How is your life user?

It's going pretty well user. Can't complain. How about you? How are you doing?

Basically shit

why :(?

Ahh, damn, that ignites the creative spark in me. I'm going to school for computer engineering tech, which is just the lovechild of electrical engineering and compsci. I'd love to work for some organization like Neuralink, but I'm not set on that. As hobbies go though, I will absolutely be picking up a router once I've got some pocket change.

I'm not a relationship expert by any means but that doesn't sound like she wants the pp. It sounds like she doesn't want it to be awkward, and was hoping you weren't going to ask her out again or anything along that line.

>and was hoping you weren't going to ask her out again
i guess, other anons said that
i don't want things to be awkard too, but, i already know how i'm going to feel seeing her again

>Schizo
>no work for 7 years
>now 32 and working part time as a dish washer
>did I say I was 32?

No, she doesn't want to have sex and sees you spending a moment of your time thinking about her in a way she doesn't way to be intimate. Wise up bucko.

Also, for OP: my life is amazing. Almost died half a year ago in a serious accident that 90% of people in my circumstance wouldn't have ever recovered. I'm 20, have a woman who provides emotional well-being & kinky sex, have a new appreciation of life, might become a millionaire from lawsuit settlements, and I'm in the prime of my life: age 20.

I'm happy to be alive

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She doesn't want anything sexual, at least you shouldn't go expecting something sexual. If she starts to drop hints then you know she's down, but from these texts it's pretty clear that she doesn't want that

Look a bunny

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i'm not after anything sexual, just something other anons told me it might be
but no, i do not want to have sex with her again at all

is that the only pet a person would commonly have that you would want to eat it too? assuming you don't eat dog.

i'm glad to hear that youre chasing something you loved as a child and still gets so much happienes out of it :)

Well then you should cancel it

can't or rather shouldn't, need to confront my fears
i will have to see hear in the future because same friends circle

But you have romantic feelings right?

hoenstly i don't know, maybe? but more like in a physical attraction

Hmm, how did you know I loved it as a child?

To avoid sex, blast Death Grips while you're with her. You can thank me later.

Shit

I have a problem with my nose and I can't push air out while I'm asleep causing severe daytime fatigue. I could easily sleep 12-15 hours a day every day

2 ENTs wouldn't do anything
Can't go to a sleep clinic because it isnt apnea
Can't afford private medical care (UK)

So now I'm stuck being tired for the rest of my life.

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where do you live?

we're going out to the city and getting some ice cream, not to my place or anything where were just in private, no sex

Only if I had too

Ontario
Rabbits are delish.

I expected that. Pick up a bluetooth speaker.

Here is another picture tho

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for?

Im just a background character while people think im sad cuz whatever reason. To be honest i dont feel sad but i dont feel happy either. The only thing makes me joy is reading manga and beliving in nonexistent realitionships, imagining somekind of character and try to insert that character as me in some scenes. Like i would matter.

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Why didn't the procedures work? Was it a complication or something that happened after the fact?

Then you want sex lol. I don't understand how you're not seeing this, you asked her out because you are physically attracted to her, but she made it clear that she doesn't want to go if there's going to be a awkward tension between you two, you being physically attracted to her will create a awkward tension between you two

Death Grips blasting to avoid sex.

i wouldnt say no to sex, but i would say no to anything more
don't know how to react with her honestly
oh i see that's a siong

You are sad but you are not feeling the sadness, if you allowed yourself to feel the sadness you wouldn't feel numb

I think you are just bullshitting yourself but i could be wrong, i'm just telling you like it is

bullshitting myself as in? i'm pretty attracted to her on a physical level yeah, but love? i wouldn't use that word to describe it

1 treated me for allergies that I don't have (gave meds THEN did a test that came back negative, then discharged me without a followup appointment). The meds made zero difference.

Second wouldn't listen, didn't care that I had pictures and audio recordings proving in absolute terms that I can't push air out my nose when I'm sleeping and told me to go to the sleep clinic that I can't go to. I don't stop breathing, my throat isn't closed, I'm taking IN air - it isn't apnea.

The problem is that when I move around it clears temporarily then builds back up. Laying down for long periods causes a complete blockage. So when I travel to the ENT they see very mild inflammation.

So are you saying im unconsinously dening im sad?

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My life is essentially perfect.
I have retired from a very good, well paid, job.
and have a Private Pension derived from it, that I drew when I took early retirement at the age of 60. From the age of 65, I also became entitled to receive my UK State Pension, which would in its own right be adequate for me to live on.
I own my own land and freehold property, that I now live in at no cost beyond the mandatory
> "Council Tax",
that pays for local services: Police Fire Ambulance, highway maintenance & lighting; refuse collection and a host of other very good community facilities: Parks, playing fields, Leisure Centres, swimming baths etc..

..... and whatever I choose to pay from my significant savings, in order to maintain and improve my own real estate.

I am unbelievably fit and healthy, for my age,
and can still compete against other guys in their 20's & 30's, in a number of active sports that I still take part in.

Being independently wealthy, I have a broad range of pastimes / hobbies, photography (significant top of the range DSLR equipment & accessories); music; hiking & backpacking in the glorious British countryside and a passion for many of the better things in life, including my own private bar, that is always well stocked with real ale, wine and most spirits that visitors might be inclined to drink in a comfortable social atmosphere.

I have extensive private gardens, giving privacy and year round floral interest, that I love to maintain by myself. They are geared towards being a "wildlife haven" that supports a huge range of birds, mammals, fish, amphibians, insects etc..

Sure, I am one of the lucky people, for whom almost everything worked out to my best advantage:
and it makes me somewhat sad when I read some of the pessimistic tales told by other users here on Yea Forums, which I have frequented for many years - partly to remind myself that many people are not as lucky as I have been in getting fair rewards for my lifetime efforts.

I think you were taught to repress your emotions, so now you can't feel anything so you are unaware of the fact that these emotions are repressed
check this out: youtube.com/watch?v=ZGNs6rThOy0
It may come off to you as wishy washy or something like that but i suggest to you that you keep a open mind and try to learn something from it
I have the same thing as you do by the way. I was numb as shit but one day i broke down in the shower. After that i felt the way i felt as a child, i can't seem to explain how it was, but it was happy and cozy and familiar. However i became the same way after some time, because the processes of the mind are still in place, so it's more of a process to reprogram your mind to not suppress the emotions that you feel

I haven't posted in this fucking board in 10 years or so.
Alas, am drunk, thus this happens.
Last year I lost my GF of 5 years, job and house.
After half a year of feeling like shit, I got a job, made some new connections, watched my only, one (uno, 1,) friend get married and shit's looking up.
Stay strong zoomer cunts

Also the images you posted are very telling about you and your life. The dude wearing a mask for other people to hide his true face (who you are behind the facade), the atmosphere being grey and fucking depressing. I don't wanna get therapist on your ass but i just thought i should share that

I mean about once a month i do cry but always keep asking myself why do i cry again?

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We do have simalarities but i just post him cuz he is cool lmao

No friends, job, living with mom grand mom and sister
Am 23
Few years till i kms

youtube.com/watch?v=0Pt8lue1Guc&t=255s

this guy here

how should i react? should i be like i've always been to her with the abstract of not being close to her emotionally?

Probably to blow off some steam. I used to push all the shit down so that's why i had a breakdown, you just can't hold it any longer. Also don't judge if you are crying or feeling something, life in and off itself can be pretty fucking sad and disturbing, so it can be just a existential sadness, but those are the good ones, feel it completely and after the storm you will feel the most happy that you will feel in your life

For many reasons basically in the shits

It´s fucked.

About two years ago I was studying Industrial Engineering, but I decided to quit because I wanted to search my real dream: being a writter. When I enter to my new colledge, I´ve got some economic issues, for that, I can´t studied the career I always wanted too. Now Im single, unemployed and Im still living in a shithole country. Please, for the love of God, don´t be like me.

Go learn game. Either tell her you want to get with her or hit on her while you're out. Don't drag it out.

we've already had our "see each other, sleep with each other" phase

Mediocre. I think I've officially given up on women, tfw no gf doesn't apply to me because I refuse to believe I'll find a girl truly compatible with. Too many horror stories of cheating and wasted time and lies, seems like a waste to even consider being with a woman, or any partner really.

Damn i hope because the last time i felt happy was 3 years ago, i think

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tip that fedora faggot

Why does this have to be a "phase"

Just think about the things that i said and if you want give the video a watch, you will be alright, i'm rooting for you my man

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don't know, it's something that we tried for a couple of months a month ago

Okay thanks for your help

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sometimes i create my own universe wher i am a hero or a vilian/ I imagine my relationship with other characters, battle, kill or show mercy, I marry and have kids (depends on a mood). Dydream all the time. When people look at me they think i am spacing out, but in that moment i am probebly in a middle of an epic battle or having a drink in tavern. hmm i thought this will pass with age..... but i am 23lvl user and my world are only getting more and more complex and interesting.

You have feelings for her but you are not being honest about it, neither to yourself nor to her. Call it what you want physical attraction or whatever but be honest about it. You told her that it's just a casual thing and that nothing awkward going down but that's not true, you have feelings towards her. So my advice is if you meet with her be honest about what you are feeling for her, if you don't know exactly what you are feeling then tell her that you don't know exactly what you are feeling, she will appreciate the honesty, i think that she will not appreciate you bullshitting her by saying that this is just a casual thing but actually you have other intentions, you want to see her because your feelings towards her

>you want to see her because your feelings towards her
maybe yes, maybe that's the case
they are not reciprocated or else she would've not agreed to meet up just as friends

Discord servers jumped my family after nerd raging hackers got smacked, son

I was also raped by police officers once or twice.

Well, I'm in the navy and just got diagnosed with cancer sooooo. Theres that

and i'm a boy

They are not reciprocated or else she would've agreed to meet up without telling you that she doesn't want awkwardness between you two and that she doesn't want to give you the false impression that she is interested in you. I'm sorry if i'm being too blunt but the truth must be told even if it hurts your feelings, i sympathize with you

omw to see my grandma, and i’m worried it’ll be the last.

i was the one texting her that i also wanted to meet up so things aren't awkward between us because we will have to see each other in the future

its pretty good , great job , nice apartment , my crush is dropping hints she likes me back im in my prime

Trying to deal with my fucked up shit. I usually fuck up with people and i just want people to like me and to tell that i'm ok, but i just fucked my mind up but i'm making progress thankfully. Trying to adjust myself to life in a university and studying to be in the army. I have a lot of sadness to deal with but i just can't seem to feel it but someday i will, in the meantime i'm trying to take concrete steps towards making my life better and it's working slowly, but it's working. I want to feel things again, have adventures and let go of the all the bullshit

I got you bro

Give it time, you'll get the feels sooner or later, it's perfectly fine to feel detached from shit once in a while.

You're on the right path tho

Thanks fren, i appreciate it

i have fallen into routine i unironically feel like an npc i feel nothing inside. like a machine i just go to work get home and pretty much do nothing of note every single day and i have been doing this for many years

Shit

Just don't read into it. Enjoy what you have.
She put it into the friendzone. Every move you make is going to make it worse. Being a natural and not reading into it good things can happen

i can talk to people pretty well and im generally pretty friendly but i always put a wall between me and people im very surface level. i cant really form relationships with people

Shit. Got kicked out of college because my teacher is a bitch. I try and suck and fuck. Then she acts so high and mighty when she came on to me. Decides when I already had a A- to flunk me and made me look like a monster and crazy person. Even after I wasn't mad but decided to tell everyone and campus security to call the cops if she saw me because she wanted me to stay away and not prove she spoke to me sexually. What a thot.

i have a tendency to shut myself off from everything

i started working out about a year ago and my social life has been looking up since then

Same

Shit. I want someone to just knock me out and fuck me in the pussy and asshole

I need drugs. Always makes life a ok

you know the rules thot tits and time stamp

Kill me soon please

Fuck shit uh

Fuck me

I hate you daddy

i am generally always exhausted and cannot be arsed to do anything

having a dog made me come out of my shell

All the same person. Just one post will do, thank you.

same

That's cool, how did that work? Did it allow you to be more social because of the approaches?

daily walks interacting with other people with dogs and just the general enthusiasm of the dog helped alot

Sorry that was my schizophrenia talking. My psychosis has went away now.

I'm glad to hear that

honestly OP, I'm not really sure
I've been in this weird state for a long time now
maybe it's due to the kind of family i grew up in that forced me to seek refuge outside or in other people, and that it made me feel close to no emotion 80% of the time
other than that, I've got a midterm tomorrow and i think i got a migraine from the amount of things i studied this week. plus it's midterm week starting tomorrow and ending next Saturday. I'm a compsci and computer engineer student, it's the kind of faculty (or college or whatever it is you guys call it) that has both combined, as that will be my main diploma, the sub-division/name/path is going to be computer sciences
I'm also having a weird time just thinking about my past, have sudden memory flashback kind of thing of repressed memories, and i mean a lot of them, which started in January and i don't know how to deal with them (refer to 1st paragraph, should be clear why, at least i assume that's the case)
i have been occasionally thinking about my ex, not really anything special, just her name comes up in my head and i get frustrated that it does, i don't even know how or why i get frustrated, i just do
i also recently came with an epiphany kind of deal that made me look at life 180 from what i used to up until that point, the change being from "what's the use in trying if I'm gonna die anyway" to "why worry so much and bother with useless things when you can just not do that at all, since I'm gonna die one day, sooner or later, might as well make the best of everything"
i still don't know how to cope with emotions that well, especially because i don't know how to deal with that ex thing

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How long have you been in this state? Did it start when you and your ex split up?

i have essentially over time shut myself off from everyone i know interacting with people just feels annoying and im much more comfortable by myself

Terrible

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I jacked off while wearing a pair of underpants I found in the woods

How did you feel about it?

I came a lot quicker than usual, then I felt like crap about it

Yeah that's how it usually goes, try to get your shit together mate

White Light and Rainbows.