Meant to read 50 pages each of the five books I'm reading

>meant to read 50 pages each of the five books I'm reading
>read 50 pages of one, get tired, and spent the rest of the day shitposting
I'm never going to make it am i

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250 pages a day IS quite a lot

>reading more than one book at a time
Not gonna make it, indeed.

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>got a 200-words essay due on friday
>shitpost on a congolese cannibalism forum instead while watching wow classic streams

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There isn't time it seems like. Everything is going to shit really fast and I need to figure it all out before I end up fucking dead in the street. I'm a hikkikomori virgin who lost all of his irl friends do to repeated bouts of revulsion and who feels as if he's going to have a heart attack if he fills out a job application. I've always been interested in philosophy so I just decided that if I'm going to not so anything that actually means anything with my life as far as labor goes I'll try to understand the modern world to a t and leave behind a possible prescription for its ills. Starting to think it's pointless. But idk what else to do. If I don't keep working on the project my life is pretty much worthless

I'm trying to read The Declinecof the West, The Structure of Scientific Revolutions, Living in the End Times, Industrial Society and its Future, Fanged Noumena, #Accelerate, The Fourth Political Theory and The Conspiracy Against the Human Race closely and take copious notes on them all so that some synthesis can be achieved. I've been doing pretty good So far but I have to read only or two a day and cycle between them and it's not good enough I need to work harder.

And the thing that fucking sucks is that this is all basically introductory material just to bring me up to speed. I still have to work my way backwards through everything that led up to this and then will have to do it once more to make sure I didn't miss anything and fill in any gaps and then I will still have to work through all of the connections and render from it something new that can actually help people or else in just fucking worthless and should just kill myself now.

I'm sorry

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Psh I got a 600 word essay due in an hour and I'm shitposting.
up ur procrastination game bruh

I am envious of your lifestyle. Remember you have all the time you need.

If rather be in an actual college desu I feel like If I finish all of this shit and make it into something coherent nobody will ever read it. I know philosophy degrees in academia are a meme but at least I'd have an actual shot. I don't know, I'm scared that everything is moving too fast now and that either the world will end or my gibs will run out before I can finish this project idk what to do I hate being like this I wish I could have just been a normie like everyone else

Anyone that thinks reading more that one book is bad is fucking retarded, i have 6+ books on the go at all times, one philosophy, one by a author I'm reading, a fiction book, and whatever else the fuck i feel like, plus my collection of short stories I'm always reading. Can your brain not process multiple themes??

*then

Academia has its pluses and minuses. The fact is if you ever get to college you will have a big head start.
I suffer from depression anxiety. When I'm in the classroom I freak out for no reason. But if you start slow (one class at a time), you eventually get use to it. College helps you learn a lot in a short amount of time. But the way you are learning you can take your time and know one concept really well. Both are good. Personally therapy helped me. Good luck brother.

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Thank you. I just am scared I'll end up being a psued who dies amounting to nothing

Seriously, how does anyone manage to read books in this day and age? It's way easier to spend several hours on Yea Forums.

I use them to raise the quality of my Yea Forums experience

You might not have realized but you have schizophrenia. Your Messiah complex will never amount to anything; you can't give any "prescription" to solve the ills of mankind. You understand nothing of how the world works and it's very unlikely that you will find a solution among the pages of books written by other people. I'm not a Peterson-fag, but you should try to fix your own life before talking about fixing the world. You're just setting this impossible task to yourself because you don't see any other way to give meaning to your existence. This all-or-nothing attitude is retarded: you think your life is worth nothing right now, so you try to solve the world's problems to find value in your existence: you want to go from nothing to everything in one fell swoop. Preposterous. If you wanna study philosophy that's fine, but don't bite off more than you can chew by talking about "fixing the world". Wake up from your delusion of grandeur and work on the small things before anything else. Baby steps.

>tries to correct himself
>makes one more mistake
Please, read one book at a time and make one mistake at a time.

none of us is going to make it in the end, even zyzz didn't make it

*than yah go fuck yourself

He is fucking androgynous angels in Heaven as we speak.

Your armchair diagnosis aren't worth shit. His intentions are good. And that will lead to beautiful things. Sure this guy might have to figure some shit out. But he knows that.

I got thirty minutes and 70 words XD. Watch me pull this shit out.

>And that will lead to beautiful things.
In one or two years this guy will hang from the ceiling. Just you wait.

You're a piece of shit, because you feeling like that and projecting it on to others who are in bad place and wanna see the light is disgusting, your the type of person who has no problem stepping over others to make it where they want to. its only revealing your own insecurity and weakness

>others who are in bad place and wanna see the light
Feeding his delusions won't help him. People like you are the ones who make things worse for schizos. You can shove your positive thinking up your arse.

he doesn't sound schizo to me, unless he's developing it and too young for its main effects to appear, schizos are pretty easily identifiable. Sounds like it could be bpd or bipolar or something, but you cant diagnose someone based on a Yea Forums post.

You have no understanding what a Schizo is.
Please tell me what a schizophrenic is. i work with schizophrenics bruh. You're just some stuck up pseud throwing around armchair diagnosis's to seem smart. You're dumb, and young. Learn something before you speak bruh.

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>Please tell me what a schizophrenic is
Look it up on Wikipedia, lazy ass.

>i work with schizophrenics bruh
>argument from (alleged) authority
Nice logic you've got going there.

you actually think people use wikipedia to diagnose mental illness?
Finished my essay bruh