Feels thread

what were the issues? maybe something can work out. time and space has good effects

find something you love, travel see the world, enjoy the time here while you can

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She said that she stayed with me by habit and that she just doesn't want it anymore. She lives with her parents now and told me she doesn't know if her decision means forever. But my hopes aren't too high

Hm, honestly, not to hurt you, id move one on. I know the feeling of being replacable, and if shes not fully into it, devoted to you, id do whats best for you

im tired, of everything. everything is just a dull repetition. been like that since i left the military. i fake every emotion im supposed to feel in every situation. i literal care about nothing but am angry all the time

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That's what I'm trying but we still have both of our names on the lease and share some insurances etc. so I can't break all contact right now

Ive got 15 euros to my name and i can't make it to the end of the month till next paycheck.
Fridge is almost empty and i have kids to feed, bills are way backed up and FML generally.
Im a failure as a husband,a father,and a human being.

crime?

easy fix, rice and chicken, if you cant do that ramen.

What? As in rob a gas station or mug an old lady?

i lack motivation about anything expect videogames

With 15 euros till the end of the month?
Note that i need 5 euros of gas for my bike as to get to work. So basically 10 euros to feed 2kids and me.....

no, think bigger. drug dealers always need mules, runners etc

go ramen, or bread and cheese. itll be not the greatest for em but ration it.
What happened? Laid off like I?

and not consider myself suicidal but if i knew i was gonna die i wouldnt try to stop it

with this all said i desire knowledge about everything but at the same time i lack motivation

Do whatever makes you happy user
Ive hit rock bottom so many times, it takes persistence and dedication. look at what you love to do and try to find a career out of it.

play games, masturbate and belive in non exsistent girlfriends

my career is programming games or working with them, i do have some books of that but i never try to read them
but today ill try real hard

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:( hope you feel better. I don’t understand why males go around fucking people when they break up with their girlfriends. Does it help?

yes, so does fighting people.

Bf broke up with me because he’s not ready for a relationship at this point in time which makes me feel like I was there for entertainment or something? Idk but we’re still “friends” nothing has changed really talk everyday and such but it’s still painful.

I'm 27 and I've just started to learn to program games, I feel like I'm 10 years behind in my life and I desperately want to make up for lost time but I'm absolutely terrified that I can't and I've missed the boat, the dreams I had about my future have long passed.

But that's just me.

Depression fucked me up, been fucked up in the head since i was 11, always been different. always thought differently and noone really gets it, goto the hopistal everyweek talking to pshychologists and therapists trying to figure this shit out, on a shit ton of medicine, kinda need advice from y'all "oldies". thanks.

Got a full thesis to write in only 3 weeks, everyday I'm just staring at the word document and feel like I have a brain block.

Also arguments with gf about the NZ shooting and the rationale behind it....

I don’t believe in medicine for emotions it’s not good for you unless you’re literally disabled or you’re going to kill yourself.

Its better that he told you he's not ready than led you on. It is definitely hard to lose someone you like, but the show must go on. Exercise helps to combat this negative thinking, or any self improvement.

my teachers and classmates belive im a genius because i think differently hen im just really a fucking degenerate seeking the smartest and quickest solution

This is gonna sound weird but bare with me. So i came back into Skyrim and i downloaded a mod called Inigo. It's a follower mod that actually feels more like a real person than just an NPC. The main goal of this mod is to act like an actual best friend and i'm depressed because i haven't had a beat friend for like 4 years after i realised some horrible shit about him. The thing is that this mod reminds me a lot lf my times with him and I'm fucking sad :(.

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You work out? Have any specific, and realistic short time goals you can work towards?

Yh I lost 30lbs at one point gained it all back during what I thought was a bad patch didn’t know it could get worse than this. The hospital tried to put me on Prozac so I left therapy all together. Life’s pretty shit atm.

dude youre there, better late than never. carry yourself things will work themselves out.

Chastityanglelic on kik if anyone wants a friend

There is always going to be something, just focus on study/work. Take one day at a time, and always allow time to grief (because it is hard, breaking up with someone or not going into a relationship).

Start small, every day contribute to something, even if its a 5 min workout or something, at the end its 1% of the day, x 365 days in a year, and you are going to be 365% better than you have been!

Positive thinking attracts positive things

My weight
Back injury
A string of rejection
The fact that Iv accomplished nothing

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if you change your mindset youll feel better about yourself. take it all as a compliment

Buddy of mine came over to smoke and watch tv last night then his girlfriend facetimed and they were on the phone for at least an hour, I kicked him out after they started talking about shower sex and got shitfaced on my own. Really feel like I’m so socially inept I’m gonna die an incel

nah, just got a shit friend.

couldnt find you dude

Sadly I have a total of 2 “real” friends cant cut any of them off or I’ll an hero myself out of boredom in a week

I'm 99% sure that I have skin cancer. I'm purposely not getting it checked out in the hope that it kills me since I'm too scared to kill myself, and too beat down by life to want to keep on living. I was scared at the beggining but now I'm just numb about the prospect of dying soon.

Trans-man here, I feel stuck in my situation at home, I'm 21 and still live with my parents, im unable to get support from my family. I'm unable to start hormones because of this reason. I try to pass as a man but my voice and stupid face gives me away. I've been just having a hard time with myself not being where I want to be.

But I'm just some dumb tranny right?

Can't really complain. Just the final stages of the winter depression hitting me hard. But I'll be fine, spring/early summer will be here in just a few weeks.

The darkness and greyness hit me hard this year..

i feel ya man, talk to him about it. If hes a real friend he will understand.

:) wow I love humans I hope everyone feels just a bit better

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my gf gets seasonal depression in the winter, is it just youre unhappy with life? i dont understand it too much

Oh, you know....

Had the same job for 5 years. Tried a career change and so far I regret it, but am stuck. I like the career, just not where I happened to get hired. Wish I looked for a job for longer than like a week.

i know what?

No one really truly thinks trannys are dumb we all like poking fun at the situation but deep down I know how hard you guys have it. I know your struggle is very valid.

Nah sounds like me. Only I'm 27 and still havnt made any progression. I turned manlier over time and sort of had to give up at least til I live alone and even then.. No idea how can I can ever go public. I waited too long.

Thanks user, that honesty means a lot to me :)

I don't have any family or any friends.

Nah I get it too, it fucking sucks. Even if you really want to be happy you just end up being miserable when the weather is shit. I got a seasonal depression lamp off craigslist and it seems to help a bit, it simulates the sun's light.

Love my best friend but know that if I tried to be more with her she'd run away. We're horribly mismatched but stick together anyway.

She's been talking about a guy lately and I know she'll start something up with whoever he is, because she's beautiful and can have pretty much anything. It all gets even weirder because I have a girlfriend of my own - it was awesome when it started but I feel almost nothing now. And it's because I still love my best friend. She's the only one I can really see myself with forever.

Bonus: my best friend I'm talking about here looks just like porn girl Veronica Radke, if anyone feels like spankin it

How does it feel to me trans, guys? Genuinely curious.

mostly every part of my life has been improving over the past few weeks, yet i fail to get any satisfaction out of the things i do. on the other hand every small (or big thing) i do wrong haunts the living fuck out of me.

Also i can't get over the fact that im alone and resent myself heavily for it since that's just weakness.

I am the opposite. I love rainy grey shitty weather. Sunny weather has me out of my element and making normies happy.

I'm not really trans. I just always wished I was someone else, wore girls clothes since I was like 6 or so. More of a cross dresser, but havnt had time anymore. takes a lot of time alone to feel comfortable making the change. I just am forced to be a loner and kind of weird.

i feel you man. cheer yourself up, get drunk and do whatever you couldnt do when you 2 were still together. think about it: what did you want to do all the time/what did you miss the most in your relationship?

what did you do the whole time?

I also have some other stuff going on that makes it difficult to get a job/can make it difficult, anxiety for example

I've had it since I was 10, it's gotten manageable over time with the help of medication but it still makes it hard to move forward sometimes. I'm taking small steps to start driving and hopefully move in with my boyfriend eventually. And on top of that I'm trying to get my associates degree while I'm only being able to handle a class at time

Sorry for the big life dump there. I'm just tired of being behind in so many things

im in the same situation. cant learn at all even though this is the most important reason to learn in my whole life. i just stopped caring a year ago or something

youll probably make it. I forced myself to do a lot that I didnt want to do, like drive, get a job, etc. I fucking played the part and am no happier for it. Wish I went against the tide.

It's kind of difficult to explain, for me I just don't feel like or look like who I see myself as, which Is a dude. My parts don't match

No it doesn't help, but the time it took to meet and to fuck her it was a good deflection.

I just gotta keep pushing, geez I'm gonna be 22 this year. I hope I get where I wanna go

21 and fucking bored of everything. I study economic computer science and kinda happy with it. In my opinion Social media fucked the whole society. There are almost no normal girls anymore

Now that she's gone I have absolutely no idea what I always wanted to do. Now the only thing I want is her to come back

OP here, same, but it tends to make me want to drink

Might not happen all at once. Might not happen at all. I know by 27 actualy 28 this month, I am resigned. Have to still figure out how to compromise.

Just broke up with my girlfriend of 10 years. She's not taking it well at all and it bothers me, but I would constantly cheat on her and lie about things. I just decided that I couldn't keep doing that to her and that she should move on, and much as it bothers me.

try using tinder, its not just for fucking, or kik me TheeDude177

Lol thats my life and I made this post No matter what I do to better myself it doesnt help. Been trying a long time to better myself, years. Its almost comical how easily I get into a depressed mood cause of small fuck ups and being alone. Even alone, i have no idea what I enjoy anymore.

I understand. I really understand. Once you’ve been with someone for so long and you love them so much you can’t see yourself without them but you have to understand there are other options there’s probably someone out there even better than her. Take things slowly but realise your whole life isn’t dependent on this girl.

What happened between you two? Did she give you a reason?

Why did you cheat on her? What couldn’t she give you?

i tend to work out a lot lately, seems like the best outlet for me. tried cutting (again) didnt like it anymore. I enjoyed gaming, i do not anymore. I enjoyed friends, but i realized how shallow all this shit is. I enjoyed my Girlfriend who left me.

now all i have is me, my pet rats and a life that, if someone would seriously ask me, I don't see purpose in at the moment. I dont want to be shitty and commit suicide. But if someone ran me over i wouldn't really mind i guess.

I enjoy pussy, put the last one i got probably lost me a friend, so that's another big nono i guess.

idk im not big on the whole tinder thing. Too unpersonal, most bitches i attract on there (few as there may be) are only fuckmachines and albeit i love sex i hate rndm ppl.

Fetlife seems to be more up my alley, tried discovering new kinks.

Look here, that was my answer earlier

I know all that, but still it's hard to realise that I'd never again wake up next to her or kiss her goodbye before I leave for work. I have no problems meeting new girls but it'll take time before I'm over her

i know, been there, like i said kik me if you just want someone to talk to

nice of you to offer but my older brother is right around the corner. Not sure if I will tell him about my mood, or will simply be spending a nice evening with some beer, dope and super mario.

yeah, that evening would be better.

White genocide. :*(

fix it yourself

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I just don't feel like anything is worthwhile doing.
I've got moments of hope, but there is a voice inside of me that says: "Why even bother? You are going to end up in a grave anyways, and nothing will change that."
On the other hand, it makes everything feel like a game - whatever happens, fuckit. It doesn't matter. Sometimes you win, sometimes you lose. In the end, everyone loses anyways, so it doesn't matter. Just try to enjoy it.

H-hey user, can you fuckoff

I feel the same things you just described, I know this is probably an advice everyone gives but get some hobbies. It can help a lot.

while it is true everyone dies, does that mean everything that happens in your life is insignificant? I disagree. There are things in life for everyone to make them happy, you just have to find yours

She don't want me bros :(

Someone else will who’s probably better it’s okay :)

I really hope so

I know so. There’s someone for everyone as long as your personality bangs.

Thanks bro

had an argument with my gf on my birthday yesterday

About what?

we're pretty long distance, and I was upset that the one day we were with each other in a while she sort of ignored me

Communication is key. As long as you talk to each other about the problem and love each other you’ll be okay. Don’t be afraid to show emotion women love it because it shows that you care.

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Dreams about crushes. Then you wake up and feel shitty

Man up and talk to them then. Befriend them, then swoop in for the “wanna go out sometime”

They're probably thousands of miles away, haven't spoken in over ten years, and have no way to contact them.

I am inpatient in a mental health unit at a hospital since February 19th.

I have screwed up every aspect of my life. I am in debt, no degree and haven’t had a traditional job since 2011. Just moved back in with my folks at age 32.

Mental illnesses: SAD, ADHD, OCD, depression, anxiety and addiction.

Many physical health problems caused by not taking care of myself. Some damage is permanent, some temporary.

Never had a gf. Only been with hookers. Just kissed a Hooker for the first time recently. Couldn’t feel pleasure during sex, perform properly, or even cum during sex.

I am short with a small dick.

I think it’s obvious I should kms. I’m sick of family, friends and medical professionals saying I shouldn’t. They have to say that. I need an unbiased opinion. What should I do b?

I just got a bj from my girlfriend a few minutes ago. Feeling pretty good right now.

Sorry I mean couldn’t feel much pleasure during sex.

Honestly user, just do the deed. you're better off gone then suffering. just act quick and dont over think yourself

Ty for your opinion which appears honest.

I hate my bf of 10 years. We have a 3 yr son. I love my son hate his father. I'm 27

Go and meet new people why are you crushing on someone you haven’t spoke to in 10 years for all you know they’re an entirely different person

Don’t kill your self dweeb what are you a pussy? I fucking thought not. You can actually get into a very devoted long term ddlg relationship quite easily those girls will literally serve you in return for a dominant partner who takes care of them and gives them direction. And they don’t care about dick size. In fact dick size does not even matter as long as you can use it (unless you have a literal peanut)

I just got diagnosed with a benign brain tumour that will likely have to be operated on, throwing every plan I had into flux.

Leave him instead of being a sour bitch for the rest of your life because you’re going to be constantly annoyed don’t waste your life being miserable and don’t be a cunt about it, let him see his son.

I am not a dominant partner who can provide or give direction. My dick is at least larger than a peanut.

Thanks for your opinion.

And yes I am a pussy.

Yh dong be. Girls like sweet but dominant. Use that information as you will but don’t just off yourself I think you still have a lot of potential to live for. If you die you’ve actually fucked off your future wife so hard she’s been waiting forever can give up now.

What potential could you possibly see?

my dick is just too big

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You’re a 32 year old man. I’ve always put men in a pedestal because most women aren’t funny and you guys know how to make sad times funny. You could get a job, take life one step at a time and your future wife is waiting for you.

Congratulations

When I was 26 I got diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. I was convinced that arab clan (mob) members have been following me and wanted to kill me. This went on for two years until I was 28 and properly medicated. I was hearing voices, seeing people that aren't there and I slit my wrists down the road two times because the voices said that the mob would kill my little brother unless I kill myself first. I missed the artery by mere mm both times and went to mental institution for 11 months. I've moved from city to city due to my paranoia 4 times and ended up homeless. Went to a nuthouse again and they got me into assisted living. I get 37 bucks a week for food and a 100 bucks a month for smokes, I'm currently looking for a job, if I get one I can keep 120 bucks of what I earn, rest goes to the state because they pay for facility that I'm in. I was heavy into drugs 10 years prior to these incidents, weed, cocaine, amphetamine, lsd, dmt, magic mushrooms, mdma, alcohol and opioids, I guess thats what fucked my brain. I have no contact to other people and I browse Yea Forums and play video games to pass the time.

I would really like to smoke some weed just to make myself feel better but when I do I start hearing voices again and the cycle repeats it's self, been there done that.

I celebrated my 28th birthday on Yea Forums while getting pissed drunk and received no calls, didn't bother me much but it made me think about my life.

tl;dr
life's a bitch, and then you die

"[spoiler]SPIKE DIES![/spoiler]"

Why should i even wake up anymore.

Had a fwb thing going on with my ex the last 2 months Thought she'd want more, asked her and she had already slept with another guy I bolted, was distant with her and told her that this arrangement of hers is done

She texted me that she doesn't want to continue this, because she's having guilt thoughts all over the place and she doesn't want them That this is hurting me and whatnot

Texted her drunk that "the only way this could continue is just the two of us"

Her answer was she doesn't want the intimate stuff to continue, if i wanted to stay in contact i should text her

Went drinking a week ago, texted her that i don't want to loose sight of her, she replied "i'd verym uch like that too :) we're gonna figure it out!"

last thing i heard from her, i ended this shit almost 3 weeks ago, not once did she text me how i am (i feel like a depressed piece of shit mind you)

She invited me to her birthday party via facebook, she could've just texted me on whatsapp that is.

Was drunk yesterday too, just only sort of wanted to text her

TL;DR: after 3 months met my ex-gf again for 2 months, we started making plans for trips, sleeping with each other, she was distant for a week, talked to her and she slept with someone elese because she felt pressured

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Didn’t anyone tell you psychedelics in moderation my guy or you’ll go crazy? I think you should stay clean of alcohol and drugs and focus on getting that job try and make some friends and live life the best you can until you feel a bit better so you can have a smoke or drink every now or again socially.

Move on or it’s going to hurt having a constant emotional back and forth.

But how if she's part of my friend circle and i will inevitably see her on parties

In the beginning I was careful with my drugs and dosages but a few years in I didn't give a fuck anymore. For example I've tripped on 1800ug of LSD one night and smoked DMT 6 hours into the trip, I know I'm retarded.

But yeah, thanks, thats what I was thinking, get the job and try to have a normal life

You can see people without knowing them the way you used to. You can’t just stop loving someone I understand that but it’s important that you understand this thumb twiddling waiting for her to come back isn’t healthy emotionally. And don’t just go and fuck random girls that’s not helpful either. Hang out with your friends more let them support you.

Good luck soldier :)

I'm beating myself up so much because of this

Just got dumped by the only girl I've ever been with, we have been very close friends for a long time.
I'm not very social or good at meeting new people, so I feel like there's no way I'll meet someone new soon.
Feels hopeless

I do not have enough money to pay all my credit card bills next month.

So Im fucked.

File bankruptcy?
Try and sell everything just to pay for 1 month? (i dont have much to sell really)
Borrow money?
Literally need an extra $600 a month just to be able to make payments.

Thats a good thing.
If you were a normal person you wouldnt give a fuck about meeting someone else.
You need to sort your life out and not care about meeting anyone.

My life is pretty damn sorted except for the social and relationship aspect tho.
I unsure how to fix that tho

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Don’t beat yourself up relationships come and go it’s okay. Don’t get hung up on someone who isn’t fully emotionally and physically devoted to you.

Try and pretend you're a man.
You know, someone like james bond that doesnt give a fuck about a woman does or says.

i have a crush on my friend of 8 years, but shes with my cousin who doesnt treat her right. after my first two relationships went up in smoke and all other friends abandoned me because of the last ex, she was the one still there giving me support. i knew i shouldve taken the chance when i had it, but now its just dust in the wind. maybe now i can move on and find someone, or ill just die alone so i dont have to deal with the bullshit. idk ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

old ex still wants me but is toxic. she's gorgeous and is always down for me. its hard to walk away.

But do you still love her or do you like the constant attention? Don’t waste your time with pretty faces. Find love.

You’ll find someone don’t get hung up on her and it’s wrong to tmg especially since he’s a relative. Just be a good friend and let her know she isn’t getting treated right.