Hi
I think I might be addicted to cocaine.
Anyone else here feel that they may be in the same situation?
Its been a few weeks now and I've spent quite a bit of money on blow and I could have spent that on other things, or given it to my family, or put it in savings. But I didn't, I just kept buying coke.
Inb4 kill yourself, loser, druggie, junkie, loser etc.
I don't think anyone else knows and I know I need to stop. Would benzos help? I'm not gonna start drinking again.
What kind of moron am I?
Well I vape.
You should seek help.
As someone who knows a lot about that life, you better take it more seriously. You will be ashamed but tell your family so they can support your recovery. That's what family and friends are for.
Either that or keep it a secret, and eventually start smoking crack because it's "not that big of a deal, and its the same thing + baking soda" because sniffing so much coke starts eating away at the cartilidge in your nose
but what do I know
For the vaping or my liking seagulls?
First it was constant weed smoking, then constant drinking till I almost killed myself twice in 4 months, now it's coke, and probably benzodiazepines next or some kind of tranq.
I feel like I'm on a path to disaster and dont know how to stop.
If I don't do coke in the day I become a different person, have to get away and do a bit then I feel "normal" and everythings cool for a bit. Then the cycle resumes.
What the fuck have I done. Fuck.
If it’s only been a few weeks you can stop with some effort. Try and avoid people you do it with for a while. Avoid the situations that make you want to do it. The patterns of a habit are probably pretty recognizable to you so be honest with yourself about why you were doing it in the first place.
Coke is one of those drugs that opens 9 bad doors for every good one. Not worth it.
If true, just taper off and fucking do it. No easy solution. Trading for benzos? No. I’m trying to get off xanax. No fun.
Everyone goes through addiction. People who call you that are hiding theirs or will become an addict someday themselves.
My drugs of choice are weed and alcohol, I don't fuck with coke. I was the same way though, blowing through all my money. I was nasty to my family about it, too.
Don't sweat it, you'll get over it. Even if you have to go to rehab like I did. When I went, it was the best 4 months I had in a long time, maybe even ever.
Yeah, pills these days are really addictive. Never tried any benzos, but I had friends talk about how much of a bitch it is to quit.