i am a certified BETA male Loser.
AMA / Ask me anything i guess.
FYI - its my fetish now,
Not looking for sympathy,
Anons have had amusement from this when ive done this in the past.
Your sex life and experience or romantic life is likely better then mine, yes, even you desu.
Please keep shortcuts and sweet questions and answers i can answer quickly as it blows up fast sometimes
You know you're probably not as bad as you think, right? There are plenty of things you could do, both easy and difficult, that could better you situation
I get off on it i dont think you understand how deep i am.
This is AMA not therapy or /adv/
25 year old handhold-less virgin. Never so much as a date. I might have you beat buddy.
imagine actually becoming accepting of something like this.
yikes and im out.
Stop being pathetic. It isn't fucking difficult.
41.
I havent real talked To a girl or had her as a friendzone or whatever in ten years.
I pay girls to meet me or talk to me at this stage.
If a girl held my hand i would probably be a mess and pay for everything.
I couldnt even process a girl wanting to hold my hand.
I pay girls to beat me up now or for their panties.
Abuse.
I was 26 before i had an actual girlfriend i couldnt get it up for her even though she was gagging for cock 24/7
Damn. Well I'll probably be like I am for the rest of my life. Sucks.
This is an AMA for fucks sake i'm not looking for advice
A homeless girl asked me for like £20 once and i ended up taking her for a drink and giving her like £100 and showing with her because she was cute and was talking to me
So you pay women to beat you up?
Why dont you just pay them to have sex with you. If you have the money, why use it to make your situation worse??
Also, being a sort of "sub" what do you feel about the modern feminist movement?
*shopping with her
not being rude, but the thought of raising a family never crossed your mind? or getting married? like, is that completely out of the picture now?
I used to pay for hookers,
But i had to come to terms with the fact that at least half the time i want satisfied and neither were they, i couldnt get it up or stay hard, the novelty wasnt there and my performance was weak and weaker and some medical issues didnt help and just general guilt and low self esteem and awkwardness.
So was soon just paying them for ass worship and rimming them.
Then progressed to kinky stuff,
Prostate massage,
Then experimenting with female domination.
And femdom porn used to discussions me then turn me on.
I was less focused on a result, or cumming, or performance.
The feminist movement is doing ok at the monet,
It needed some pushback from women and with social media the next generation of teens is better information.
It will just be more open or whatever when the still 40 year olds die off or go senile.
There are sensible sex positive feminists.
If they are not a bit kinky or whatever = Dropped.
*moment not monet.
I'm drunk and high
I had also already developed a long term habit of just paying hookers exclusively for letting me rim them, which was submissive in itself but just seemed to happen unplanned
It was kinda humiliating as believe it or not,
Many hookers want allowing it, and many charge extra.
And hookers are spare in a diffrent way.
Street smart.
A hooker will break down what a guy will pay in ten seconds.
I started to enjoy them getting more Cash for this.
Getting their power kick.
you got any advice for youngsters in order to not end up in your situastion? I mean i dread the thought of ending like you, but i might be it unknowngly.. Should i stop watching blacked porn?
Lol, i'm damaged goods by now user.
I couldnt even Respect a girl now of she didnt that me like a worthless piece of shit.
I would have to be completely disposable.
Yeah.
Dont edit yourself.
What do you mean dont edit yourself?
Go to youtube and search for 'pateice o Neal - dont edit yourself'
And listen to anything by Patrice O Neal on there, esp about advice women advice if i had listened ten years ago or whenever ID have been better off
You might laugh and learn at the same time.
Thanks user and good luck.. I hope you win at lottery or something.
Also just learn about basic female psychology first and dont get all angry and developed an attitude problem like i did.
I confused being an alpha male with being a prick with an attitude problem to cover up my insecurities.
Which, surprise surprise, Is less attracted then an actual nice guy who isnt an insecure creep or pervert.
But if youre kinky, be all kinky.
I would either act all clean-cut, or just be a bad boy wreck, and end up failing at either.
Lol what if i did some cock would take it.
I am currently owned by a mistress as a slave.
*chick
I am aware that having a mistress/being a slave is a fetish, but i was wondering.. During any sexual act could you possibly stand up and beat the shit out of your mistress? Or is she is total controll of you and you are literally incapable lifting a finger against her. I mean are you in control and aware that at the end of it all its just a sexual fantasy or is it something bigger for you? If she asked you bring her 10k, would you actualy bring her 10k without any second thoughts?
I am genuinly curious
I dont really get the question
You mean is it possible?
Yeah, but there would be moral and legal implications, since there would be a verbal, and in this cases, in fact, a written contract.
Also steps are taken by me and girls involved To make them more comfortable, and me more vulnerable, perhaps with restraint, backup, location choice, third party checkins, , verification, etc
I'm in control to an extendable in that we have an agreement on linit.
At this Point its a lifestyle choice not a problem.
It maybe be experimentation.
But its more an addiction sometimes
How much i give her would dependent howmuch i have.
If i would the letter,
10k would be peanuts but I'd stretch it over a year or six months lol.
The irony is its still cheaper than most hookers, gfs, wives if they truly get off on it.
And less of a headache sometimes.
She has power, but i am aware that its power i give her.
*if i won the lottery