Be me, a closeted fag

be me, a closeted fag
>been in a relationship for 5 years
>first relationship, first kiss, first everything
>happy and contented
>he's also in the closet
>on the fourth year he began to act different, i know he was cheating, (both boys and girls) confronted him but I cant afford to lose him anyway.
>we came and good terms and we were back on track again
>we're both nervous on our relationship now, friends, family and religious pressures.
>just now he said he wants to live a normal life
>i know it was failing, but i held on to hope that im gonna convince him and we wait for the right time
>he then left me crying on a shitty hotel room

Do faggots like me really deserve to live like this? I tried to change so much but i guess he was successful? I gave everything to him, did everything for him and now tje fucker's gone. I feel like i cant breathe i have no one to talk to am i really destined to go to hell? Is conversion therapy effective? Im really considering on just ending everything. I cant forgive myself on seeing him cry saying that i should leave him alone, he has lots of issues as well. Idk what to do anymore just kms maybe?

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Move on mate, a cheater isn't worth crying over. Find someone new, it'll take time but you'll be right back to smiling and giggling in no time. Keep your friends close and talk to them as much as possible.

Hell isn't real and gay conversion is bullshit. Suicide isn't the answer either.

Take a walk, or chill out on your front porch. Take a deep breath OP, it'll be okay.

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That's the right answer here and the one that should be followed.

To OP, do not do yourself any harm. This is his fault, not yours. He cheated and pussied out of living as his true self. Conversion doesn't work and will only make you more depressed. "Faggots" do not deserve this as a group and do not deserve to live in the closet, that's for sure.
Stay strong and if any people reply with "kys fag" or the sort ignore it. You know what people are like here when they have anonymity on their side.

Thanks man. I even travelled for 12 hours just to see him to ask him whats wrong. I guess it was a bad idea. Im so tired now, i dont want to go home, jesus christ it hurts so much. He just gave me a tight hug and left. I dont have friends either, if I tell those asses they'll disown me and i bet you a thousand dollars they wont talk to me again after they find out. Also, we have the same circle of friends, thats why i have to vent out everything here

post a snap or discord

Yeah all my life im trying so hard to fit in, then he came. He even said he already "prayed it away" and doesnt want to have something to do with me. Idk mn i pity him more than i pity myself.

I'll be your friend :3

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First of all, you aren't going to hell. There is no hell. Live life however you want and stop focusing on what could be after you're dead.
Second, people aren't perfect, but someone who cheats should not be forgiven so easily, if at all. Him being unable to commit to you now shows his unreliablitiliy in the long run.
Third, he definitely sounds like he has issues, as do you. I know some families are completely against homosexuality so if you are in this situation the best thing you can do is continue to hide in the closet (If you are sure that you like dick) until you can take care of yourself financially and emotionally.
Lastly I'm just going to say that there should be nothing more important to you than you, if something or someone is causing you so much stress that you contemplate wanting to kys, then you should reevaluate your choices. If he loved you, then he would try and work things out with you and you wouldn't be the one following him around trying to appease him at every turn. There will always be another guy, just make sure that your own life is in order before trying to change someone else's.
Good luck and sorry for the paragraph.

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Go ask 90% of misandrist lesbians who've had the same experience and are now nearing their 40s, left alone, with all their past girlfriends happily married to men w/ children.

Homosexuality can often be some sort of horribly misguided rebellious phase, so yeah, once someone has done enough of what would make their parents angry, they outgrow it.