Here the boys shall gather to discuss life, art, entertainment, and anything else they can think up, before enjoying a cozy night's rest. Feel free to share something of yours, some art you've drawn, a poem you wrote, a story you wish to share, or just your own thoughts and feelings on the day you've had.
Here are some conversation topics to start us off! Remember to copy and paste the questions or make what you are answering obvious. Avoid simple 'yes' or 'no's. If that's all you have to say about the question, why bother answering?
>What were sleepovers like when you were growing up? >What is your favorite meal >What is something you do when you get sad and have nothing important to attend to? >What is your favorite poem? >What is your favorite film? >Who is your favorite author? >Tell us about your best friend. >Tell us about your current romantic prospects. >What is something that has made you sad recently?
>What were sleepovers like when you were growing up? There was a different 'culture' to sleepovers everywhere I went. I moved around a lot, five highschools and I lost track of how many elementary schools. When I moved to California suddenly it was deemed 'gay' to have a sleepover. All the boys who claimed this would also have sleepovers they simply referred to it as 'staying the night' or 'crashing at (PERSON)'s house.
>What is your favorite meal I enjoy eating out a lot, particularly Asian influenced restaurants. Lately my favorite dish is Alaskan rolls and spicy tuna rolls. Sushi makes me happy.
>What is your favorite poem? It's hard for me to pick a true favorite, but I do enjoy 'First Fig' by Edna St. Vincent-Millay. I have posted an image of the poem for reference.
>What is your favorite film? It is hard for me to choose a favorite for anything. I think the independent horror film 'After' is one I have the most fond memories of, though Annihilation is also really spectacular to me.
>Who is your favorite author? I don't tend to have a favorite artist in any form of entertainment, as I tend to only like a few select works from any given creator at most. When I was younger I was really invested in V.C. Andrews and Piers Anthony, particularly the Xanth series.
>Tell us about your best friend. I'm not sure who my best friend is anymore. I have lost a lot of good friends this last year and am feeling rather alone lately.
>Tell us about your current romantic prospects. I have been seeing a girl for the last two months or so. She is very sweet, with beautiful eyes. Sometimes it feels a bit awkward as she is considerably taller than me. This used to never bug me as I had dated many taller girls before but the last few years on Yea Forums seem to have ruined that for me. She is particularly sweet though, she came over yesterday to take care of me when my cold was at it's worst.
>What is your favorite meal Anything with potatoes, If you drown the things in Salt and Pepper, its delicious, also they are the best food to choose if you could only eat one food for the rest of your life. >What is something you do when you get sad and have nothing important to attend to? Listen to music, its always good at calming me down. >What is your favorite film? Nightmare before Christmas, I watched it when I was like 5 and I have always loved the stop motion. >Who is your favorite author? Stephen King, although I only recently picked up on reading his books. 1/2 through Finders Keepers. >Tell us about your best friend. I do not really have a best friend, I had one a year back, but a fallout happened and I wouldn't call anyone my best friend anymore, as I see it as a two way thing, and I know Im not anyone's best friend. >What is something that has made you sad recently? pic unrelated
>What were sleepovers like when you were growing up Sleepovers were okay, never really had a big sleepover until senior year at bandcamp(all the guys sneaked over to one cabin and watched skyfall) Most of my sleepovers have been one on one. Crashed over a few people housed before but those are for other reasons >Fav meal Steak with sparkling water >Poem Road Not Taken by Robert Frost "to live is to... to change to choose something new, lose whatever has not been chose, to gain by loss ,life is precisely "the finite"." is the vibe I got from it >Best friend I dont really know what happened to him, one day he was supposed to show up at an interview at my job(pharmacy) and he just didnt show up, He just vanished, I checked public records to see if he was arrested, nothing, Me and this nigga has been together since the second grade and we've been there for each other since, but its been a year now since he left town or something, Joe if you se this, I hope you're okay bro, I washed all of your clothes and made sure they are clean when you come back. >Current romance I got out of a relationship just about 3 months ago. Been with her for about 1 and a half years and she was my first for everything but she just didnt feel the same way about me as she did in the beginning and left me, According to her I was the best boyfriend she could ever have and didnt want to put me through the pain of it being one sided. :/ Stil sad about it /b > Sad recently Even though my breakup was recent and I have everyone supporting me every single step of the way, I go to parties have fun, smile, play video games and just enjoy life, I still go back to my dorm and I cry, I feel empty on the inside because I know my sunshine isnt going to come back to me, Every night I just cry myself to sleep and clutch the plush she made me. >Sad or bored I listen to music or play ace combat 7 or rs6, I dont even bother with homework anymore
I don't think I could stomach potatoes for the rest of my life, though I used to enjoy them quite a bit. I was obsessed with mashed potatoes as a child, but the truth is I just really liked sour cream I suppose. Fries and baked potato are still delicious though.
>Nightmare before christmas I never liked this film, Tim Burton as a whole left a bad taste in my mouth. May I ask, are you a fan of Melanie Martinez?
>Stephen King I read quite a bit of his work as a teenager, but I found myself not as scared as I had hoped I would be. The long works in particular feel like a chore to get through, but I love 'The Mist' in particular, as well as every single adaption of it to exist, particularly the radio play.
>no best friend I feel you there. I had five really great friends just over a year ago, but one by one they disappeared.
>Pic unrelated What is going on in that picture?
Luke Fisher
The picture is by Simon Stålenhag. Hes a Swedish artist, he also made a few books and a rpg. I just think of it as those giant relays are controlling those little human drones.
Asher Moore
>Sleepover in one cabin That sounds delightfully comfy though. I didn't have much of a 'group' experience like that until I got invited to a friend's wedding. The bachelor party was essentially just a bunch of men I had never met over the course of one long weekend, but it was amazing. It really made me wish I went to a traditional college and pledged a frat or something of that sort.
>Steak with sparkling water If you are ever in Los Angeles be sure to stop by 'Pacific Dining Car' and request the prime rib. It will break your wallet, but it is worth it. It has ruined other steaks for me.
>Road Not Taken Isn't that the sort of poem everyone knows about though? I feel like it's only poem that everyone knows by title, it's referenced so much in most any movie. Surely with that deep an analysis you could share something a bit more obscure with us. That is a good analysis of it though.
I personally prefer 'Stopping in the woods on a snowy evening' if were talking about frost. This one convinced my friend not to take his own life when the cancer started closing in. It was difficult to read this at his funeral.
>vanished Jesus, user, that is horrifying. Did he pack a bag? Is there any evidence that anything happened?
>One sided romance I worry that is where I am at now. The girl I am seeing is lovely, but I don't feel a spark. She is so sweet and I still want her in my life though. It's a bit of a scary thing to think about. It is nice that you had such a supportive group of friends helping you through it. I had some friends helping me through the grieving process but by the time I felt happy again they seemed to have vanished.
>I just think of it as those giant relays are controlling those little human drones. That is a scary thought. Particularly if the drones think they're the ones in control.
Aaron Jackson
Oh for sure. I imagine them being in a comatose state, unaware of whats going on, or living in bliss, unaware of the horrors they bring upon others, and the forceful addition to their swarm. Or better yet, they are all dead, or at least rotting to some degree, the robots pumping chemicals into them, to keep them alive for so much longer.
Xavier Russell
Great thread OP
>What were sleepovers like when you were growing up? A few close friends, nothing crazy. We really liked to play video games and set up a tent outside the house and use extension cords. A lot of Tony Hawk and when I was younger Sonic Adventure.
>What is your favorite meal I love any kind of stir fry, but my favorites are ones that have carrots and water chestnuts
>What is something you do when you get sad and have nothing important to attend to? I turn off all the lights in my room and turn on some music on Spotify. I usually listen to music I grew up with. Sometimes I cry.
>What is your favorite poem? Anything by Robert Frost. I have a collection of his work and I constantly highlight or write in the book. Mending Wall is nice.
>What is your favorite film? This is really hard but I like Ratatouille.
>Who is your favorite author? F. Scott Fitzgerald or Stephen King. I feel like they have/had their shares of mental struggles and I can relate to their protagonists.
>Tell us about your best friend. I used to date her, and I wasn't very nice to her. We're online friends only. She's really smart and she's one of the few people who are not unkind to me.
>Tell us about your current romantic prospects. Kind of hopeless. I guess it's kind of personal but I have a lot wrong with me mentally and physically.
>What is something that has made you sad recently? I'm in a place in my life where I pissed away a lot of my money and I wish I had been more worried about my future.
Parker Bennett
I just imagine naive human like beings, all thinking they are in control but their internal monologues only reacting to the inputs that something else is giving them. It would be pretty scary if that was the truth about us, wouldn't it?
It would be terrifying. Especially to imagine thats what we are. Unfortunately, theres no way to tell, but I wouldn't care if it was. Whether our lives are real, or we are some husks on life support, isn't intrinsically important, we should make the best of what we got.
>We really liked to play video games and set up a tent outside the house and use extension cords. THAT sounds like a comfy night. We would have 'camp outs' on our trampolines, but never thought to bring the video games outside. That is some truly genius boyhood right there. I loved Sonic Adventure 2 as well, I remember many of my younger sleepovers just being about us preparing the chao gardens for an all night endeavor. We were constantly chasing those Chaos Chao.
>Stir Fry I'm particularly fond of Asian cuisine, but I cannot say that I enjoy stir fry all that much. Though I do enjoy pancet which is pretty close if I recall.
>Music I grew up with Care to link us to a few of those tracks? I am curious. The listening to music thing seems to be the common go to in this thread but that added a little bit of variety to it.
>Robert Frost I love him though I don't recall reading Mending wall. Are you familiar with 'Stopping by the woods on a snowy evening'? That is my favorite by him. I posted it here if you aren;t: >Ratatouille. Someone else just told me that on Discord. I cannot understand why people like this film. It was her favorite animated film but is it really your favorite all time film?
>I feel like they have/had their shares of mental struggles and I can relate to their protagonists. You know how to pique a man's curiosity and then leave them without the answer. Please go into detail, I will not judge. Such an interesting contrast with Ratatouille.
>Pissed away a lot of my money Was it at least enjoyable in the moment?
Brody Perez
In theory, yes, but if we literally cannot make the best of what we got because we truly are just emotional reactions to someone else's existence, then we can't really will ourselves to do anything. To come to that realization with be a Lovecraftian-esque breakdown. I think the only people who would move on are the ones who simply choose to forget.
>steak I would go there if I can afford the trip there >poem I love doing deep analysis on poems and things like that, Critical thinking >Vanished He just was talking to me the day before and the next day he just ghosted, Nothing was said, phone number went to voicemail, both of his houses were empty or didnt see him in the past 2 weeks, his siblings havent talked to him in weeks, He just left and didnt look back I guess :/ >one sided talk to your girl about it and be honest, if you be honest with her she'll be with you, thats an unspoken rule in relationship. (I hope at least)
>What were sleepovers like when you were growing up? Mainly playing vidya on cube and wii, making up a bunch of dumb stories like a war vet who got his dick shot off, just fun things like that. Still a thing after all this time for me and the boys to walk in the bitter cold to a gas station everytime we meet up (live in midwest so temps are hellish).
>What is something you do when you get sad and have nothing important to attend to? Go on an Evangelion binge, listen to old school relaxation tapes, listen to stuff like Foxtrot by Genesis, all really meditative stuff imo.
>Tell us about your current romantic prospects. Probs have no chance but wanting to get with this thick semi-thot in otherwise retarded gym courses. Is somewhat nerdy and has some sick music tastes (like Queen, classic rock shit like that). I'd give it a 15% that anything comes of it but whatever.
Angel Gutierrez
>I love doing deep analysis on poems and things like that I am the same way, but generally with Television / Movies. I live for the metaphor. I try with poetry but I am a bit new to it. I was lucky enough that I was being paid to over-analyze my favorite cartoon for a short while.
>vanished What does his family think of the whole thing? without even packing a bag it sounds like fowl play.
>talk to her about it I think now is not the time for that. It seems almost rude to say 'I don't plan for us to ever be serious' just two months in. We are both seemingly independent people. She has been very kind to me but I am aware that she still goes on dates on nights where I am not free. We still spent Valentines together and she took care of me yesterday when my cold was at it's worst, so I think we are in comfortable place for now. I just worry about the inevitable end. I suppose after a while I started thinking of romance negatively. Friendships end, but they tend to fade out. Now anytime I get a romantic prospect I immediately start looking for the expiration date.
Gabriel Turner
That is a very good point. Stare into the void, and void will stare at you. Man I can already feel the existentialism creeping up on me. Your a fun person to talk to, thanks for the convo user.
Jonathan Wood
Why do you walk to the gas station? What was the purpose of the stories? I am confused, could you give us some context?
David Campbell
Haha, well I am glad you appreciate it. It felt a like people might think me silly, but it is something I was wondering about as soon as you brought it up. I can't imagine not going insane. I think people are programmed to fight against the 'no free will' argument simply to prevent us from going mad if it happens to be true. I may use this in a story.
>poetry I love writing poems and using previous poems I analyzed and using those concepts in them, I wish I was paid to do that >Vanished His family left him and his siblings here with their aunt to go back home and salvage whatever they had left in PR after the hurricane and never came back. > Timing Finding the right time is okay, I know those thoughts. Its these seeds of doubt that we have, Everyone has them in some sort of way
Noah Sanders
Oh for sure. But I would say its very hard to erase someones free will. To completely erode it is near impossible, you would have to deprogram, break and erase someones whole identity and humanity to accomplish complete control. Even when you think you have, the human mind has layers of psychological protection against insanity. >I may use this in a story. You write stories? Short stories, longer ones? And if you could drop a link I would love to read them.
I only have time to answer the first question, and it's definitely the most interesting one...
Sleepovers were pretty wild when I was a kid. I had 3 really good friends who all liked to experiment sexually together, and when we were really young we started with things like "show me yours I'll show you mine", which led to games of truth or dare, and it escalated from there. Lots of kids fool around like this, but rather than some phase we grew out of it became a secret obsession, our own little private hobby. By the time we were teenagers all 4 of us were having big slumber parties, which were really just an excuse to fool around all night. We'd wait until parents were off to sleep, and then we'd suck each other's dicks and fuck each other up the ass all night. It started getting hardcore when we were around 11 or 12, and it kept going well into and beyond high school. I miss those secret teenage orgies, we had so much fun and swallowed so much cum.
Benjamin Green
Perhaps we should share some of our poems? I'll admit mine are rather rudimentary. When I first started I would write them about very specific people in my life and kind of highlight the journey of our relationship. Lately I've been scribbling smaller ones about my own musings.
>Parents in PR Are they missing as well or simply just living their lives out on the island? I do not know how you can contain yourself on this topic, I would be going mad thinking about it so much. A friend of mine committed suicide back in highschool and I tried to unravel a whole conspiracy around it.
>Timing I think for us it is more that there is already a sort of unspoken agreement. I just worry about getting to a point where I am invested in her as a person but not so much as a lover. The problem with these 'casual' relationships is that you appreciate each other the way you do a friend, and you don't want to remove them from your life. But then you find it is essentially impossible to let yourself have guilt-free romance with another and it just doesn't work out.
We started doing it back in the day when we had no cars (around 12 or 13) and for some reason despite all having had ours for multiple years now we still just like to enjoy the fresh air even if it's frigid af. It's sorta theraputic in a way to be the only ones on a late-night street just talking about stupid shit.
As for stories we used to make up, goal was to essentially be the edgiest cunt of the lot (again right when entering middle school so it's pretty much expected) and we all got a laugh out of it. Obviously the made up adventures of Dickamus Clark aren't good in the slightest but my lads and I have fond memories looking back on them.
Isaiah Bailey
69 x 2 how appropriate
Xavier Martin
>Free Will In theory, yes, but I am more refernecing the idea that we may not have any free will at all. If we already have no free will then all it takes to perhaps go mad is to be confronted with that truth.
>You write stories I tend to write stories in a lot of different mediums, generally film. I finished the first draft of my first novel and am about half way through the redraft now. I plan to record it and release it as a serialized creepypasta after that. I don't think I have anything of that sort that I can link to at the moment, other then a few short films, but they hold no narrative. They are just recreations of nightmares that I had.
This thread is really cute thanks for making it Im gonna answer all the questions but if anyone wants to talk or ask anything just respond i guess
>What were sleepovers like when you were growing up? I didn't really have big sleepovers or we wouldn't call them that but i remember having some friends at my place and staying up late playing videogames and stuff, we all slept in the same bed because i didn't have anywhere else to sleep but no homo
>What is your favorite meal Idk if you guys know about but it's called empanadas arabes, idk if you know what an empanada is but its that but like spicy yet not really spicy it's weird to describe but definitely try it if you can it's really good
>What is something you do when you get sad and have nothing important to attend to? I feel like im sad most of the time so i just put up with it, im constantly on my phone so i guess that kinda distracts me
>What is your favorite poem? I never was really into poems so i don't know any but i have written some myself
>What is your favorite film? Recently it became spiderverse, because it's super well done but i also really like pulp fiction, oldboy, the lion king because of nostalgia and the Grinch movie with jim carrey for some reason i dont know
>Who is your favorite author? I guess it's got to be Stephen King because he is the author i've read most of i usually only read one book of any author unless its a saga
>Tell us about your best friend I dont really know if i have a best friend, i have one im really close with but i feel weird calling him best friend, probably because i lost contact with my previous best friend over the last year, he was my best friend though 10 years so it's weird not having him... I'm also talking to this girl i used to be really good friends with until i told her i liked her and she stopped talking to me for a long time... I was like 12 so i get it lmao but i cant say she is my best friend i just felt like mentioning her (Cont)
>It's sorta theraputic in a way to be the only ones on a late-night street just talking about stupid shit. I filmed an entire movie based around this idea, the comfy vibe of young men just enjoying each others company in the dead of night when they should be sleeping.
>the stories I am still lacking some context here I think. I am curious what the intent with starting was. Were they supposed to be 'true' stories that you made up to get a laugh?
>Free Will Yeah my bad, misinterpreted that one, on board with you. >First novel Jeez, a lot better then I can do, Id say i am a alright writer but I could never write a cohesive novel. Props dude.
>Chasing those Chao Chao We would do that was well when Adventure 2 came out. It was a lot of fun just to switch controllers and collect the different parts.
>Pancet I do like Pancet, that is something similar to what I would make.
>Stopping by the Woods on Snowy Evening That and The Road Not Taken were the first two I read by him. I think most schools in America have it as required. He is very thoughtful and colorful in the way he speaks.
>Ratatouille That feeling that Remy had when he couldn't relate to his parents but he has one fixation that he loves was very moving to me. I feel like a lot of his struggles are things I can identify with, even if he got a happy ending. Choosing between your passions and family is something I've had to do. I don't think that its the best film ever made but it is a personal attachment. Dead Poet's Society with Robin Williams is probably one I would rank high.
>Protagonists I guess the best way to explain is that Nick in The Great Gatsby is more of a background player than the leader in what is to be his own story. The focus is Gatsby, and Nick is kind of just along for the ride. He's kind of average but he's a good person. I'm sure he has his own problems but they're not truly vocalized. Sometimes I feel like that. And then-- on the other side of he coin there is Stephen, who consistently writes his protagonists in his familiar hometown, many of which who have a lot of strange quirks or behaviors and many of which end up screwing up in one way or the other or hurting other people or reflecting on themselves and whatever trauma is happening.
>Was it Enjoyable Alcohol and things that I will pay for in the long run. If I could go back and not do it, I would.
>we all slept in the same bed because i didn't have anywhere else to sleep but no homo I feel it is disappointing that we have to live in a time where we clarify that any male contact we make is not gay. I feel cheated that I grew up in a time where acknowledging it as a 'sleepover' was called gay once I entered middle school. I had a friend die recently and I essentially had to ask a male friend to hold me if I wanted any comfort. It's an embarrassing thing, having to ask to be comforted simply because someone is worried that the physical action is somehow 'gay'. I mean think of the mental gymnastics our society has created to define non-sexual things as being gay even if both the men are known heterosexuals. It's maddening.
>I feel like im sad most of the time so i just put up with it, im constantly on my phone so i guess that kinda distracts me What makes you sad? What would make you happy?
>The movies That is a really diverse list you have there. What was Oldboy about? I also enjoyed the Spiderverse film. That whole bit they did about how Spiderman always needs to be able to get back up and keep fighting was very powerful. It is ironic that the movie pokes fun at how there is an over saturation of Spiderman media but could also not have made that sort of point about always getting back up without it being such a universally over-done story.
>Stehpen King Did you enjoy 'The Mist' or any of it's adaptions? What is your favorite book or saga outside of Stephen King?
Cooper Barnes
>Yeah my bad, misinterpreted that one, on board with yo I wondered, there seemed to be a gap in the conversation there suddenly where it took a turn.
>better then I can do That might not be true. Writing a novel is a simple thing I think. I mostly just did it to prove to my other friend that he could as well. Unfortunately that didn't work, I don't think he will ever write his novel. It only took like 14 sittings though. What makes you think you can't?
Aaron Wright
>Tell us about your current romantic prospects. Im probably going to be alone for a long while now and i guess i don't mind, im really bad st relationships but im a hopeless romantic so i cant really be a fuckboy, also I'm ugly and getting really fat lmao. I gave up at looking for relationships and if one comes my way I'll try to be the best i can for that person. Also! I got over being a dumb piece of shit about my ex wich makes me really happy but also really embarrassed for the texts i sent him
>What is something that has made you sad recently? Like i said before, I'm kinda sad all the time and i almost never had a reason, but lately i've been angrysad at myself because i eat trash and dont do any exercise so im getting fat :((( This one is mine so you guys answer too so we can chat
>What do you think is the best way to introduce yourself to someone? I kinda just wing it and really badly try to act cool because the only people i meet is when i go drinking with some friends and i don't want to seem dumb and nerdy But i also meet a lot of people online where i feel safer and i just send them a bunch of pictures of cats!
I love it, Can I save it to reference it later? >unravel I know my ex tried to have me do that because he is a life long best friend but he has done this before, but he always returned every time, like he'll be gone for 2 weeks and come back,(went to PA for delivery,(he worked for a sub shipment company under amazon)) >embers here is mine after being rejected by my (girl)bestfriend after being lead on for 2 years to only be told that I never had a chance to beign with.
Would love to watch this film if you made it public at all, that laid-back indie stuff is my jam.
And yeah, the example story I gave wasn't based off of anything real. Think of "Lard-Ass" from Stand By Me if you've ever watched that. Just imaginative, somewhat poorly constructed yet charmingly naive tales like that. Was always just fun to make them up as we fell asleep after a long night.
Aiden Sullivan
>collect the different parts. That's what gave it such great replay value. Even if you weren't going for that immortal chao just collecting the animals, getting the rings, that was a great way to spend a night.
>Music Interesting songs, I'm checking out 'The Conversation' now. These are such interesting songs for a very young person to have been listening to. Until middle school I really only listened to Christian rock for kids... and in middle school I only graduated on to anime ending themes.
>Required Frost I know The Road not taken is, even in Guam it is part of the curriculum. 'Stopping in the woods on a snowy evening' was something I didn't discover until last year while reading a book of his works.
>Choosing between your passions and family is something I've had to do. What exactly happened if you don't mind me asking? Interesting that you brought up Dead Poets Society, I only saw that for the first time today.
>Stephen King I still don't quite understand what you are talking about here in terms of relatability. You feel you can relate better because the author treats the main character similarly ot himself?
Jeremiah Wilson
>What makes you think you cant? Just never thought myself good enough I suppose to be able to write something that people would be able to enjoy to the end. And my general anxiety stops me from just asking people to read my stories.
Connor Stewart
Thank you, I was getting tired of rainy mood.
Isaiah Moore
>I'll try to be the best i can for that person. Why not try to be the best you can for yourself? It is much easier to bring someone to you when you're already someone worthy, as opposed to waiting for someone to lower them self to you and then trying to make an effort. If you are gaining weight you should start there.
Jaxon Thomas
>>What do you think is the best way to introduce yourself to someone? It's all contextual, you know? It changes for me from place to place and even just time to time. I used to be a much more confident person but I was robbed of that confidence by something you would not think had the power to do so. Now I simply put my self out there and pray that others are willing to reach out to me. So far it has been very successful, though I do miss being more aggressive in that regard.
Jacob Watson
>I feel it is disappointing that we have to live in a time where we clarify that any male contact we make is not gay. Oh thar was a joke, im sorry im actually pan but i find the no homo joke funny lmao
>What makes you sad? What would make you happy? I kinda explained it in the (cont) but i just don't know what makes me sad... I do feel happy sometimes when i realize im having a good time with a friend or when im talking to someone and they say something cute, my ex used to make me really happy and i very strongly remember one time when he hugged me and i just felt... Golden and warm and it was really beautiful.
>What was Oldboy about? It's about this korean dude that gets imprisoned for 15 years and he has to find out who and why they did it, it's a really good film i recommend you watch the original and not the remake because it sucks. After you watch it you could watch YourMovieSucksDotOrg's video on the remake so you don't have to sit through it.
>Did you enjoy 'The Mist' or any of it's adaptions? What is your favorite book or saga outside of Stephen King? I didn't read the mist, but i loved pet semetary and im reading it again I used to like Harry Potter but i grew out of it and now im stuck on the third Songs of ice and fire because it got really slow paced and boring
That's pretty lovely user. I particularly enjoyed the end.
>My ex >he has done this before I did not realize we had a femanon in this thread.
>girl best friend Or perhaps a bisexual man? Interesting.
As for my poem, you are welcome to save it if you like. A friend of mine is working on turning it into a song, though the progress has been slow on that. It is the duty of every man to write at least one poem about a love that never came to be, this one was mine.
I still struggle to understand the context of these things, and I've never seen stand by me so it may be lost on me entirely. We never really told stories when I was a kid, so I am not quite sure how they would come about. I wish I did though, I am in a weird phase where i am reminiscing on 'sleepovers' (hence the thread) and am curious what the experience was like for other people. I just want to understand the context of the ritual you guys had. I more mean, how would they come up, were they just basically jokes without a particular punchline, just a 'hey, let me try one' and then you improv something silly?
As for my film, I only have the first draft of the footage edited, but hopefully will have the rest of it done before we get into summer. This won't make any sense without context, as it is the end of the film: youtube.com/watch?v=Q3gHjjPTbTs But there's the only scene I have up on youtube at the moment if you wanted to take a peak.
Eli Young
I don't mean it like that, i just mean that if someone likes me I'll go all out, i just dont really feel like i have to have someone to be happy (even though im not lmao) This year im going to star exercising (not much but as much as i used to when some years ago) so i wont keep getting fat and maybe I'll loose some weight
Some people can break you, thats true but you gotta know that others can build you right back up, you will regain your confidence someday, im sure of it
Haha, well I never claimed mine would be enjoyable enough for people to actually read! Writing it wasn't about that, it was mostly just because I had an idea in my head and a point to prove to a friend. Though I am lucky that I have a small fanbase from other works that I did so I already have one person reading it as I edit to give me notes on anything I missed. He is really helpful and always helps me with my scripts as well. He must have read my pilot 30 times.
Do it for yourself if nothing else. The worst that happens is that you feel proud that you finished a book. 50 thousand words is the minimum.
>Oh thar was a joke, im sorry im actually pan but i find the no homo joke funny lmao That is fair enough, I've made similar jokes my self. I just feel it's one of the unfortunate things people feel necessary to point out, I've almost done it after discussing several of my own experiences in this thread. It is similar to how we aren't allowed to be proud of our own works unless we open with 'it's not very good but-'. People get mad if we are humble, but upset if we are confident.
>Golden and warm and it was really beautiful. Friendship is a golden thing. I really miss my friends.
>Pet Cemetary I didn't enjoy it very much, though I think at the time I read Stephen King I didn't have an appreciation for the way prose could inspire fear. It wasn't until I was older and got into creepypasta that I took an interest in that I think. I wonder if I would enjoy it more now? The new Pet Cemetary movie sure looks interesting.
>Songs of ice and fire I could not imagine sitting through that, particularly because I am sure the author just doesn't intend to finish it. He seems to appreciate the TV show more than most writers appreciate adaptions, I think he sees it as the next draft of his work and no longer feels the need to finish the novels since the show will write the ending he had in mind.
Juan Perry
>Some people can break you, thats true but you gotta know that others can build you right back up That isn't really what happened unfortunately.
Thanks. I might actually try to write a novel, just seems very daunting.
Joseph Nguyen
Im a guy lol I really want to share this one recent poem but its too damn long, is there anyway I can send it to you lol?
Jaxon Sanchez
Cool to see a thread that isn't the same shit over and over again nice job OP >What were sleepovers like when you were growing up? The only sleepovers i had were one on one with my best friend, we played videogames until we either got very tired or got sent to sleep, cool times >What is your favorite meal I really like potatoes i don't know why, they are perfect no matter how simple or complex the recipe is, if the principal ingredient is potato i'll like it. >What is something you do when you get sad and have nothing important to attend to? I just listen to some music while i read or play vidya >Tell us about your best friend. My best friend, he's cool, i've known him since i was like 5 and he was 7. He moved in front of my house with his mom and dad, my grandma decided to give them a nice welcome as they were new to the neighbourhood, i followed her, there i met my best friend and we started to play with some toys he had and do dumb stuff and since then we became really good friends. fast forward 14 years and we rarely talk now as we both have to deal with university and personal things. >Tell us about your current romantic prospects. Well, shitty, a year ago i met this girl, let's call her Belle. She was really into me and i knew it, i also kinda liked her (still do) but i was already with someone and i didn't want to hurt my actual ex so i just ignored it. A year passed and my ex who i loved enough to don't ditch her when i met Belle, left me for some chinese dude who had a rich father. Now the history is inverse. I love Belle but as she already has a boyfriend she just ignores me. I should've taken the opportunity when it was there but i didn't just for being a good person... >What is something that has made you sad recently? Well, you just (probably) read it
Justin Reyes
It felt daunting to me too, but think of how many pages you could do in a single sitting. 10? Then it's just ten nights of writing and you have a novel. Want to talk on Discord? I can be encouraging in this regard.
Discord? email? How long are we talking here?
Jaxon Campbell
>People get mad if we are humble, but upset if we are confident. That's a sad truth my friend.
>The new Pet Cemetary movie sure looks interesting. I don't think its gonna be that good but i'll still give it a watch, but you should try to re-read it, im not saying it's the best book but it is a good one
>I could not imagine sitting through that I guess neither could i, lmao.
Oh im sorry, is it ok if i ask what happened? You dont have to tell me if you dont want to
>Want to talk on discord? Sure, whats your account or server?
Wyatt Ramirez
>Want to talk on discord? Sure whats your account or server?
Jacob Jenkins
It's bad what your ex did to you friend, but you shouldn't have done the same thing before, and it's great that you didn't, maybe you can just be her friend and you'll find someone else soon, and maybe they break up and you can be there for her and after a while you two get together
Luis Kelly
just over a page but its the one where I had several friends cry when they looked over it Vulmus #0678
Luke Sanders
>Cool to see a thread that isn't the same shit over and over again nice job OP I am surprised these sorts of things don't happen more often. The closest we tend to get are feels or comfy threads but people can be very defensive over the kind of content posted there. Random discussion on a random discussion board is nice, you just have to find ways to get to the good stuff. This has been a great thread. Plenty of poetry and appreciation and shared interests, talks of lovecraftian madness, and only one person tried to ruin it with porny stories.
>I really like potatoes i don't know why, they are perfect no matter how simple or complex the recipe is, if the principal ingredient is potato i'll like it. You're the second user of the night. I enjoy a good potato, but I far prefer other foods.
>i've known him since i was like 5 and he was 7 I wish I had this experience growing up. I moved so many times and it was positively painful trying to keep people at arms length in order to maintain the idea of my 'best friend'. Then of course you and that previous friend begin to talk less, you start talking to your new friends more. Suddenly they are replaced, and then you're going to move again.
>separated by college It is is a shame, but at least you have that rich history together growing up. I heard someone talk before about how you really have 'two best friends'. One from your youth, and one as an adult.
>i didn't just for being a good person... You were not a good person though, you stayed with someone in a lie to simply avoid hurting their feelings. That isn't good behavior, it comes from not wanting to feel bad. I am sure you're an upright man, but this sort of thing is something you should reflect on. You don't do a good deed by staying with someone when your feelings are for another.
>That's a sad truth my friend. That is something I am trying to make an effort to stop doing, but I seem to have gone the opposite direction. Two of the girls I have been talking to recently have made it a rule that I am no longer allowed to say 'this may seem stupid but-' before explaining a thought or feeling I had. I suppose a lot of it went downhill when my friend passed away last year. I was an emotional wreck and another friend of mine told me that I wasn't being much of a man. Now anytime I have 'feelings' about something I worry it is childish or unmanly.
>re-read it I struggle to really read as of late. I took after VC Andrews who once said that the day she began writing she could never read again. I am trying to get back into it though, starting with more non-fiction. I just bought my self that new book by Jordan Peterson.
>is it ok if i ask what happened? A friend of mine died in May of last year. I had spent about nine months until he passed just taking care of him. There were days I would come home with his blood and parts of his tumor on me. I lost almost everything in order to take care of him and make sure that he didn't end up in a nursing home where his kids wanted to leave him.
Icarus#5589
Aiden Williams
>several friends cry Well now I am intrigued. I shall add you.
Kevin Reed
Well, i find it hard to be her friend she has became really hostile towards me for no reason and i can't see Belle breaking up with that guy anytime soon but if it happens i'll be sure to be there for her. Thanks for the support user
David Brown
>What were sleepovers like when you were growing up? For the most part fun. Most of my friends didn't actually like me that much but they tended to be nicer to me at sleepovers. Call of duty black ops zombies was a favorite past time as was watching really bad horror movies so we could catch some boob from the cute girls that are always in them.
>What is your favorite meal Anything cooked with me in mind. It sounds strange but there's something about food that someone made while they thought about you that is so much better than other food.
>What is something you do when you get sad and have nothing important to attend to? Put in earbuds, take a walk, and lose myself in something creative for a while. Great way to clear the head.
>What is your favorite poem? I never liked poetry. Seems like a pretty shitty thing but I just never did.
>What is your favorite film? Inherent Vice. It's a movie that I've seen like 8 times but I still don't follow and I like that. Makes me feel like I'm in the main characters headspace.
>Who is your favorite author? David Wong
>Tell us about your best friend. Sam's a good guy. Weird and deep down a very sad guy, but a good guy.
>Tell us about your current romantic prospects. I'm seeing her tomorrow. Probably no real future with her but she's fun and I know she'll like me for however long it lasts.
>What is something that has made you sad recently? Looking to my future. There isn't one.
I didn't want to hurt her feelings as she was with me during some hard times for me and by the time i met Belle my ex's father passed away and i didn't want to damage her more
Josiah Foster
O hell ya I love slumber parties. Niggers suck White Power right guys?
>Most of my friends didn't actually like me that much I'm sorry to hear that. How did they treat you negatively? Why do you think they did?
>Catch some boob Was there anything odd or strange about exploring perversion with each other in that way? I never had that experience.
>there's something about food that someone made while they thought about you that is so much better than other food. That's a really sweet thought. The lady I am seeing at the moment had a similar sentiment, she was just happy that I would cook for her when she came over.
>I never liked poetry. That is like saying you don't like movies, or TV, or books. All these mediums are different, sure, but the endless magnitude of stories within them means there is something out there for everyone. You should look into it a bit more, it always helps to have one obscure poem to recite to a woman. At least steal this one, pictured, and take the time to memorize it. Women love it, I swear to you.
>Inherent Vice I never saw this one, but I like your approach to it. I had similar feelings over the anime 'Serial Experiments Lain'.
>Now anytime I have 'feelings' about something I worry it is childish or unmanly A lot of people are mean for no reason, but you should never feel ashamed of your feelings. Being a man is a lot of things but hiding your emotions is not one of them.
>I struggle to really read as of late. The same thing happens to me and i dont even write lmao, most of the times it just comes and goes
>A friend of mine died in May of last year. Im sorry for your loss user, but it sounds like you did everything you could and more, and im sure you made it bearable. You are a great man and we are here for you.
Thats sad, but its going to be ok, just like you met her you can meet plenty other people
>Being a man is a lot of things but hiding your emotions is not one of them. It is a bit more complex than that I think. Particularly, when someone dies, it's hard to draw a line somewhere. I was a wreck, and he made it clear that was not becoming. Now I just worry that whatever I am feeling it isn't as intense as I may think, that I might just be angsty or wallowing in nothingness.
> but it sounds like you did everything you could and more The issue wasn't that, it just finds a way to rob you of your confidence.
Jordan Miller
Fair enough, If this is what you want then sure. >embers the poem I wrote when I was rejected and then lead me into a dark corner of life
Evan Reed
>dark corner of life What dark things did you dabble in in that corner?
Josiah Wood
>04644▶ > (You) I slowly felt my humanity fade away, to pour everything you have out to one person and then to have it not returned back, Unrequited love they say. I felt out of place like in 3rd person, I just resumed with life, wake up, school, go home , sleep, repeat. I was a robot. I didnt like it because I also wore a mask, I hate that mask with everything. A facade. I was at a time where I wanted to express myself but never really couldnt and wearing that mask made it worse and everyday the cracks of that mask grew; its cementation of its cracks was always faster and stronger than what the cracks ever made. That corner is when I fell into a pool of pain and darkness. Unknown of what tomorrow will bring and just getting today done so I can go back to bed, >Bed Everyday I woke up I cried because I had to live life again, I had to get up and actual live breath and even move. I wished that some day I woulda passed in my sleep. >corner Its a corner because my back was turned on life. I faced in darkness, the void and just sat there for a while, a good 2 years. I dont really remember what really happened in those two years. Every time I try to remember, everyday is the same
Ryder Young
I really don't mean to belittle what you say, especially since you say it so poetically, but considering your age I do think you will look back one day and think it silly that you took such a romance so seriously - though it never helps to hear that now.
What you describe is really only a metaphorical darkness, when the reality is that you continued to live an entirely ordinary life. Words are important and are for more than just making things sound beautiful. Think of the man who calls himself honorable, what honorable things has he done? Now think back to what you said, about being in a 'dark corner'? What was truly dark about it? You went through one of the most commonly human things imaginable, and lived a completely normal life after the fact.
Never stop looking for ways to express how you felt, but question why you did feel that way. One day you will stumble upon real tragedy and think yourself silly for these ruminations.
Parker Barnes
No no I understand where you, I can only imagine what you or anyone older than I have gone through. I know now that years down the road I'll look back in this exact moment and a reaction will happen to this. It really doesnt help seeing that Im currently on the devil's lettuce right now. I can see now that words are the key. if fate wants to then it can show me a real tragedy as you say right now or when it must.
Alexander Nguyen
>What were sleepovers like when you were growing up? I used to over to my one friend's house a lot in elementary school, he loaned me his copy of wind waker and I think I still have it. >What is your favorite meal This Chinese place in my hometown, used to go every year with my dad for my birthday. >What is something you do when you get sad and have nothing important to attend to? Hop in my car, turn on some music and just drive until i feel like stopping. >Who is your favorite author John Steinbeck for sure, East of Eden really gets to me. The Winter of our Discontent has a special spot in my heart as well. > Tell us about your best friend He's had my back for pretty much my whole life, we live far apart but we still call a few times a week and watch something simultaneously. I don't have too many good friends outside of him and a lot come and go but it's the most comforting feeling in the world knowing that one person will always want to see me.
>What were sleepovers like when you were growing up? my friends and i would play halo and black ops multiplayer on xbox for hours before goin to be playin fuck marry kill
>What is your favorite meal crab salad and any kind of sushi
>What is something you do when you get sad and have nothing important to attend to? i stay in my room and listen to music while browsing Yea Forums
>What is your favorite poem? never really had one or remember any from my childhood
>What is your favorite film? i'd probably pick something like LOTR, Limitless or the Speed Racer movie, that shit was my childhood
>Who is your favorite author? i dont know too many western authors, ive never read Stephen King, but if i had to choose i guess J R R Martin or the GOT author
>Tell us about your best friend My dad, him and i watch lots of interesting shows and read things together, we are currently watching Dexter
>Tell us about your current romantic prospects. im not very experienced in this area, im still searching and finding out about myself :(
>What is something that has made you sad recently? i have no self confidence, so i always feel as though i am not worth anything and i am not able to accomplish anything in my future
I think it is important to feel what we feel and find our ways to express them, I just find it dangerous (and sometimes a bit silly) to indulge them to an extreme. I think a lot of people fear they won't be taken seriously unless they make out their problems to be 'the worst thing ever' and as a result they tend to talk rather dramatically about rather simple things. Love burns, I remember when I was a teenager I could spend nights crying. Now most of my tears are reserved for the dead. I always found the picture to my left to be a bit over dramatic, but perhaps it is the kind of mindset you should be indulging at this time. Love is beautiful, and its loss can be devastating, but you should never let your self think that a break up leads to a dark corner. You cannot go through life as a man working jobs and doing great things if you are in a 'dark corner' anytime you lose the affections of your woman.
"The" Chinese place in your home town? What Podunk one horse town you live in to only have one Chinese restaurant??? Are you related to every person there?
Parker Flores
So to realign my mindset and mental/emotional routes in my head. To reroute these routes on a more correct path per se?
Robert Harris
>This Chinese place in my hometown I love chinese as well. I have a nice hole in the wall right behind my apartment, it has amazing spicy fried chicken. It is good comfort food.
> East of Eden really gets to me. I am not familiar with that title, would you mind sharing some of the plot and then your own feelings on it?
>calls a few times a week. I really miss that. I had one friend who would go on business trips every month and he'd always call me while on them, and another who lived just two miles away but still called me multiple times a week inbetween actually hanging out. I miss them.
>"The" What are you quoting there? He said 'This Chinese place' not 'THE chinese place' and most definitely not 'the only Chinese place. Are you related t o every person in your own town? Because I cannot imagine someone lacking reading comprehension to such a delusional fault unless he was inbred.
Hudson Ward
Not necessarily to re-align, but rather to grow beyond your current mindset. It is common for teenagers to think that what they are experiencing is the most intense thing ever, and in many ways its true. Emotion is relative, the more you experience of an emotion the weaker it begins to feel. 'Puppy love' was coined because they needed a way to describe the passionate youthful experience of love versus what we have as adults after many failed relationships. Emotions are essentially drugs, when you are younger anything can make you sad. When you experienced that a lot you will feel it far less intensely unless you get a very strong dose, such as something truly tragic happening as opposed to a break up.
What I am suggesting really is that you try to look beyond the moment, and aspire to be something a bit more. You don't have to succumb to your emotions, and that doesn't mean ignoring them either. It simply means taking a step back, thinking logically, and letting your emotions be just what they are, not trying to build them up.
Knowing me, Ill find this in a collection of links and look by this and smile and it makes a "click" inside. I really do like the way you answer my statements. But how interesting was the first poem to you really?
Caleb Russell
I enjoyed your first poem very much. To be frank the second longer poem you shared wasn't much of a poem at all, it was just a series of thoughts about a lady without very much cohesion between them. The first one though had an intent, even if it wasn't the kind of poem I generally enjoy (love poems are not my cup of tea).
Jonathan Diaz
I'm glad you enjoyed that one, I'm very proud of it and now I'm confident in it after this. What I thought of that poem I made wasn't really for or about love, I wrote it with the idea of "the journey of pain" or something.
Evan Jenkins
It seemed to involve romance, but even if it did it's very well. I wouldn't say its beyond drafting, the metering could use work, but the ideas you put into it are very real and very good, I particularly enjoyed the ending.
Julian Allen
Thank you, I was talking to one of my college professors about it and the one thing they would change about it is the repetition
Ayden Parker
>What were sleepovers like when you were growing up? They were spent with my cousin. Since they lived an hour drive away, they had to sleep over for us to hang out. We played Halo and other coop campaigns until we couldn't keep our eyes open, then wake up in the morning and make fried eggs. We are both working at the same company now, and they will be sleeping over instead of commuting home on Friday, but the magic isn't the same.
>What is your favorite meal New England Clam Chowder, which sucks because I recently became lactose intolerant so it upsets my stomach.
>What is something you do when you get sad and have nothing important to attend to? I go on /tg/ and play one of their Choose Your Own Adventure games
>What is your favorite poem? The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost because it makes me think about all my life choice that have led up to the man I am now.
>What is your favorite film? Scott Pilgrim v.s. The World. Every viewing of it has been with close friends and happy memories.
>Who is your favorite author? Orson Scott Card, who wrote Ender's Game
>Tell us about your best friend. We have known each other since Kindergarten and live 20 min walk away from one another, so they are constantly by my side.
>Tell us about your current romantic prospects. Not feeling towards anyone right now, but my long distance ex and I are trying to get over each other after a very friendly breakup where we realized our lives would never intersect for us to be together.
>What is something that has made you sad recently? Realizing I don't know how to lose, which makes me really defensive. I can't even play competitive video games because I cannot stand to lose.
Thanks for this thread OP. I didn't realize how freeing it was to vent or speak.
Landon Jenkins
>mind sharing some of the plot and then your own feelings on it Eden is in theory a retelling of the Book of Genesis circa 1952. Part one follows Adam Trask (a sort of Adam equivalent) as he comes into a massive inheritance and tries to settle down with Kate (Eve) who is hiding her history from him. This is mostly setup to the second part though which follows their twin sons (Cain and Abel.) There's also a lot of one-off stories in between chapters on the main plot, similar to the Grapes of Wrath. I read the book once in middle school for fun, I liked it but came out not really understanding what i'd read. Steinbeck's prose has always been of the best parts of his novels in my opinion and Eden is certainly no different, I think these are some of his strongest characters as well, There's few enough major characters that they all get ample enough time to really shine. On a more personal level though it kinda just got me thinking, about my relationship to my family as well as my own power to really change my life.
> Calls I'm sorry you don't call them anymore, I hope things are going alright for you. It's hard losing friendships with people you were close to.
Jeremiah Lopez
Perhaps now that we have really discussed this other one more we could discuss one of your other poems in the future on discord. Though this will be my last post for the night, I am falling asleep.
>the magic isn't the same I feel that. I even found a friend that liked the idea of sleepovers as an adult, that nostalgic experience, but it isn't the same. I think part of it is people not appreciating the idea of friendship as intensely as they used to.
>The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost Almost everyone in this thread chose that, I highly recommend you dive into poetry a bit and find a less common choice.
>I didn't realize how freeing it was to vent or speak. I only regret that I cannot give you proper responses, you came in a bit too late. I am on NyQuil right now as I have a cold and will be falling asleep, this shall be my last post. Perhaps in the next thread. Rest Easy.
Joshua Davis
same, Goodnight /b
Luis Campbell
>What were sleepovers like when you were growing up? Only really had sleepovers at one person's house, still my best friend. Mostly movies, YouTube, and Naruto games on his GameCube. He only had one bed and his parents made me sleep with him in his bed. He had a little TV above his bed and we would put some movie on loop. I've always been an insomniac, even back at age 10. I watched Bee Movie like 3 times in a row because I couldn't sleep. >Tell us about your best friend Been friends since 2nd grade, 12 years ago. Amazing musician, funny handsome guy who puts up with my shit. Almost fucked his ex once. He's very emotionally conserved, he's a good bro and asks you what's wrong, but never talks about himself. Seriously I love him like a brother. >Romantic prospects Been with gf for 2 years, I love her a lot but it could be better. She doesn't really like penetration and we're into very different kinks. Over all tho i love her very much and have an otherwise healthy relationship
Nolan Powell
>I'm sorry you don't call them anymore, I hope things are going alright for you. It's hard losing friendships with people you were close to. Things change unfortunately. I had five great friends but over the course of the last two years they have fallen away. The first moved. The second passed away. The third could not handle me caring for the one who passed away, and I could not change a dying man's schedule to accommodate him. The fourth has decided that I am a murderer because I have discovered that I am republican (there's five years of friendship being thrown out the window). The final friend simply stopped responding to me early last month. I do hope he returns, but I think he grew tired of taking care of a grieving man, which is a shame as I'm very much flourishing now and just wish I had him back in my life to share that happiness with. I suppose I could try reaching out again, but it has become embarrassing. After several weeks of no response, why try again? Even if he returns it comes at a bit of a cost there, doesn't it? If he wanted me in his life he would reach out I think.
Brody Cruz
>the magic isn't the same I found this video last night and it reminded me of the good times. And now this thread today. Life is quite mysterious. youtube.com/watch?v=ZaxF2vzoNNU
> I highly recommend you dive into poetry a bit and find a less common choice I was going to pick Annabel Lee by Poe but poetry just hasn't been a big interest during my life.
>I only regret that I cannot give you proper responses That is okay user. I am taking medicine for an inflamed throat, and I am on here trying to ignore the pain until the drugs kick in. Fast recovery to you, and good night.
Jason Roberts
I apparently lied about going to bed for the record, I am still awake.
>while in the end is playing Wow. That's a memory. I found an ASMR video the other day that was just a nice young lad playing games and eating cheetoes while talking about what a nice sleepover it is. I turned it off halfway through, it kind of hurt. I miss having people in my life that seemed to really like me. When did I become such a mess?
>Annabel Lee Oh, that one was beautiful, user. Always lead with that. Women don't particularly enjoy when men recite poems written for other women, but it would certainly give you more points than 'The Road Not Taken.'
>Sore throat I feel you there, brother. I thought I would be having my tonsils removed this month due to frequent infections in my throat. The doctor says that my tonsils themselves are fine and that I may have some other underlying issue causing the frequent illness. I thought the NyQuil was going to put me to sleep, but here I am. I am glad I am on the mend though.
If you are experiencing a throat infection I cannot recommend enough that you boil some hot water, put in quite a bit of salt, and gargle it. Doing this three times a day, or even more, will cure you fast. I used to take anti biotics but now I trust the salt water if the damage isn't so deep that it would cause scarlet rash.
Michael Bell
I'd say take one last shot at reaching out, I get it's embarrassing but what's the worst that could happen? It sounds like you care a lot and if he doesn't want you in his life then that's his lose, don't waste a thought on people that would do something like that to you. you sound like a good friend.
Julian Watson
> I get it's embarrassing but what's the worst that could happen? Things going back to normal, I suppose. Perhaps it is silly, or even childish, but the idea that I just mean so little that he could just ignore me for a few weeks then go back to acting like nothing happened hurts a lot more than simply thinking he grew tired of me because of how needy I became as a friend following my other friend's death. It isn't just embarrassing if he ignores me, it's even more so if he responds. It means that I am still the needy person who will take whatever scrap of friendship he will dole out when it suits him, as opposed to a man he considers a true friend. I rationalize, trying to explain to myself that different people act different ways, but as time goes on I find myself believing it less and less. More than anything, if he truly does just need his space because I did become too needy, I want to give it to him. I want to show that I am strong and that if he is desiring to return that I can be a stronger man than I was before.
But it seems that no matter which option I go with there is still a bit more suffering to come. I just really miss the last day he was here, his unexpected hug meant the world to me.
>I turned it off halfway through I would too. I can only last so long on the video I linked before it becomes too much.
>Always lead with that The only reason I like it is because it is the first poem I was proud I understood as a child. Other poems had too much symbolism for my young brain to wrap their head around.
>boil some hot water, put in quite a bit of salt, and gargle it Yep, that has been my go to every few hours but I am worried that hot water is further damaging the area instead of helping.
Hopefully your Nyquil kicks in and you can get some sleep friend.
Oliver Thomas
Well said, I think I get what you mean now. Don't blame yourself for his actions, there's nothing wrong with wanting a friend so don't try and justify his actions by beating up yourself. do what you feel and it'll work out for the best I think. I've got class in a few hours so I'm gonna hit the hay, its been nice talking with you, Keep your head high and good luck!
Dylan Gonzalez
Honestly I thought you were my buddy talking about me. Known each other since grade 3 he thinks grade 2 so like 15 years ago for me.
Grew up doing kid shit like playing outside or playing games inside. We were huge into Sonic adventure, Naruto, Nhl, Fifa, wwe, then moved into cod. Dont hangout as much anymore since graduating but, whenever we do its like we've never been away.
Isaiah Wright
It is what it is. There are certain principles I don't want to compromise on just for his attention. If the friendship has to end I would like it to end with me being the best version of myself regardless of the outcome. I don't blame my self entirely, but I also know it can be understandable when someone is tired of me, it has been an exhausting year and it's not easy taking care of someone who is grieving.
