Frankenstein
Novels on being ugly? How do I accept that I am ugly?
My entire life I was told by everyone around me that I'm hideous. Even my family told me I'm ugly. When I dated a gorgeous girl, my friends told me they were surprised and that she's out of my league. Strangers on the street would insult my appearance. It got so bad that I stopped leaving my apartment at all (except to go to work), and stopped allowing my photograph to be taken. Then I moved to Asia for my job, and began to suffer extreme street harassment from beautiful young Japanese women calling me cute or asking to marry me. At first I thought they were making fun of me, but then I realized they really did like the way I look. Looking back on photographs from my youth after years of not even looking in a mirror, I appear perfectly normal, maybe even handsome. I think calling someone ugly is just an easy insult and that people feel the need to put you down any way they can, and that most of the people who consider themselves ugly are actually average or even attractive. I was way too hard on myself and considered every little "defect" something that completely ruined my appearance. I had extremely low self-esteem and just let empty insults get to me. I also ignored it as false pity whenever someone tried to complement my appearance, or completely ignored it when strange girls would flirt with me. I think a shitty family can pretty much ruin your self-image and leave you open to actually believing empty insults from strangers.
unironically, Meditations.
I have rather good facial characteristics but sleep and health will go a long way for anyone.
How do I accept that I am ugly? By not giving a shit and by looking down on anyone that gives you shit for being ugly. Ugly or not ugly, what does it matter? You are not charismatic and won't have much of a way with people because you cannot attract them, very well. Try to interact with people through your works. Start writing, making music, or making anything. Many times someone who is simply attractive does nothing with his/her life and is content with simply being attractive. These individuals just live life from one relationship to the next because they are, as I said, attractive. They never do anything meaningful with their lives, this "ugliness" of yours is an opportunity to be more than them. Take my advice, piss on it, do as you will.