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I just pushed away the one person I thought I might be able to care about for the simple fact that long distance never works and I don't want risk hurting him.

Oh no I meant I'm stressed out because I can't get things done. Every time I finish something I feel like two more things need my attention. I'm slowly getting a back catalog of things I have to do but never getting time to do because more pressing matters arise. It doesn't help that I'm (more or less) the only one that does what I do at my job so getting time off won't be the easiest of things to do and I know when I do there will be more things that haven't been addressed that I need to deal with.

Parents are absolutely lovely, blessed to have them tbh. Just moving back when you're 24 and knowing you're more than likely will be there until at least 27 after moving out is kinda weird. Better than the roommates by a mile though.

Dicks was maybe the wrong word (although there are still plenty, but that's everywhere). I guess a better way to describe it would be that my personality is different to what most people would have here? More of a small town, rural area personality if that makes sense. The population is under 7,000 I think and most people in my age range who have any form of aspiration move away. Plenty of nice people in their own right but plenty of people who I have almost nothing in common with.

Tinder and Bumble here are pretty dead. Even when I was back a major city and I did get the odd match, I'm a terrible conversationalist especially with people I don't know. Doesn't help when the people I match with don't respond most of the time. I'm okay with being single, again just not satisfied.

>I enjoy watching people die and I tell everyone who doesn't that they're pussies

wat do?

Stop watching people die would be my first piece of advice.

stop sitting in your room and devolving.

go do something.. fucking anything, really.

but I'm not a dweller

What kind of pushed away are we talking? That fucking sucks though.

Told him not to message me.

Did you tell him why? I feel like you're did the right thing regardless because from what I've heard long-distance is a lie, I'm just curious.

that's good, that's step 1, really

are you subjected to the idea of death on your daily travels?

Basically explained I'm sick in the head and I didn't want to be a burden or a bother.

I feel like I know you

play any vanilla WoW?

I played wow once a year ago and I disliked it a lot.

Well, to each, their own ^^

Don't push people away user, and try to get them back, when you're ready. We need our companions. Pushing them away is a means of self sabotage, of ruining your own worth because you feel you don't deserve their love or comradery.

You deserve love.
You deserve to love yourself.

Don't ruin your own chances bud

My advice would be to be patient, friend. Say you did end up in a relationship with the person who took too long to respond, do you honestly think you would have been happy with them, friend? If you were unhappy with something they did before you even went out, do you think it would have been a smooth ride the rest of the way? Be patient and find the right one rather than settling down with the wrong one and being miserable, friend.

I'm very sorry to hear that your brother and those around you have gone down such a dark path. I'm very happy that you did not go down the same path and you're moving away to get away from it. I wish you the absolute best in the future, friend. Living alone isn't as scary as it seems :) Just need to plan properly is all~

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I just had an internet friend/trap (post like a girl but confirmed dude who can't afford transition, bit of a long pointless story so I'll spare you that) who I knew for years block me despite only talking to me once a month or less, usually with "im bored" or something weird to talk about.

Like saying how its weird for my country to be able to check your phone and arresting you for having "child exploitation" material and then saying "better wipe my phone before I arrive".

They blocked me because after I said their country is weird and they said no their country is just bad I responded "I know, but I can't move to the moon to get away from you :P".

I only ever use emotes to convey jokes, how can you not take one shit post after so many years of me literally shit posting?

So, I feel surprised, not saddened by the loss, hell maybe they made borderpatrol's job easier by outing themselves.

Also that was my last internet friend now I only have irl people to annoy so go me I guess

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I'm my own worst enemy, not my best friend. You're absolutely right on your first point though. I don't feel like I deserve love or happiness or anything good.

thanks based Isabelle

Hi Isabelle! Hope you're having a good day! Me, I'm having to stay awake (it's 8:30am and I still haven't gone to bed yet) to try and put myself back onto a regular sleep cycle. But I'm making the most of it by watching a favorite anime (You're Under Arrest!).

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Hurting myself is not only the only thing I know but the only thing I do well. Maybe one day I'll try another suicide attempt, until then I'll hurt myself physically or emotionally at every opportunity because I deserve that.

You've been at this a while dude.

Keep it up. You're alright.

Well, I'm not going to join your pity party ^^

only you can decide what you wish to fulfill. If your wish is suffering, and pain, then so be it :(

I second this.

I’m bored

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Well, I guess, my issue is to all my irl friends (which I don't have many due to introvert nature) I'm just the oddball, we don't share any interest or least to the same level (ie I like x game and I'm 100x over leveled in comparison so we were never on the same page) and they only accept me as a friend because we met at school/work and the fact I'm happy they accept me for my faults, thus I tolerate theirs, none of them really grew up 12+ years after our school days apart from joint aches.

With my old online friends we could have philosophical discussions and describe things we could never tell our irl friends such as the demons in our head, but over the years we all drifted apart and I ended up axing all of them just because we stopped talking and when we did (at the time, not now) I was being a depressive little fucker needing a shoulder to cry on (I had a real close internet friend who was my internet ex who suddenly disappeared, they came back once I managed to message them via an obscure method of communication but after they explained their situation I accepted they were gonna go away and there was nothing I could do, before their return though I went into a depressive state to where even my work was affected thus why I went crying to them, I'm over this but will not forget).

This person just now was one of the few I wasn't even remotely close too and was more a "legacy" friend because they diddin do nuttin, while it'd be nice to meet more irl friend who share the same passions I doubt I'll ever get that, not with my age and of course how argumentative I can be (tried to join a model making community and ranted on how the admins were shit talking a smaller page who was run by kids).

So while I long for more I'm content with my little slice of life, for now at least

Hi bored how are you?

Well you look tired

I wouldn't expect you to and I'm glad you would not. And yes, that is my wish.

Why not ask for help, friend? Or assistance in understanding something better so you can do your job better and do it quicker. Your boss would know how to do your job. If not, they shouldn't be your boss. I'm sure they'd appreciate you doing your work and asking for help than having a back catalog and never telling anyone

I'm very lad to hear they're great people!

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I recently lost my Girlfriend of 8 years. Things did not work out the way they were supposed to. Im not holding a grudge against the girl - not a major one at least. I want her to be happy, and i understand that i haven't been good enough to make her that. We talk from time to time, s'allright. I dont want her back, just the feeling she gave me i believe.

I'm trying to become a better man. I am more fit, I have started a proper education (albeit late being almost 28 years old). Im still working on the emotional stuff, not being as much of an honest-asshole and "talking about your emotions because gurls dig that shit".

Now one of my best friends has started falling in love with a girl, i was starting to secretely have an affair with (its kind of in our group of friends and we didnt want to make a big deal out of it, in the beginning it was just very good and kinky sex really). We did not exactly stop, and today he apparently found out we've been sexting and sexing and shit by looking at her phone. I explained to him why it got to this point (me being a tad bit suicidal atm) and am pretty sure I just lost a friend. Not the best one, but one of the valued few.

Am conflicted about just pushing everyone away so i will never have to deal with this, or just going with it and accepting me as a shit person.

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The only reason you're telling people all of this is so that they will help you, and tell you "no don't do this to yourself!"

Be very careful with using self harm as a means to manipulate people into showing you affection. I used to do it all the time, and it destroyed so much of my life.

I'm so fucking tired. I work at Starbucks and it was honestly fun at first, but it's worn me down so much, sometimes I dread going in to work. I want a different job, but I don't have the skills for anything else. My family tells me I should go back to school, but for what? The stuff I actually like doing, I can't make money at, so I'm trapped at Starbucks. At least for the foreseeable future.

I don't want to die or anything, because I don't want to make anybody sad, but there are times I just wish I didn't exist anymore.

I'm so fucking lonely. I always thought my 20's would be more fun and I'd have a lot of friends. That's what the TV told me, right? But when I'm not at work, I'm sitting alone in my apartment, browsing this Mongolian basketweaving forum. I've been coming here for about a decade now, and there are a lot of times it feels like you dudes are the only ones I can talk to. Anonymity is a gift, and I know it's cheesy and gay or whatever, but I do love all you guys. no homo though

Gf of six years left me last week two weeks before I turn 30 with our three cats. Fucked a random girl friday night, but couldn't enjoy it. I miss her Yea Forums

I'm not doing this to get someone to help me and I wouldn't I would never manipulate another person either.

Sounds like my job and my situation, but its taken me 9 years and one of the worse store managers and their bullshit attitude to change that, that and I'm 10+ years above you

Are you also an introvert, do you have any sort of irl friends, what about your online self, got many there?

Could just lower your life expectations, or take your family's advice and go back to school, if you're really passionate about it you'll make money, least you have something from the sounds of it, I got fucking nothing so I just continue the retail routine since I get the bare minimum of wages to support my basic ass lifestyle

Have you ever found someone so beautiful that it crushed your heart?

I've been a swimmer all my life. I've started training at a new club a few months ago. I started noticing this beautiful girl. She swims in my lane and she is very friendly. She doesn't return my flirts, which is no problem I will just get over her, right?

The problem is she keeps sending me mixed signals and it drives me crazy.

She's challaging me. Telling me she can beat me, telling me she is faster. But she knows all to well I'm way faster then her. Even tho she keeps teasing/challeging me. Is she trying to proof to me she is worth my time? Is she just teasing? Is this her way of being friends? Or is this the only way she can get my attention?

I'm confused and desperate help.

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Oh I get help when I don't understand, it's just trying to find the time and making sure I prioritise correctly. Kinda hard to explain without going in depth and I probs should head to bed. That said my boss knows about my backlog, they don't have the time either. Just seems like something I kinda juat have to wait for when no new bullshit rears its ugly head for a week to properly address. They don't question my work ethic, just my ability to handle the workload.

And yeah why not, hit me with a link. I don't know how active I'll be but I'll give it a look in. Not really in the need for platonic friends but I'll see what's up.

I am very much an introvert. People mostly just tire me out. I only REALLY have one friend irl, and he's overseas for a few more months. As for online, no, not really. I guess I just like being alone. It's lonely, but ultimately easier I guess.

I already went through school once, for a music degree, because I had to choose when I was 17, and it was the only thing I liked doing. Music degree and Starbucks. I'm a living stereotype. idk, man. I appreciate you replying to me, it just feels nice to be acknowledged. My wages support my basic ass lifestyle too, and as long as I have a roof over my head and food in my belly, I guess it's not that bad

I know the feeling which is why I responded ^^

Well when he comes back be sure to hang out, catch up, maybe his experiences will broaden your mind.

I know that feeling,I prefer roles where I'm not directly working with people (today was nothing but people, hell on fucking earth), I only really have 2 real friends but because they only interact with me with groups they become very draining, I just endure their friends for a few hours before I go because they're nice enough plus a change in people never hurts in controlled situations (only ever invited when the group is small but if its big must be plenty of food so I can blend in), and be glad not to have online friends, they can come and go as they please and when you form an attachment it hurts more than when its a person infront of you knowing you can't reach out to them.

See, life doesn't have to be so bad if you're supporting yourself, look for the positive things, but maybe try doing something from time to time to break the cycle, maybe join a band and play some gigs for fun (if you got any instrumental skills), maybe just go overseas (I came back from the Philippines not long ago and that was a hell of a trip, and next on the cards is japan once the savings and paranoia they hate my english only presence goes away), a basic ass life style can admittedly get boring so be sure to break it up, something small before something big worked for me.

I'm not really sure what's going on with my brain, but i've been in a constant state of anger and sadness for weeks now. It's affecting my work life and personal relationships to the point no one wants or cares if i'm around. I've been shooting for a raise at work for over a year now, but the managers keep telling me they're 'looking over the numbers', but deep down i know they want to just drain me for what i'm worth and don't care if i quit since i'm replaceable, and i can't really afford to just do that on a whim. Everything feels so unfulfilling, just running the same dreary routine every single day, but lately I seem to be unraveling mentally at an alarming rate. The 'close' friends i made over the years, the ones that i help through their hard times, have given me the 'oh, we ''know'' you want to be left alone, so we'll acknowledge your existence again when you fix yourself'.

I don't really know what to do right now. My job is unfulfilling and milking me until i break down, I'm pushing people away and burning bridges, i already hate myself and i'm finding it hard to find reasons to even go through this slog. I've never felt like this before, so i'm having difficulty processing it properly. I was going to just jerk off and crawl my sorry ass back into bed for the day, but then i saw this thread and thought 'why not'. I'm sure i'm just being dramatic, i've always been a victim to my own explosive emotions, but this feels different this time and i'm scared. I feel like i'm suffocating.

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