I love the figure of Christ so goddamn much.
I became an edgy atheist when I read Dawkins's "The God Delusion", I was 15 at the time and it struck me cause I had fatih back then, and I thought that all believers are inherently stupid and lack skills for critical thinking.
But as I grew older I realized that most atheist had no critical thinking either, cause they just followed the ideas that they heard about without actually dissecting them and making their own opinion. I also realized that atheism can indeed be a religion if someone just wouldn't shut up about being atheist and proving that God doesn't exist.
Now I realize that the sacrifice of Christ is of great metaphorical importance: you do not commit suicide, you live for the people that love you, and they do too. You should find your own cross and carry it as far as you can until you collapse under its weight and die, but the struggle is worth the effort.
I also read the Bible and even though I still don't believe in God as some omnipresent diety I think that the idea of God is much more profound than anything humanity has come up with ever since. As Rozanov said, all the stories are already written in the Bible.
I think that Christ is so amazing because despite being God's son he is still profoundly human, and he fucking chooses to die for humanity, this is his voluntary decision. He could've sided with Satan and ruled the world, but he chose not to, he chose to suffer for the sins of others, for the original sin and for all the sins to come. According to canon, he saw all the sins of the future while nailed to the cross, he saw holocaust, two World Wars, infinite murders, rapes, total injustice and he still chose to forgive, and he chose to suffer for all the worst people despite being probably the best human to walk the earth.
It is so profound that I cannot explain the emotions I feel. The only painting that brought me to tears was Ivan Kramskoy's "Christ in the Desert". This what Christ looks like: more human than than humans themselves. He sits alone in the barren wasteland, he is tired from being there for 40 days, from being tempted by Satan and it is at this precise moment that he chooses the cross. Its the recipe for being human, its what everyone should try to be like whether there is God or not.