What are your gayest sexual experiences Yea Forums? Did you experiment with your friends going up or give Grindr a shot...

What are your gayest sexual experiences Yea Forums? Did you experiment with your friends going up or give Grindr a shot? Tell us your stories.

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niggers tongue my anus on occasion

I came to this video
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his cries of pain and cute face/butt made me cum pretty fast

>13 yo cousin and i played videogames once in a while
>we would play-fight and he would start trying to "punch" my dick
>I'm like dude softer softer and he felt i always got a boner
>one day we are playing and he ends up sitting on my dick, he starts moving his ass a bit
>pulls down his underwear and he's hard too, takes my dick out
>starts jacking me off, asks me if i like it (i'm trying hard not to cum)
>we jack each other off until we cum, continue playing like always

did you go on to try anything gayer?

He sucked my dick once for a while. I'd still like to do more with him but it's scary our family could found out.

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BBC sex is so sexy, too bad it's so risky. Only do it with my couple.

i fuck many black trannies up the ass

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what was your ultimate gay fantasy back then?

BBC is a hoax.

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I use to meet up older daddy types from Craigslist and cross dress and give them head. Now I just use Grindr and give random guys head.

>Me and my cousin, both around 12 yo at the time
>We usually talk about sex, we have already watched porn (not real porn but rap clips with girls showing their tits)
>Vacation time, as usual I go over at his place and stay there for a week
>We always sleep in the same bed because there's no room elsewhere
>One night he asks me "yo let's try sucking each other"
>uh wtf ok i guess
>He gets under the blanket and puts my flaccid cock inside his mouth
>He starts to lick it while keeping it in his mouth
>Mfw my cock gets hard
>Mfw this feels so fucking good
>He stops after a while
>My turn to suck him
>It kinda disgusts me but I still do it
>Feels weird at first
>Mfw I start to actually enjoy licking his small cock
>Mfw it gets hard
>Mfw this feels so good

We stopped shortly after because we were too scared his parents would come and check on us. This lasted like 5-10 mins.

>Mfw we never talked about this again
>Mfw I'm not even gay

When I was 14 me and my friend watched porn together, we did that a few sleepovers until eventually we jacked off together but we had bunk beds so we couldnt see each other or anything. Shame it never went further but I moved not long after

That's not gay, all videogame sessions with me and my bros end this way.

Got drunk with a gay friend and a bi friend and ended up messing around. First time I ever sucked cock and I sucked two. Pretty fun, can't imagine it happening again since I quit drinking

what sorts of gay things would you fantasize about back then?

>14yo
>sleepover at friends house
>steal his parents porn vhs, we're watching it
>both fapping under blankets
>friend is 8 inches shorter than me and probably half my weight, super scrawny
>pulls out his dick, 9 inches long hard
>too afraid to do gay shit to him, but I let him suck my cock
>it's alright, and he swallows
>asks me if it's alright if he sits on it, too afraid of fucking him in the ass
>awkward around him from there on out, our friendship drifts apart, never do shit with him again

i regret not doing more shit with him. Still my most fapped to memory over the last 15 years. If you have the chance, don't pussy out like I did, young anons.

when I was younger my stepbrother and I held each other's erect penises to see who would hold the others the longest

moar

I really wanted to try sucking dick back then cause I didnt know what it was like. I considered trying stuff while he was sleeping but ultimately pussied out. I got bi vibes from him and I'm pretty sure he felt the same, shame nothing ever happened

i also caught him sucking another boys cock at a birthday party sleepover, and he pretended he didn't. He's also a disgusting tranny now, so who knows he probably was gay.

Are you me?

i sucked a friends dick once but i wish i did it more

>pic related

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you fucked up not joining in on that shit, you could have had a gay threeway

Lmao

I’m not into spanking or weird shit like that, but that was fucking hot

I have a friend that I've fooled around with. We've exchanged handies and bjs a bunch, and I've fucked him in the ass a few times.

when did you start fucking each other, how old were you both?

Not precisely gay but my cousin and I did MDMA when we were 15 alone in my room while listening to music. Things got pretty intense and we went from dude i love you, to ended up hugging eachother while laying in bed (showing some brolove). He ended up telling me we should jackoff together to see how it felt on MDMA. We put some porn and started jacking off, finally switching hands until we finished. It was pretty intense but none of us regret it afterwards.

i didnt hit puberty yet and was self-concious cause their dicks were so big. felt bad, man.

I've blown 3 different guys on grindr.
One fingered me, i made out with the other, and lastly the most hung had a cardboard gloryhole he set up in his bathroom.
i will elaborate if anyones interested, its not pre typed tho

Mid 20s. We've known each other since my senior year of highschool.

He joined the army, sent me dick pics one day when he was posted in hawaii. He visited while he was on leave and we sucked each other off.

When he was discharged he went on a road trip that ended at my house and he lived with me for awhile. We fooled around on and off for a few years. He's married now and just moved out of state, so it probably won't happen again.

gettitng creampied by some random dude

pic is me, kik: trappyfappy

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sexy, how old?

Had fun with an ex classmate from ages 16 through 22. Blowjobs, handjobs, foot worship, pissing. Fun times.

Found out I was into anal play at some point. Started with just fingers, then any penis shaped object I could find, then finally moved out on my own and bought some toys... this went on for a while. Fantasized about being fucked in the ass but guys bodies and just manliness in general is a huge turn off. Went out to the nearest city one night, got drunk, and got a hotel like I usually did as it was way too far to attempt to drive home. Decided to get on craigslist because it was still a thing. Found a guy with a decent looking cock. Chatted him up and arranged for him to my hotel room, find me bent over the bed, and fuck me. That's exactly what happened. Left the door unlocked, he walked in, fucked me til he came in my ass and left. No idea how old he was, what he looked like, or anything like that. Somehow it worked for me since I couldnt see him and get turned off by seeing him. Turned into a huge fetish. Now I've probably been fucked upwards of 50 times like that.

didnt experiment with friends growing up but i did start in my mid 20s.
kinkiest was actually just a few days ago. wore a wig, dressed like a girl and sucked a cock. he kinda sat on my chest and face fucked me a bit, which was always one of the hottest things to me in porn so it was quite fun

>raceplay shit
gross

>What are your gayest experiences Yea Forums?
Seeing this cancer posted OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN.

it's literally payed shilling, that's why the same stories about 12 to 15 year old boys fucking each other are in every thread

Side note: I've never got any details from any of them or seen a single one. Not their legs, face.... nothing. Only way I even know if they were black or white was from dick pics I got from some of them.

god I wish I were paid to do this, that would be the easiest fucking job ever. can't imagine how braindead you must be

This.

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you need to be jewish though

I still remember feeling his hands in my hair.

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Hot, moar

Did he fuck you?

he has a nice cock. any pics of the cumshot?

Does this count?

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I could feel his heartbeat through is dick.

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No. We were at a party and I would have felt awkward af with that happening with a bunch of people around.

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I fist myself all the time

No. He finished in my mouth. I wasn't ready for it to be over so I kept sucking.

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>be me, 15
>hangout with my friend at his trailer house
>long time ago recommended porn comic website
>he tells me he's been looking at it
>tells me he found a good one
>asks me to look at it
>ok
>start reading it, ive seen it before
>hes laying on the couch which im also sitting on, he's looking at me watch it
>FYI, this guy was a slut, one time he fingered two chicks infront of me
>my friends who are girls tell me he has a huge cock
>one time we were in my room with a chick, he fingered her on my bed while she spooned me, me being the little spoon
>back to porn comic
>look over
>hes stroking his cock under the blanket
>jesus that looks huge
>im worried that his parents will see it
>"We should go to your room"
>goes back to jerking off while watching me read a porn comic
>"you can jerk off too"
>"nah, im gonna go home actually"
>I always wonder what would've happened if I decided to jerk off too

aw. any tips for giving head? ive sucked a few dicks but sometimes i have issues with gagging when i try to go deeper on it

What a waste
Feel jelly

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Hot as fuck

Not the guy you were replying to, but dont be afraid to use your hand when you need a little break. Get it nice and slobbered up, give a little handy for a bit and then go back to sucking. A good blowjob mixed with hand action is far better than a blowjob that starts off great and slowly turns into a bad one because you get tired.

I dont know if I'm more jealous of you or her...

Feels amazing

Older brother fucked me and I blew him AMA

sounds good, thanks. how often do you suck/lick their balls? none of my girlfriends actually ever did that so i still dont know how it feels, strange enough

So every few years for the past 20 or so I go through a spell of finding and hooking up with guys online. Most of them are black. I consider myself bi, am married to a woman and am attracted to women, but something about getting fucked and used has always turned me on. I have found that in general, black guys are a way better fuck and a lot love to eat your ass before they fuck it.

Pic related: last cock in my ass 4/29/19

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started experimenting in an all boys highschool. basement floor bathroom had a big stall in the back where guys would jack off, suck and fuck during free periods. sucked my first black cock sophomore year and couldnt stop

what was the fucking like down there

I just wanna suck a dick and there isn't any gay people that arent creepy old fucks within 30 miles.

just saw a live cam of a 12 year brother spanking his 11 year old bros butt , climing on it and straddling and then wanking on his bed.. i'm straight but it made me hard .. why?

gay buddy tried seducing me while drunk at a party. needless to say his ass was fat and it worked. closed my eyes and absolutely stretched and railed his tight ass till i had no cum left

where you at? there definitely are creepy dudes out there, but keep in mind that most of them are just super horny, like you are, when you talk to them on stuff like grindr or doublelist

Cuz all the jews are gay?

Lost my virginity in a threesome with boyfriend and a random guy who he met online. Not the gayest experience I've had but my first gay experience

I sometimes watch porn involving double or triple vaginal

Also I often frequent adult chat sites, pretend to be a girl, and talk about how slutty "I" am, building off the questions and responses I get. Sometimes it ends up with this fictional girl having a hot as shit life tbh

raw dirty and rough. mostly sports guys ramming the shit out of each other. i was only there to jerk and suck some guys off, my ass couldnt handle that

what was some of the hottest, nastiest shit you witnessed down there? and what were the age ranges?

Been single for a while
Think I might be bicurious
Found something to try anal play with
Liked it
Would sometimes fap using homemade toys, maybe once every two months

Discovered cl
Would sometimes fap watching m4m and porn
One day decided to answer a post
Was a 59yo dude with small penis
Guy was very gentle and polite
Decided to meet him and went to his apt
Guy really was nice
Took a shower together, talked a bit, smoked some weed
Then he watched me masturbate
He approached and sucked my cock
Asked if I wanted to try to suck his
Went down on my knee (weird feeling)
But his dick felt nice in my mouth though
Asked me if I wanted to go to the bed
He put a condom on
I knew what was going to happen next
He laid on his back, so I mounted on him
Guys was nice and made me relax and slowly pushed his dick inside me
Started riding him facing him
Went for 15-20 mins of slow humping
Cummed all over his stomach
Asked me to help him finish
But I really felt awkward after I came
But I still found the courage to suck him off
He came in my hand cause I was not ready for a mouthful yet
I left as fast as possible
I never regretted it

So I found another guy on cl, 26 married and athletic
As I'm not attracted to men, this felt alot more weird to met someone of my age
Anyway, as soon as I entered, he just fell on his knees sucking me deepthroating with lot of saliva
Did not like this at all so I lost my erection and he was piss
But I asked him if I could suck him
As soon as I started sucking him I was rock hard
But he didn't like my inexperience..
So he bent over in doggystyle and asked him to fuck him hard
Fucked him from doggy to prone
I was fucking him as hard as I could for at least 5 mins
My 7 inches really did the trick cause he came from anal orgasm
He did not help me finish and just wanted me to leave so I left

This was about 2y ago
No girl atm so I might find a old guy

Come to Chicago, I'm 41, we can fuck all week.

When I was about 10 or 11, had a friend that we would always play with, video games, etc. he would like to always pull down his shorts and show everyone his little dick. Never did anything about it but for some reason I could never stop looking at it when the shorts would come down. Then another time around the same age, girls gone wild commercial comes on tv on the old mtv 2 channel while sleeping over at friends house. He’s wearing basketball shorts and stands up and points to his erect dick and starts asking me if I jack off etc etc. none of that went anywhere

>use cam site to jerk off
>always put on a dress and some fishnet tights that a friend left here when she stayed over one night
>sometimes too shy to show off
>really get into it when i find older dom guys though
>came in like a minute one time when i found an older guy slowly jerking off
>told me to jerk off hard
>kept calling me a little slut and saying he wanted to see me shoot
>"cum for me"
>instantly blow my load
>tells me to get up and finger myself for him
>end up on my back with my legs in the air and my feet in view of the camera fingering my butt until we both cum again while he dirty talks me
i'm straight though

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two years ago while gf was out of town i went to a party hosted by a gay friend of mine. got too drunk to see straight so crashed on his couch. next thing i knew, i was brought out of unconsciousness by a very firm pressure on my asshole.

i lifted my head up to see what was happening and immediately had my face pushed into the cushion as i felt the head of a hard dick pop into my (very) virgin ass.

here's where the gay part comes in. i pretended to pass out again, but had actually cleared my head enough to understand what was going on. and let things continue to see what would happen. in short, he stayed hard for a very very long time and wasn't shy about fucking my ass hard and fast. i suspect he knew that i was at least still semi-conscious and feeling him inside, which probably made him all the harder.

finally, after who knows how long, he came deep inside me, wiped everything down, and the next morning pretended like nothing had happened. as did i, other than my still-throbbing cum-filled ass.

never did share w gf, blame me?

>Be 2 weeks ago.
>Feeling super horny.
>Be "straight"
>Open Grindr account.
>Guy and I start talking.
>He convinces me to come over to his place, dude seems chill.
>Uber there, but when I get to his door, I only see half a face and an arm opening the door curtain.
>I panic thinking I'm going to die, and leave in my Uber.
>I get messages trying to convince me to go back.
>Be today.
>He messages me asking if I can come over.
>Tell him I'm busy.
>He throws a fit.
>Says that he got some good pictures of me on his door cam.
>Calls me cute.
>I'm scared.
>Help?

>Valentine's Day 2018.
>Find out one-i-tis has a secret boyfriend (long story)
>Fall into a deep depression.
>Open up Grindr for an ego boost.
>Decent looking italian guy messages me, and he tries to talk me into hooking up.
>I tell him I'm just there for the ego boost.
>He insists.
>I delete app.
>Hours pass and I'm bored.
>I download the app and he messages me again.
>We started talking, and he tells me that I am not the first straight guy he has done stuff to do. That nobody has to find out.
>I find myself telling him to go to the restroom on a lonely building on campus.
> I am frozen.
>I go into the restroom and he's already there waiting for me. Our eyes lock and my head starts swelling.
>He smiles and motions me to the handicap stall.
>I take an eternity to begin moving, feel like running out but I would feel awkward to do so.
>I feel like I'm going to pass out. I am not in the stall and he sees that I'm motionless.
>Goes for the belt buckle and starts removing my underwear and jeans.
>As my underwear goes down my legs, I feel so vulnerable.
>His mouth begins blowing me with precision and experience.
>This feels good, but I still can't believe I'm doing it.
>Start thinking of all the people I know and what they would think.
>He starts raising my shirt with his palm, and starts kissing my stomach and chest.
>"Wtf is going on"
>I suddenly feel his hands squeeze my ass.
>My penis begins feeling warm.
"Your ass was meant for fucking, user" he says.
>He gets naked as I'm trying to not explode all over myself.
>I turn around and I can feel his head rubbing on my ass, playing around with my emotions.
>He grabbed my sides and I shuddered.
>He began to position myself, and I suddenly felt his hands reach for my shirt and began to remove it.
>What followed was initial pain and discomfort only for it to be replaced with grunts from him and a surreal feeling on my part.
>I still have fear approaching women. Never did it again.

>Uber there, but when I get to his door, I only see half a face and an arm opening the door curtain.
i think you just panicked bro. ive done the grindr and craigslist thing and i get it, it can be scary. but it sounds like this dude was just waiting for you to arrive and looking out the window

Yeah, that's what he claimed. I had lied to him telling him my friend was bringing me over with the idea that it was a Tinder date with a girl, just in case he was an axe murderer. Dude hid cause he thought I wouldn't want my "friend" to see him.

I'm still horny and curious, but glad that I didn't do it, though.

Been nailing a trans girl a lot lately. She's super self conscious about cleanliness of her ass, which I care a lot less about... so she claims she isnt comfortable, but I tell her in no uncertain terms that her asshole is a cocksleeve, and im going to fuck it if she wants me around.

That bossy sorta force turns her on like mad, and I have her bent over in no time. Still not one accident. But I wouldn't stop even if there was.

i've been sooo on the fence about doing exactly what you shared. can you explain why you're glad you didn't do i tho? i've had my reservations for obvious reasons..

While I was headed to his house, I begged the universe for any sign that would tell me to not do it. ...and funny though, I got plenty.

Something about approaching his house (although it was modest) felt wrong. I was intimidated by the fact that I was walking into a situation where I had only seen the person by picture rather than someone who I had established in-person rapport with.

...but then again, do I really want to establish rapport on such an intimate matter? It's a double-edged sword, and maybe something my upbringing hasn't prepared me for.

clear as a bell, makes a lot of sense. here's the key follow-up: would you try it again under diff circumstances? if so, what would be ideal scenario (rent a hotel room, for example).

age?

Where’d you see this

Beats me.

There could be certain situations that I could be open to such as a big city such as Vegas, talking with someone beforehand, deciding to meet, and checking out the vibe. Feels easier to check out in a public hotel if something doesn't feel right.

Or one day (like today) I might just have a spur of the moment urge and just get my cock teased in a restroom somewhere.

Sexual urges are complex.

bro that is not bait you wanna fall for

it helps to talk before, even if its just dirty talk. you can feel most people out by how they act online. there are definitely creeps out there and be careful for sure, but most dudes just wanna bust a nut.
all the guys ive had over were pretty polite, some were shy even. kinda funny cause i was dressed like a turbo slut with a wig and stuff

yeah, i've done dirty talk before online.

and the dude that almost got me was pretty chill online but my spidey sense went off in person.

it's funny, i was ready to let him take me to nirvana and then it went away.

well its alright, you can always try again. theres just probably always going to be some anxiety

we'll see!

i might try something today.

i haven't quite made it as far as downloading the grindr app, but am close. were you ever approached by straight / bi-curious guys?

im looking now but its late and no one is awake ;_;
approached, like in normal everyday life? no, i guess im a closet sissy. i have not used grindr but i use doublelist and dress up and meet guys on there. ive met i think a total of 6 guys over the years on craigslist and now doublelist.
just started dressing up for them too, its very exciting

a few.

i had to say "no" to one because we might share friends, and even if he's discreet, it's not something I want to mess with.

Another one went AWOL, and he seemed eager to try more since he had recently only kissed and gotten his ass touched by a guy off of Grindr. Dude disappeared from my contacts, though.

Is this a makeshift, Gay Boi thread cause I’m down. Reading some of this story’s are making me hard as hell lol.

haha, I wouldn't try during the night. Seems like a recipe for murder. Daylight is your friend.

...and nah, not in person. People are rarely that forthcoming.

I've got many stories from my late teen years, but the first one that comes to mind is this one time my best friend caught each other jacking off and didn't stop
>be me
>just woke up
>slept on a blanket on the floor to give friend my bed
>look over, think he's asleep (he wasn't)
>fuck it, I'm going to jerk off
>do that
>about 10 minutes later, I hear the bed move, and look over (I was facing away from him)
>lock eyes
>stare at each other for about 10 seconds
>we both simultaneously decide to say fuck it, and go back to jerking it
we both finished, and started our day. nothing really came of it, but we both found it funny as hell

I keep waiting for some more summer camp or boy scout stories...

Whatever happened to that one dude who had the story about his "girlfriend" at summer camp that turned him into a little cock hungry slut? that shit was legendary, I hope it's archived somewhere...

I realized I want some D and started looking for one at russian Yea Forums. I'm kinda autistic so I ignored many anons after texting for a day or two. Some time passed and I manned up and here we were drinking some vodka to relax and started undressing. We sucked each other in 69. His dick was wonderful. Average size but there was so much tasty lube leaking I could feel it in my throat after a day. I fingered him and started fucking him. After couple minutes I realized I do not like giving and my dick shrank. I told him about it and it was so awkward he quickly left.

After a year I invited another guy to suck his dick and to fuck me. I was so good he didn't believe I had almost no experience. The most gay part was that I couldn't take it in the ass because on day before I wounded it playing with some bottles and my fist.

I hadn't suck any dick in 2 years now because autism and I hate myself for it

meh dont get too beat up over stuff like that, these things happen with kinky sex stuff. lot of people might be 100% convinced theyre into something when theyre super horny, but find they dont like it as much when they actually try it.
sounds like youre a bottom. go out and have fun! suck those cocks

did you feel regret after you realized it wasnt for you the first time?

i've spent forever trying to find an archive of the original thread that Movie Theater Lad pasta is from, four posts just wasn't enough to fully convey how great of a thread that must have been.

Just a bit because he was so cute with his moans and body movements while I fucked him but my cock didn't find it sexy. But it's ok because his cock was awesome and I got to suck it and understand that I love doing it.
>go out and have fun!
Will do!

Also want a link to that pasta if someone knows where to find it.

Go on...

>be 10 (if I remember well)
>best friend at your home
>be terribly perverted
>ask to my friend if he know how is to have sex
>he say no
>ask him if he wants to try to have sex with me
>he say yes

Asked my friend to have sex with me so I wouldn't be a virgin anymore when I was 25. He told me to fuck off and now I don't have a friend anymore.

and then?

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Is there a good spot to read about first time gay experiences besides Yea Forums?

Hey, I have fantasies about having sex with virgins. Where are you?

Fuck, wish there was more to that. Thanks.

It's too late for me I have accepted that I will die a without experiencing sex and I'm happy with that.

why not? assuming youre not a total creep, id let you put it in my butt. seems like it would be fun to do it with a first timer. where are you from?

Hey, I asked him first!

well i guess we have no choice but to fight to the death to decide who gets his virginity

A "straight" guys first gay experience is always so hot. There's a little guilt, a little shame, and shooting a load bigger than any you shot with any chick. The first time I got my dick sucked by a trans, I came so hard I shot all over my own face while sitting up.

i know, it pains me that there doesn't appear to be any sort of archive of that thread, there had to have been more questions that the guy answered.

>a load bigger than any you shot with any chick. The first time I got my dick sucked by a trans, I came so hard I shot all over my own face while sitting up.
yes! i almost hit the ceiling when i jerked myself off with another guys dick in my mouth. i also regularly hit my face when just sitting in bed. its fun cause i never had huge loads before but now they are quite big and orgasms feel great

Imagine beign gay, and fappin ti this, faggots

how long does the guilt last/what makes it go away?

Genital jousting it is!

Once you've got a throbbing cock pounding into your previously virgin hole, your mind kinda shuts down and just accepts what's happening. Once your mind melts and you enter that cock hungry state, you don't regret much, suddenly.

I imagine all this at least twice a day

Im the guy you asked and honestly it goes away pretty quickly, but then you start to think about what you did and you get horny about it. It's fun and excruciating.

bedtime bump

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God I wish someone was out here in Oregon that wanted to meet up in the next few days..

This is true for me as well. I alway heard of becoming cum or cock drunk, thought it was total bs until it happened to me