I'm gonna kill myself in a couple hours at midnight. What are y'all up to?

Hell yeah. I haven't seen that movie in ages.

I'm jelly

I'm mountain time. I still got a couple hours to get drunk enough to get the balls to do it.

I'm gonna try a gun this time. Last time I tried was a noose but I thrashed until I caught a foothold and survivalist instict kicked in.

I'm too white for that. Not worth it. Had a walk too. Still gonna try it.

Colorado. I don't wanna livestream. I feel bad my family's gonna have to deal with the gone shit. Livestream for my mom would just be too much. Gonna try a gun this time. Reason is hard to say but I'm just sick of the effort of staying afloat if that makes sense.

you did it!!

Things get better with time. The hurt you will leave your family is monsterous. You are not a monster.

I feel. I wish your mom the best.
What kind of gun you have access too?

I've been telling myself it will get better for like the past 5 years. At best it gets barley tolerable. But maybe I an a monster. Who knows.

I'm bit a gun guy buy any means so I can't give you a great idea. But it's a Smith and Wesson revolver I bought used of a gun guy about a year back. I've really only been keeping it fir this.

Wish you the best op

Get a dog instead

It's 5.30am and still not drunk enough.
Just went for a joint too.
Being an alcohol is annoying because I've been drinking for 12 hours and I'm not even at the point where I can't type.

If you're doing it regardless, why not share the reason? Go ahead and say. What would you have to lose in explaining it?

please dont do it
not worth it.

Nm fam. Just hangin' around.

I hope you stick around buddy, I'm still here and things are nothing like they used to be

thank you for staying with us,

Having seen one suicide on here. (Live stream) I didn't even know the guy and I felt so bad. Like I didn't even know his name and I saw him die. Feels horrible. Whichever choice you make, think about it before hand.

Hey OP, you're probably not going to be able to be convinced because I know that feel immensely, but don't off yourself. Shit fucking sucks but you have to find people who are willing to be with you so you don't wanna die as much. It's not worth the hurt people you know will feel. Text me if you want to talk okay? kik: Miss_Emma58

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Drink lots and have a great last meal

Before you do go watch Battle Angel Alita Will make you want to live

I've had 2 friends an hero so far.
I hate that shit, but I also get it.
I suffer with depression and sometimes there's nothing you can do or say to change their mind.
I am gonna an hero one day... certainly not today though because I've got some really fucking nice sausages with Carolina Reaper chillis in them that I wanna eat this weekend.

Sorry. I'm not unwilling to share. I just don't know how to explain it if that makes sense. It's not a single thing. I actually wish it was. I feel like it'd be easier to if it was. I just feel like everything has been down hill for my whole life

Stick around OP. My buddy killed himself on February 6 and I think about that shit daily. you don't even know how many people you're affecting. Get some help.

Don’t do it man! You still got money in your bank account right? You got credit? Play the lotto! Go to a casino! BDo whatever you’ve been wanting to do before you go. Visit the family members you want to see first. Don’t go out without a fight. Stop pretending you aren’t a fighter. Talk to people and you’ll be surprised about how much they need you. They would fight for your life. I would fight for your life. You better not fucking give up after all you’ve been through. You have fight left in you. You know it and I know it. If you’re going down, go down fighting. Not like this. Not today.

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Do a flip, faggot

Why?
Depression disease?
Personal shit?

You can't undo that.

Don't do it

have you tried medication?

I wish I had a gun with a bullet so I could take this same pussy way out, whats so great about this shit?

>work
>work
>relationship work
>kids works
>debt
>retirement? lul

why even try user

Don't do it man. I've been there. Survived 2 attempts.

It always gets better. It takes time, nothing goes away, but it gets better.

I promise.

Im so sick of this word "better" I wish I saw people get "better" more often but it dosnt seem to be the case.

RIP OP

watching a movie.

There is no better. It's good days and bad days, and fuck anyone who tells you to stop taking it one day at a time. They have no idea what they're talking about.

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empty words with and an empty promise.

Dont do that ... go to a quiet place and fishing !!!
Gonna feel better after

When I weigh the good and bad and the weight of one side is unmovable what can I can do. No control.

There’s always control just need help seeing it sometimes. Go get help faggot.

Only good day I need is one I get the balls the put the gun on a CC and type up a note.

Don’t you wanna see the next Avengers movie? Little things like that help me hang on. Look for things to look forward to. They are there but you have to look for them. Hold on, be strong.

Sounds like you are just a slave faggot that's part of the system. Fucking loser

i love you

>neet detected

Make it a piece of furniture rather than an elephant in the room. It's part of the dichotomy of your humanity, this struggle between light and dark. Tale as old as time. By the end of the movie, the hero has learned to accept both light and dark sides of himself in order to proceed forward.

Im sure its needed but im to much of a bitch to even reach out for it.

Soo, he was behind of all that..?

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What would that solve?

2!
Minutes!
To miiidnight.
The hands that threaten doooom

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The ending of this overrated consciences of mine.

Timestamp and suicide weapon

Im a poor fag, cant afford but could steal a gun. was thinking train tracks. I know I could underpass I could hide in a jump out. just dont wanna be a veg like most say

Pretty selfish to be honest. What happens outside of you?

I might try and live stream a train attempt cause why not. Gotta be there the right time, Im not sure when they come and its cold here now.

Hang on buddy there are good times ahead that you don’t wanna miss out on. I’ll buy you a beer and we can talk it out. We’re all in this together. Hit me up and I promise I’ll show you life is worth living. We all struggle sometimes. I know I do but I’m not going out like that and neither are you.

Then when you get to the tracks, timestamp

its %100 selfish I know. hence a reason I have not done it, my close family would hurt but I would have no worried to care of their worries. Like I said Selfish.

All that talk, you better have sex with him or youre basically betraying him

I appreciate the kind comments. But I'm gonna try it now. See you space cowboys.

No fuck that you are not going to do that. Don’t listen to the idiot kids on here. Stay with us, man. We all want you here.

Dude thats just blan rucka cghin flraiaiantonres, not cool

I traveled to 4 contents and some of the most desired locations in the last 8 years alone. Road trips, boa rides. temporary distractions. Like a drug but fades quicker and cost more.

I don't really care one way or another.

Rip your dick off pussy nigger

I sure know one really cares, just posting cause was on topic with what I was thinking. You think under train tracks would be a for sure?

Maybe you could attempt to pull your head from your ass

Yeah, if you're wearing a cloak of invisibility. The driver can see you enough of a ways off to stop the train from hitting you. Its 2019, not 1905.

I think youre too cowardly to live or die,

If that’s what it takes, Ill get him laid and show him a good time but depression goes beyond that and I know I can help him. OP, come to Portland . I want to help you get out of this because I’ve been there and I know how. I’m begging you to hang on.

I know an underpass they couldnt see me until they head cart hard line of site. Then I site my head in the wheels or attempts to.

Thanks beautiful

You're going to kidnap him arent you.

For some people life is just not worth living. Not living anymore means not having to deal or think about it.
Do it user. Dont add failure to kys to your list of let downs.

You're welcome, maybe go to Portland, I think that guy might murder you and tap your corpse, but that should now count as suicide.

creative way to go I get ya that, looking for quicker and more certain, less sex stuff too..

Sometimes i imagine kys to mean kentuckys

I live in a kinda nowhere town. We had a girl who left her full car there and succeeded. So depending on where it is he might be okay.

Well Portland would be a fun time before the end as well

I think I wanna take out wanna those pay day loans buy a one way ticket to Hawaii and live like a bum who the fuck cares, pot aint bad there. Sell alc to underage kids for money and food. Make funny cardboard signs to keep cell phone on lol.

You guys are so fucking stupid. I’m not going to acknowledge you. I’m talking to OP.

If you kill yourself tonight you won't be able to fix your self tomorrow. Please don't do it user... I almost did it a few weeks ago but find something that makes you appreciate being alive, I turned to the universe and space and it showed me that even though human nature is brutal, nature in general is beautiful. God speed user... God speed...

That's because it's cool to be obese in America

Ill pass on the travel unless its worth it and Portland aint work with it - NY

How many floors do we need to make sure Its done? 15? more?

The problem with a gun is it doesn't always work on stupid people.

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You should totally do that, sounds like your idea of getting by is a little diluted so some outside time in the big bad world would do you good. Either that or give you the final motivation to kill yourself.

The second most chilling thing a parent can ever do is having to bury their own child. The first is having to find their child dead.

Please don't do it, user. It gets better.

As an American thats funny as hell. Never did but cant unsee

Pathetic, i have no sympathy for people who give up on life.
Why did you make this thread ? are you
looking for pity from us?
Go ahead and kill yourself.
no one will remember you after a week or two.
your friends, people who hurt you ,no one except your parents. i feel sad for them having to bring up such a shit stain

No just to get the cash to kill self no big picture just easy money.

What about being a parent and having to kill your child, or is that not soo bad?

what about being a parent and stepping on a lego

Yes and OP will see that life is worth living. You can smoke as much weed as you want here and meet other people that feel the way you do right now. Try mushrooms if you want and let’s get a new perspective on life. Let’s hit up a strip club. Come see the ocean. Read the positive comments in this thread and ignore the trolls. The world is better off with you here and we are here for you.

Well that's the precursor to killing your child

Gun with time stamp or stop wasting our time

So Portland is full of depressed stoners abusing drugs to escape the reality they want to leave?

Fapping to pic related.

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Lmao no!! It’s a fucking awesome city and I love it here. Go Blazers.

"Get the balls" to kill yourself?
But do you have the balls to decide to live? Which one really requires the balls?

Dont do this to your mother. She loves you. And so do I.

Are you telling me or yourself?
I mean if I was a depressed faggot I'd be ranting about how awesome everything around me is.

It’s worth it to wait OP. Are you drunk? Don’t make these kind of decisions when there’s alcohol involved.

No it takes balls to kill yourself, any regular jack off can pussy out and live for a while.

Things are not always awesome wherever you are but I love this place and the people here. I don’t know what your problem is dude. Obviously moving locations isn’t always the answer but seeing different places and having cool people around to help you get support is a positive thing. I want to help OP. You’re just being an asshole.

Try going transgender, it's been proven that the hormone treatments can help level out the imbalance you suffer.

We all die in the end. What's so bad about OP wanting to cut a few corners?

LISTEN TO ME. DO NOT MAKE THIS DECISION WHILE DRUNK.

How can i find more?

>no one will remember you after a week or two
I've already forgotten what this thread is about.

Stream it please

Because he doesn’t want to do this deep in his heart. This is him reaching out to the universe and I’m telling him we want him here. I’m sure a lot of other people do to.

This is true, life will go one and no one will give a fuck.

And the universe replies with corpse or gtfo.

Pretty sure OP's already gone.

OP YOU DO NOT WANT TO DIE WITHOUT SEEING WHAT HAPPENS IN AVENGERS:ENDGAME. AT LEAST WAIT TILL MAY!

Headshot for the win

see you tomorow

You still there OP?

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You all can talk about suicide prevention all you want, but if you really cared, you twats would be better to eachother on social media.

>no stream
fag

not op but this is why I'm waiting until my parents die. I couldnt do that to my mom while she is alive

what a loser. didnt even livestream it. come back to life so i can kill you again faggot.

I fully endorse suicide, some people are just weak or inferior.
Too many humans on earth as it is, why not let the herd thin itself.

If he’s gone, you assholes that have been egging him on have blood on your hands. Your own pathetic lives will be worse than what he’s going through if they weren’t already. Your existence will be worse than his fate.

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What stopped you from killing yourself?

nah. fuck that fool.

Hey user. Try heroin first, seriously. Don't you wanna try everything u ever wanted to do before you die? Heroin takes the pain away better than suicide

Persistence and making myself feel better about myself. I made a decision that I wasn’t going to be a victim and put in a lot of effort. It’s just routine after a while and you do feel better. I’m in love now. All the times I wanted to kill my self and all the bullshit I went through are battle wounds that I’m proud of. I really hope OP is still alive because I know anyone can do this no matter your situation. You gotta reach out to people when you’re down. There’s no shame in that.

Nah fuck you. We’re behind him.

You're in love now, wait untill you fall out of love. Maybe then you will man up enough to follow through.

No because there is no need for that now. I should rephrase that. I’m very fond of the girl I’m seeing but she’s not my whole life. She with me for our ride right now and it’s awesome. I know that I have options but I don’t wanna cuz I like her. We’re snowboarding tomorrow. Stop trying to bring people down to your level, dude.

You cant bring someone "down" to my level.
You sound like someone who has never really had much success with women. Was that a big factor in your depression?

I’m having successfully right now haha

F

Playing overwatch semi professionally while enjoying mindlessly grinding anthem on my new rtx 2070 n i7 9700k you know life is just ok right now nothing too bad nor too good maybe you should reconsider killing yourself

I’m here to support OP so he doesn’t kill himself. Stop being a cunt. Do you want someone who is reaching out to die? What the fuck is the reason for your sociopathy? I went through bad times and shared my experience. Jesus you’re so terrible if you’re real lol

sounds like maybe you should be the one considering killing themselves, Eduardo

Ignore this bitch

Don't go OP. I'll miss you.

>What are y'all up to?
I'm playing this drinking game where every time some loser on Yea Forums says he's going to kill himself, I take a shot.
Already on my 3rd bottle of the night.

What if OPs already gone?
Another sole lost to the abyss. Such a shame they had to go.

That's pretty pathetic that you would consider killing yourself over not getting the female attention that you wanted. Funny thing is no one every really moves on, the emotions and chemical imbalance are just stashed away for a rainy day. I'm sure you will have another rainy day some day. Maybe then you will have the courage to do it.

It wasn’t about getting a “female” idiot I had to get my life in order and find a job after college. I could give a shit if you think I’m pathetic. I want to try and help OP. If you don’t, then don’t post in this thread. You are contributing nothing but bad vibes. Why would you do that?

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Because some people are better off dead.
You put emphasis on being in love yet you're only just seeing someone. You sound naive with your feelings, that rainy day will come sooner than you think especially for someone emotionally unstable like yourself.
Looking for a job after collage, did you drop out or graduate? I hear McDonald is always hiring.

Don't do it. Someone cares about you. Don't do something permanent to fix a temporary problem

Checking in to see if OP is still alive.
You there bud?

He gone

Cool

voluntarily throwing away life, what a shame. barely surviving a fire last year forced me to appreciate how temporary everything is. shit ends with no warning.

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