My life is a fucking mess

I drink whiskey and take sleeping pills every night, five years running. Highly recommended

Get a fucking job, then. Work the cash registers, flip some burgers, whatever.

Stop being such a deadbeat and put forth the bare minimum of effort.

lolanother whiteboi gonna kill hemsefl.....

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Why? So I can continue to suffer but with extra spending money?

fag. get on a shipping boat and travel the world. pick up skills and languages and learn to help people. if you can't enjoy the world for yourself, make it better for others. your parents will just hate you even more.

That won't kill you.

Buy a whore for 100$ when you get to japan and stop feeling sorry for yourself. You Were trained wrong as a joke but you're not ugly. Live your life and stop fearing the unknown. SEVERAL bitches would marry you if you would lower your standards

he obviously is too narcissistic to do a job like that and people have obviously told him to do such. that doesn't help.

It will if I take enough.

Doubtful. When I tried a whole bottle I just woke up 15 hours later super dehydrated.

Then I will jump in front of a train

Why japan, weeaboo in life, weeaboo in death?

Seriously now. Your 28. So much will change in your life. Don't hurt yourself just give yourself some time to work through this stuff.

Why? Literally why?

There's no meaning in life

Someone else's meaning is nothing to you. Make your own.

Smoke more weed dude.
Buy a escort and hold her hand.
Apply at Mcds faggot
Share weed make friends
Sniff panties from vending machine in Japan.

Problems solved

I just went on a date for the first time in years. We met at a pizza parlor near UC Davis and really hit it off. She looked nicer than her pof profile. Had a few beers we we're really vibing I could tell she was sexually anxious by the way she repeatedly was sliding her ring back and forth. She could not take her eyes off me. The sad part is I didn't kiss her on the first date but we went to see a movie and I eventually put my hands on her thigh, around her and eventually started rubbing her crotch area. Does this mean I can get that second date?

Im 28.

I had an amazing life, banged a ton of girls, had nice cars, had money, worked little, had tons of friends, etc.

started shooting heroin around age 21 and lost everything. I now suffer from a disease called arractnoiditus which causes the nerves in my spine to stick together.

I can barely walk, im on a ton of weird drugs that fuck up my body, and all I do is play games on my laptop. I have fluid in my brain and im probably going to die soon.

I can die saying I lived a great life, a long time ago. Does that make me even a little bit happy that I was able to experience these things?

No.

In fact it's even worse because I know ill never be able to do any of it again, or at least even feel comfortable for a single day without having my brainstem swell or back little feel like its going to break in half.

Moral of this story, be grateful that you're HEALTHY because I would give anything in the world to simply be healthy. You'll get laid eventually, and if you simply try to life a normal life, apply for a job, save your money, the material things will come. Fuck friends, it's 2019 and times are different. I think of death every single day, and not suicide, it just happening. It's scary but ive come so close several times that it's actually not that foreign to me anymore. Don't feel bad for me, not like anyone would anyway it's just the internet, but i'm telling you man, it saddens me that healthy people want to kill their body. Give me a healthy exterior and I would simply go GET what I want, sitting back and complaining saying to yourself why, why, why, doesn't do shit dude.

Apparently I also have multiple personalities because I don't remember writing this.