Come from low-class family

>come from low-class family
>dropped out age 15 but went and studied at 20
>worked at McDonald's age 14-18 then went onto modelling and bartending
>acquire a GPA for 3.7 and study engineering for 2 years at age 22
>lose job, all goes to shit. Can't find stable or fulfilling work anywhere at age 23
>completely flunk a 4 subjects twice in one year due to lack of stability and income for myself while attempting to support family, myself and my drug addiction
>can't handle living in torture
>won't tell any family members why
>afraid they will reflect and see the world as torture also

Yea Forums
I turn to you. Please, someone. Give me a reason to live,
I can't contribute to the hatred of the system. Bug corporation. The only avenue I have left. I refuse to make a career packing boxes after all my pain.

Why is there a reason to go on?
I beg you. I have no one to talk to. I have no friends, anymore.

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USA fag btw

drug addiction fucking my life too bro

Man, you and I both know there are better paths. We take them and feel no pleasure. All there is left is wasting time until the inevitable happens to ourselves and everything around us

>Thinking anyone is gonna feel pity for a model
Lmao I hope your shit life never comes together.

I don't want pity. Just for someone to resonate with the situation. For motivation. There's something left out there.

Yea Forumsro, I'm 25. I know this post is here for the soul purpose of attention and a sense of validation. I crave a reality check. Your statement is also one of the reality checks I need for grounding.

I appreciate the response.

I’m exactly in the same boat as you OP and i can empathize
If that can help you, what helps me get thru the day is by popping a couple of Modafinil up the anus and the pain go away for the day

Are you on probation for being black in upstate New York?

Drugs do nothing for me anymore. Whether the response was mocking me or not.

I'm just a suburban white boy.

Right on then. Do you feel like you're working your ass off and only being slightly successful while even when you achieve success it's shitty and not really what you wanted?

I do not wish for success. I want fulfilment and a purpose. I read books, a lot. I still recite my textbooks and stimulate myself when I can. I want to educate myself without contributing to this futile 'system'...

Excuse the psychosis fuelled response. I haven't slept well for weeks.

You are like little baby.

>32
>unfullfilling job
>dropped out college to accept a full time contract
>basically wageslave
>yesterday I crashed my car
>gotta buy a new one, can't hope to maintain work if I end up gwtting there late because no car
>gf cheated on me
>despite I left her she has been crying all the time to keep staying toghether
>accepted because literally no time for chicks atm plus at least I have something until I dump her for good

I'm not american, that's the only fine thing I can imagine.
Life is HELL, amigo. And I didn't even tell you my youth in detail.

Find your motivation or find a high roof and end it, it won't make the slightes difference for anybody in the world. Even your parents will forget about you, eventually.

The only one that will give motivation to you is.. you.

Not a bunch of edgelord that know nothing about life or love or sex or work or everything in this planet which makes life less unsufferable.

I have to work in a fucking factory packing shitty chinese made toys, against my will. While witnessing people that have been there for 30 years + against what they wish to truly pursue.
They are not dumb, I can assure you. They deserve more.
While all the while cunts that did an accounting course at university and haven't work a day in their life are making the shots at these places.

I am nothing but a peasant to these freaks.

Amerika in a nutshell. Home of Fuck You, I Got Mine

Do not think I am weak, either, I was digging holes for a year beforehand until there were no more to dig

at the risk of narcissism, read some of my replies.
I do have motivation, It just feels worthless.

Ever consider moving to another country and starting over?

It is. You'll die, eventually.
Do whatever, who cares. Complaining with strangers on the internet will surely save you.

No I don't think you're weak at all. We work harder and for less than every other developed country. The American dream is a lie to get good little worker bees to struggle, spend and die quietly and hopefully in maximal debt.

You can't fight social forces more than a snowflake can resist the wind. While some snow falls where it is beautiful, most piles up in drifts.

There is a certain catharsis in it. Misery loves company

Nothing changes in western civ.
Sadly, where we are in USA, developed EU/Indias we are oppressed. But not nearly as much as the rest of the world.
This is the best us peasants receive. Prove me wrong.
Even if I succeed it would be due to my realisation of the oppressiveness. Something, alike my family ready to understand,

*are not ready to understand.

Like I said, i haven't slept well in weeks.

Right so you do a job to pay bills and spend the rest of your time focused on other things. You sound like you're looking for your job to fulfill you.

The structure we live upon does breed an efficient response in the now.
What if we lifted everyone to the level of elite?
It would take longer, however, we would achieve so much more.
it isn't efficient in the now.

Like I said, people I worked with in CHINESE TOY BOXING FACTORIES were far more deserving than their fate. Very enlightened individuals. Whether I related to them or not is irrelevant.

see I do not want to contribute to shitty large organisations withholding the monopoly.
In bars I worked we would have raffles BASED on what was on the poker machine players screens. Motivation.
I always refused to take the mic.

There are no ways to ethically participate in capitalism, my guy. You're either exploiting or you're being exploited, you do this every day. Don't let it stop you from achieving your goals.