fuck guys. here I am again. I keep deleting my porn stash, and trying to go clean, but I always end up back in the same spot... No not on Yea Forums.. Just where I'm at in life now.
You see porn isn't good enough for me since I been addicted to it for over 20 years. It has to be OC stuff that I find myself, and only my eyes and perhaps in some cases 1 or 2 other eyes have seen. Because I took it to the next level, and I built my own method to "Enter" into almost any account I want with a very high success rate. I have my own code and my own ways, and it works, and its diverse, and it took me many years to get it all to the point it is at now...
I deleted all the code so many times.. But after months of resisting I always find myself on a binge spending 2 days straight building the components and code again... It's so intricate and time consuming...
And then boom I'm at it again. Until the guilt and the patheticness of my existence overcomes me and I delete it all again.
In the past 7yrs I have easily been in 10k accounts... Sometimes I think about monetizing it somehow, like sharing my secrets and my method for a buck, just to make it seem like it wasnt a total complete waste. But then I dont want others to do it, also that would be too exposing. Other times I think about just killing myself. I can feel my body and my spirit dying anyhow as I keep going down this dark hole... Fuck... it's 2019, very few people in the entire human history could ever begin to understand my plight.
There is porn addiction, and then there is THIS addiction. It's too good... In some ways it's like a dream, getting to see all I want, and never exposing anything, no one even knowing that something happened. I suppose this happens more than I think. There are probably several "ghosts" out there, looking at all the secret stuff you thought no one would ever see. Thanks technology, I have fucked myself up good on you!
Dude... I just told you I'm as unhappy as a person can be. And you want to jump in?
Luke Richardson
Also I had no teacher myself.. I just had this burning desire to make it happen and the belief that it was possible. And my brain pioneered the way for me... After like I said many years of trail and error. My skill is damn advanced, I'm like fucking good at what I do. And I cant share it with anyway... It adds nothing to society.. it is negative.. I dont even reap a reward for myself... Other than building the appetite to my lusts, which is dangerous as fuck
Connor Williams
I fantasize about having that much power
Alexander Sullivan
Do you feel guilty after you cum or even before that?
Jordan Williams
you have any of that rare OC to share?
Eli Lewis
could you post more before you quit? lol I understand wym tho, I've felt a lil of what you're feeeling. not on your level tho. I hope you get bettter and quit for good. And about porn not being enough and how you only want OCs, I can relate to that, brother. We'll get through this.
Blake Anderson
It's corrupting though, whats the saying? "All powerful is all corrupting"... like I said, it's too good. The thrill is too much. But it removes me away from humanity and normalcy so much. I am completely without friends, and more and more mental problems keep surfacing, like depression, anxiety, panic atttacks and horrible OCD... I'm not kidding when I say I can feel my body and spirit dying. And it's sad as hell. And no one respects me because I cant hold a job really while doing this undertaking and I'm working MY ASS OFF... I'm far from lazy, im obsessed.
And in the off months when I finally get away from the addiction (temporarily).. I know how girls secretly work so well now. That I will start talking to them on social media, dating sites etc.. And build some kind of messed up relationship.. And get them to divulge their secrets. get them making pics and vids.. And they feel all good and free, cause in some weird way they can trust me not to hurt them.. Even though I'm a total monster.. And this builds until I cant help it anymore and REALLY get the secrets and see what I want...
Also I have had sex with almost 100 girls in real life on top of all this. I'm basically a new form of "sex addict" on many different levels...
Jack Howard
I have felt guilt and shame on so many sickening levels and at varies times... I felt guilty this past few days while building the module.. Just knew I was fucking up, once again. But definitely after cumming its so empty...Damn dopamine you know
William Butler
Not too much right now.. I never share it though I'm sorry to say. One of the reasons I havent gotten into trouble.. I dont expose girls, I dont fuck with them.. And I dwefinitely do not fuck with anyones banks, or things of that nature
Nicholas Green
But in the past... You wouldn't believe the stuff I have deleted... Sometimes it hurts to think about.. The amount of beautiful special girls, that were amazing! And took amazing pics and vids.. mind blowing stuff. Plus all the girls that were part of my real life and had meaning to me... Then there was all the crazy stuff, like for example I have learned a few new languages to take this internationally.. And I have hit the south american world hard, and the south east asian world..
I have been in accts globally.. and in all 50 states. Over and over again. I used to have accounts that I could use from all over depending what I needed to do.
And I have seen messed up stuff. Like 3rd world countries man, really brings out some crazy shit. I used to have full blown OC incest stuff.. And I could really verify for sure, they were family
And girls fucking around with their dogs for example. Thats rare though. Common that they do it, rare that they leave a trace
Benjamin Butler
that's good, I feel yah though, regret and resentment hits after a while, I snap shot some naughty physical pics but shitty quality, made me want to see her nudes even more wishing I had that power but I at the same time hate myself for doing what I've already done
Eli Davis
Who is she to you? I went through all the girls "in my life" along time ago... Those were some of my hardest deletes
Jaxson Parker
sil
Robert Fisher
Yeah, I had pics of one of my sil... Very hard delete. She is so my kind of girl. "found" her selfies she kept around
Samuel Hughes
who's the girl you posted here?
Austin Murphy
She's insanely hot. She's my kind of girl 100%
Jonathan Myers
Some user posted her here a few days ago... It was his wife/gf he wasnt supposed to share, whatever. I got more of her, love her tits and smile
Elijah Cook
For sure, she is awesome.. probably a really cute face too with that smile
Juan Powell
ik you feel very shitty but could you post more of her? lol
I think thats all I have of her. I agree, I rarely save pics from Yea Forums but she was an exception. The first 2 pics especially in this thread, amazing tits!
Joshua Peterson
face??
Juan Morgan
yeah, that guy was a lucky bastard
Jaxon Martinez
But a piece of shit for exposing her.
Jose Ramirez
No he didnt post full face, just enough to show she was a smiley happy girl. In the original thread no was commenting on her or anything and he mustve got bored and left by the time I came around cause I was definitely asking for more, but everyone else was asking about other girls in the thread, skeleton skinny, young typical instgram whores as opposed to this goddess woman
Oliver Hernandez
yeah, she's def a goddess. I'll take this woman a million times over a skeleton-ish whore
She is probably a mom. Moms, especially young moms, have the nicest tits. All full, milky, veiny. Big areolas. So nice. I guess everyone has their thing though.
