I've always thought life was absurd. Even from a young age I wondered what everyone else was in such a tizzy over when it came to exams and parties and jobs and holidays. I just never cared about those things. I could never make friends, I didn't have anything to say to them. I didn't see life like they did. I had no passions or interests to pursue. I sought comfort in the form of escapism and for a long time it helped. But then I read Kaczynski, Zapffe, Cioran, Schopenhauer and life made a little more sense. I wasn't alone, I wasn't an anomaly. Now a few years later and nothing works anymore, nothing dulls daily life. Not booze, video games, books, music. Nothing. I just have this urge to go out into nature where no one is around and where I won't be disturbed.
But part of me wonders if I left it too late, if the damage is done and I couldn't bear to leave behind the only life I've ever known. Comfort really is one of the most terrible things in existence. Even once you realise it's killing you, you're no more empowered to break free from it.
I read this as my lotion soaked hand is tightly gasping and stroking my fully erect penis.
Evan Hill
Just think about the bugs
Mason Harris
Try hunting.
Leo Reyes
Haha, imagine having to use lotion to fap
Nolan Reed
Just get a dog and go fishing and camping with him or something. Go to /out/ too and buy some outdoors gear.
That, is based.
David Evans
I know exactly the feeling OP. It's the perfect place.
Jackson Scott
I have the same, and so does the lineage of my father whom considered themselves einzelgangers and had need to retreat to the forests or their gardens like to true germanic people they are.
Be careful not to ascribe not making friends to this philosophy of retreat and seeing yourself above others, as can often happen to such people. See it as most likely a personality trait.
I for one require the solitude of the forests but place social contact near the utmost importance for myself
Angel Richardson
Yeah dude going in the forest is a transcendantal germanic experience. No one else would understand. Fucking pseuds I swear.
Luke Lee
Wait were you talking about killing yourself OP? I just realized you could be referring to off the grid living.
