>hate self with a passion
>diagnosed with autism when young
>never had friends because would hit and insult other kids
>argued with teachers daily about homework and not doing it
>kicked out of two schools for low grades
>was unable and unwilling to understand the material discussed in class
>parents treated me well at home despite this
>I treated them poorly, regret it nowadays
>stared at the walls for fun through adolescence
>still my favorite and only hobby
>going a little loopy as an adult, just some slight visual and mental warping
>seeing things as different things, physical stimuli sometimes gets interpreted as mental stimuli
>it's almost like my subconscious is over-throwing me because I've done such a bad job at playing leader
>want to do some reading on being a better Brain Operator
Please post books to help. I've already read The Stranger and Meditations. Meditations was more what I'm looking for. Siddhartha was great too. The Bible is already on my reading list.
Hate self with a passion
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You're probably going to develop schizophrenia within a few years.
read prometheus rising
Yes I understand this. Will it be painful?
Extremely, for you. Just kidding I don't know
Get a fucking job. Living in society is the best medicine for any human.
psychotic patient here, can confirm OP sounds like psychosis waiting to happen
get yourself checked out, OP, if you neutralise it now, you can focus on getting your life together instead of spending the next few years dealing with an bigger headfuck than you can imagine
False
bump because there has been only ONE book recc in this entire thread.
You don’t need books you need a psychiatrist
Kafka seems like the author for you
>do some reading on being a better Brain Operator
this doesn't work at all
you should read 'Novel with cocaine' instead
I have one of those. He told me autism and depression and gave me pills. I'm not taking them, however. A good book will help my mental state more.
Take the pills, fren.
I would say for your own benefit, it might be best for you to read something rational.
But if you want to go full schizo I would say Prometheus Rising or Phillip K. Dick, maybe some magical realist stuff.
thus spake zarathustra by Nietzsche
you must surpass!
what sort of pills?
I'd rather not friend. I must rise above my own mental challenges without medication. I can fix my own head, it's MY head after all. It'll be fine.
I was planning on starting with The Metamorphasis. Is his very early work worth reading first?
Everything by Kafka is great, also go read A Beautiful Mind.
Antipsychotics
I wouldn't respond just Anti-psychotics. That guy must think he's me. That's okay, it happens. I'm on something called Celexa. Don't what it does though. Not even actually taking it, so I guess it does nothing.
>t. boomer
based
fuck the pharmaceutical jew
The Mind Illuminated. Manual of Insight by Sayadaw
Greetings from /pol/
It sounds like you're in desperate need of a rock solid ideology that cures all insanity and is simple and straight forward enough to be understood by an autist
Or to put it in fancy pants language you're desperately in need of a master to make words make sense and shit
Here read this
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Congratulations you're fixed,
Nota bene (which is fancy pants language for "note well") the fucking year the text was written (1938, or 71 years ago) and don't forget to apply the lessons you learnt from this text to this text itself
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We could always do with more weaponised autism
1938 was also the year that meme was relevant
Depends on wether you seek treatment. It will be for life, but it will prevent the mental degeneration that comes with prolonged psychoticism. Schizophrenics have lower IQ as a group, but individuals can still have normal or even genius level IQ.
Here you go, now you know /pol/s problem.
Yes definitely
Get this edition
You have two options.
1) take the fuckin pills man
2) find a shrink who focuses on talk therapy rather than prescriptions. (generally, you would look for a psychotherapist, as opposed to a psychiatrist)
>i can fix my own head
false, but you'll learn soon enough
Shut up goy
I'm digging these reccs. Does anyone have the green pill book chart?
I'll add it to the reading list. The way you phrased it though makes it seem like this "Stalin" guy wants to control me or something. Also;
>communism
>2019
Just for that, your pepe status = stolen.
Check out the enrichdon by epictetus, it seems straight in your alley.
>1938 was also the year that meme was relevant
>Nota bene (which is fancy pants language for "note well") the fucking year the text was written (1938, or 71 years ago) and don't forget to apply the lessons you learnt from this text to this text itself
QED. Quo Erat Demonstratum
Which is Latin for; as has been demonstrated
I'll/lit/erates can't read, let alone write
And yes that mispelicism is deliberately left there, just as the term "fixed" in my original post was carefully chosen
Actually being able to read texts, and being capable of writing?
Yes I can see how that might present a problem on Yea Forums
>I'll add it to the reading list. The way you phrased it though makes it seem like this "Stalin" guy wants to control me or something.
Applying the text to itself is how you avoid this and maintain your freedom while still making the voices and shit go away
This is what is known as immanent critique
>Also;
>>communism
>Just for that, your pepe status = stolen.
You got it m8
I know you're going to be just fine