I feel as though i have two personalities, one resembbling my father, who i hate, and one resembling my mother...

i feel as though i have two personalities, one resembbling my father, who i hate, and one resembling my mother, who i feel a deep guilt towards. What inferences can you make about me from the fact that i would view that as strange? or that as strange?

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you are a faggot. at least make a decent thread.

You’re a trap

Wanna talk about it more?

Sure, what do you want to know?

Were you abused as a child?

I don't know for sure, honestly, but I feel like I was. My stepfather regularly threatened me, and I recently learned my mother was diagnosed with depression when I was a child.

Well uh if you were genuinely worried about your safety due to the threats, then that is abuse.

Depression is tricky in that it increases the risk of neglect due to apathy or abuse due to frustration.

Is any of your parents nice now?

Yes, they both are. My mother is incredibly nice, to the point of extreme selflessness when it comes to money. I understand that her financial generosity towards me is something that i am extremely ashamed of, and it definitely affects teh way i see her and our relationship. i'm sorty of rambling, i think.

Does her generosity cause her economical problems?

Have you always felt guilt towards her?

Youre not rambling really. Just sounds like you havent sorted through your emotions.

>Does her generosity cause her economical problems?
Yes, I believe this to be the case.

>Have you always felt guilt towards her?
I don't think so, no.

>Youre not rambling really. Just sounds like you havent sorted through your emotions.
Thats good to know.

Hmm. How bad is it, is your mom deep in debt?

Do you have any siblings?

Yes, my mother's wages are being garnished by the IRS. I learned of this recently.

I have two, a sister about 5 years younger than me and a younger brother, about two years old.

autistically worrying that i may be writing my own dox or something retarded.

Ehm as long as you dont start sharing town or something its hard to make anything to identify you from that. If you want I can start my computer up and check my throwaway email addy so we can talk more private.

Okay, having money garnished from IRS is problematic.

Do you have a way to handle your economical situation without her help?

This works for me, but in case the thread dies randomly, here's a temp mail address: nati (at) 3mail (dot) rocks

That you are a retarded piece of trash who never became a person of your own and wont accomplish anything in your entire life.

kk, sent an email

And I crawled out of bed and started the comp, lol.

I should grab some breakfast :S

>Do you have a way to handle your economical situation without her help?
Yes, I've been extremely lazy in my job search. This is getting embarassingly personal, at least from my point of view. I have several items that I can sell, but I've been half-assing selling those away.

This is an accurate descriptoin of all my thoughts about myself these past few days. Thank you, user.

Oh.

I'm not trying to embarass you. If you feel you can do more to job hunt, then the solution it to stop focusing on guilt and instead make tasks directed towards finding jobs you can do.

Guilt can be debilitating and make it harder for you to get a job, so it's not necessarily helpful.

If you instead set a few tasks a day (or a week) to do that take you closer to getting a job, then you can do those and tell your guilt to shut up afterwards.

Selling stuff is a short term solution, so it's more important to focus on job hunting.

Check your spam filter btw :S My mail might've gone there.

I'm realizing now that it isn't really something important that needs talking about. I just need to stop being a piece of shit and start taking my life and responsibilities seriously. Thank you for talking.

xP

If the problem just is that you're having trouble getting things fixed, then the solution is to do that, sure.

If you have debilitating guilt, that's something you might wanna discuss with someone though. It could be due to trauma.

>If you have debilitating guilt, that's something you might wanna discuss with someone though. It could be due to trauma
Yeah, I'll definitelypursue professional help once I get my life sorted out.

Alright :) Take care man ^^

I have PTSD from parental abuse myself, that's why I care :P Anyways.

Don't put yourself down. You're a good person. It just kinda grinds at one's self confidence when you're looking for work. It's icky business.

I'll stop following this thread, but email me if you change your mind and want to talk ^^ We can talk some about my stuff first if you're worried I'm trying to dox you.