What do i do if Im dying and god is forcing me to die slowly and miserably?
>live in shitty poverty house with parents
>entire thing is 300 years old and broken down
>house leaks all over when it rains
>probably full of shit mold and shit
>scared its full of lead paint and shit
>wind is always blowing 3000000miles per hour
>wind comes right through my window 24/7
>scared its lead paint filled death air or something
>scared my room is full of toxic mold
>ALWAYS tired
>like always tired
>like tired light headed spinning confused slow cant walk right fumbling
>always look unhealthy as fuck
>look like a pale sick dying cancer patient
>eyes are always completely black ring covered sickly looking cant even go out in public
>always too tired to function just waste every day being tired
>every time i find a way out god strikes me down
>entire house is cold and depressing so stuck in my room where there is probably concentrated death air
>parents too retarded and too poor to ever fix or do anything
>house isnt even worth fixing its so old and shit all it will do is crumble and decay
>no one would ever buy it not even worth the price in repairs the property value is so worthless out here
>god constantly strikes me down and ass rapes me and traps me here
>wasting my entire life being tired and stuck with my poor shitty parents miserable every day
I just feel more tired inside my shitty house and like my eyes sting
