Depression thread. let out your sorrows and vent your hearts away, Yea Forumsros

depression thread. let out your sorrows and vent your hearts away, Yea Forumsros

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brown skin
small frame
social retardation

>Not feeling University
>social guy but diagnosed with MDD
>can apply for ancestry visa for the UK
>deadlocked on a decision to take a break/leave uni to travel for 5 years.

I’m 21, girlfriend of 6 years left me suddenly and I only have friends to talk to when I’m at the pub. Shit sucks.

I feel you man,
Girlfriend of 2 year left me,
I havn't gone to uni in a month

at least you got it in

I was rejected by a girl I liked.
My friends do not even care about me.
Life Sucks

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First time doing a greentext so let's go.

>be me
>in highschool years
>having fap
>girl 6/10 messages me "hi"
>don't know what to do, except look at screen
>girl messages "patched"
>autism takes control of fingers
>i type "yes"
>the girl messages "em ok ha"
>i don't message back she doesn't message me
>curlintoball.exe

That was my only message to a girl that whole year.

Holy shit user, I was rejected couple hours ago for first time by the girl I love, and I lost a lot of friends trying to expend more time with her. Now I'm alone.

I'm about to turn 24 and I'm still a kissless virgin

Just proposing this idea but a prostitute is still an option.

"Friends" talked shit behind my back. I played naive untill they started to try to talk shit to my face. No one cares about how I've been dealing with shit. Not one of them gave me any advice, As shitty as it might have been. They just let me act a fucking fool and would talk shit. I was also depressed because I had recently gotten out of a LTR which was shitty too. Now I've decided to live my life as alone as I can. I've decided I can't trust anyone. "The only warmth is a warmth alone"

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man I have been in the same situation. Dont block yourself off, its not worth it long term. Just become more agressive in defending yourself and, as har as it is, find people who are loyal to you and wont talk shit. Fuck those "Friends" Youre a bad ass mf dont let anyone make you feel otherwise cunt

I miss bawl threads. They used to help me not break down outside from my room. Now I cry like a bitch when I think about other shit that's gone on in my life.

I need to. I need to fix the broken before I can give the best of myself to those who deserve it. TBH most of my life I've had shitty friend who'd pick on me. I'd always fight when it got too much. That's how I had "earned" their "respect". I know better now and I'll try to distance myself from all those feeling.

I'm angry all the time. I'm a dick to every person around me, including my gf and kid. Today I figured out that my anger is based in my own self resentment I hate myself and I'm angry with myself most of the time because I ignore and neglect my responsibilities. I make myself angry and then take that anger out on those around me... Feels real fucking shit to figure out I'm the asshole and the problem. But I suppose I need to recognize my problem to address and fix it.

I don't have any conclusions yet, I literally just started this thought today. But I'm realizing I need to be happy with myself to be happy. I always thought my partner and kid would be my happiness, but I'm realizing it's within me. If my happiness is going to exist I have to create and validate it.

>pic unrelated but pretty great

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whats happening man? im here to listen. lil drunk tho sorry

man, I had the exact same realization today. I wrote an appology to my ex because I had truly been a dick. Please dont let unbridled anger ruin your relationships man, you'll never be able to forgive yourself

Godspeed user youre closer than you think

I just feel so lonely. I crave affection so badly. My boss patted my back after a job well done 4 hours ago and i'm still riding the high it caused, it was the first time in about a month anyone intentionally touched me. I'm almost as scared of this roaring, distorted hole inside me as i am of going out and meeting people, but not quite. I'm 25 and can't wait to die.

How old are you? Your best years are literally when your in your 30s. Men mature and advance moreso at the age than any other.

I want to be a voice actor/radio personality, but I have problems with reading (probably dyslexia or some shit*) my professor tells me I have the voice for it but I fucking suck at reading. So I'll probably stick to engineering for now. I've been trying to learn to read outloud but no one wants to help me.

It's going to be 7 years that I've been without a girlfriend, I'm getting away more and more from the few friends that I have left, without work and without study, I honestly do not have any reason to live.
I feel ashamed that people talk to me and that they realize what I am (and girls even more).

23. It's just seems that most relationships and experiences are made in high school and college. I wish I had interacted with more people, and made more friends. Last few jobs I had were full of unlikable shitheads. Tbh I'm starting to wonder if finding a gf is worth it anymore. Feels easier to just watch some porn and call it a day.

I've always suffered brain fog. I assume it's from my bipolar but it feels like when it sets in I can't do shit and I lose all energy and motivation. I hate feeling like I can't concentrate on things, I hate feeling like I can't make progress. I hate having a healthy lifestyle and still suffering from this dumb fucking shit that just pushes me deeper into this depressive episode. I just want to feel like I am capable of doing things for an extended period of time but the idea of having to go through these cycles my whole life fucking sucks. I tried to break my wrist yesterday because cutting is too obvious a form of self harm and I don't want to die just yet. The pain brought me out of the fog a bit but here I am again,

I'm 29 and I didn't have any fucking friends until I was 22. I didn't go to college or work anywhere with cool people. I attached myself to girlfriends since high school and basically just used them as my social network. It hasn't been until the last few years that I've started to make real friends and real relationships. Don't worry about your age or your time line. You'll fucking get there, bro. Be honest with yourself and try to be better every day. Any percent better.. 01% or 50% better. Figure out your goals and slowly work on them. The number one predictor of success is perseverance. Just try to be what you want, a little bit every day, and you'll get there.

Just practice man. Very few people are born to be excellent at something. Most people achieve through effort. You have the natural ability, now you must need to develop the talent. And you do that by practicing. Look up voice over artists and their work and mimick it. Practice. You'll fucking get there bro

I know it seems impossible but you have to seek out positive experiences. Find something, anything positive, that you like and commit some energy to it. Try that until you find the thing that makes you excited

Mr. Breadbag

36. A fucked up old hag. I'm an alcoholic, I have a good job. I have no outside connections besides the 4 friends I had since high school. They seen normal, and I talk and shit with them, same at as work But I can't let onto my true self to anyone. Its why I drink. Shit, It's what ...hoyl fuck its only 11. here. where was I I ,

fuck this

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Thank you, you're right. I know there are things out there that make me happy, which is why I'm still here, it just feels like they're too fleeting. I guess that's just a part of life though.

Lots of shit I'm not going to post on an image board so it can be left somewhere written to be revisited

A Letter to Agnes DeMille : Martha Graham

There is a vitality, a life force, a quickening
that is translated through you into action,
and because there is only one of you in all time,
this expression is unique.

If you block it,
it will never exist through any other medium
and be lost.
The world will not have it.
It is not your business to determine how good it is;
nor how valuable it is;
nor how it compares with other expressions.
It is your business to keep it yours, clearly and directly,
to keep the channel open.

You do not even have to believe in yourself or your work.
You have to keep open and aware directly
of the urges that motivate you.

Keep the channel open.
No artist is pleased.
There is no satisfaction whatever at any time.
There is only a queer, divine dissatisfaction;
a blessed unrest that keeps us marching
and makes us more alive than the others.

this is beautiful

Check out Jordan Peterson on YouTube.

Gay but true

My best friend rejected me for some chad.
Worst fucking thing is that i really wanted to just be friends with her but no, she fucking wanted to reject me and then get with another dude.

Fuck my life.

First time here btw

>college dropout
>working late night/early morning shitty factory job
>girl I like got with a friend of mine a week before I asked her out and we hang out all the time an I have to pretend I don't mind
>eardrum just ruptured
>caffeine addiction
>parent don't love me
>don't love parents
fuck

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What in particular

25 in two months. No degree, no job. No friends, never even held hands with a girl.

What the fuck is even the point.

20 years old, have fibromyaglia and sleep problems, don't have a job, live with my parents. No treatment for my health has worked, just gets worse over the years. My parents could get me on my feet doing anything I want to do, but I'm in too much pain, can't sleep regularly, and feel tired all the time. I want to go out and get a job and meet people to make music with, but it's hard to even get out of bed.

I know this will probably sounds extremely invalidating and I know because I felt the same when I was told to be more active, but...

I had fibro and it got worse the less activity I did. I was also overweight. I started trying to lose weight and just do light activity like going for short walks every day. When I lost the weight and got more active (I can run now, yay!) I had significantly less pain. It might not apply to your situation at all, but that's what helped me.

I like being invalidated, it's what drives science. I've been trying to go for walks more lately. The fresh air feels good too. Obviously humans aren't supposed to sit around all the time. I'm not morbidly obese but I am "overweight" BMI. A year or so ago I went to college and was walking regularly though. I hoped the exercise would help me, but it just made my leg pain much worse and overall pain got worse as usual. I guess they just need to be very light walks.

I'm in love with my neighbor but she already has a boyfriend.
We got drunk a couple of weeks ago and i told her but as expected nothing happened, shit sucks lol

Lmao me

Dont want to die alone but its looking like thats going to be exactly whats awaiting me. Idk it doesn't seem like this will ever get better or change im getting down about it right now trying to drown my sorrows in some jack & coke it dosent change or get better b/ros

Stuck at a job that I don’t like because I dropped out of college and can’t find better. Can’t get over my ex from years ago, see her all the time but never talk about anything. Being social takes so much energy that I can’t keep up. I’ve lost contact with friends, can’t get a girl, and let my work fall by the wayside. Every night I lay in bed and question my life instead of sleeping like a normal person. I’m probably not gonna make it out of this ok

Well i'm not liked by anyone, tried to take my life and it didn't went well as in dying, so i'm just waiting for my mother to die to just commit it again but this time with more effort

Try to live in 3rd world country BITCH!

-Being High without taking any drugs
-Brain power to fuck yourself up
-auto destructive tendences

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24 years old, married 5 years, wife doesnt care about me, is mean 24/7, doesnt listen to anything I say. I pay all the bills, work, have hobbies. I made everyone else happy and am very social however i'm on the verge of not being here anymore. Am trapped. Wife had had everything in her name so I technically have no credit history so I cant afford to get new car or house in my name, my mind is spiraling downward and I hate myself increasingly every day

im sorry user,

how was she before you were married or first got married? What do you think changed since then?
When did times get bad Yea Forumsrother

She wasn't this bad. She at least seemed to care about me. I will leave state for days at a time, and i'm lucky if I get a "how are you?" Once a day, or every few days and thats all I'd get. We sleep on opposite sides of the bed - she never wants any affection, intamacy is non existent. Men crave these things, and it really sucks because I actually have quite a few women that want to be that woman for me and make it very clear but i'm not a piece of shit and oblige them

>"waiting just to commit it again"
>hits close to home user

dont you feel like all her efforts of raising and caring for you will be in vein? That all her hard work didnt matter because you ended it?

I sometimes feel that way

my life seems like it’s not going anywhere, never had a meaningful relationship, i think i’m a sociopath, didn’t get into most colleges i applied to, quit things i’m interested in after a few weeks

This sounds like ADHD. I guess I had it all my life and I just got diagnosed and medicated for it. I am in my thirties.

well obviously somethings wrong

maybe its the fact that she knows she can manipulate you this way. And she knows youre married now so you cant do anything about it.

try going on about your day like a fucking man and dont care about her feelings or when she does some passive aggressive bullshit just dont even notice it at all. Go to work take care of yourself
make her feel like youre doing better things without her, almost like you dont need her.
workout tend to yourself and most importantly
sex is her only weapon against you, act like you dont even need it, dont ask for it or try it just for a little while. just go straight to bed and dont touch her like she doesnt touch you.

if she sees you being an alpha without her, in a sense shell want you again.

I appreciate this. Shit sucks cause i'm actually in really good shape so working out is already there. My biggest desparity I can say is that I just want to be with a woman that actually shows that she cares about me whether it's her or not. I don't even care about this normally but the sense of loneliness is a killer, literally

No one could ever love me. love is selfish and superficial. Such a stupid feeling and yet I want it more than anything... For someone to tell me that they love me for who I am. That I'm good enough. Such a thing would never happen.
Summer is near. I always have more depressive episodes during the summer... I don't know if I'll make it through this one

Thats great user, stay in shape. Thats probably the best thing you can do for yourself. I dont know how old you are, but if youre still young maybe its time to get out while you still can, before kids and shit. Horrible decision to have everything in her name. Next time put it all in yours.

Maybe its time to find a woman who will actually love you which it sounds like wont be hard for you at all. Dont get stuck in this loveless relationship. Get out while you still can and go enjoy your life with someone who cares.

its the girl im dating Yea Forums im not sure if I should end things with her.

>shes fun to be around
>interested in my life as much as she can be i guess.
>Few friends that I have like her
>feel like I can be myself around her
>havent felt that way with other girls before
>been dating for a few months
>going well not manipulative
>leaves me alone when i dont respond
>FF two weeks ago
>starts talking a lot with friend
>get very close with each other
>talk about me a lot
>she becomes very manipulative after
>not sure what this fag told her but he spilt the fucking beans
>dont respond one time gets very sad
>constatntly asks if we should keep dating
>always asking for my time
>wont leave me alone
>practically moved into my house
>takes up all my time cant do anything else
>gets real close with friend
>talk for hours
>spillingmorebeansaboutme.jpg
>friend starts blowing up my phone every time something goes wrong between me and her
>thisfaggot.gif
>think i want to breakup with her
>know shes crazy and will fuck up my life though
>dont want to be with her that much
>but i feel kind of sad still
>regardless of these things she cares about me
>takes interest in my stuff
>always says how much she cares
>some part of me feels like its all a lie
>shes waiting to fuck friend
>also feel bad breaking up because she cares
I dont know what to do Yea Forums ?
any advice?

>not very hot
>kind of chubby
>5-6/10
>great personaltiy though
what do?

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stuck

... patched? I don't get it.

If you want to keep things going, talk with her. Say what you want to say to her and if she admits to something then drop it. It's clear this friend is maybe attempting to make you seem bad, or exaggerate some habits that you and your SO have.

IT'S TIME FOR DARKNESS

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shiiiiiit...get better soon user.

she wont admit to anything with my friend
I just dont know if I want to be with her because shes not very attractive to begin with her amazing personality makes up for it but now shes being manipulative because now she knows that she can. I dont know if i want to be with her anymore because i feel like theres more out there for me.
>what if im wrong user
>i let this go and its never the same
>or what if theres something much more out there for me
>I just dont know Yea Forumsro
>all of this might just be fake
>dont really know how I feel

I feel bad because shes great and i dont want to make her sad when i break up with her
but I also feel that there might be more out there or at least that what people tell me but what the fuck do they know? I kind of agree with them but at the same time im very socially awkward and shes very outgoing and has a lot of friends

i just dont know Yea Forums

goodnight Yea Forums

Is it not contradictory to be Christian and a pessimist? Just wondering

eh, give or take the world be the same