hey Yea Forums I need to confess something that I can't tell other people since they would think I am a psychopath or sadistic, and i know this is the only place where it would be acceptable to post this.
I have been having these thoughts, where I want to kill someone that was from my high school, they were nothing but an annoyance and a source of rage in my time in high school. And when I mean kill, not just them, but I would kill their parents, destroy their home, and tourture them for countless hours until they die, unlike most people who would shoot someone to kill them, I would probably bind them up, make them feel real pain, make them suffer, and then let them bleed out and just throw away their corpse on the outskirts of a highway or something like that. My problem is that I it is not like in the back of my head, these thoughts come up frequently, I don't know what to do with myself, am I sadistic, or is this normal?
how often do you have these thoughts? do you have them when you are not around the person?
Bentley Hughes
Your having violent intrusive thoughts that aren't cemented in reality. Your thoughts in action would put you in danger, that goes against natural law. If you wanna kill something take up fishing, hunting, trapping. If you wanna kill a person and those thoughts dont leave, you need to tell your primary doctor and they'll get you the right help user. Shit heads from high school aren't worth going to jail or being on the run for the rest of your life.
Christopher Thompson
Kill animals instead
Gabriel Kelly
These thoughts are far beyond normal. The fact that they keep returning is indicative of your probably undiagnosed mental illness. Please see a therapist because you will continue to get worse and eventually be sent to prison (hopefully before murdering someone). Therapy now may save you. If you choose to ignore this warning, then you have chosen to destroy your future. Schedule an appointment tomorrow
Oliver Roberts
Seek help
Chase Williams
>highschool you must be over 18 to post here mods do your fucking jobs faggots
No reason to do this. It won't help you. It's a bad idea.
Noah Sanchez
Im 19 jackass, I graduated almost a year ago
Carter Martinez
2. get off Yea Forums
Asher Wright
My problem is that I feel like that if I do get help, my parents will be mad at me, I have been sent to a hospital once for losing my cool and almost been 302ed.
Robert Perez
It ain't a troll chief, I was trying to make myself relax and try to keep it off of my mind
Kayden Perry
When I went to my old college before transferring, they guessed it was u treated depression, I never really been a "happy person" and I tend to hate myself more than other people hate me. I once tried to tell them that I was suffering , that I wished I was dead, that these negative thoughts are haunting me. My dad just said " It's all in your head and it is complete bullshit" so there is no point of me trying to get help. So I just suffer from these thoughts instead
Isaac Stewart
I usually have these moments or "flashes" of past memories that haunt me or made me suffer. There have been numerous kids in my old high school who tried to make it a living hell. I was in this paradoxical state , I want to know if people cared about me, yet I didn't always want to be the center of attention. There were primarily two people who just made high school for me worse, and they were degenerates, attention whores, nobodies. Ever since sophomore year, (I am a college freshman) these thoughts pop up once in a while, maybe once a few months, but only when I can myself being depressed. There are moments I see them in the street and I am so tempted to just beat the shit out of them. So it is a combination of me noticing them and when I am alone
Samuel Taylor
you need to go to anger management.
Nolan White
You are the scum of this planet. No human should harm other for no reason, mental problem. If you think these feelings are not curable, kill yourself fast or harm yourself for pleasure if you want, your body is your rules. Nobody will miss a psycho. Believe me. Hire someone to kill you. Suicide by cop if you're a faggot. Disappear from the living.
Wyatt James
Go see a psychiatrist. Constantly remind yourself that the only moral kill is one in self defense. Any other killing is a vile evil act. Seek psychological help immediately my friend
Hunter Clark
You see, I don't want to harm anyone, including myself. So stop acting like a total prick
Xavier Morris
I’ve put in numerous hours in different classrooms taking different classes, such as group, children, and family therapy. Different psychological lapses and research theories, I will give my professional opinion on this. I have only posted on here a small handful of times so please take this seriously.
I suggest a therapist and maybe antipsychotic medication. Perhaps Abilify would be a good option, but I don’t know you well. Small bits of Schizophrenia I’m picking up on. I can even tell by the way you type.
The problem is that individuals such as yourself, by the way it sounds anyway, cannot physically “ turn on “ per say regions of the brain that activate empathy or morality in most neurotypical beings. Get help brother, this is not good by any means. Good luck.
Nolan James
because actions are unique sometimes thoughts of doing things can become pervasive
if you were to think about it in terms of writing a book for fun about something, you would see that there aren't many words that don't suck that can explain things that doesn't justify behavior but dispositions towards thinking about things a certain way aren't even really indicative of what you're thinking about in lots of cases and you have to re-discipline what some pronouns refer to (loss of value of some things)
I like to think of words I'm reading in the voice of Butthead from beavis and butthead
Brayden Edwards
I think the most alarming thing is there’s not much of a reason behind this. If someone hurt you or someone close to you I could possibly have a little understanding. Just because someone was an annoyance to you throughout school is not a reason to cause physical harm to someone and their family. Live and let live my friend, life is way too short to hold onto these things.
People can shit on me if they want but once you let all your hate out of your heart your quality of life will be so much better.
Nathan Allen
Keep thinking about it Even after the murder. I promise it will feel good while your killing them but not after. Think of how good it will feel when your sitting in jail and unable to see your family for the next 20 years. Don't just think after You do it that's going to be it, the end. There is more
Ayden Adams
>let all your hate out of your heart your quality of life will be so much better.
another user here
be careful how you word that with him
Lincoln Long
Maybe take a look at what you are saying? He can go see a therapist and help him out so he doesn't act on this stuff, not just go and kill himself. Don't be the definition of an edgy faggot okay? No one likes it
Lucas Morgan
ive done the same at school and had three cops walk into the library. these are bait threads
Jaxon Russell
Lol, what exactly did these 2 goons do to you? And fuck, if you see them all the time, just call them out in public and beat thier fucking ass. You'll just be in trouble for a bit, it will be worth it. Fuck the faggots saying to go to a therapist. Get your revenge but don't kill the 2 faggots. They aren't worth being in a prison for the rest of your life. Maybe just yell at them in public, tell them, "what's up you fucking bully, remember me?!" Hell, put a shit in a plastic bag and throw it at them in public. Fuck them and fuck the world.
therapy for sure or join a mexican cartel and start as a sicario, they will even pay you for shit you described
Charles Hughes
Just avoid the person and stop thinking about them. Hatred will only drag you down
Dominic Cox
triple this. stay alive user let the hate brew
Lincoln Harris
You fight them. Hand to hand.
Quite being a bitch. Unless you're a coward, you fucking stand up and fight them.
Noah Lee
Pay someone to beat they ass for you
PERFECT 100%
Isaiah Perez
try to have sex with it
Benjamin Edwards
it's not normal, at least to act on it one thing to think some thoughts but another thing to go to the level where you think they are ok
I mean seriously, an annoyance? I have someone in my life I need to avenge against an entire established social institution and you're whining about annoyances?
most humans are trite and perhaps you are too but you can rise above if you decide to
It's times like this that I take comfort in the fact that God is real, and that yes, hell is also real, and most of the idiots (if not all) that I had the displeasure of knowing while growing up are going to wind up in hell one day.
I only wish I could send them there sooner.
Jeremiah Morgan
This is all you need to know OP.
Robert Ortiz
I'm gonna buy a taser or some brass knuckles soon for this one faggot, he is bigger than me and this one time at a party his girl was all on me, she was drunk but is also a slut. He shoulder shrug me on the way out of the party when there was a crowd but since we work together that's all he did. And probably since there was a crowd he stopped and would have done worse to me. Worse of all this faggot is big strong guy and I'm a little 5'6 115lb dude so fuck it, and fuck him too. I might even start bringing a strap around with me. Fuck that faggot and his bitch.
I'll shoot his fucking arms off and stab him in the face a few times
You make the fuckers suffer now before they get thier rest in the dirt
For some faggots, a shot to the head is too fast and not enough They should be boiled in a pool of thier own excrement, they will wish for hell
David Lewis
he's right you know because i have been there and done that.
Lincoln Ross
-they will wish for hell as if it were heaven
Carson Hernandez
Well, when I mean annoyances, they are the people who pretty much made me who I am, a person who is probably suffering some sort of mental condition who has had thoughts of murder, suicide, and self hatred. I was harrassed back before high school, I was bullied to the point where I could barely even trust my own parents about anything, my dad thinks that mental issues are fake, and I feel like my mom will overreact. These kids pretty much turned me into a furnace that can and will explode whenever I get irritated, now I have no will to try to change myself and just wait until I die
are you able to do the jail time? If answer is no....
Hudson Perry
ur mentally unsound, how long has it been that youre allowing this person control over your life? say youre 3 years out of school and this is still happening, that is 3 years plus the time in school you have let this person control you. Get some serious help so you can stop dwelling on the past
Gabriel Richardson
therapy sir.
Tyler Peterson
When you get your first butterfly knife for Christmas
Aaron Robinson
Absolutely normal
Oliver Price
Just fucking go up to the FAGGOT and beat his ass
Worse you spend some little time in jail, fuck it At least you'll let the anger out, get help from a faggot therapist afterward and anyways those fuckers charge too much money for thier stupid ass couch sessions. Fuck wasting money.
When I was there it was pretty much just a pajama party, you eat 3 meals a day, exercise, there is air conditioning and it's quiet in your cell so you can read a good book or sleep and relax. Jail was a vacation for me, met some fun interesting folk in there too.
The mature move is getting the help you need. You're scared about your parents being mad? Try killing anyone and going to jail, your parents aren't gonna be mad they're going to be devastated and will probably never talk to you again.
Your dad will turn to alcohol to suppress his sadness and your mom will cry so much her immune system will fail her. grats you fucked their lives too
Joseph Brooks
You're not in highschool anymore. Quit being a whiney pussy about some kid who used to pick on you, grow up, and get the fuck over it. Go work on yourself and get a nice job Maybe in 10 years you'll find out the the same douchebag knocked up a girl and is stuck in a miserable life or you can throw your life away murdering someone cause he hurt your feelings. Pussy
Justin Walker
NO, JUST KILL, ER; BEAT THE ASS OF THE 2 FAGGOTS WHO BULLIED YOU, LEAVE INNOCENTS ALONE. DONT BE A FAGGOT LIKE ISIS OR ONE OF THEM MASS SHOOTERS.
Austin Nelson
this, be the better man and don't let the ape brain take control OP
Daniel Roberts
Don't see a therapist, they're just in it for a money. If you tell them you have a problem like this, they'll try to charge you more because it's a niche psychological issue that requires "expertise"
Instead, just do psychedelics bro. Your psyche will stabilize with a few hits of LSD or shrooms every week.
Jace Brooks
I have been out of high school since June of 2018, and I have my thoughts gathered up, if I see them, all I am going to say is just every single flaw about them, about how one of them couldn't even graduated when the school I went to has a whole setup to make sure everyone graduates, and how they were nothing but attention whores who had nothing special about them, so they just acted like retards to make them seem cool, but they will end up as nothing but a ditch digger or serving me food at a McDonalds 10 years down the line when I will get an actual job, because I am willing to put an attempt to do something good in my life. I think I do not need to solve this problem with Violence, I need to solve it with words that will show them their horrible truth, words that will puncture beyond their skin and body, and hurt their soul forever
Grayson Moore
Dude when you feed into something you give it power. You being angry with these people gives them power, if that drives you to destroy these people, that only gives them more power than you can ever imagine and it will be permanent. Forget them, live your life, then you win.
Michael Reed
stop crying like a faggot we are not your mom consider having sex
Julian Perry
You wanna know why they did it user? You wanna know why they bullied you?
They were bored. They were bored and you were an easy, unconfident target. They didn't have any confidence either. But they were just a bit higher than you in the pecking order
Killing them won't make that fact go away You'll still be weak and unconfident.
You don't want to kill them. You just want your problems to go away. You want to sweep them under a rug so you can't see them anymore. That's not facing your problems. That's not growing up. That's being an entitled manchild. They were right to bully you. The person you were then was your lowest.
Now go higher. Stop believing in stopping other people's time and start believing in your own power to grow with time.
Edgelord
Samuel Baker
if they are idiots like you said why would they honestly care. you continue to think about them and they havent thought once of you, for your own sake its best to seek help and just let it go.
Henry Peterson
Not op, but sometimes I have the urge to torture someone, I don't want to hurt nobody and I won't do it ofc, but sometimes it gets bad. Fortunately I don't have these thoughts all the time, they come every so often, months even.
Jaxon Butler
Not sure why you chose this photo to use but this happened near where I live. Lincoln New Hampshire I think? The cop got away with it too
Jackson Torres
I just needed a photo that was moderately relevant, I binged "Liveleak Murder" and this was the first to show up, so I just picked that. And yes, I use Bing over Google, and I do enjoy it
Michael Collins
I see, wasn't sure if you were from the area or not. I hope you get the help you need man. If you're serious about all this. You can't throw your life away for petty thoughts like wanting to murder someone who wronged you. That will never be worth it. You're still young and immature. Once you focus on your life and career the last thing you'd ever concern yourself with is a high school bully
Aaron Campbell
Yes it’s normal fucktard. Normal to crave for attentions. I had the same beaner in HS having same thought, and talking about trapping and burning people in the gym. Turned out he too pussy to do anything but an attention whore beaner.
I did 3 tours in Iraq (US Army 11B 2004, 2006 and 2009) and 26 consecutive months in Afghanistan as a contractor. Now I work as a paramedic. I have put people in the ground and saved them from going in the ground. When I was a kid I grew up watching Die Hard, Lethal Weapon, Commando, Rambo etc. I fantasized about being a badass waisting bad guys Punisher style. Reality is very different. Actually taking life (no matter how justified) changes you. I felt sick to my stomach for a long time even thinking about a certain incidents. Its natural to fantasize about violence, we all do it, acting on it is another. Speaking from personal experience, you don't want to know what its like to actually kill someone. Fantasies are ok but if this is something you think you might actually do, get some help.
Don't blame other people for your problems. Don't go around shooting and torturing people you don't like. If this is in the past, then get over it. If you do the things you say you are going to do, it is because you enjoy hurting others, not because someone was rude to you.
Aiden Wright
Hey guys, OP here, thanks for the advice, good and bad. I think i know what to do, and well, this thread can officially die, or make it a Spiderman thread, just, do whatever you want with it now
Man, I hate to say it because I wish it weren’t true, but you aren’t going to have this victorious moment where you say all this shit to someone and they cry and admit they were wrong. They are going to barely remember, tell you to fuck off and then try to punch you most likely. There were a lot of cunts in high school, we all had to deal with them.
I used to think like you, putting myself above the kids in high school I didn’t like or who were shitty to me, but it didn’t make me feel better, just made me more angry because I was “better” but they were still above me. I let go of these notions of superiority, In the end, we’re just fucking people trying to live our lives. If you went up to one of those people in a year or two, they’d probably smile and greet you warmley. War ended, every is just happy to see other survivors. Let it go man, everyone else did
Most people have probably entertained dark thoughts. The thing is what would you actually gain? Some small sense of gratification maybe, until the next person bothers you, then the next, then the next. You can't expect a fulfilling life if your always in a state of agitation, or a violet fantasy realm. You need to be able to asses what you want out of life, bigger picture, and work towards achieving that. If if you only ever get 10% of that, it's still worth striving for. Part of being an adult is having coping mechanisms to control our behaviors and emotions. When you start to feel these thoughts ask yourself, are they helping you, or are the hindering or distracting you from what really matters. Fantasy is fantasy, that's why there are movies and games and what not. Don't distort or confuse your fantasies with reality.
Nolan Ross
Sup 11B, I was a 19D, 2 tours in Iraq. True words, I'm surprised coming from infantry, usually you guys can't write words. J/k. scouts are still better. If you ain't cav !...
Gabriel Scott
I have the same thoughts. Don't sweat it. It's normal to want some people to suffer.
Isaac Nelson
*I meant violent fantasy realm. not a violet one xD
Ryder Ortiz
quit being a prissy faggot
Connor Young
You are definitely sadistic and out of touch with reality. Perhaps in our history as a species it was once common place to murder foes but in this day and age we do not do that anymore. Look around you and act accordingly. The person you really hate is yourself. There is probably a reason you were picked on and messed with, you're probably weird or annoying, so maybe try and improve yourself. Maybe the kids were harsh, but in a way perhaps their bullying was a hint. Change and be more normal. Don't you want to succeed? In order to succeed in this society you should resist such thoughts of murder as you would accomplish little other than ensuring your own death and/or imprisonment. Maybe you'd get your revenge but really who fucking cares. And why do you care so much. Try and take your anger out in more productive ways like helping others instead of hurting them. You can always confront the people who hurt you but be logical, you should be sharper than them, more civilized, and point out what and why what they did was wrong. If you struggle with thoughts like this I highly suggest you seek therapy and/or medication such as anti-depressants as there are serious mental issues that seem to be troubling you.
Christian Myers
I found one post asking OP what the people even did and no one responded to it. O/10 op
Jose Jones
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Kevin James
Whiny little bitch. 0 power if you didn't have access to a gun, please slit your wrists. thanks faggot.
Logan Hughes
Well damn nigga ... Sometimes you gotta kill you know ... Go for it. Seriously tho, you should get some professional help.
Matthew Hall
Sup Cav fag! Yeah, I got a 90 on my ASVAB. My recruiter did everything he could to talk me out of infantry. Hind sight being 20/20, I wish I had picked something that would have provided a career when I got out. Airborne, SERE and DM was the extent of anything "high speed" I did. Unfortunately that doesn't hold up when trying to get good contracts now a days. Most of the good shit is SF only now.
Ryder Young
If you can believe, you can achieve, and you will succeed Remember that OP. Follow your dreams and kill him
It's just anger at someone that you never got the chance to resolve. It's rare but I still get angry when I think about things that happened in highschool that I wish I did differently. Example, one time a kid sitting in front of me who was way bigger than me was obnoxiously laying his head on my desk. I burped from the soda I was drinking and he turned around and knocks my bottle off my desk like its his or something. I wish to fuck I had picked up that desk (with the big thick steel legs) and bashed him with it until you couldn't tell who he was anymore, but I can't. No going back to that event it's gone forever.
My guess is that you don't have a lot going on in your life that you'd remember and be thinking about something all the way back in highschool, or highschool was recent for you. Don't act like they were nobodies though, say what they really were. Bullies.
You never confronted your bullies or if you did you weren't satisfied with it. Try to go find them if you can, I've heard it said that a third of murders never have a conviction. Or find something to do with yourself so that you aren't hung up on the past
Quit being a thinker and start being a doer. Live those dreams.
Jeremiah Rodriguez
These thoughts are perfectly normal for a man. We should all have primal urges to destroy our enemies. For thousands of years our ancestors battled and killed rival tribes, gangs, villages, towns, kingdoms etc. Modern men are expected to act within certain arbitrary rules put in place by people no better than you just to uphold an ideal of a better society. It's in our DNA to be monstrous, it's a signal of good health and strength. All alpha males feel this way and they direct these primal urges into competitions to become champions. No man of excellence or genius has not felt the exact urges you feel. You just don't act on them or you end up in a cage with the other monsters. Learn to control the animal inside of you. And never seek help for being yourself.
This is normal, if you're really angry at somebody you can have thoughts like that. It seems that since these things come up so often you should talk about it. The more you talk about it, and the more you let it out, the more these thoughts will dampen and dissipate. Find a good therapist who has lots of experience and won't overreact to some of the things you say. I have people that I used to frequently think about cutting open with dull scissors, but I talked about the problems I had with them and those thoughts went away (For the most part). And don't let any of these newfags act like this is some psycho shit, they don't know anything about this, and don't know what they're talking about
David Foster
After smoking some guD AZZ shit I believe the BEST ""REVENGE" for you is to just BE HAPPY. Show them you are better off noW, maybe GET A GIRL and she off how happy u are. Fuck them haters. Fuck thier sister even, or thier mama! Hahaaaaaaaaa
And yeah, top posters are right. It is NORMAL human/animal behavior to want revenge on those fucks. Fuck what the faggy beta males say and stay seat from stupid ass shrinks.
They are called shirnks because they SHRINK YOUR WALLET and tell you STUPID THINGS YOU ALREADY KNOW
Grow a fucking pair of balls and man the fuck up. Take up a fucking hobby, learn an instrument. Your a fucking pussy that's letting other people being dicks ruin your life. Fucking pussy.
Jose Smith
Bad thoughts user. Check into therapy, get on some anti-psychotics. These are not normal thoughts and could really ruin your life.
Grayson Green
>I have been having these thoughts, where I want to kill someone that was from my high school, they were nothing but an annoyance and a source of rage in my time in high school.
That's a large percentage of the guys on Yea Forums, don't feel out of place op.
Jonathan Perry
>anti-psychotics aka brain death. or brain numbing.
Cameron Fisher
Why don't you kill one of your tormentors, and see how you feel about it afterwards. Come back and report the results, this weekend, and we will then be able to provide you with better advice.
John Perez
do it you fucking faggot. youre a pussy boy until you kill those fucking niggers
Sebastian Johnson
Thanks for sharing guy, FBI is coming to say hello
Thomas Morales
i would if i knew who it was
Carson Ward
I've been having similar thoughts for about a decade about one guy in particular. Whether I do it someday or not is up in the air. If I do I'll definitely upload results here when it does.
You're normal imo, some people deep seed some fucking shit feelings in others. They tend to deserve death and worse before it.
Go have a beer.
Dominic Morris
If you wanna get away with it you need money, resources. Nothing wrong with it.
Jonathan Gray
Seek professional help as well as Eastern philosophy line Hinduism or Buddhism
they have tools to help you understand your mind
Camden Bailey
OP if you kill them or torture them its only your life that will be ruined. They will just die. You still have a chance while they will remain pieces of shit all their life.
Jaxon Thompson
I like what other anons said, they aren't worth going to prison for 25 years to life for.
Go buy a police baton (the metal extendable ones) and ambush them if you cannot beat them upfront. Break their jaw or knee, just don't crack them in the skull.
Ethan Thomas
You could always get back at him by killing yourself instead!
