sounds weird but you guys mean as much to me as my irl friends and gfs in a lot of ways. it's a different kind of interaction, not so immediate and close and we know each other's pasts and contexts for what everything that happens is, but there is this kind of pure immediacy, and connections between people from all over the world, with a very lessened ego, that lets ideas and emotions kind of cleanly transmit sometimes, and the bringing together of a population of people who would never be in the same place in real life, or have the opportunity to talk clearly about these things even if they were, it is honestly kind of beautiful. Yea Forums is in general fucked which we all know and contribute to, and the entire internet is like that in different ways, and to different degrees, but there is something absolutely magical about it sometimes.
the weirdest thing is that we are not people on Yea Forums, we are just posts, and then specific posters in threads when we strike up a dicusssion. We become some small fragment of the creation of our mind in conjunction with the world through a post, and then an ephemeral interconnected, disparate, 'thing' is made for a while as you talk to someone, and it is semi-performative, you acting out a role almost like theatre, and also half just the deepest things inside you leaking out, because they have received a context that removes any inhibition, but still creates an incentive for constructive interaction. You become like 5 people an hour, and you realize the malleability of your selfhood, and you create these bizarre, never before existing, types of social interaction, that exist in pure isolation from interpersonality except what comes through implicitly through the continuity of your character in the posts other anons can assign as being yours.
This focus on the moment, on the individual thing, to the exclusion of the general identity of the person, the context in whcih they exist in the world and related to other people, it makes a corollary to the kind of transcendence that exists in mystic states, where the self as construct is eliminated, and you become but a single thing, interrelated with all else, thereby eliminating the artificial distinction between single and multiple, self and world. We become not people, but just things being created in union and in conflict. This is true of irl interaction just as much, but it becomes kind of blaring and hard to ignore on here, even while it mostly degrades into shitposting, just like the universe is largely chaos, and very small parts create the order of stars, planets, molecules, life, mind, language, technologywhich i think is why so many of us are so attracted to it.
not the guy you were replying to though, the other user we were talking about Fitzgerald and Hemingway, and i am crazy so possibly this post is just the crazy, but it made sense while i was writing it.
if you guys ignore it again i will be mad, it makes perfect sense
