>wake up >drink coffee on a hot and sunny morning >go to gym and do light cardio >do some chores >leave flat and take underground in to central London to walk around and feel sad about life and do stuff to feel like I'm not fully wasting it >go walking a bit in an expensive area and see lots of Staceys and feel sad about life >go to a library and spend some time reading a book >leave and go for a long walk >go to a famous park and see lots of swans and Chad and Stacey coupled and realise that everyone has a qt / Stacey gf except me >walk some more >and some more, but it feels kind of pointless >saw some GigaStaceys, felt sad >now drinking coffee >only ate supermarket sandwiches yesterday at lunchtime and nothing so far today, and I went to the gym last night as well, so I will have a guilt free McDonalds binge (except it will cost a lot)
I looked up the LinkedIn of a qt who sits in a nearby room at work and who I've been in a few meetings with and she was a captain of a sports team at university which means she has literally organised gangbangs with rich Chads.
There was a big escalator next to some stairs at an underground station. People can stand on the right side of the escalator (but first there's a long line for it), or they can walk up the escalator (and get up quickest and with medium difficulty, after a small line) or they can take the stairs immediately. Yesterday I stood but immediately felt guilty because I realised it reminded me of the producerbull - consumercuck - sub-consumercuck (like a consumercuck but replace reading novels and films and good vidya with mindless internet browsing and youtube) trichotomy that I invented. I walked up the stairs today.
I stood near this group of American accented zoomers on the underground. American accents sound kind of obnoxious when heard irl; I perceive them as talking in an insincere, showy manner because they're not on film. One of them said something about going to class in London, so I felt sad because he must be rich as fuck and he must live a Less Than Zero style life that an ugly person like me will never experience.
Will I ever get the motivation to do anything? I don't play vidya but reading about the guys who singlehandedly made stardew valley or fan games make me feel like a pathetic worm.
>walked up the stairs today Was it not a deep station?
Eli Collins
Read my diary desu
Ethan Hall
How were your teenage years ?
Jose Kelly
Are british chicks any cute ? Saw some pics and they all look short, dwarfish and granny faced.
Grayson Scott
I would buy a collection of your greentext memoirs, LF, if you ever get them all in one place.
Jason Wright
>Will I ever get the motivation to do anything? I know how it feels. All I do lately is watch car repair and outdoorsy type of videos on youtube in my free time. At least I do the studying and took up training seriously and started to enjoy it.
The rest of the time I just listen to Bach, Wagner, Black Metal and feel miserable.
Joshua Scott
what are your lifting PRs London Frog?
Cameron Miller
just clean your room and everything will be right as rain
It was the same set of stairs and escalators and a deep station
I had friends in school and outside school, though I rarely did stuff after about 16. I was good at school and eventually one of the best students, though I actually enjoyed my subjects by the end so it was never any effort. My free time was spent enjoying vidya and I never felt guilty. I discovered reading at the age of about 17. As school came to an end I was becoming more and more of a loner but never quite
I immediately became friendless during university and my course was incredibly boring and (I know I'll get abuse for this) not at an elite university therefore dull, though I didn't yet quite know how crucial elite university status was. I was very sad. I remember I had this big crush on a loner Stacey in my course. Thank God I didn't do anything about it. I wasn't even r9k pilled at that point.
At the start of my second year I became even sadder and despite excellent grades I put in my papers to quit and then went to watch a film at the cinema and walked back to the university and retracted it.
My summers after my last year of school and after my first year of university (so my last two teenage summers) were spent playing vidya and reading but something was definitely missing and I was restless and bored. In retrospect, this was clearly due to a lack of producerbullness (and friends and gf and disliking my course).
I remember how sunny it was in the final weeks of the second year of university and how when I went to my last exam before summer started and after the exam it felt like a huge block of time in front of me.
The two years after that felt even more lonely and I became r9kpilled and full incel blackpilled.
Eli Foster
>same set of stairs Oh I thought you took the spiral stairs some of them have for emergencies.
Brayden Collins
Of course not, that'd be pure autism. It was having all three options laid out in front of me that caused the thought.
Lucas Martinez
>Of course not, that'd be pure autism To be fair, LF, your audience can't rule out pure autism hitting you at Hampstead or Queensway.
Adrian Collins
At least you live in Western Europe. I live in a dirty Eastern European shithole full of corruption.
Benjamin Collins
Moldova ?
Cooper Roberts
We're on the same boat. My recluse tendencies and frewuenting r9k ruined me. Reading saved me from that hole
Elijah Mitchell
Get to work on making something because otherwise you will have no community to speak of as the modern era has destroyed them. Or you can faff about lamenting the consumer era and its by design meaninglessness.
Jonathan Smith
I forgot to mention my last teenage summer as a 19 year old. I remember even back then thinking that 19 was the age of people who were clinging on to their youth, kind of pathetically. I had a part time job during that summer and the time spent not there was a void of internet and vidya
Aaron Walker
/fitlit/ still kicking it
nice
Wyatt White
I don't fit in the modern World, never did. I don't buy into any ideology and I don't see myself in any community, I don't love anybody and there's nothing I'm willing to fight for. I only have myself and my grief.
Lucas Adams
Honestly your youth wasn't that bad r9k incel part aside. I wish mine was more like yours
Jose Smith
>I don't buy into any ideology congrats, you just made an ideological statement
He's keeping himself pure. Did you not read the parts with the various Staceys?
Jason Evans
Explain.
Nathan Gomez
All he's doing is acting like a self-absorbed twat with absolutely nothing to say about anything.
Connor Cook
Whereas your hot opinions are no doubt upvoted on reddit like a botnet follows you.
Kevin Jenkins
>i read à rebours for the plot
Dominic Evans
Claiming you don't buy into an ideology is like when an atheist claims that the term "atheism" is redundant because it describes a belief in nothing, which isn't true, because their atheism often dictates a lot of their other opinions and values too. That said, the main difference between belief and ideology is that the latter is an unconscious investment in a particular paradigm. You don't "buy into" an ideology, you're born into it, your claim is no different from a fish acting like water doesn't exist.
Mason Davis
>he thinks some generic frogfag is comparable to Proust
Jason Wright
>he thinks a rebours was written by Proust you're not very bright are you
Jacob Peterson
>he thinks huysmans is proust >he thinks Proust would get civil servant jobs like Londonfrog
Ethan Parker
ideology has become a widely used pejorative word. nobody would voluntarily admit that they follow any ideology to a t, at best they'll adopt a cynical distance, which is precisely the way ideology secures its grip on us today. given the status of every human as 'prematurely born', each of us attaches his self to an external, "whole" object as opposed to the "lacking" malfunctioning body of the child. ideology exploits this lack by promising to fill it and to put an end to ideology itself at the cost of collaborating to a political regime and passively ignoring its inherent contradictions.
Jason Jackson
I just had the binge at McDonalds but I couldn't eat all of it
Wyatt Price
What did you order ?
Jeremiah Perry
Two large meals plus two burgers
I had the two large meals but not the extra burgers
Gabriel Diaz
Fucking hell.
Nathaniel Ortiz
>leave Yea Forums for several weeks >come back today >there is still this one frogposter LARPing about how pathetic his life is >stories get progressively more /r9k/ over time >nobody else seems to fucking notice
Is this some kind of writing exercise? What the fuck. Why is this still happening?
>Two large meals plus two burgers AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Kevin Barnes
I had a 2 year hiatus from this board when I joined the army and he's still here lmao.
