All that social anxiety, worrying about things that could possibly go wrong, none of it was real. None of it was ever true. I wasted my life for no reason, I put barriers in front of myself for literally no reason at all. The reasons were purely fabricated by my mind.
Holy fuck. I screwed up so bad, I don’t think I’m going to be able to sleep tonight. What in the fuck have I done? It was all fake, all of it had nothing to do with reality, I was just being an anxious weirdo for no real reason, I could’ve just stopped if I realized what I know now, all those things I worried about were always fake. Nobody was going to make fun of me for no reason, nobody was going to try and humiliate or scream at me in public. Nobody was going to laugh in my face. It was fake the whole time. I wasted all of my college years, I hid from everyone, I made no friends, I didn’t get involved in anything, I failed courses, all because my brain invented reasons to be scared of things. Holy fuck. I ruined my own life for no reason at all.
>Nobody was going to make fun of me for no reason, nobody was going to try and humiliate or scream at me in public. Nobody was going to laugh in my face. It was fake the whole time.
Nice try, harrassing boy. But next time you should make it better.
Ryder Nelson
This but unironically
Jace Hill
What's wrong with being a loser, user? The reality is that these people are doing nothing wrong by being jobless and stuffing cheez-its into their mouth, while playing the latest mmorpg for several hours a day to escape reality. They don't harm anybody and if they're having fun or being able to cope through this, then they're farther in improving their life than you ever will be, since you seem like a judgemental fuckface who wants to force others to conform to him. Try some of that self-improvement you talk of.
Guess it's time to kill yourself, user. Be sure to stream it.
Charles Collins
I have the same problem user. But in my case all the myriad of things I think could possibly wrong usually fucking happens. I always try to fight it but the anxiety never goes away
Kevin Mitchell
i promised myself i wouldn't eat at 2AM but I just did FUCK
Carter Jenkins
That's okay. At least you're aware that nobody is out to get you now. I've been there before. All you can do now is open yourself up, try to start fresh. You've already been through the hardest part. I believe in you, user.
At least you’ve realized it. Tons of people never do, unfortunately. It may be pretty late in your life, but you can still turn things around. It’ll be hard for sure, but it ain’t over yet
Mason Peterson
tfw nothing ever bothers me was even homeless at one point and all i did was check books out from the library and eat stolen bread in my tent while learning mandarin and reading poetry.. i wish i cared about life more but i really don't give a shit I'm content reading books and playing vidya until i die desu
>tfw you only entered collage because your parental pushed you yo >tfw you don't even like What you're doing >tfw stalling for Time till i can find something fullfilling because you think you reserve the right to dream >tfw i just need to be lucky
>30 >enlisted, ended up with a desk job by accident after getting baited by my recruiter to taking a tiny bonus that I never even got >finally learned to drive after being a citycuck for more than a decade >will be moving into my own apartment by myself in a month for the first time Yet >had a relationship that lasted 3.5 years and ended horribly and drained my capacity for connecting to others, literally just devolved from shared interests to nothing but dry fucking and smoking weed whenever we weren't arguing over nothing >cut all ties with prior friends of the last two decades >too old for discord and never really played on steam to begin with >spend all of my time away from work just dumping hours into games or anime with no one to really share them with, never really finish anything either >always think about ending it all because my family is an emotional dead end and I've never really been attached to them >not truly proficient in anything, not motivated to do better but literally trapped in a scenario where I have to play pretend every day Fear is nothing, really. It's the time you wasted that matters
Charles Morgan
What games can help Op, now he released the truth? Or will games only provide escapism and make OP sink further in his problem?
