Friend stopped playing with me

>One year ago now
Damn hit me in the feels. Got sugar rushed on alcohol and decided I wanted to wrestle a friend and he got offended and now we pretty much avoid each other which makes gaming with the rest of the people in discord awkward (if it's just him and me we won't start playing until someone else shows up, and they were waiting for someone else to start playing too). I pretty much stopped playing games with them all together for this reason, it takes an hour to start a game.

Play with another friend.

Form a friend group.

>add autist from Yea Forums
>they instantly becoming clingy
>ask nonstop if I want to play something
>starts asking if he's done something wrong or if I'm upset because I spent 30 minutes without replying and rejected his invite
>just ignore him and watch him have a mental breakdown until he unfriends me in shame
It's so fucking funny interacting with mentally ill autists on the internet, they all follow the same procedure, must be fucking tough having no social skills whatsoever.

Sometimes we’re just depressed and want to do our own shit, it’s Probbaly not personal bro

>sugar rushed
>alcohol
>wrestled a friend
What a homo

>had a mental breakdown and ghosted all my friends a year ago
>sometimes see them online playing games and think about messaging them but never do
I wish I could let them know why I did this but I don't want them to know and now I think it's too late

Usually alcohol just makes me sleepy, but drinking vodka and cranberry I got a good buzz going with energy and wanted to play fight.

I went dark on him because I was depressed. Not just him but two others. The other two forgave me but he's still pretty clearly upset over it. It's a bummer but ya just gotta move on and be Aight with making mistakes. I regret it but not a whole lot can be done now. I've already apologized my ass off and he was the only one who wasn't having any of it. I clearly hurt him. This is starting to sound gay. Oh well.

>Hey I had some tough stuff going on and I kinda fucked off for a while, sorry bout that, how's it going?
There you go, your problem is fixed.
I understand how you feel but it's just your brain fucking with you, I had a similar situation where a lot of irl shit went crazy and I kinda ditched a few online friends I had spent a lot of time with, just be honest with them, everyone's been through shit.

>now I think it's too late
It's never too late to try. The best time to reach out was earlier, the next best time is today.
Life is short. If you message them and they don't wanna give you another chance that'd suck, but if they do then that's a huge win.

Have you even considered that maybe they're waiting for you to reach out back to them? That they miss you but don't know how to help? It's more likely than you think. Give it a shot.

Ah I remember doing this by the end of 2017. In the end I kinda regret it but I wont be able to apologize with them since they were on G+ and that shit shut down already.

I can't because I feel like giving anyone any information about my inner workings is giving them ammunition to eventually use against me, that includes family and friends

why are you so cruel? why cant you just be up front about how you feel without ignoring them and leaving them to wonder?

Maybe he's has some bad experiences with depression, my first gf was batshit insane, depression, anxiety, anorexia, the whole package, after dealing with that I always cut off mentally unstable people from my life the second they sperg out, no second chances.

Just try, if its a group some or even all of them might just be happy to have you back. Unless you were the asshole in the group or something. Got nothing to lose at this point. Have some liquid courage one night if that helps you do it.

Who cares, just play something you like?

I've tried explaining to them, helping them, there's no point, they get mad, these people are so disconnected from reality they think they're standing in front of a person when they chat online, just because I have steam on my phone doesn't mean I'm readily available to chat at all times, I might be at work, chilling with friends or fucking masturbating.
At some point I just felt like watching them crash and burn instead of making an effort.

steamcommunity.com/profiles/76561198241587648/
Anybody want to be friends?

you're not him and even if you were you already have 72 friends retard fuck off

Because he's a failed normie and laughs at them to feel better about himself.

I use anonymous imageboards as a sort of surrogate friendship. I recognize it fulfills my natural need to socialize in some form, but without the need to work within other peoples schedules or deal with any sort of drama. I can just come onto this board or any other when I please and leave when I please without an obligations or expectations. It's like cheating in a video game.

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look again

Welcome to the future user. All we're missing is hoverboards.

then block them?

>nobody wants to have anything to do with a catposter
gee what a surprise
catposters have the worst fucking personality

t. anime poster who knows he deserves to die

No clue, I removed the last friend I had as a birthday present to myself last year. I was on cloud 9 for like a month straight afterwards.

I can't properly convey how LIBERATING it is to not have to deal with someone else's legitimate autism on a daily basis.

Nothing ventured, nothing gained. Say your Piece. If the door (re)opens; it's a new chapter. If the door closes; it's a resolution. Doing nothing is just unending self-inflicted masochism.

My revelation regarding that insecurity was: If someone else has a problem with your inner workings, that THEIR problem, not yours. It's a bit arrogant to presume you have any right to control how other people react or feel. Let them decide for themselves, and you decide for yourself.

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>I was on cloud 9 for like a month straight afterwards.
Is there some particular reason some people would feel this way, or is it just how things are for some people? Did this a few weeks ago and felt like a bloody weight was lifted off my shoulders.

I am deathly afraid and constantly vigilant that literally anyone might be a sociopath who will try to take advantage of and harm me and my only way to protect against that is to create a fake personality

find another friend who will play.

You don't have to go into specifics, just tell them you had problems. I had similar experiences and in most cases they will understand, but if not nothing changed so you have nothing to lose and can just stop contacting them. Most people are supportive of others and won't hurt you with the information you gave them. Just give it a shot.

Video games are a complete waste of time and most proper leet gamers spend several hours+ a day on them like I did. Atleast do something that could lead to something fruitful like reading.

Well, in my case it was because the relationship had just turned into a toxic environment. Getting to know other people means learning how to push each other's buttons.. and we became very adept at it when we got snappy.

As someone who is quite well versed in phobia and irrational fear, I get where you're coming from.

To my chagrin, what I have learned is that "experience" is the path to countering fear(involuntary, physically paralyzing fear, in my case). Much like riding a bike, it can be damn scary at first and it sucks even more if you crash a few times; but eventually you'll be able to ride like its nothing. Masks/Training wheels can be a useful tool, but they're only holding you back in the long run.

As a side tangent: I've been to the gates of death(and tore myself back to a living hell when I realized what was happening), there's ironically nothing terrify about the process. The only part that isn't.. beautiful.. is the resigned twinge of regret that you no longer get to spend time/share experiences with people in this world.

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