiness basically caused me to owe a couple thousand to VA loans and the army for gear I never turned in. I'm on the way down into another hard depression spiral already so i don't think i can even get a job if they let me go with just the fines and fees and the debts will probably clean me out.

i'm about 4000 miles away from you so its alright, i dont know anything about you but if someone was to dox you it would only be a good thing
do you honestly think if someone told people you knew that you wanted to harm yourself, there would be any back lash other than one of care?

i was a 42A that worked in a BDE S1 for 4 years. talk to your chaplain and ask for help, chaplains pull strings and can figure out why. or just go to your S1 if your unit allows that, mine did. dont kill yourself. I got out in 2015 and i am making 80k a year working for the state at 24 years old and i own a home. get it together battle.

No, not exactly but i guess I'm just at this crossroads where I've been failing myself and everyone else for weeks and I don't see a feasible way out. I'm scared of getting tossed in a cell for this. I'm worried about the way people will look at me after seeing this, people I respect. I'm too fucked up already because I know I've been riding the edge of people's nerves around me for a little while now and this might just be the thing that makes them give up and say I'm not worth the trouble.

I feel like a coward, and likely for good reason and I'm worried that if I don't do it now, the fall out from it will be far worse than if i do it later after failing yet again to improve my life.

Was kinda just hoping to get a few cool songs and a few requests to make it memorable or alert me to some bigger flaws in my plan I overlooked. You guys used to be cool Yea Forums, where's that edge I used to cut myself on?

You're focusing on the bad sides of life. I'm sure if you tought about it you would find a reason to live. Don't do it, think about it. If you're going to kill yourself anyway whats one more day to think about it.

Not sure if we actually have a chaplain right now that can be reached. EBH is basically filled up a month or two out. Plus I've always hated the COs and upper NCOs learning about things. They love grand standing and making a big act out of shit while still basically fucking you over to save their ass.

Despite all his years of contemplating suicide, he knew that he didn't want to die after all. As he describes it, ‘I thought, What am I doing? This was the worst thing I could do in my life. I thought of my wife and daughter. I didn't want to die. I wanted to live.' He recalls realizing that ‘everything in my life that I'd thought was unfixable was totally fixable - except for having just jumped.'

dump all ur memes or link meganz folder.

If you want suggestions, tell us what you have available.

For example, a bridge to jump off? Cliffs to drive off? Guns or other weapons?

I gave it today to think about it beyond the initial decision to actually do it. I kinda want to find a reason but nothing is really getting me to reconsider yet or is quickly rendered moot by the coming shit storm.

1. Procure firearm
2. Drug the fuck up
3. Find a densely populated area
4. Confess your love for traps
5. ???
6. Suicide.

Memes incoming
Kek'd

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You fucking asshole..

You swore an oath to defend America. You made an oath that you were man enough to protect us. You made a promise to God, to your family and your country to defend us.

You need to get your fucking shit together, wipe the fucking tears from your eyes and get it together. We need you to fulfill your promise to us all.

Kill yourself on your own time. You're still on Uncle Sam's time and dollar and you swore a fucking oath.. did that not mean anything to you? You raise your right hand and said "I got you until I'm discharged "...

You have millions of people depending on you.. do not fuck this up God damn it....

Kek

Fuck off Civ Div

until your clear you are still assigned to a unit, be it a transition unit or not. every unit has a chaplain. OP needs to check email from DPSto print out his clearing checklist and get moving so he can enjoy civilian life again and secure the bag. and anywho, who gives a fuck if his commander finds out? only HRC can edit ETS dates, not a unit. and once you are out, you are out.

Knife with a sharpener, bottle of ibprophin and advil pm, couple thousand dollars that'll probably be gone in a month, little car.

10yrs as 11B got out in 2011. Been there man, shit looks bad now, but it gets better. Call 911 tell them you have a plan to kill youreslf and an ambulance will come and get you. You'll go to the hospital and then you will likely go to an in-patient mental hospital. Think of it as a vacation from worry. Nothing bad will happen to you there. Added bonus is that a mental breakdown is the perfect excuse for not having cleared. You will be fine, it just doesn't feel like it right now. stop being a faggot.

Kek'd again

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Glad I could smile you smile fag.

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this also secures you a check from the VA that is non taxable for the rest of your life if you get the medical records from that hospital and get a formal diagnosis at a VA hospital.

Eat a bag of dicks stolen Valor

5 years Navy E5
RM2
SSBN 731 gold crew
CSG9

my bad not DPS meant MPD

Figures you'd be in the navy. Couldn't miss out on being surrounded by seamen, could you?

Blow me boat bitch

Forgot to add my
TS SIOP-ESI and SCI clearances..

What did you do, cookie?

Like when?

You already ate all the dicks

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USMC
TS clearance
medical discharge due to combat injuries

The navy is for fags. Do they still sodomize you when you cross the equator for the first time?

In those old summerfag days of yore. Was mostly a joke though since Yea Forums was never good.

Claim I need to be surrounded by semen. Then request a blowjob.

Keep telling yourself everyone around you is the gay one. That will help

OP needs to go ahead and get his clearing papers signed off on then use his post 9-11 to collect tax free BAH from local community college and dicking down 18-24 year olds while telling them about how much of a bad ass being in the army was

Are you autistic, or have you never heard an insult before?

smells like
>golden crew butthurt

eatshit navy fag. Shouldn't you be riding your exercise bike ya fat bitch.

Let me guess "force reconn sniper." They never told you in your call of duty manual USMC is the dept of Navy..

Let me guess, you failed your ASVAB

To be fair, it's the men's department.

you in Fayetteville by chance? You need to call the chaplain bro. You are overwhelmed cuz ETSing can be overwhelming and scary.

You dont have access to a gun? Id personally get really drunk, drive up to the woods and blow my brains out.

I been thinking about it

Fort hood. There's probably a chaplain somewhere, but someone will be pissed for skipping them regardless. I think I've been panicking all day and not realizing it. That said, if I live through the night, I guess there isn't much point to killing myself beyond the usual reasons. Plus now my anxiety is bugging me about whether or not I bought enough drugs to do the job because I was hoping for a double jeopardy on this one.

Right..

The give SCI clearances to people that fail their ASVABS..

You must be a cook or Harrier mechanic. That's the only MOS a fucking moron like you could possibly get.

I could have gone and bought one I guess. Gun stores are likely closed now

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bro it doesnt matter what these people in your unit think, they cant change or halt your ETS. I ETS'd under investigation because my S1 didn't notify HRC. ETS out buddy and enjoy life and find you a bad bitch to fuck on, you're a veteran, you can get a great job while going to school and have 2 incomes 3 if you go to the VA and be making 70k a year EASY

So says the guy who probably served in the rear with the gear..

Comms, actually.

Keep being butthurt that you got stuck on a boat instead of doing something exciting.

You think they'd let me even with all the shit I've skipped on? Got SFL-TAP but i dropped the course half way. I live off post so barracks clearing was never an issue but i never cleared CIF or managed to get the VA to send the eligibility thing that made it so I didn't have to pay for the class. Never did the little briefings and today I was supposed to go in for the final stuff but slept through my alarm and woke up at 11. Spent the day considering suicide and talking to the suicide line a bit. Technically, i should have returned to my unit after I dropped the class but no one but one of the nicer NCOs ever found out I dropped it.

Just go home get drunk and sleep it off. Don't do this on a whim.

Life is a trip, enjoy it. If youre not married, then you have freedom to really go out and enjoy yourself. Try new things, meet new ppl, etc

plenty of gear for infantry

>lots of rear for navyfag

stick to golden showers and exercise bikes faggot

Basically spent weeks being an idiot too busy putting stuff off, distracting myself, and bemoaning my miserable state of mind.

Technically married. More of a way to get out of the barracks than anything but we're on pretty good terms. She was a civie neet struggling to hold down a job and i was making more money with her than not so it worked out.

youtube.com/watch?v=rH9AriEezeI

go to the nearest military hospital and tell them whats going on brother. a year of shame or even a couple of weeks or days worth of military bullshit will even put a dent on the things that wait for you in civilian life. take care of yourself so you can continue being a good person and doing well for those around you while focusing on yourself. don't mess yourself over and your loved ones over for the military. use all of your benefits when you get out and enjoy life. if you are OCONUS you need that government plane ticket on uncle sam's dollar back to your HOR. if your are CONUS then you might expect someone to knock at your door if you remain in the current place off base. just do the right thing and don't listen or fall for any of the retards on Yea Forums they will never be what you are and thats a veteran in a country that respects the fuck out of their veterans. handle your business

Put the lids back on. Guess I'll sleep it off and call the hotline again tomorrow. Wonder if I'll regret this. Guess this is now a military fag thread?

Got any stories? I'll try to type up some of mine in the mean time.

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Or you could be a fucking man, show up and say "here I am, I fucked up but I'm ready to shoulder the consequences of my actions and not make that mistake again".

It's not going to be pleasant but at least you'll have an iota of integrity and will have taken your first step to being an actual human being.

you fucked up. you didn't clear, you slept through an alarm. big deal. You seem to care an aweful lot about what members of your unit think. However, when you are a civillian which is very soon, they won't matter, nor will they have any say on the rest of your life. Your young user, give it till at least 35 before you decide to hang it up. After 10+ yrs in I had a really rough go of it too. Shit gets better, I promise. You called a hotline because you want help not because you want to die. Call a chaplain, he will be an officer that will actually be able to help. Tell the truth to him about how you feel. No shame man, get yourself unfucked. I'm worried for you faggot.

what this guy said.
get to a chaplain or military church and tell them whats going on. if you end up in a psych thats your VA service-connected disability resume material which will get you paid for life tax free.

Give us some updates on things in a couple days op. Things have a way of working out eventually but that doesn't mean they won't suck until then. Until then I guess you're still a fag for being OP and I'm a fag for not pushing your an hero. Good Luck whatever you do though bro

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I second this

ya, 11B here, definately do this

>AFTER YOU ARE FREE AND CLEAR

Weed helped me a whole fucking lot.

not until after your out faggot

I'm not sure if a troll or not but I don't get suicide.

You have one life, you're gonna die anyway... eventually. So why not just live life and try and enjoy it, do something with your life. I wish you the best.

Sub or surface? Which rate? Why are there so many nukes on Yea Forums?

It's always sucked, just sucks a lot more right now. I'll probably tip back and forth for a while but I haven't done it yet so guess their's that.

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hey user, 11B here I'm glad your feeling a little better. I'm going to sign off, but I'm going to check back in. If you lurk in the evening / night I'll post a thread

>"Faggot Vets Check In

I hope to hear more from you.

What the fuck happened to this place? Talking a man out of suicide? DID Yea Forums TURN INTO REDDIT?

Hey man, if you have anyone who cares about you try to think about them, only reason I'm not dead is coz of 2 specific people, I don't want to transfer my pain onto them. No point going into specifics but I'm functionally disabled with very little going for me, on pills all the time and sleep and appetite are erratic, im exhausted 100 percent of the time, but I've persisted, you can too, I believe in you
Remember what that Chinese dude in the water says, "never give up!"

I guess some of us realised that we don't want loads of Yea Forumstards killing themselves coz then we'll end up even more lonely than we already are

Glaf to hear.

Any deployments? How long u been in.

Prior Marine 0331 here

youtube.com/watch?v=7J5JMJ0JHx4