How are you holding up Yea Forums?

>130 hours in.
The game is that long holy shit?

Alcoholic chainsmoker vidya addict here
I recently bought a rosary and started talking to God to seek help and fix my life. I wear it all times and I swear that my desire to drink/smoke/play has greatly diminished. I bought a 6-pack yesterday and drank like half a beer and didnt really like it (I usually drink 6 to 10 a night)
Waking up fresh in the morning feels really good

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Got in an argument with the lady yesterday, but work is doing fine. I had some cheesecake and drinking Squirt.

People that like beer told me it feel good when drunk but the only thing i can feel is constant headache and blood pressure rising.
Is it just me?

>cheesecake
I love cheesecake but can't eat too much because of lactose intolerant

astral chain arrives today(early) and I have tomorrow off, buuuut, I have a a full shift to go to now, so it should be good as soon as I get off

>out of a job and school for too long
>working on getting back and I found a good paying job that will take me
>but it's slow and I've been neet for months so feels bad
>Job is also probably awful. One of those things where they're suspiciously desperate and understaffed. I probably think the money is good because my other jobs payed shit

): llǝʍ os ʇou

I am a slave to my addictions and fears and it's painful.

Not bad, about to be heading to work
I need to stop procrastinating on the last chapters of 3h though

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Happy cause it's my birthday

My neck hurt

How does Yea Forums do it? Even with all it's flaws it still manages to maintain a level of quality far above the other media boards.

Somebody who I've been talking to for months now on a server just left because she's feeling very unwell.
I sent her some messages and nice pics that reminded me of her.
I hope she's doing fine, but I hate that there is nothing else I can do about it right now.

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Happy birthday user, thank you for being born!

How do I make new racist friends who still have jobs and such? Basically people like me.

Same but no car accident instead a job that i hate but cant quit now because i really need the money specially during these upcoming months.

Doing pretty good. Making money, playing fun games.

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>very bad
>mentally bad
>broken toe
>scared off a girl at barnes and nobles
>finally got sleep that could help
>brother calls to say how I fucked up life and guilt trip me into what he wants

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I havent done anything since I woke up today and all I did yesterday was draw. I have games I want to play but my eyes have felt kind of messed up so Im going to the eye doctor on friday. somebody I tried to be nice to stopped talking to me because I wanted to be their friend instead of fapping with them. people are strange.

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>scared off a girl at barnes and nobles
lol want to talk about it?

Pretty good, I get out of the army in two years and can finally get on with my life and play fun games

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Tell your brother to fuck off, you're sleepy, and whatever stupid shit he wants can clearly wait until you aren't.

I've been sick with a cold for over a week and it's been messing with me pretty bad. I'm kind of annoyed since I don't have the focus to do anything when it feels like my legs are going to give out at any second.

I'm alright but I miss her.

Good for you man. I usually drink 10 shots or 8 beers daily and im trying to cut that shit out too

Playing yh mass effect games again. Also drinking too much and falling out on responsibilities. Maybe I’ll be lucky and drink myself to oblivion before fixing anything, like a retarded child would.

I've been telling myself I was going to do something productive tomorrow for the past few years.
Still ain't happening.
Something something blogposting fag thread

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I'm startingto make some small, positive changes to my life but it's a drop.

I still have no idea what I should go to fucking school for and I gratuated HS in 2011. Just been wageslaving away making nothing.

These are my favorite reaction images. Also those OHAYO faces.

Okay for the most part. Still not working and still a bit scared of finding work, but applying to stuff anyway. Enjoying my vidya and anime otherwise. Also want to find some sub-communities to take part in but never feel like I can contribute much so hard to feel like I fit in somewhere I guess. Also got an ingrown hair and my doctor said "It's not infected so just see if it goes away" so that sucks but oh well.

Monster Hunter World Iceborne is exactly what I needed right now though, it's fun.

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I snapped at my girlfriend because she triggered a trap at the wrong time twice.

Quite well. Though I do wish I had a irl friend to talk to about vidya and exchange world views with, which isn't really achievable where I live. Either way, when I see all the things other people have to put up with, I feel like there's nothing to worry about.

Keep getting nightmares. Can only avoid 'em with alcohol.

I went to barnes and nobles to;
>quit over analyzing everything
>get some books
>maybe talk to a gril
So I walked around the store a lot. In doing so I found myself constantly walking around this girl with a phat ass. After a while and getting books, I finally argued my brain to shut up so I could talk to her. What came out was "I know, I know. I keep walking by you." Well the best way I can describe it was she Gaffaed at me, and started ranting in non words. But because she was loud it brought over a worker and since I had big books I was buying but she was just taking free wifi, they asked her to leave.
Oh I got Don Quixote and James Clavell's Shogun Saga.
Had to answer since we haven't talked in ages since he was angry at family for not going to a restaurant he wanted which was stupidly expensive. I didn't want him gone forever, but at same time I want him gone forever.

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>she triggered a trap at the wrong time twice.
Dumb whore need a few good dicking to get it right

I received inheritance last week and I feel like a bigger piece of shit than before.

Dead and nonexistent

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wow that dog sucks at swimming

I fucked her this morning. She got me carted twice because she didn't activate the trap when I needed it the first time, and then activated when we didn't need it at the second.

I am not.
I just shut my brain off for extended periods of time to escape reality.

steamcommunity.com/id/tomoko/

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Barely

I'm doing horribly but am kept alive is my cripping existential fear of death so I'll be alright

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i wish i was dead but i have to live until bannerlord releases

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The fact you received it means someone thought of you. The best you can do is your best to not let them down.

Remember that people believe in you.

Been searching for a since graduating uni. Its been miserable and thinking about it is depressing. The worst is on 3 seperate occasions I have been basically told I have the job, yet end up getting ghosted and never hear anything else back. Been using vidya as a means to distract myself.

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Nothing wrong with me, but nothing good either. Just endless monotony and occasional bursts of fear over how pathetic I am.
Can barely play games anymore due to it being to much of a bother, but I am gonna force myself to at least try out rondo of swords later today.
And I would feel pretty exited over DP2 of I still had the capacity to do so.

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>I know, I know. I keep walking by you.
Now that's a flirt move i never seen before

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I'm doing fine, debating if I should get Bloodstained or River City Girls atm, both is currently not an option

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If you can't afford both you can't afford either.

It mean they care for you user.
How is the inheritance progress? Do you just show up and the lawyer take care of everything?

Pretty well.
I had a blast with the 2v2 of MW and I'm looking forward to October 25th.
Also I decided to stop tryharding with girls and now there are 3 of them who actively seek my dick, feels nice.

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College student who was rooming with another family member recently had to move because financial constraints. Had to up and drop my whole life+plan.

Been forced to move in with a step aunt. My life sucks now. Bitch just shuts off the god damn internet no warning because " I'm disrespecting her" despite doing chores around her home daily AND paying rent.

This is a woman who literally paid indian scammers 400+ dollars in iTunes card because they said they are from Windows and she has a hacker virus.

But no. I'm the problem. She wants her bandwidth untouched. Why can't I tack on an extra hundred just to out right pay for better internet.

I fucking hate boomers. I fucking hate passive aggressive boomers. I would burn this place to the ground for fucks sake.

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>friendless, relationshipless shut in loser
>but hey I'm not a neet
>get transferred to what I'm pretty sure is basically a banishment room

I don't know why. I was good at my job. I can't quit.

Congrats user, you will live for a long time

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I should be working but it sucks so I procastinate

>River City Girls
It's not good user, mediocre. The art is wonderful but it's not enough to carry the whole game

I met nice friends to play vidya with. Some of them get really mad at games. Being around other people reminds me of how bad I am at socializing.
I might be getting a nice job soon but it's in a really bad neighborhood and I got scared when I interviewed
I'm working out a little more. Not a lot, but it's something. Now I need to stop jacking off so much.
I finished the story I was writing, but finishing one makes me feel empty instead of happy and it's hard to edit it or start another story.
It could be better

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It just came out as joking of the situation. Like turning a creepy moment into funny. It didn't work because I don't think she ever noticed me to begin with.

Don't have the desire to play anything even though iceborne, ff8 remaster are out and links awakening is out soon.

Work sucks, family doesn't care about me, and to top it all off the woman I love most likely doesn't love me back.

But, I got some good food on the way and my favorite streamer will be on soon

Look asshole I don't want to throw all my money to buy 2 games. Rather finish one of them first then get the other, otherwise it'll just sit in my backlog and never get played
Alright guess I'll get Bloodstained then

I know; I can't let it go to waste.
My family took care of everything. I don't know the details but there weren't any problems.

>woke up today saying I'd start learning either art or programming and instead just layed in bed despite really wanting to do something for once
>been eating a fuckton for no reason and gained weight
>feel somewhat tired all the time
>family visibly disappointed in me
>don't want to leave home
>don't feel like I deserve to take a break and play a game
>probably only alive because I'm a pussy afraid of death
I hope life has a New Game + so I can fix some stuff.

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I'm gonna play a cute MMO with my friend today and make our characters kiss each other. Then we'll watch some anime together and maybe fap to some hentai together too.

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How much?

Stop being gay

I don´t have a job or friends or anything, next week I examine the driver's license at 25, if I don´t get it I will feel really bad and if I get it I will not have a way to use it because there is no car that anyone can lend me. I hope it will at least help me find a job.

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user that do both here.
Programming is mind numbing sometime.
Art is a hobby that take a very long time, you need 4-5 years to be average so start now. It's a marathon not a sprint

Just spending another day in cold and miserable isolation playing vidya I've played for thousands of hours already in some vain attempt to pass the time.

How about you guys?

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I only have 1 and a half month left before car license exam.
Still fuck up a lot, fuck manual is so hard to drive, i'm not gonna make it....

>I hope life has a New Game + so I can fix some stuff.
A man has two lives, the second begins when he realized he only has one.

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Just doing some gunpla stuffs and draw a little bit.

I can't connect with anyone. Even if they're into vidya and Yea Forums shit. I'm beginning to realize no one gives a shit about me.

How do I cope?

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wasting my time until i figure it out where my talents lie

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Told myself that I would start dieting and working out again but I'm still eating like a pig.
I want to learn a new hobby or language but can't bring myself to begin with. My depression hasn't been acting up that much lately so thats fine because I don't feel like killing myself all the time.
I think I really need to find a partner or someone to push me into achieving those goals, I always like the motivation or drive to do it by myself

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Find something you like and enjoy doing it

You can do it. I did my drivers class with a crazy ex military man. He would cover the review mirror and yell "How many cars were behind you?! Keep eyes forward". He did a bunch of stuff that I probably shouldn't have done.
Don't give a shit of other people and do what you want to do.

Man technologically inept stubborn old people can be extremely difficult. I wish you the best of luck user, just don't let it get to you.

What problems are you having with manual, user? Until it becomes natural, it's easy to create some mental notes on gear change and how to press the pedal.

Beut I want friends. I want a gf. I want to be accepted. How come others do it so easily?

wishing i was fucking dead desu senpai

My dog died recently, I haven't talked to anyone but my family for 2 years and even then it's the most basic of small talk, my self-loathing is off the charts which is saying a lot and I've reached the point where I don't finish most games anymore, I just play for 3/4s of the game's length and quit after I burn out on it, leading to incredible regret.

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Are you me?

For the most part, the people that I met that are good at it don't know that they are, they didn't know they weren't thinking. After meeting me, many of these people start seeing shit differently and it hurts them. Ignorance is bliss.

Still having a hard time with driving in heavy traffics, turning the car is a hit or miss, some time i overdid it.
Also i panic when there's an emergency and just freeze.

Why are you guys such losers?

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Killing yourself will be bothersome to those that have to deal with your corpse and whatever meager possessions you may have. Right now, get up and do 10 push ups.

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"Something" is not clear enougj and thus, you wont ever do it.

Think about what tou want to do or improve on and focus on that.
For example, eating healthy.

user, getting a gf won't make you any happier.
Real life is not like anime. The girl won't love you unconditionally and encourage you to become a better person.

4th year of community college. when will this filler arc end

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Neither of us will realize this.

>Killing yourself will be bothersome to those that have to deal with your corpse
They'll get money out of it.

Sorry dude.
This is why i don't get a pet.
My heart is weak and can't handle shit like that

thats a panther

Cause we are just the voices in your head.

user...
College is the main part of your life, all that left in the future is just a day to day grind, a filler....

I'm trying to get a job, work up a few thousand bucks, and then leave this god forsaken shithole.
I have a feeling people will try to stop me. But I dont want to be stopped. I want to go where he is. I want to abandon my family because they never cared about me, they only want me to make money so THEY can use it.
Fuck them.

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Actually death tax is a thing. You die and your family will have to pay financially over it. Most fucked up thing about the US. Blood is boiling just being reminded about it.

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Why would I want someone who only loves me at my best? There are guys worse than me who have gfs. A gf would give me so much more energy.

Not him but honestly if I ever kill myself I hope whoever comes to clean up has a hard time doing it.

>death tax
There's a death tax in US? What the fuck burgerfags?

I have come into terms years ago that I will never kill myself unless I am completely alone and I find a way so it doesn't bother anyone so don't worry.
I cannot do push ups but I will do sit ups

Take interest in other people instead of worrying about other people taking an interest in you. People love to talk about themselves, ask questions and basic follow up questions and they’ll keep talking. Eventually they donth same with you.

You should consider yourself lucky they don't tax you for breathing.

Because everyone expects everyone to be an extrovert, to stay out of home all the time, to be able to talk with everyone like they're childhood friends, to be able to land a six digit job by just shaking a hand, to be able to be in crowds of thousands and smile the whole time. There's so much social pressure nowadays that's being applied to people from very young ages that the current generations feel completely overwhelmed just to try to fit in the status quo of a generation who had life given to them on a silver platter.

Doesn't help at all when requirements for everything important such as credits, housing, schooling or jobs are so ridiculous that people simply want to give up. You have people suffering from severe stress before even reaching the adult age, it's idiotic.

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Then do situps. From baby steps to giant strides.

I'm realizing more and more that I have very little in common with my only group of friends and I can feel myself starting to drift away. I'm not panicking quite yet since I made it a point to join other groups and clubs this semester to find more people to hang out with but I don't want to have a repeat of high school where I became completely socially isolated in the last 2 years there. At least classes and job hunting seem to be going pretty well so it's not all negatives.

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Whoa whao whoa. All is alright except the
>I want to go where he is
Go where you want because you want to, not for anyone else. Also learn more about the place you want. I thought Houston would be cool, it sucks. But League City south of Houston is chill.

Don't worry, that's very normal. Have you tried downloading a simulator or something else? Turning has a lot to do with understand the space your car occupies and how you get into the curve. As far as emergencies goes, just remember to slow down and get your act together, take the slow lane, if needed. Driving is all about seeing and being seen, if people see you are having trouble, they get away from you and let you do whatever you need to.

I'm lonely. I've kinda realized that I don't want to associate with my long time high school friends as much anymore. Not because there's anything wrong with them but I want friends with interest and demeanor that's closer to my own. I don't know how to find new friends though.

Morale is flagging, depression setting in, cancers and poisons starting to chew away at us all, and overall the whole world is getting ready for a shitstorm one way or another.

I am reading Din Quixote now, it is very enjoyable. Try not to worry about the things you are not doing and focus on what you are, even if it is just shitposting.

Don't listen to that guy, situp is shit
Plank is the easiest way to reduce dad belly.
Just do it 30 mins everyday

college is going like hell, dont know if its the career that i picked or just myself being a complete mess. I barely interact with people outside a classroom and dont talk to anyone other than my parents.

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>Call Center job
it's shit i can't take it anymore.

>tfw on my way to becoming like this