How you holding up Yea Forumsros?

the migraines are getting worse, I'm now at a point where I sometimes have thoughts of doing inane nonsense like banging my head on a wall in an attempt to make it stop

Swamp niggers banned loli

Day of the flood when

People can no longer distinguish fantasy from reality.

Ive gone from actively wanting to kill myself to passively hoping for death. That is if someone knows a quick and painless way (preferrably some drugs) i can do at home id appreciate it

>tfw reached limit by downloading etrian odyssey artbooks
>still looking for many more
The link just sends to home which is empty how to deal with this ?

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>have a nice day off
>play some vidya, eat some nice lunch
>go to some random vidya general
>hear about the panda hoopla
>realize I have like half a day to download almost 2000 zips before the best hentai site dies
Terrible. My day was terrible.

I failed my job interview. I already foresaw this was eventually and obviously going to happen. Oh well, time to sign up for disability benefits and play vidya until I eventually pull the trigger.

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Go get yourself fucking checked dude, i've heard some bad shit related to frequent migraines.
I've had these heart palpitations whenever i try to sleep from 11pm to 1am, pretty fucking weird, i have to calm myself otherwise i feel like choking, it's been 2 weeks now.

>Girl at the gym I suspect is crushing on me
>Not 100% sure though
Honestly, every time I try to go full MGTOW in my life, there's a period of either brief romance or something like this that pulls me back in.

Should I stay the course or give into distraction? I just want peace from it all. I'm tired of being jerked around.

lostallhope.com/ look into this i'm in a similar situation, although in my case i've made a vow, that not until both of my parents die i won't go through with it.

>MGTOW

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I failed three since graduating college
It fucking hurts, lad

Someone get the Tales artbooks in my stead

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Well what else am I supposed to do? I can't cut it in the dating world.

>ughh.. guys women want to fuck me it's so tough..
Stop this humblebragging bullshit, a girl has literally never been attracted to me in my entire life, i think you can manage the suffering of being accepted and desired.

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Odds are she isn't. I misinterpret signals a lot, and most of the time women friendzone me. I get attention once in a blue moon, and usually it's by post-wall 40 year olds, or morbidly obese chicks.

I don’t know what to do anymore. I just feel so fucking powerless.

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I had a couple a few weeks ago at some really good places felt good about the interview too but got rejected again.

I don't know what the fuck to play

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Nah m8, if you can't get a job in a couple of years then yeah, sign up for those autism bux. But if it's just one then brush it off and go apply to some more places.

Russian Roulette

Depression is making me feel like I haven't slept for years despite sleeping. Even though I'm tired I still can't sleep and after hours of lying in bed I inevitably end up reading shit online until 7 am and sometimes later. I have a hard time putting effort into anything due to feeling tired and shitty all the time which is making it a bitch to get a job. Other than that I'm alright I guess.

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Celebrity waifus are literally the only thing keeping me alive.
The most recent addition to my celebrity crush collection is Brie Larson.

I used to have this a lot a couple of years agi. My doctor told me to stop drinking si much coffee and it worked.

I experience all that, accept I'm not to the point of being up until 7 am. I'm up until about 4:30 or 5 typically. Though it seems like I'm staying up later and later as time goes by. I do have a job currently, and can only really get through it with a shitton of substances, like kratom. Getting a better job is a bitch because I find it hard to motivate myself to do so.

I suppose it could always be worse

I graduated a year ago and have gotten zero (0) interviews since December.

Same as always, I hate Yea Forums but I spend too much time here anyway just for the 1% I dont hate.

I thought the gif in the noose was gonna be that black security guard dancing on the football field,
I am very dissapointed now

>I suppose it could always be worse
That's what I keep telling myself.

>muh life is meaningless!!1!!
>I have no reason to live because nihilism!!!!!!!
Who gives a shot of you have to point or meaning? Just do shit you like to do

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That's also what scares me though, that it could possibly get worse than this. What if it gets worse? What then?

Nihilism doesn't tell you that you have no reason to live. It encourages you to find your own meaning. You're more-so thinking existential crisis, which seems to happen to Yea Forumsirgins every week.

i cant do shit that i like to do because sad panda is dying and there is no website out there like this one, and the faggot admin is not even going to give a full mirror base to anyone since he is that much of a fucking faggot

Mhm, thought it was anxiety but the caffeine doesn't help, i should stop drinking coffee after noon even if i'll end up feeling even more dead than i already am. I really should stop drinking a monster can every morning at 8 on empty stomach too

You keep fighting it.

Have no idea what to do with my life. Chatting up a girl I matched with on Tinder because we both have Art History degrees so I’m hoping she can get me a job at the local art museum if my dick is good enough

keep applying for jobs, keep getting nothing back. its starting to drive me nuts.

Most people I talk to view nihilism in a more cynical light, especially the people who claim to be nihilists, in my experiences at least.
Not sure why though

Depends on when you go to bed. If you're trying to sleep at around 11:00 pm or so, you should really stop drinking coffee after about 12:00 pm or so. If you're like me and stay up until 3 or 4 in the morning, you've got until about 3 or 4 pm. Drinking less also helps make it more potent, when you really do need it as a pick-me-up.

I'm getting kicked out at 20. I thought my dad would let me stay to finish my AA but now I'm fucked. I'm going through an existential crisis about how I won't be able to handle nursing - I don't really have an interest in fucking ANYTHING. I'm fucked.

>tfw most new games in the genres i like are shit
i've had some luck expanding my horizons, but now i'm fresh out of games that interests me and have to wait months if not as much as a year sometimes until something new comes out that meets my standards
i like the same stuff as before so it's not because i'm jaded or whatever that i can't find enjoyment in most new games

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>Depression thread

fuck all of you for not playing the game of life first before your virtual ones

No fucking wonder Yea Forums is full of people who hate videogames. Get your shit together and you can enjoy your pass time more.

Pick one fucking problem in you life and work at it everyday. Once you pushed it as much as you know you could for the day you won't feel like shit the minute you pick up a controller.

t. that start by making your bed shit is real and no it doesn't have to literally be your bed

Same here, dude. I can't sympathize with people that actually get any attention. I get none, from fatties, old ones, married ones, druggies, whatever. Nobody gives a shit. But I guess that's fine, since I don't give a shit about me either.

not well, truth be told. don't know what to do with myself, feeling stuck in a loop, constant anxiety. feel drained, can't enjoy anything new or old. not a forever alone, used to get attention from girls but have become a shut in, only go out with friends once in a while now, get blackout drunk almost every time. just want to sleep forever. lately feeling like a need things to change or some bad shit will happen.

what do? anyone get out of this shit? how?

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How often are you retooling your resume? Are you "catering" it to each and every job posting (see: adding in key words from the opening itself to get it past those resume filters companies use now). Also keep in mind that a slew of companies put up job openings even though their goal is to hire from within. Most times if you don't hear back from a company, it's because of one or both of the aforementioned reasons.

I can't help it. Cancer made me into a sedentary potato and a close friend stabbed me in the back and thanks to that I'm riddled with anxiety and paranoia with no way to afford therapy or meds. I really want a way out but the only ways out are hard and I'm not up to fucking anything difficult.

Probably because it tells them there is no higher truth, and that you can't really be sure of anything. Which can be very scary to people. I remember when I first heard about it when I was teenager, and I literally lost sleep for days because of it. The very thought of it shook me to my core.

Most people view it as crippling because they feel as though accepting it means surrendering everything. I can kind of see why a young mind (I was 17 at the time) would feel this way. I had believed in God, heaven, etc. all my life. The idea that I could be wrong, and that there's no way of really proving it's real through logic and reason was a fucking terrifying thing to consider.

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nhentai.net? I stopped using sadpanda a while back. The chrome login extension broke and it's a pain in the ass to do the login thing when I regularly do incognito mode stuff and wipe my browser history, which resets current login sessions, etc. And I refuse to use browser-built password managers since that's just a fucking trap.

Depends on how much those horizons are expanded, i have a shit tons of games in my backlog even at the state of pic related, tons of games to emulate too and 2-3 new stuff i'm interested in coming out every month
>August
>Metal wolf chaos
>Remnant
>Oninaki
And so on until the end of the year

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>adding in those key words from the opening itself to get past those resume filters companies use now
Explain. Do I have to alter the title of the actual file itself? Or the title on the actual resume itself? I want to beat the system.

How do I even build a resume if I have no prior job experience? Also what fucking references am I meant to have for a cashier job? I've looked at 3 different open offers and they all require 3 references - it's a cashier job what the fuck.

My tooth fucking hurts and I don't know if I can see a dentist tomorrow

>intense sadness can be fixed with a nice night walk while listening to music
>don't feel lonely because I'm reclusive
>lost my need to have a gf, like it would be nice but I'm not gonna let that ruin my life
>all I wanna do now is play vidya, sleep, paint and make music and
I'm having a pretty good time

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I'm in the same situation as you. I've honestly considered going on new medication. The one I've taken for 12 years or so has stopped working a while ago.

It sounds like you're trying to go it alone, like I've been doing. You can only do that for so long before the weight becomes unbearable, and you can sucked into those loops that are seemingly impossible to escape. Seriously, we need to get professional help. It's not enough just to "will" yourself out of it anymore. You're at a point where you can't do that. And it's okay to admit it. And no, don't interpret that as "It's okay for me to commit suicide, user said I can't will myself out of this". I'm not giving you or myself an excuse to just check out.

True peace. We could all learn from this user. I take night walks too. They're quite nice, especially when you go off the beaten path. Sure it's scary, and you never know who or what you might come across, but the adventure is nice.

Based and Killer7 pilled

exhentai.org/
Bros....I can't get off to this.

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This is fucking it

I've been blocked by a girl I've known for months, we played VRChat together and she was always so fun to be around. It's been about a week and I've done nothing in my free time but pace around my house like a caged animal. I barely sleep and I can't enjoy things I used to, like playing games, eating. Everything I do is accompanied by this gut wrenching feeling that I can't shake off. I hope it's over soon.

You be thankful your friend showed his true colors and you can rid the rest of your life of that scum.
>sedentary potato
>surviving cancer
Even stephen hawking had 2 wives and some kids. Inb4 high IQ: the dumbest people on earth are some of the happiest big family starters that do well for themeslves

I don't want to be a dumb fucker with 90 kids. I'd love a family but I need a starting off point. I'm pretty close to just joining the army for a non-infantry position so I can learn discipline and shit.

Fuck her. Fucking thots aren't worth thinking about. You'll get over her before you know it. It may not feel like it now, but you will. Soon there will be someone else.

Your resume title should be akin to the job you're applying for regardless. How to tool said resume typically depends on the company and how they have their own applicant tracking system set up, but the rule of thumb is to skim over the job listing and find pertinent keywords throughout and sprinkle them into your resume. Say for instance you want to work as a internet forum janitor. The job listen will have requirements and expectations (half-assing your job for free). What you'll want to do for your resume is take that pertinent info and put it throughout your resume such as in your introductory summary and during your explanation of work experience.

Entry level non skilled labor isn't on the same level of competition as, say, trying to get a financial analyst job at an investment firm. They're looking more at whether you're reliable and can be taught the simple tasks at hand. As such, fudging your resume a bit. Say you helped your grandad with his lawn mowing business or did some customer service work with your cousins at his auto shop. You can have friends and family help you bend the truth here. It won't be a deal breaker unless the old ladies in HR (they're always old ladies) are cunts who take their jobs way too seriously.

ITS GONE.
ITS FUCKING GONE

Thanks for the advice on the resume. I'll be sure and do that in the future so I won't get cockblocked by filters.

I don't want to check out, I just want out. can't talk about this to family, tried years ago. ("you can't get on meds cause how will you get a job then?") lost cause. you're right about being in too deep, cause that's how it feels. I hate it. will I have to go see a shrink if I want to get on some sort of meds?

>trusting people
>trusting people online
As much as i'm sorry, it's good you learned that way, every friend you make is fake, online or not, there is a 1-2% chance it'll be a good friend, but do not have too much hope, the one you should rely on and the one you should focus all of your energy on is yourself and yourself only, everyone else is most likely a waste of your time.

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>army
How disabled are you from cancer?
[ 5 years navy

MY FUCKING PORN

It's actually starting to be a problem for me and i don't know how to fix it, like i was watching manchester by the sea a while ago, and while i thought the movie was great i couldn't feel a shred of sympathy for him despite all the deppressing shit he went trough just because there was a bunch of girls that wanted to fuck him

Like my brain just equates female attention to happiness because it's become this like abstract thing in my head that i struggle to comprehend. Was at a party with some normie friends from uni the other week and they started talking about girls that they'd fucked, that'd been into them shit like that. My brain just went on dial-up during that entire conversation, as if i was forced to acknowledge that girls DO like people. Just not you.

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Don't know what your family is thinking, but that shit just isn't true. I've been on Zoloft for years and I've gotten plenty of jobs, ranging from prestigious ones to menial ones. They won't discriminate based on that, and if they do, they're breaking the law. Yeah unfortunately, you need a psychiatrist if you want to get meds. Hell, a psychologist/social worker alone may be just what you need, assuming you've never been to one before. They can be quite helpful, even without medication.

But yeah, psychiatrists are the ones that help prescribe medicine. Talk to one and see what they can do to help. Or my other suggestion, seeing a social worker/psychologist if you're living with your parents and you're young enough that they can control what doctors you can and can't go to.

I myself am going to make a couple calls to my local healthcare facility. There are a few psychiatrists there. I need new medication, the old ones just aren't working anymore.

>my parents had 5 children
>it completely ruined their lives
>eldest brother is an egotistical retard that thinks he's better than everyone else
>Second eldest is ok but can be a completely retarded asshole sometimes
>younger brother plays fortnite and is rude to my mother when she tells him to stop yelling
>younger sister cries all the time and screams, is constantly making blogs for her YouTube channel even though she's 8 and constantly does it in the living room.
>mum is poor
>dad lives in a shitty house and is $30,000 in debt
I can't help but feel a little guilty, like if they stopped having kids after my younger brother things would be going better for them even though my birth was completely out of my control

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I'm cancer free now, issue is it was during highschool so it fucked me out of scholarships and I'm not even guaranteed any form of cancer scholarships. Otherwise I could coast through college and not have to worry about finances.

I know the feeling. I'm sure your parents love you - being removed from the situation may feel like the best thing to happen but it isn't. Try to help them out, avoid your mongoloid older brother.

nah, they don't control me. things have just gotten pretty bad so I'm living at home. I don't ask them for money, I make what little I can online through video games/other means. my concern is I might not have enough to cover the meds, I could probably get some help from my mom tho. feels like a big step, after all these years.

>I'm pretty close to just joining the army for a non-infantry position so I can learn discipline and shit.
No, no, no. Bad user, bad. You don't join the army for "discipline". You'd be surprised how quick that shit goes out the window when a senior enlisted or officer is around. No, you join for: SCRA benefits, GI Bill, VA Loan, security clearance, and job experience that makes it so that you can get a cushiony job once you get out. Only people who have LITERALLY no other options, are total scumbags, or drunk the koolaid way too hard go to the military and stay past their initial contract for anything other than the aforementioned reasons.

Im doing great seeing that incels and weebs are devestated.

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Well of course, living as a government welfare queen sounds great. I have a friend who married then joined up in the army - he went to boot camp for 3 months, sits in his apartment playing video games when he isn't doing drill, and he's set to train to become a signal analyst in the states. That sounds like fucking prime opportunity.

Well, I have medicaid, and typically people of low income status can qualify for it. I only make roughly 12,000 a year, basically sub poverty levels. So I qualify. Chances are you'll be able to afford it so long as you're not paying out of pocket. That can get tricky if you are.

I assume you live in the land of the free like I do, where medical costs are sky high.

nah, I'm from northern Europe. so close to the rich, nice countries, and yet so far. unlucky.

It's 4AM here. I work in two hours. Spent all night frantically downloading hentai.

Watch this and you'll have an idea of how tonight has been. youtube.com/watch?v=PSQWUZ8a2Ho

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Yo that sucks dude, sorry to hear that. I'm afraid I don't have any information on the European healthcare system. Try looking into a governmental insurance plan, if you have any in your country. If all else fails, gibs are there to bail us out. When I lived in Japan it was the same thing. Government pretty much paid for everything, my visits, pills, etc.

I've been watching 1984. I work at 4:30 pm, so I've got a good 12 hours or so. Going to get Fire Emblem and play it quickly before work.

sounds a lot like my family
i'm just confused why poor people have that many kids, it's not a good time for anyone involved in most cases

will look into it, thanks dude. hope both of us make it out, someday. here's some dope music, sorry if it's not a genre you enjoy. youtu.be/GreHUrScbbA

You can't feel guilty for something you had absolutely no control over.

I hope it helps solve your problems. Just remember that the pill isn't a cure-all, instant fix. We'll still need to do the work, the therapy, alongside the pill. It's there as a way to help lift us out of the mud, and nothing more.

Thanks for the music man, it's catchy. Will be seeing you around. I'm always here on this board.

>birthday this month
>remembered my birthday was this month after the fact, bought myself a cake anyways
>KyoAni burns, not a huge fan of their modern work but still sucks
>sadpanda is fucking kill
>watching my family slowly circle the drain with their lives
At least I finally have a job now.

I'm not

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Could be better could be worse, I finally got another job after my last one ended a couple months so I’m happy about that, although my love life is still non-existent

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Been getting increasingly frustrated reading posts on 4channel and been trying to quit. I don't know if it's because I'm getting older now but this place really makes me feel lousy. I've been coming here for years too ('06 poster), and this website didn't bother me at all or at least not that much when I was younger.
I quit this website for almost 2 years and I was really enjoying my hobbies, mainly video games, because I can enjoy them without Yea Forums's negative opinions about literally everything. It's not just this website but it's a big part of it, I've really been trying to just unplug from the internet altogether and just use it for email and porn, but mainly to unplug from the gaming community because I don't fit in with the whole "all modern games are trash" talk that's been going on since forever. I've been hearing that since 98 and I'm kind of tired of it.