Childhood molestation questionary n2 (for femanon)

Well I can tell you I’d never forgive you if it was me.

Disgusting.

Thank you, this is the kind of information I need. But my situation was a little bit different from yours. I never forced anything on the girl, she loved me a lot and asked me for sexual contact every time. Then suddenly changed her behaviour toward me and fell in depression-anxiety.

Because she was a child an unable to make those choices.

Dude i don't want to read textbook stuff. I want to read informations coming from real people which lived real life situations.

Well I already laid mine out for you

And I am gateful to you, and I'm really sorry for what happened. Hope you're doing well in life

Nobody else want to share stories?

>I was 11 when it really took off but there was weird shit before.
What did he do to you, or have you do to him?
How did he convince you to do what he wanted you to do.
You also said that you “felt used sometimes”, could you explain some of those times?

Random guy off meetme named Robert.
I was 14 maybe at the time.
No I didn’t I hung out with him with the impression we would play video games and he’s give me alcohol ( bad childhood ) we hung out his place he gave me a drink probably laced with something cause I remember being very dizzy very blurry.
Feels lonely, shameful sometimes. I identify as bisexual but sometimes I wonder if I really am or was it him.
Idk how I felt towards him, maybe terrified or felt controlled. I didn’t enjoy any of it but I still willing went over after.
I don’t think so.

I wouldn’t ask him anything.

How did it start, how long did it go on for and how often?

He was always too tactile but when I went started puberty we started showering together. Then it was handjobs, oral and eventually full sex. He convinced me by telling me it was normal. I kinda knew it wasn't but didn't want to appear immature. I felt used because he'd seek me out when he was horny and it was my job to relieve his hard-on. I felt like I didn't get much out of what was going on and he did which is why I felt used.

>handjobs, oral and eventually full sex
>it was my job to relieve his hard-on
Did you perform oral on him, if so, how often? Did you let him finish in your mouth, swallow?
Could you describe the first time?

This nigga is definitely jerking off to your answers. So bitch stop explaining your past to him

Couple of times a week or if my mum was working away then pretty much every day. I wouldn't say I 'let him' but he did usually finish in my mouth. First time was awkward because I couldn't really fit it in my mouth and eventually I think he was pissed off and just finished on my chest.

lmao, so true

@OP kys pathethic excuse for a male, leave kids alone

this guy asking questions for fap is not op

So this guy not OP?

>he did usually finish in my mouth
How long did it go on for, did you swallow?
>eventually full sex
Can you describe your first time he penetrated you? Was it vaginal or anal?

yes that is op but is not

either way, OP should stay away from kids..

what a pathetic life you must have, poor sob

Ok I'm not naive I realise you're fapping but I'll answer anyway. It went on for a few minutes usually and I tried swallowing but I wasn't always very good at it. First time penetration was up my bum, at about 4pm after school, after I'd just finished my first term at secondary school. Hope that's enough for ya. I'm out.

why do they always go for the bum lol

wouldn't be better to fuck in tight pussy, no worry of pregnancy either

a child pussy is extremely tight

that's what im saying..

It's not like child ass isn't tight

i mean i couldn't even fit the tip of my pinky inside

I've heard it's harder to explain to docs etc if something goes wrong, also, butt can be stretched a bit more than vag at that age? something like that, there is def a reason pedos do it.

So he was obviously into the whole school uniform thing..

So nobody here looks at what happened and have pleasant feelings?

they call it abuse for a reason....

>they call it abuse for a reason...

as I said I'd like to hear real stories from real people, not textbook stuff. There are million of nuances of how it can happen and what feelings it can bring

better question
how many of you childhood trauma victims have multiple personalities?

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>as I said I'd like to hear real stories from real people
because Yea Forums is full of "real people" and "real stories"

I was molested by my father at age 8.
Really wasn't messed up by it until society started telling me that I should be messed up.
Honestly, it felt good. If he was around more, I would've sought him out for more sex.

Now that I'm an adult, I can say I wish it happened more, and I wish I had more time with my father. He passed in '09.

To add to that, I've developed a HUGE incest fetish involving all members of family. However, I wish I could be attracted to my mother, but I'm just not.

kid from school
14
no
eh
i don’t like him
no
sorry

i have a masculine side and a feminine side but not like a trans person i’m still 100% a girl and want to be a girl, sometimes i just dress like jay and silent bob or a skater and act diff, i like me like that

are you male or female?

This is how i felt age 5-12 (m)
I was always really into fooling around but i only did what felt good, and natural; I could tell the girls around me were uncomfortable with it but I felt great when i did anything involving my dick so I didn't understand. now that i'm older and wiser, i wish i was more knowledgeable even at a young age so i could make it fun for the girls... now i'm wracked by guilt over every sexual impulse i feel because every where i go sex and sexual activity are taboo.

Male

I think it works somehow different for us males, that's why I was asking for female experiences. Also I'm happy that you don't hold bad feelings.

Did OP just admit to molesting his daughter or a young girl or some shit?

Yes that's what I did.
No, I'm not happy; no, I won't kil myself nor turn in.

It really doesn't though. The only problem is the way society treats sex in the first world. If you're told something is bad so many times, you start to believe it.

It's only when you begin to think for yourself that you can get past the whole "I'm a delicate flower, don't victimize me." Shit that you begin to heal. Here in America, we glorify victims. You are supposedly stronger for being a victim.

It's all such bullshit. Just accept what you like and what you don't like. Early sexual experiences just help you figure out your sexual preferences that much easier.

Neighbor friend of my dad's
I was 12
He initiated it after grooming me for half a year, I didn't initiate anything he let me touch it at first then kept adding new things to the play.
I still like him alot. Apologize for what? He was my first. Would have like to hear him Say he loved and cared about me.

So you don't hold bad feeling about him? That's nice to hear

tell us abt it

Was molested by a neighbour. I was 10 when it started, 13 when it ended. I used to like contact with him but didn't initiate anything sexual. My parents were shitty so it felt nice to be wanted, as weird as that sounds. I just have sad feelings but not really animosity. He did frequently apologize and has since.

unlike a large portion of people you will hear from, I think the best thing you can do is make amends in your own way; Turning yourself in will just put you through the legal system and drag out more shit from your victim, if it was a family member then dedicate some hard fucking work to them. Make their life better, pay their schooling from your own pocket or buy them a car. if they don't want anything to do with you then just leave them alone and move on. just be the best you can be and frankly; leave a note in your will so that when you pass you can express that you actually regretted your actions.

Most people will say some shit from on high like "turn yourself over to the police!" or "give them closure!" but it's all fucking bullshit. the best thing you can do for BOTH the victim and yourself is just do whatever will make them happier and more successful, whether that being atoning in your own way, disconnected from that person or actively pushing them from behind
my gay faggot rant is over

Nah he was very cool and fun to be around. I had many orgasms.

details fag
let us pass judgement

>Really wasn't messed up by it until society started telling me that I should be messed up.
sure

Thanks, it's not a family member but yes, before and after the molestation I spent a shitload of time with her, played with her, helped her doing homeworks, going to the beach, taught her how to draw etc. I spend time with her even now, but I have the feeling that something changed since then.

Before the fact she was extremely close to me, but now she is somehow bipolar, like she both love and hate me. She sometimes calls me for going somewhere, but I can see that she's conflicted. She'd even like to be cuddled but she's scared, I think. That's why I want to talk to her. One year ago she didn't even want me to be too close to her. Big steps were made, but now it's time to solve this all.

How old was the neighbor?

this isn't a fap thread.
let's say I touched her pussy and licked her a few times.

Ya it is for fap

Why even bother posting this?

He was late fifties.

also, thanks for your empathy

We had a neighbor who was in high school. He use to "hang out" with me. He touched my butt a lot and eventually my pussy. He taught me how to hold his thing while he humped my hands. Eventually he made me kiss while he humped my mouth. I was 11

How does it feel being molested?
What feeling do you held toward your molester?
Would have made a difference if he would have apologized to you? (at that time?)
What words would you have liked to hear from him?

I thought I was his girlfriend so I thought I was being cool and having a high school boyfriend who just didn't hang out with me except in my room I just wanted him to tell me he loved me and that I did good

Are you 12 now?

No I'm 21

>This user knows shit.

OP, don't feel bad. Feeling attracted to children is completely normal but modern society and feminism has made it look terrible, mostly because older women feel threatened.

Didn't you notice men are more prone to 'molest' little girls? It's not because we're more perverted or sexual, it's just because we're not retards.

Don't feel bad, srsly, and I hope one day I have the same chances you had!

Then why do you express yourself like a 12 year old? That's so hot. I love you.

Sorry reading it back it does sound weird and whenever I think about it or talk about what happened I do tend to talk that way I can be normal I just forget

Related but not entirely related slant on this but it might make you feel slightly better OP or whatever I dunno. When I was a kid I had various mental problems and ended up in care and on a shit ton of medication. I had loads of side effects, one of which was hypersexuality at only 13. I had loads of behavioural problems too but that's by the by. My foster carers saw every specialist in the area and the worry was that I was gonna go and whore myself out and get murdered or something. Long story short they ended up unofficially "hiring" a 38 year old male lodger/friend/cared for me, got me on the pill, and his job was basically to fuck me every day to keep me from seeking it elsewhere. He looked after me too and it was never really spoken of even though that was the arrangement. And i only think it helped me at the time. Rambling now but yeah, not always black and white.

Awww, you're so cute!

No dude, for real, don't do it. I tought it would have been cool myself, but trust me that I traded few minutes of pure bliss for a year of hell.

>when the childhood molestation thread turns into pedophilia defense thread

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It is embarrassing. I'm a woman now I've sucked dicks I know the term lol.

So many questions..

Did your foster parents ever witness the two of you having sex?

you've done well, keep it up

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Meh. Can't help subconscious reversion when talking about these things sometimes. That dude replying probably has a big/little fetish, and enjoys the way you talk about it.

Have a side chick that was molested at a fairly young age, and has some kind of multiple personality syndrome from it. One minute she can be perfectly normal, and the next she's legitimately 8 or 9 years old mentally. Never done anything sexual with her when she's acted that way, though. Not out of disgust or anything, just that it doesn't seem right... Until/if she pursues it, I'll just stick to helping her.
Side chick as in girlfriend, basically. Polyamorous with my wife, but just dating the Little.

I live in hell, so bliss would be something magical for me. I've been wanting this for ages.

Envious. You should touch her no no parts while she's in her little space.

Oh... then nevermind.

to op and few other pedos here just go live in the mountains please remove yourself from society and to all you other retards supporting and fapping just kys
>pay her school
>hang out with the girls
>want to bond
are you that disconnected from reality that u dont realize you should atleast try to remove yourself from her life and if u really want to do somethig pay her therapy you sick fuck she will need it for decades to come

Well that sounds complicated.

It definitely messed with me to be honest when I play Young during sex I climax faster and harder

>When user wants to score a molested girl by throwing dirt at another user.

Just stop being a faggot and admit you want to molest her, other user seems to like her legitimately and is not trying to pick her up, so shut the fuck up , pedo scum.

can't you just go fuck yourself, potholevaginafucker?

Like I said, if she engages, I'm down as fuck, but at the same time I don't want to be the reason she gets worse or something. Lol I'd feel like a piece of shit because it's actually pretty cute when she's in that mind state, plus she's a beast in bed when she's not Little anyway.

What? I didn't throw shit, fag. I'm legit in a relationship with a fucking little, you retard. If anything I was trying to help the other user...

you wouldnt like it trust me im probably too old for you

What did you expect the role players on here to do? not justify their thoughts and beliefs?

They accidentally walked in about half a dozen times. Sometimes they came to check everything was ok.

I've always thought you like what you like. Shouldn't be ashamed of that.. But also as adults, probably shouldn't fuck kids.. Almost always ends sour for both parties.

Also never understood the power that pedos thrive on.. Not a turn on for me, personally. Lol also in my defense, I didn't even know she was like this until about a month ago, dating for three, and it never really came up. I'm sure you could find someone willing to act this sort of thing out for you, though. Guys are usually a lot filthier than what they lead on, and will almost never turn down a new sexual possibility.

Oh I have guys who love it

And also, see Fuck off gayboi

High school neighbor and his friends
10
No
Wrong, but exciting, uncomfortable at first but ultimately I could put up with it
Kinda angry, kinda not, just a whole mixed bag of emotions
No
"It's fun having you around." I really liked the attention.

> 10 y older man who started talking to me online
> i was 11-12, we talked all the time. Thought he was my friend
> didnt meet up until maybe 14, memory is bad, but he really was my best friend so i trusted him
> never said no to him, regret that every day, altho i never did anything to him just let him do whatever
> extreme shame, started engage in risky sex with other men during later teens, broke contact with him at around 17
> called him upp crying and screaming 3 years later
> started meeting up again, let him do whatever this time i was at least drunk all the time
> know he is The only one who will always pick up if i call no matter what

You read my live almost

I dont know what you did op but for me the sexual stuff wasnt so bad, i mean i was a teenager so its not the end of the world. What hurts is the grooming, the way he truly still makes me feel like he loves me unconditionally, a love i will never ever get from anyone else. To have that feeling connected to the utter disgust of his hands over me has truly fucked me up. I see the look he has in his eyes in other men i meet sometimes, and it makes me want to crawl out of my skin but i cant help but flirt with them. But i thought i was lesbian before him, so maybe it is that lart as well that has me royally fucked up sexually

Older niece who was 12
I was 10
No
Was never penetrated or hurt so nothing
Thankful in a way
No apology needed.

Essentially it started with her wanting to "practice kissing" and building forts by draping our clothes over shit. This turned into her effectively teaching me to lick her pussy. That is all. I obviously hadnt started puberty yet so there was nothing in it for me. She got a boyfriend at age 14 and it stopped, around the time I started highschool. That same year those skills came in handy and boom, my reputation was born. We're now on a completely normal basis, she's still together with that same guy, second child on the way

It was a parents friend who would regularly watch me for them
I can't remember when it began, but it went on until early high school
Eventually yeah
I kinda liked it, it was our special thing that I could only do with him
I didn't resent him or anything until I figured he was probably doing the same with other kids, which I find abhorrent
He managed to get me to think I liked it
I love you

Chlidren round these parts know the town molester and avoid his shed.

lets see those megas

have you ever considered thanking her? She might be feeling guilty, sounds like you got a pretty sweet deal

Friendly reminder that you will be beat to death if you are found touching kids :)

Nah there's no guilt, there's a mutual understanding it was child's play

I love you too

>Who did it?
Neighbor, late 20s
>How old were you?
11 when it started
>Did you ever search sexual contact with him?
yes
>How does it feel being molested?
When I think of "molested," I think of doing something against someone's will. I was willing.
>What feeling do you held toward your molester?
He was fun. Kept an eye out for me. Someone to talk to. Taught me how to feel good. Was always very sure I was "ok" with what was happening. So when I look back, I know it was "wrong," and I know that probably 99% of girls who went through something similar were actually victims, but I don't feel like I was. He moved when I was 14. If anything, I miss him.
>Would have made a difference if he would have apologized to you? (at that time?)
He did. All the time. Said he was a bad person. What he was doing wasn't right. I'd ask why and he'd explain why. He was big on making sure I knew what was happening, and not just letting it happen. I think it made him feel less guilty? But I always told him to stop apologizing because he wasn't hurting me.
>What words would you have liked to hear from him
How he's been. If I was the first girl he'd done that too. If there were others. If he ever felt confident enough to approach a woman his age and marry and be happy.

love you too user

sitting in a thread waiting for someone to justify to you the horrible acts youve likely committed.

Kill yourself

thanks for your response

What was the "worse" thing he did to you.

Waiting for pedofags to give him the go ahead to fiddle with his neighbours kids, nonce on nicolas.

when i was around 12, my friends older brother who lived accrozs from us.
the first time it happend i was in the basement with him, i was waiting for friend to come home. i was young and naive, we were watching a magic show. he pulled out some hand cuffs and told me to see if i could break out of them like the magician, i said sure. he cuffed me to the bottom plate of a punching bag, and then did his thing. i was scared i coudnt breath with his weight on me.
i remember that was the first time i had a boner i giess, i didnt know how to feel i was scared and angry, but after that i kept going back into his basement for like the next 4 years.
i regret everything it ruined me, i would find guys in school who i thought i could trust or knew who would be to scared to tell others and id let them do whatever they wantrd to me, it was a verry homophobic area, so everyone was to scarred to call dome one out.
to this day it dosnt matter who it is, if they start of in a dominating way towards me i just blank out and become submissive, i cant blame anyone else but myself

He ejaculated into a bag and made me feed jiz covered potato chips to my dad.

Get off your moral high horse and lurk more you filthy pedestrian faggot, nobody here is genuinely trying to justify pedophilia, only have a fucking dialog about it, or jerk off to some anons fanfic

Good girl

Seems like a fun guy

How do I sign up for that lodger job? Getting paid to fuck a 13 year old daily sounds like a win.

Bumping for interest. I think my most recent ex had some dark shit of this nature in her past that she repressed.

op here i'll be there in an hour

Who did it? Teen guy were I was being babysat. I think he was 14.

How old were you? 7-8

Did you ever search sexual contact with him? I liked being held but it always led to something else.

How does it feel being molested? Feel used and taken advantage of. I try not to think about it.

What feeling do you held toward your molester? Sometimes hate him, sometimes want to know what he is up to.

Would have made a difference if he would have apologized to you? (at that time?) He always did and said he loved me at the time I loved him too.

What words would you have liked to hear from him? I dont know.

so you were hurt in the end even if he apologized?

what did he do?

so you don't regret anything?

What a faggot.

They had to tread carefully because it was such a sketchy thing to do but he was a decent guy tbh. I think it probably happens more than people think.

Boy, that descended quickly. I mean, that really got boring fast

ewww, a faggot

It started out slow.it took about a year for everything to happen. First I would just play a lot with him, then we started holding hands, and he would sit me on his lap, I remember feeling him getting hard as he would bounce me when I was sitting on him. He was never forceful.The first time he asked me if I wanted to see it. He pulled it out and had me touch it. that led to hand jobs after doing that a few times it led to . blowjobs and he started touching and licking my pussy then finally anal.

Who did it?
>gymnastics coach
How old were you?
>between 11-17
Did you ever search sexual contact with him?
>the last few years more so.
How does it feel being molested?
>i never felt molested until much later in my 20's. I thought we were in love
What feeling do you held toward your molester?
>pity
Would have made a difference if he would have apologized to you? (at that time?)
>no
What words would you have liked to hear from him?
>none that I can think of

My older brother use to fondle me when we were under covers watching TV. He was 5 years older and often had to babysit us. I didn't realize it was molestation until the metoo stuff made me think about it again in a new light

i'm not trying to justify anything, I just wanna collect some ideas because I don't know what to do

same but i used to ride his lap, while he play w my tits, while playing minecraft ...so fun

tits? how old were you?

My older cousin fingerd my ass n facefucked me.never swallowed only chewed

For you

grade 7

You didn't reply to my question: so you didn't felt guilty at the time? And now, how do you feel loking back to that time?

Did you felt "willing" because he explained all that was going to happen to you? What did he explain? Thank you

my babysitter wrestle me n my friends it often lead his bouncing on each knee meanwhile squeezing our bootys

up for other interesting experiences

My aunts "gay" friend.
I was 8
No
It made me feel powerless
It made me forever hate men and made me into a lesbian, as intended.
Yes, if he told me he was just doing what my auntie wanted him to do in order to affect my future sexual preference, it wouldn't have been as horrible.
His words were honest. He told me I could choose to be the sexual toy of men or choose to be a seducer of women for the rest of my life.

I can't explain why my little girl suddenly changed her behaviour. I didn't do anything special that day. The only weird thing was that she asked me if i did stuff to other little girls, and i said that she was the only one I did something to. A couple of hours later, she was in crysis

>He told me I could choose to be the sexual toy of men or choose to be a seducer of women for the rest of my life.

Psssst. Nonces lie.

so you hate him in the end

Shut up, idiot. Piece of shit idiot.

Fuck off RETARD.

Just to clarify he didn't fondle me until after I hit puberty

Sorry, I was gone for a bit.

I really don't. He didn't hurt me.

Looking back, it was just something special. he gave me attention, made me feel good, and treated me well. I feel "guilty" that I enjoy the memory, because as I said, for most girls, they'd be victims. But in my case, I don't feel like I was.

I felt willing because I liked the attention, and it felt good, and I trusted him. He explained what we were doing, that it was sexual, that he liked to see and touch me, and why it's wrong.

He was afraid of losing his virginity. I think he craved sex, but was scared of it. add to that pregnancy risks, or other problems with fucking me? and we never went that far. So the "worst" was teach me how to give him blowjobs, probably.

so how old was he when he started?

please read this
and give me your opinion if you want.

>He was afraid of losing his virginity. I think he craved sex, but was scared of it. add to that pregnancy risks, or other problems with fucking me? and we never went that far. So the "worst" was teach me how to give him blowjobs, probably.

How could someone be afraid of losing v card to an 11 yo cutie pie ? I would have loved to get you preggers too!

This reminds me of my ex. The first time we had sex, she was the aggressor. As soon as I was inside her, she softly said "daddy". She often seemed like two different people and it was hard to really get. Our age difference didn't help.I feel like because I am almost ten years older, in some parts of her mind, she was truly thinking of me that way...as "daddy".
She said she doesn't remember a lot of her childhood.

Well, I'm thrilled it was him I had, and not you.
I knew that was a risk to sex (again, he talked to me and didn't treat me like a moron) and I didn't want that risk.
And he... well, he had never had a girlfriend or anything. He was a little heavy, and very shy. Getting to know a friendly 11 year old is easier than asking out a woman your own age I guess. He wanted sex, but I think he wanted it at the right time, with the right person, and he didn't know why exactly the idea of it scared him. I remember asking and him trying to answer but coming up with nothing.
It just did.

There is no context. I can't imagine why she'd act that way.

ok, let's tell the story:
i was her homeroom teacher from 2nd grade. One day when she was around 8 years old I touched her inappropriately and she didn't like it. After few times I stopped and I swore to not do it again.

After a year when nothing else happened, we were watching TV and she asked out of the blue if I could fondle her pussy. I did it, obviously. Then she started to play this game where she hid in the closet and faked sleep, and I was supposed to touch her in the sleep.
Then one night she was having a sleepover at my home, I started touching her and eventually gave her her first oral. Her eyes were sparkling and she asked for more, so she liked it.
After one month of those games, she suddenly changed her behaviour and started developing anxiety. When she wasn't with her mom she cried like she was dying. Her mom told me that she said to her that she "felt guilty". She told me that she didn't love me anymore because of our "cuddles". This lasted for around 9 months and now we see each other often, but it isn't like it was before her crysis. I'm sure she both love me and hate me, and I'd like to talk to her

come on fam, you can't be doing that kind of shit

I did it and I regret it so much

Alot of good tips on here for future priest, ty.

You should get away from her.
When I say I'm sure 99% of girls are victims, and somehow I wasn't one... there's a reason.
Even guys like you, who think you're being sweet, are preying on this girl.

I was old enough to have a burgeoning understanding of sexuality. Everything done to me was willing, because I knew what it was and that I had the power to stop it. He explained it all to me.

You picked a child who was too young to be sexual, and you initiated contact. When she eventually asked for it, it's because it felt nice to be wanted, and being touched feels nice, but she didn't know what it was.
There is an inherent understanding of personal boundaries, and of our "privates." And maybe she isn't as unaware as you thought and she's heard of "molestation," and knows what that means.

I bet she's torn because she kind of likes how it feels, but is also worried it is wrong, and that she is being bad.

It's to late to talk to her. When she grows up she isn't going to forgive you, because even if in her memory she liked how it felt, she's gonna remember a guy just taking advantage of her when she didn't know better, and the emotional pain of thinking SHE was somehow being bad.

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But we spent a lot of time doing fun stuff beside of sexual stuff... we cuddled a lot, played a lot and I never hide my true affection toward her. I really, really didn't want to mess her up. I honestly tought she knew what she was doing, and that it was "bad".

I'm not preying on her, I don't want to do anything else to her, I deeply love her and I'd like to do something for avoid any possible bad consequence of what I already did. If I really wanted something else from a random girl I'd just leaver her alone, there are a lot of little girls which would love to spend time with me, but I never acted.

Why do you think it's too late to talk? Should I have talked to her before doing anything?

F here.
My dad.
Started with oral around 6, then full sex around 11 or 12.
After a while i did search it out, though usually he initiated it. I was willing.
I honestly didnt know any better. My parents were divorced and both my mom and dad didnt hide sex from me or my siblings. Though as far as i know, i was the only one he did it with.
I loved my dad then and still do.
He never apologized to me and i dont expect him to. Im not upset at him.

so you don't have those mixed feelings toward him? like love and hatred?

>Started with oral around 6, then full sex around 11 or 12.
You giving him head or him licking you?

No, there may have been times possibly, but i dont hate him at all.
I guess it would have been different if i wouldnt have been willing or didnt enjoy it.

Both. Mostly giving him head at the beginning, eventually him licking me as time went on.

I smell bullshit here. How the hell do you know your aunt was behind it and this was her intent?

>Mostly giving him head at the beginning
How did he get you to suck him and what was it like the first time.
How often did you have to give him head?

maybe she talked to her after

Sorry but how much difference makes between 9yo and 11yo? Honestly, in my opinion you were as "too young" as the other girl

Honestly i dont remember how it started. I just remember being about 6 laying across his lap on his couch in his apartment one weekend when i was staying with him.
Id say every time i stayed with him, which was every ither weekend. Usually once a day, maybe more. And sometimes during the week if he got me to go to dinner or something. We would have to sneak sometimes so my younger sister wouldnt find out.

You shouldn't molest little kids. That's the fuckup. Full stop.

welcome to pedo life, where yo udamage the things you love the most

also I stopped over a year ago

You obviously don't understand the difference between love and lust.

I'm sorry, you're the one who understand love completely I guess

Maybe I was. But what's the difference between 10 and 12? 11 and 13? 16 and 18?
I mean, it's a silly question, considering the lines culture draws around age anyways.

At 11 I was just starting puberty, so that's one difference. Another is just comprehension. Some people understand some things easier than others do. You can see two people, even with similar intellect, and watch one grasp a concept and the second struggle with it.
Maybe I was too young, and I just understood things easier? I can't say for sure.
But at 9 I was in 3rd grade.
At 11 I was in 5th grade. I was a middle schooler. I was having health class with sex ed.
I think 10 is where a big change happens in the brain, for what people are prepared to be able to understand.

You keep justifying yourself rather than taking the comments and criticism. Your a piece of fucking shit. What you did was wrong. There is no scenario at all where this was right. You ruined her life.

Justify what?

Molesting her you fucking idiot

tell me where I'm justifyng myself pleas. It isn't in my mind

>Usually once a day, maybe more.
Were you giving “full” blow jobs to him, letting him come in your mouth and swallowing it?
>We would have to sneak sometimes so my younger sister wouldnt find out.
It sounds like you helped to keep the secret, is that because you enjoyed some of what you were doing?

You have officially proven my point.

as u like

Femanon is actually a fat dude playing along with pedobear

what age did you get our period that you were worried about getting pregnant at 11

He apologize?

Bigot

Damn what's the sauce on the photo

its nice to hear that there are positive outcomes but its hard to tell if its not just someone making a story up

> Who did it?
Boyfriend of my older sister
> How old were you?
Started harmless at 9, escalated with 11
> Did you ever search sexual contact with him?
I was kind of jeaulous that my sister had a boyfriend. Then it just happened and got better
> How does it feel being molested?
On one hand I feel taken advantage on but on the other hand I'm not angry with him or feel "dirty" or such
> What feeling do you held toward your molester?
Kind of loved him, then just wanted his dick. Now I think of him as a big mistake
> Would have made a difference if he would have apologized to you? (at that time?) What words would you have liked to hear from him?
No. I have to go into details.

Get him to rub my back. "Accidentally" expose myself naked after showers or pretending to sleep. "Sleep" is a success! Masturbate or expose myself even more. Develop a big ass and small tits. Finally he touches my ass. Lot of groping and touching. Good times rubbing myself while he is touching me. When I hit 11, he pulls out cock, wanks over my ass. Also watches me under the shower. Sneak at his side when he sleeps and play with his cock. 13 and already on the pill, I try to fuck him in his sleep. Snug to his side, get him spooning me and begin wriggling my ass onto his dick. Rub myself into oblivion, about to take him in - he wakes up and panicks. Can't get him to fuck me. Feel horrible, never try again. He tries to apologize to me but I stop him and we call it quits.

Now, I'm almost 30 and I still want his dick but it wouldn't work out.

what do you mean with "sleep was a success"?

Yes, i was giving full blowjobs from the start, letting him cum in my mouth and swallowing, or he would shoot it on me.

I did help keep the secret, i know. And yes i did enjoy what we were doing.

>Well, I'm thrilled it was him I had, and not you.
What a fucking bitch. Get raped, whore.

Faking to sleep made it easier for him to take advantage of me.

and what did he do?

Touched my ass, my back, my sides. Petting but without touching my aureolas or my vag.

OP and everybody else posting: Some guy just got arrested for making threats on Yea Forums. The FBI asked Yea Forums for his IP address and they gave it to them. So if you post something incriminating, expect to be talking to law enforcement. user posting just applies to other posters.

that's.. normal fondling? I did this without sexual intentions to all my little cousins, male and female.... How is that sexual/molestation?

all stories are fictional etc... we're safe

Sexuality in our culture can be pretty toxic in general. People objectify their partners. When we compartmentalize sex, it can become transactional, and transactional sex can easily become predatory sex. It is probably possible to have harmless sex with an underage person, some people in this thread seem to have enjoyed their underage experiences, but the social and emotional context is crucial.

You missed the point where he was wanking. And kneading the ass of a 11 yrs old isn't normal.

That arrested kid thought he was safe too.

>i live in hell

yea, stick your dick in a fucking child to make the fact that you're a lazy self pitying piece of inbred trash go away for the 15 seconds it would take your lame ass

and then go back to your little hell, taking that innocent child with you for the rest of her life.

you're selfish and have no regard for anything other than your own satisfaction. thats why your life is hell, kill yourself before you ruin someones life you sick fucking cunt. i wish i knew who you were so i could help you understand better.

Is the hell caused by personal guilt or by fear of consequences?

did you just try to insult someone for having sex with adults?

jesus christ how mentally fucked up are you weridos

you cant sit at the adult table and get girls like the big boys so you force yourself onto children who have literally no choice.

im so happy you guys almost always get caught, and convicts haaaaaaaaaaaaaate kid touchers. stay safe you little creep

>I did help keep the secret
>i did enjoy what we were doing.
I wasn’t criticising you for helping to keep the secret or for enjoying what you were doing. A lot of women posting in these threads didn’t seem to enjoy their early experiences giving blow jobs and swallowing come.
Did you enjoy full sex too? Was it vaginal or anal?

Girls vagoo is hard like an oring when they're you g it doesn't start becoming elastic or stretchy until close to puberty

You can still force it like gauging an ear but if you go to fast it'll rip open.

youtu.be/HiYJ_ZNJ_X8

Guilt, almost unbearable. As i said I love this girl and I really did my best for her. I taught her to draw and now she dreams to be a painter. I was there when she was sad. I really really didn't want to hurt her

>Anonymous 03/22/19(Fri)07:19:43 No.795615186▶
>
>can't you just go fuck yourself, potholevaginafucker?

since you've clearly never had sexual encounters with a woman, i'll just point out that a vagina is a muscle and doesn't get loose. that's a myth you fucking inbred

does your bicep get looser the more you lift things? how fucking stupid are you hahahaha

The more vaginas a man squeezes his penis into, the thinner and more crushed his penis becomes. You have to find a boy when he's young before he ruins his thick, young, virginal cock. Men older than 25 are just thin-dicked, used up sluts.

Everyone knows this is how anatomy works.

Also my intention was not to betray her trust

See it's not about confidence, pretty much like being gay... I got chick friends , I've been asked out very aggressively by some, but they're not who I want.

Up from hell

Well, I don't know if this counts as molestation.
>But
I was very young at the time when it happened.
I think that we were about 9 when it started.
I had a friend next door, who was my best friend.
He then one day asked me if I wanted to do what they do in those " naked '' movies.
Being a child, I was stupid enough to go with it, and said yes.
He then took me to a open plot which had plenty of trees and cover. Told me to get on top of him and put it in my ass.
>( I'm. A guy BTW )
This goes on for a few years.
I would go sleep over at his house every so often, I knew that if I did go we would end up doing it.
The really scary part of doing it at any time, was the fact that his father was a police officer.
>He still doesn't know to this day that we were doing all of those things.
It actually to my knowledge, lasted for about 4 years.
I knew it was wrong, but I couldn't stop myself.
It officially came to an end in 2007 when he and his mother died in a car accident.
So that was a HUGE relief for me.
I didn't even cry at his funeral
I have to say, my mind is still warped about it all.
>I actually regret doing it.
It has actually been the cause of being suicidal through life.
I told my parents about it years ago, but they don't believe me, because he is dead, so there is no proof.
I know that some may find this hard to believe.
But that's my story

I know you werent criticizing me. I guess im one of the rare ones that did enjoy it.
I enjoyed full sex too. It was vaginal at first, then anal some later on. It did hurt a little the first time, but i had already experimented with things and toys and so did he on me.

Thought he was my boyfriend. Didn't know I was being molested

>im one of the rare ones that did enjoy it.
Could you describe a typical blow job session, how would he ask you, or anything else that he or you would say. Was he sitting or standing, and what position would you be in. Did he come a lot?

Pls tell more. How old were you?

12 he was 20

And now you feel bad?

I mean, now do you feel used?

ITT: Pedos larping as sexually abused children for other pedos to jerk off to.

Real gay shit!

i hope that isn't true because tomorrow I'm going to talk to the girl using those references as my main source

I'm totally against all this too but I have to point out that I've seen older woman pretty loose down there so I guess that's not completely true

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up from hell 2

u won't die here

or maybe yes

holy shit this thread has been up for 12 hours...

yeah, a lot of interesting stories

Sometimes either of us would ask if we want to "play" with each other. Sometimes he would just pop it out, sometimes i would ask or start rubbing him and pull it out myself.
Did it in all different positions, sitting, kneeling, him standing, him laying, just abouy any way you can imagine.

And yes he usually came a lot

>You read my live almost

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>And yes he usually came a lot
Did you actually like the taste of his come, or did you just tolerate it.
Did he ever do things to you, or make you do things that you really didn’t want to do?

rip, you lasted longer than I tought

>Who did it?
Best friend's olderbrother
>How old were you?
11 until 15
>Did you ever search sexual contact with him?
Yes.
>How does it feel being molested?
Like being used. Disgusting for letting it happen.
>What feeling do you held toward your molester?
I don't really feel anything to him
>Would have made a difference if he would have apologized to you? (at that time?)
Not reallytbh
>What words would you have liked to hear from him?
"I love you"

were you in love with him?

Yes.

It sounds stupid now but I thought the way he was always looking at me all the time and the things he wanted to do to me were because he was crazy about me. It made me feel wanted.

How old was he?

17 when it started

i usually just look on here to see stupid stuff that people post and certainly never though i'd share, but here goes.

from about age 10 until around 13. my aunt watched me a lot.
i never sought anything sexual
i didnt know how to feel then. things i never felt before were being forced on me.
she doesnt know i remember it all. just emotionless toward her.
not sure how id feel about an apology

Never tought to talk to her?

did you already hit puberty whne he started?

I think it happened around the same time it started yeah

no. i really just avoid any event or such that i would likely be in the same room.

Why do you think you were used? Didn't he love you? Would have that made a difference?

can you tell what happened? Are you male?

im a female.
ive never actually put this down into words before.. what do you want to know?

>Why do you think you were used?
I was pretty naive and vulnerable and he took advantage of that.
>Didn't he love you?
No. He just wanted me physically.
>Would have that made a difference?
Probably, yeah.

I want you to write everything passes in your mind. It's clear that you need to talk about it to somebody. This forum is better than nothing.

Ok he was using you. I'm sorry. That's why you felt molested.

like, what did she do to you?

she would have me lay in bed naked with her.
shed tell me that she wanted to help me learn about my body since no one helped her.
every time, she started by touching/licking/sucking my nipples.
then she would spit on my clit and use my hand under hers to make me rub myself.
she always did this for a while before taking over herself and using her mouth too.
she made me orgasm almost every time.

And you didn't resists? It's because of this that your feelings are messed up?

i didnt physically resist. i would ask if we could do something else or ask if we can do it next time.
she would say that its important for me to learn and "doesn't it feel good"
i didn't understand having my clit stimulated or my orgasm. she told me that i was lucky since a lot of women had a hard time with it.
its been stuck with me ever since. every orgasm makes me remember and remembering frustratingly makes me aroused.

when i started to get my period that helped slow down how much she did it.

So you were clearly at unease with that, yest she kept doing it. Yeah, that was terrible and I'm really sorry it happened to you.

why aren't you angry at her? She did stuff to you that you didn't want to!

i guess i never told her that i didn't want it.ive always tried to avoid thinking about it at all. these memories always spark arousal in my body. i guess because that how my mind was taught to associate it.
so i just don't think about it. this is the most i thought on it in a long time.

well if you were suggesting "to do it another time" or "do something else" it's pretty clear you didn't want to do it. She was a real jerk. The fact that you didn't tought about it for a long time doen't mean that you got over it.

it went on for almost 3 years and im still here. im not mentally over it, but its better than before. typing it out actually feels good, especially anonymously. anything else?

thats grooming for ya

What was it like between you the rest of the time? Did she act like nothing was strange? How did she seem to feel about it? Was there guilt?

You never tought tho talk to her? That could be relieving.
Also, if you want to share your story, please tell me how went the first time she did something to you. How did she approach you? She just took you to the bedroom?