Tfw slip into nocturnal phase again

work nights so im always nocturnal

I do not live in a bright city unfortunately. I live in a relatively small town (35k population). The downtown area consists mostly of thrift stores, small restaurants, bars, and pawn shops. Few grocery stores off to the side, down the road, some chain restaurants near the freeway entrance/exit. Everything else is residential and the homeless people like to prowl around at night and if they see someone smoking (which I often do while i'm walking) they will come up and harass you for darts. A lot of the homeless around here suffer from mental illness too, so they are unpredictable.

me
5:23am. stomach still hurts from drinking liquor all day on friday with no food.

>Be me
>Daily /nightwalk-skate/
>Riding my skateboard on the road
>A few cars passing by every now and then so decide to stick mostly to the side of the road.
>Suddenly huge truck comes at high speed, blasting some music
>The car suddenly turns straight towards me.
>WTF.jpg
>The guy wants to play chicken, car vs skateboard.
>Im no pussy so i go for it.
>Secretly hope this is it, and the drunk guy runs me over.
>Last second he swerves away, but almost hits me back leg.
>TFW i didnt die that night.

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2:24 here in washington. What you drinking?

Trust me I know it. I lived in Los Angeles for a time. The homeless epidemic is reaching insane levels. Walking around the fashion district of downtown LA at night can get sketchy. Keep heading north I think and it's skid row. Huge homeless camps. Some taking up whole streets on the sidewalks.

I know that feel my dude, just got a chance at fixing it today by staying up all night and into the next day, hopefully it works for a while this time.

Don't do it Yea Forumsro. I wanted the same thing. I went down a big hill into traffic from left and right. Missed one car and somehow in the moment sort of grabbed the car I hit and rolled off it near perfectly. Had to have been going at least 25mph maybe 30. Fractured a rib and it just sucks dude. I still have problems with it.

would be drinking whiskey, but yesterday and today have been hell. I think I have ulcers. water.

It's not that bad around here thank god, but the homeless people are fucking crazy. There's this one guy who I've taken to calling osama because he looks like osama bin laden. Anyway he's about 5'3" and walks around like he's pissed off at everything. He'll randomly shout at people, take shit out of garbage cans, steal grocery carts, and do all manner of crazy shit. One time I saw him pushing an entire TV husk in a shopping cart down the street right in front of my house. Other time he was trying to sell empty glass bottles to a lady at a bus stop.

Then there's this guy with torrets who just walks around in constant misery. I would feel bad for him but he constantly harasses people for darts. He once followed me for 5 city blocks and kept swearing and asking me if I could spare any cigarettes.

>stay up all night
>stay up all day in agony
>start thinking "why am I even doing this? I could just sleep right now"
>have to fight off the constant urge to sleep
>know full well you will have to do it again in about 2 weeks

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Get a girlfriend?

How the fuck do I live a functional life like this? I work graveyard but i'm lonely as fuck. I got to work, work for 8 hours, come home, sleep, wake up, browse Yea Forums or play video games, and repeat. I want friends to hang out with, and meaningful relationships with actual human beings, but everyone is fucking asleep.

Different user here. But what the fuck, this happens to me too. I though I was the only one who can't sleep/won't sleep. And have to stay awake one full night to be in a good cycle until a week or so again.

Also, I walk, run, and roam about the streets. I live in a huge city, not in the US, so it's pretty safe, hobos only in downtown area. If I don't walk, log in to Yea Forums, watch porn or write, I stuff shit into my mouth while binge watching shitty stuff on Netflix. The fuck is wrong with me?

I thought it was insomnia, depression, anxiety disorder, stress, over-thinking, technology. Now I think there's something dark behind all of this. It's not normal we are doing the same shit, never sleeping.

Delayed sleep phase disorder. Some of us get into nocturnal phases by disrupting our circadian rythms, and we just can't get out of that cycle of being wakeful at night.

The struggle comes from trying to force yourself awake during the day when your body is telling you to sleep. After a while you'll start going through mental gymnastics trying to convince yourself to just sleep.

>employers always made me feel guilty as hell for being late to work
>told my hiring manager, before she even agreed to hire me, that I suffer from a lot of different sleep disorders, and might not be able to come in on time every single day
>still always got chewed out
>always tried to explain why I wasn't on time (because I didn't sleep the night before, etc.)
>they don't care
>they tell me to just go to bed earlier
>"try to exercise!"
>"don't drink any caffeine for at least 5 hours before bed!"
>"stay off all your electronics!"
>tried it all, none of it works
>always fall back into the same patterns
>eventually quit my job
>currently living with my parents
>feel guilty every single day
>consider suicide
there is no light for the people who are awake at night, because we all live in perpetual darkness

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I was thinking last night... what if we were to move to the other side of the world? This in order to keep our fucked up circadian but reversed, so we no longer have to be awake at night we would be awake during daytime and be normies.

I think it mostly has a lot to do with light levels.

Day sleeper reporting. Been staying up all night since I was in my late teens. Every time I try and fix my hours it usually lasts for a week or two max before shifting back to these shit hours. It's currently 5am.

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Fuck you

Test

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Post sleeping schedule:
Go to bed: 3-4pm
Wake up: 1am

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how do you have money to live?
6 for me

That kind of boss deserves a punch in the face

I have insomnia also
You have to endure it some months until you get over it
I myself sleeped at 6 am for 5 years

Yall niggas better start sleeping in blocks of 1:30 hours. I sleep 6 a day and am wide awake. Sometimes 4:30 even. Dont skip a day of sleep to get back into your rythm, to puy it in laymans terma, everytime you sleep you adjust your internal rhythm bij one hour. So sleep as many times you can to adjust to the new rhythm. Trust me im a pilot

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lmao, fuck off

let me guess though, you didn't get picked up for recurring episodes?

well shit

I need a job, scared of interviews, had some bad ones

a company seriously watched me play with toys in front of a psychologist as an interview, didn't ask about my experience in manufacturing or anything
got rejected of course

tabel

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>TIME TO WAKE UP
Wrong thread

Who else here has planned to kill themselves next month for years?

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This is me. I basically took up dumpster diving to have something to do on my /nightwalk/ but moved to a small town recently with no dumpsters. Now I just sit bored in front of Yea Forums and youtube all night, maybe play some casual vidya games. Hooray my bullshit "spamming" ban is over.

Worked nights only for a few years, and management got pissed when they started adding in random morning / opening shifts that I would show up late to.

Is derealization an American psychiatry meme?