How do I stop thinking about dicking my 5yo cousin...

How do I stop thinking about dicking my 5yo cousin. She's precious as fuck (she called me hun for the first time today and I d'awwed so hard internally) and I never want to do anything to hurt her but it feels like it's getting worse by the day. Can't talk to a shrink (obvious reasons) and too poor to move away, so my only options are vagrancy(which I likely won't survive) or suicide. She's pretty attached to me and I feel my death would cause almost as much trauma as the eventual rape/grooming that would occur. How do I do as little harm to her as possible.

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wow, this is quite the case op

here's the (you) you requested

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You need to realize that it won't be worth it, if you touch her you are going to ruin her life you need to suppress these feelings, not with drugs or alcohol but go talk to a therapist, don't mention you desires as this can get you arrested but you need to get rid of these emotions

>realize it isn't worth it
I already know this and if it gets to that point of no return I'll end myself before ruining her. She will be sad but dealing with the loss is a lot better that ruination.
Also how the fuck am I supposed to get help from a therapist when I can't tell them why I need help?

Do it faggot

what the fuck is wrong with you. fucking reported faggot. get a life or kill yourself you disgusting pedofuck. stop posting images related to something actually valuable in this world. the fuckin KB of ram it took for my shit ass computer to load up this fuckin thread is more worthwhile then your entire life. please just fucking kys. there is no room for pedos in this world.

Fap away your rape urges.
That's how I go through life stopping girls from getting raped.

Get a therapist user

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just kill those feelings just put them away in some forgotten part in your mind and slowly let it fade away its not as hard as it sounds

>I read the first sentence then got mad

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based

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op stop being a faggot. just.. just stop

Just wait till she's like 12 then it'll be basically legal

Broadly speaking

If you are totally serious, talk to a shrink. Try to separate feelings of affection with sexual desire. Tell her parents so that they can keep you away.

That only goes so far and my fap schedule is really irregular. Some times a couple times a week, some times a couple times a night. It never helps though. I've fapped the night and morning (both) in anticipation knowing I'd be interacting with her and still had urges. I've literally came on the ground between her feet ( got her to turn around distracted so I could pull dick out and not mess my pants). I literally still have the paper towels in my shorts because she was playing with me earlier and its a precaution in case I cum while playing with her.


How to go to jail, part 1: Tell someone you want to fuck a 5yo

You forgot the alternative

S C I S S O R S , N I G G A

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OP...

Eventually, you're going to kill yourself, shoot up a public place like a mall or school, or you're gonna finally give in and rape a child.

Just go ahead and kill yourself now. Stop turning our perfectly good food into shit. It's time to die.

IN THE NAME OF THE LAW

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I'm trying to move out but I plan on telling them when I do eventually leave (otherwise they'd probably have me watching them which is a bad idea) too paranoid for shrinks though.

Her parents are taking me to the store though so I won't be answering things for awhile.

Just dick her once and kill yourself, your existence already sounds like shit might as well get an ounce of good outta it

Post pictures of your cousin's friends

Just wank my dude, loli or something if the urges are that bad, just supress them ._.

hypnosis

Kill yourself

If you're going to kill yourself, you may as well duck her multiple times. You would probably need a joseph fritzl style dungeon, extensive research into sleeping drugs, etc. All a lot of effort.

You may as well just jerk off to trap porn until you forget her smooth skin, and the innocent wetness that would blossom between her legs if you only reached, or the childish earnest, playful enjoyment she'd suck your dick with if you gave her the chance. Just put it all behind you

>How to go to jail, part 1: Tell someone you want to fuck a 5yo

I don't know where you live but if you never actually do it then you haven't commited any crime that would lead to getting thrown in jail

>d'awwwed interally
i think you need to reevaluate what turns you on sexually and find out why.

seek help

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Once you get to know her as a person, as her personality develops, these desires should go away.

You could just stop being a deranged fuck?

Just go to the philipines and buy a 5yo you cuck

Dirty faggot cunt

Why is talking about pedo/hebephilia illegal to talk about to a therapist? Like, you want help, not get arrested, but talking about the thing you want help WITH is what will GET you arrested.

Genuinely curious, because that's a goddamn catch 22 if I ever saw one.

if you seriously don't have the bare minimum self control required not to rape a five year old then it's already over, hit the gas and drive into oncoming traffic
If suicide doesn't get your dick hard then it's time to talk to the shrink or register yourself, noboody will bring a child near you again

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These desires will never leave you. You don't have to sex her...just rub your hard cock all over her sweet smooth skin. You will have the most powerful orgasim ..shoot it all over her...if you do it right she will wanna play that game again

Chemical castration seems like a good solution. No pedoshit, no suicide.

Yeah. Doctor patient confidentiality is a myth.
But if ur in the hospital. Tell them the drugs you take. They dont care just want to treat what you have and gtfo.

you're doctor can only talk to the police if they feel you're likley to commit/are putting people in danger. otherwise they will respect the confidentiality.

they're subject to law otherwise

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Kill yourself

>my death would cause almost as much trauma as the eventual rape/grooming
bullshit you fucking fagg, don't use excuses you coward. your mere existence in this state is an abhorrent sin against all that is natural and living. fucking kill yourself, everyone will forget about you in a week. your a mistake and you need to correct yourself with a shell to the back of the head

get your shit together nigger and quit your bullshit

Early childhood sexual trama is detrimental to child development. DON'T ruin her lIfe because you can't keep it together

No.

Your options are SOMEBODY ELSE.

Get lost pedo.

I was anal raped as a child...and now I analy rape every child I can...if it's good enough for me it's good enough for everyone..

OP here read thread here are some assorted responses

>fap to lolis, avoid urges
That's what I do, but it only works so far and it's working less and less over time
>discussion about patient/doctor confidentiality
They are required to inform the police of all thoughts/behaviors they believe will lead you to harm others or yourself. Pretty sure I'm that far gone and don't want to risk it
Well wouldn't be much further that what I do now, which is pseudo dry humping with paper towels in my pants for the mess
As much as I'd like to believe that she got sad when I had to go to the store because she wanted to play some more and tries to play with me every chance she gets. I make her happy and in the end that will be my greatest regret. I'm gonna cause her damage no matter what I choose.