Are you depressed Yea Forums?

wtf are you me
honestly you cunts who are depressed because their dad is dying or dead are the lucky ones, i hate my fucking father, he's a complete piece of shit, i wish i had a dead father who didnt completely fuck me up

I just finished rewatching Sopranos for the first time, of course I am depressed and feel a void in my heart

Not anymore. I severed my Shade.

who isn't these days?

i got diagnosed with depression and the only prescription is having sex with you doctor

I go through cycles. I have let me weight get out of control which depresses me, but it's nothing horrible. Every few months or so though it gets really bad where I just can't find any good reasons to keep going but I have a pet and I worry about them. I've basically attached my life to theirs and know that when they eventually pass away it's going to be a fucking rough time that I'm not entirely sure how I will manage through. However I try and just block that out of my head and convince myself that everything is going good and I'm doing fine.

I tried giving up drinking last week but i realised a few days later that would mean i'd live longer, back to drinking again today :')

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It’s not as easy as you think, it sticks with you just the same

I've considered getting a therapist but what if it's a hot lady and i cant concentrate?

you're not depressed, you're just a pussy

can someone post the sopranos finale theory meme

AGAIN WITH THE DUCKS

based

No, not really. I'm at the stage after that.

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that's the power of television & film kino. i don't want to miss out on anything.

Yeah, but that's because I'm an absolute idiot that doesn't want to change his ways and instead just does nothing while my problems grow bigger and bigger.

Yes I have cancer

Suicide ain't worth it bro, so don't.

I'm gonna do it after my mom passes away, which is anytime soon
But first I'm just gonna get all loans I can get my hand and travel the world

Dont need em im not a pussy

Why do you plan on doing it?

Used to until I reunited with my boyfriend recently

Doesn't care much about living. Failed career and no one to look for (no wife, kids)

When things were good, she was so caring and sweet. I have an eating disorder and she would make food and force me to eat. She was a perfect mommy gf and now idk what's going on

I don’t think so. Not at this point. I get lonely, but I’m not depressed. At this point all I am is angry and hateful, with moments of a bittersweet sadness. The whole “lonely and horny” phase has passed for me. I went two weeks without wanking, to cure my “porn addiction”. Then I wanked it to some model in lingerie. Nothing really changed. Neither during those two weeks, nor after the fap. It’s all just... the same. I don’t get horny anymore; I fap to keep the plumbing working, so to speak. But the whole idea of sex still gets to me. Feelings of inadequacy. Fear. At the point where I don’t think I ever could actually do it. I genuinely think it’d be easier for me to able to kill someone if found in such a situation, than actually have intercourse.

So, at this point, all I have are my hatred, my fear, my envy, my jealousy, my anger. I have no enemies. I have no friends. I have no acquaintances. I have no grand name or family fortune. My past was one mishap after the other, all outside my control. All I have now is my mind, and a half decent body and features. And it’s driving me mad. We’re I some genetic failure I would’ve accepted my lot. But being so close to something good, yet not actually being able to grasp it, well... It has cultivated all this sour inside of me.

I cannot trust people. I do not think anyone could ever love me. I hate and mistrust everyone. But I find certain things beautiful, and would want them to remain on this good Earth. That’s my mission, so to speak. Moving forward, propelled by my ugliness, trying to protect the few pretty things. I will never be happy, or content, for I am fundamentally broken. I seek power and control, because I think they will fulfill me, but I know they never will. I shall keep on going, until I fall; alone and unmourned.

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And what of it? There's still time to change all of that as long as you're breathing, so why not put in the work and finally turn your life around bud?

>[chair clattering]

this is me. I also only think of my problems when I'm in the bathroom, right after I wake up, or when I'm trying to go to sleep.

Because what's the point? I'm already in my 30's and never had a girlfriend, don't have any money to buy food and being sending resumes for years without any response

if you define your relationship with her solely in relation to her ability to fill your weaknesses, then you'll never be strong. never mind what she is now, you can't change her.

I fail to see that you can hold no value for life but at the same time want to see the world.

Cunt I've got cancer and you're all what's the point when I'm all I hope I don't fucking die.

I realise that it doesn't directly translate, I'm just venting, found out yesterday.

go on a shooting spree before you go please. not memeing at all

used to, but then I took the /fit/-pill

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The point is that there's still time and you have more than enough of it to get all of that, so stop being a miserable faggot and grow a pair.

90% of the time I am happy go lucky and enjoying life, but I can dip into it every now and again durring that other 10%

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I don't see a point in living my life because I threw it away
Seeing the world is just a fullfilment before parting

good luck user

what kind?

i wish i had a gun so i could kill myself already how are you supposed to do it anyway

i'm doing what i can before mom passes away, after that i'm free to just get outta here
I'm not even a sad miserable guy, i just don't find enjoyment in living

yes but im not a pussy so i wont be killing myself. why would i give in to the world's orders? defiance is in my nature

> All I have now is my mind, and a half decent body and features.

It's an illusion, user. Nobody has more than that. Be grateful you're healthy.

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Kindof. The mushrooms I took at work are wearing off

To be frank, I'm tired of it and have nothing left to lose so I'm just gonna channel all the contempt I have for my pussy self and gonna climb out of the hole I've been trapped in for so long. You with me, user?

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Know that feel, the fact that it's poison AND it gives me a buzz is all the more reason. I was born into a world without purpose. At least people in the past explored the unknown and experienced excitement and terror.

>i just don't find enjoyment in living
How come?

No, I'm a functioning alcoholic.

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Hodgkins Lymphoma stage 3

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remember: if you kill yourself, the Jews win.
Our habitat is designed to make us destroy ourselves. don't do it

No one wins, you just lose. Fuck you and your Jews, you fucking retard.

That's deep, what should I be looking for instead?

It’s not even about depression anymore. It’s about what the depression has taken away

They already won completely. Youre delusional.

Shutdafuckupabou my mothaaah.

I've had suicidal thoughts every day for the past 11 years. Haven't done it yet, so no, guess I'm not. Knowing none of us are going to make it further than the pre-determined lifespan keeps me comfortable.

Depression is the result of iodine deficiency

those fucking dubs for one
legit shit, i can't tell you what. you gotta try a few things out and risk will abound in everything you do. just know that whatever you do, you are absolutely going to fail on your path, so be ready for that and try to gain from it.

I have problems with getting taken in easily by women, I have low self esteem but otherwise I'm generally pretty desirable so it's a toxic combination that makes me easy prey for absolute witches.

Yeah but I shouldn't be. Just bored. I make good money and have a good social life but things just don't feel right. Currently at a social gathering drinking and I feel like I just don't connect with these people anymore, why I'm posting right now

don't define your worth in relation to women, then. forget what the worst ones do, the best ones won't lift you out of that pit. not their job and not what they're built for.

Read this in Scorpius' voice

I was, but then I started beating women and have been happy as of late

He probably misses you.

Might as well try again. I don't know how it'll end up, just saying that I'd try took a couple of minutes of self-convincing or something.

Depression is a self-imposed state in most cases and can be easily overcome.

Either meet new people or fuck off from your phone and hang out with them, also don't lead a comfortable life and start doing shit you'd never do and see if that spices things up a little.

Hit me in the feels. Similar situation here. It's an abstract kind of feel to wish your father dead but for the right reasons. I'll never be the same again.

I just want to be loved and appreciated, it's not about sex

Act, don't think. I'm pissed as fuck because I fucked up a great opportunity at leading a merry life because I was too much of a wimp, but enough is enough and it's time for life to get fucked by me and not the other way around. Good luck and godspeed to you bro, just remember to stick to it no matter how hard and don't let failure keep you down, instead just rise up and try again and again and again until you've made it and it'll be a okay.

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Yup to the point where I developed crippling anxiety to the point where it's physically damaged my body and after multiple blood tests and a muscle biopsy I was diagnosed with muscular-skeletal pain and early stages of fibro. So now I take painkillers just to feel normal and sleep

You fancy getting out an extra loan and giving it to me? Won't hurt your situation any.

Yes. Of course I'll never have the life I wanted when I was a teenager but that's fine because I have low standarts when it comes to happiness. Unfortunately I can't reach them. I just want my comfy own place, a job not too boring and enough time to enjoy kinos and vidya. But I can't find a job, I'm too low-IQ so I failed college, and I'm so self-conscious about my hideous appearance that I can function socially, so I can't even call back when I find a job offer. I tried everything I can't think of and at best it does nothing but very often it makes things worse.

I cannot be grateful. I cannot accept. I mean, why am I just 6’1”? Why not 6’3”? Why is my dick ~6.5” bonepressed instead of 8”? Why did I need to have braces? Why do I have to wear glasses? Sure, you can say that the eyes can be fixed. The teeth are done. The other two are average. But I cannot take it. I cannot accept it.

As a child, I made the wrong choices. My parents made the wrong choices. As a teen, I bowed my head and listened to their words, and again, made the wrong choices. In University, I again did the same, listened to their words, like a dutiful son, and once agin, made the wrong choices. Now I’m at my 3rd Year, moving to the 4th next Semester, studying Physics, and have failed... I think more than 10 courses. For reasons outside of my control. That which I accept responsibility for is my weight gain, which spurred out of an inability to cope with everything crumbling for the last 7 years or so.

I’m not giving up per se. I’ve cut down the food. I’ve stopped the booze bar a whiskey every night. I’ve started excercising again. I’m studying my books more and looking for other textbooks in the net. I’m not giving up. I couldn’t; I’m too angry. At myself, at everyone.

I don’t know what the future brings. Hopefully some sort of victory. But I know it will never fulfill me. There are moments where I genuinely believe that maybe I will find some happiness and forego my evil ways. A kind, beautiful woman. A couple of beautiful kids. Some sort of recognition and riches. But then I wake up. I’m 22. I’ve never experienced teenage love. Chances are I won’t lose my virginity at Uni. Entering the dating pool at, what, 23, 24, when other women have been fucked raw by GigaDongs is not a humiliation I wish to endure. And then what, wait until my 40s to build something out of nothing, and then look for a wife? A joke... I will die alone. But I will die on my terms. I will reach the finish line.

love and appreciation aren't passive things. you gotta work on them. it's shit you do, not shit you are. and yeah, even in them there are risks, so whatever rest it is you think you're gonna get from them, know now that it isn't real.

I'm sorry dude

I've got bipolar 1 if that counts.

go monk mode until you're 30, get mega fit in the meantime, and fuck college sophomores by the truckload. not a one of them will give a fuck about your virginity if you aren't a total neet and dont spill the beans. also drop out of school lol.

Every time I take risks, I end up hurt even more than before. I literally had just gotten over someone and I finally opened myself back up and got unceromoniously kicked in the dick.

Yikes this is fucking cringe. Im 5'8" with 6 inches and fucked dozens of beautiful women. Judging your self worth based on NPC females is a joke

unironically kys

same situation except I'm 5'11 king of manlets, had braces but it didn't do shit, need glasses but I can't bring myself to get some so I can't see shit (one of the reasons I failed college) and failed college (I was studying Mathematics and I didn't understand a thing). Graduate at least, it's better than nothing.

Women are glorified video game NPCs, get a fucking grip.

>it's shit you do, not shit you are
pffffffff hahaha you can't really believe that?

Oh yeah. I bought my dream house 3 years ago. turns out it's in a cancer cluster. I've had 11 teeth crack or break in the last 8 months because of all the shit going on at this industrial plant. everyone in the neighborhood is getting ready to sue. I've never had a cavity in my life now 11. So by the time I see any money most of my teeth will be gone and i'll have cancer. Even my dentist was like what the fuck are you on meth or crack, I said no, explained where I was from and she said she had 4 people in that month just from the area with the same issues.

Good old South East Houston. Everyone has cancer or some industrial waste in their bodies. Yay deregulation.

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cope

king of these fuckin digits tonight my man
despair is worse than useless. the continuity of events you're describing doesn't exist. every relationship has a risk of being toxic. that's not the nature of relationships, its the nature of risk. now you know security is not the default in any relationship, and if one starts to go south you'll know it's gonna come seemingly out of the blue. you have better options than other people in your position based on your experience.

Harris County? I went to my kids elementary school, every class room had 2 or 3 kids on chemo. Shit is so fucked up.

You know what's strange, just a minute ago, I opened up Bumble and was swiping through and guess who fucking pops up
The girl. God exists and he exists solely to torture me slowly

chuh?

Yeah Harris County near the San Jacinto river. The EPA did a study in 2016 that was buried by Lyndell sued to keep the report buried "Until further action"

We are fucked user. Texas is so fucked up.

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christ youre pathetic. bitches arent shit

Yes, great advice... I do not think like you user. You think my goals are just, what, to fuck? You think I would’ve been tormented like this if all I wanted to do was... fuck? Girls have been after me ever since I was a child. Running to greet me. Touching me. Caressing me. All throughout school. And like a good Christian, like a good son, I rejected all their advances. Because I thought it was sinful. Because my parents had convinced me they weren’t really interested; they were just making fun of me. I’m angry that I fucked up my teenage years, but I know my worth. And that’s why I’m angry.

See, I have various “people” inside of me, dragging me to different ends. Your post, the implication that “fucking” is all I desire angers me. Maybe because I know it’s true in some part. But it’s making my chest burn. So fuck you. I’ll get my crown.

You know what?! FUCK this shit. Fuck all of you faggots. I won’t take it anymore. I will take what is mine. I will take what I desire. With my sword in my hand, I will.

You live next to the LB near Channelview? Man you are screwed, that's cancer city, even the Mexicans know to get out of there. People's hair and teeth fall out non-stop.

once again my man, its tempting to read a continuity into this shit, but its all just inherent risk. that being said, its risk youve survived, and its risk that doesn't disrupt a good 99% of your day, so once you've had your time with this pain it's gonna be super easy to put aside.

reading through this thread motivated me to take out the trash, that's the most productive thing I've done in weeks

calm down nigga you aint that important

It was a nice neighborhood good houses, everyone is white. I just moved from California out here. I didn't know they have no regulations at all out here. Why the fuck doesn't the government do anything? There are literally dead animals laying around ditches or near any creek or river.

Is it really that fucked up here in Houston?

That's good, keep doing small things like that and you'll move on to bigger things in no time.

Women have nothing to do with it. I just wanted to be a GigaChad Thundercock. Now, if I try, I may become UltraChad; period. And it simply won’t do.
Fuckwit, you can fix your eyesight. And I had to get braces two times because the first doctor fucked up my jaw. One day I’ll bury her, I promise you that. And I do not intend to give up my pursuits. God as my witness I will go as far as I can.

Nice digits
I just have trouble with it, lately I've been getting more attention from women but seemingly they just want to fuck me. It's a strange feeling, I should feel empowered because they find me attractive but instead I feel repulsive because they don't want to be with me

yikes

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It's Houston, if you are rich you have a great life, if you aren't you die of cancer when you hit 50 without your teeth if you are lucky. No one gives a shit, all the politicians are bought up, the cops won't even do shit. Everyone know that 1/3 the town is a cancer magnet now, that's why everyone with money went north or west

thats just because casual sex is inherently destructive to the soul. take it from a faggot, shit is always 1/10 fun and 9/10 depressing. if love isn't in front of you don't try to force it into existence with your dick.

>Why the fuck doesn't the government do anything?

They want us all dead dipshit.

yeah but it's been like ten years and i can't point to any easily sympathetic cause like a death so no one really cares

I second this user. Make a name for yourself

this

Therapists are a huge scam, don't go to them.

Im actually glad my awful mother turned me into a sociopath. You weaklings are legitimately nauseating.

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Oh I am. I am. You will understand. You will all understand when you grovel before me, knee in dirt and head bowed. I will bring forth my justice and my future. And none of you will ever see it coming. At least not until it’s far too late to act. I will shape you all, as if you were clay.

Well you get a good caliber and you put it to your chest and fire

Like the legend himself one said: "There is nothing outside of yourself that can ever enable you to get better, stronger, richer, quicker, or smarter. Everything is within. Everything exists. Seek nothing outside of yourself.” - Miyamoto Musashi

I just don't get why so many people here think it's so great. Sex in my experience has been nothing but a tool that guts me emotionally

see heres the thing man, confidence is good, but narrative isn't, and neither is gonna protect you from risk. you live in a random world that doesnt give a shit about your imagination or what you think of yourself. there isnt some big rulebook for you to appeal to when you don't get what you think you deserve. so my advice stands: go monk, get /fit/, and get laid. you could use some human contact.

I did get some glasses too but I couldn't see shit with them anyway and it's so expensive for some reason so I can't get others.

Yeah. I have a decent job that pays well but I haven't had any meaningful relationship in 7 years. Back in college I had no money but I have a close group of friends, even a girl that was kinda into me, but we all drifted apart. I moved pretty much halfway across the world to find a job because it's the only place that offered me one. I tried finding friends again but it's pretty hard, no one seems to share my interests. I have some money at least but it's getting harder to get up in the morning.

>I have some money at least but it's getting harder to get up in the morning.
get up anyway

Also, have you tried joining various interest groups? They're a great way to meet a lot of different types of people in a condensed area and are quite fun, too.

>My past was one mishap after the other, all outside my control.

I was with you until this. Then you just turned into a pathetic faggot.

nah but seriously everything about the mental health industry is a massive scam barely better than lobotomies. They don't know why the drugs they use work, they don't understand how the underlying physical structures give rise to psychology, and they simultaneously peddle the idea that something is a chemical imbalance but that also you can just think really hard about your problems and do 'exercies' a la CBT and they will go away.

once again, casual sex fuckin sucks dude. try being gay and only getting it casual, shit is mega depressing. the advantage you're in is that you get to dictate where and how you have it, with whom you have it. you're sexually independent and you don't even know it. make yourself an asset.

sex with someone you actually deeply deeply care for is an incredible human experience

sex with someone you just met from tinder is more akin to jerking off, but typically more expensive and time consuming

I had a friend that chugged benzos and shit and it only fucked her up more. Like Musashi said, you can fix everything by yourself, a lot of people just don't want to and resort to easier methods that end up hurting them in the long run.

I WANT TO FUCK LORRAINE BRACCO

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don't you think you could get a job back in your home/college town now that you have 7 years of experience? I also lived abroad for about 5 years and am planning to go home now that I am no longer entry level

>sex with someone you just met from tinder is more akin to jerking off, but typically more expensive and time consuming
Occasional flings can be great, depending on the person of course, but sex with someone you're invested in is certainly a godlike experience.

>Hi!

I wasn't depressed until I tried to quit SSRIs, turns out that is a side effect of quitting.

yeah and being happy makes me even more depressed for some reason

very true, all things in moderation
a little volatility here and there is fun, as a standard it'll kill you

Very much so, yes. I'm a below-average-looking average-height slightly-overweight ("skinnyfat") blue collar tradesman who is wholly bereft of charisma and as a result im mostly sexually|romantically unappealing to women. I'm turning 27 this year and seeing more and more people/couples my age who are married and/or have children really bums me out. I didn't think men could get "baby crazy" but lately ive started to realize all I want in life is someone I can settle down and have a family with to come home to at the end of the day. I'm not even "horny and lonely" anymore, just lonely.

Just because you’re a common simpleton parroting /pol/ and /fit/ “ironpills” doesn’t mean everyone is a colossal failure. I will forge my future, while all of you sit here with your “realistic” goals and your “feels”. I wanted to be a hard 10 in all areas. Alas I’m a package 9, when all is considered. It could’ve been much, much worse. But I will not let it go to waste.
Go to an optometrist, for God’s sake.
>Muh LARPing
Christ, are you people allergic to some flair? Just because you’re boring cunts doesn’t mean everyone has to be.

Depends on the type of person you are, but being a whore, regardless of the gender, certainly ain't good for your mental health and is kinda disgusting too.

yeah no doubt. i used to be very "sexually open-minded" and didnt think there was anything wrong with a little side prostitution.
then i got catfished on a gay app by a minor who then started tricking. seeing someone you thought you could care about start whoring for "generous" older men is a major fucking wakeup call.
also lowkey the reason i'm in this thread cause im still fucked up about it

Yes, because I can't eat junk food anymore because I got diabetes which I wasn't planning on getting until I was 40 or on my 600 pound life. I'm not going to kill myself, though.

>have a moment of happiness
>feel weird as fuck and become more depressed
someone help

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Haven’t been the same since Operation Phantom Fury doc

Changes can be scary, but that's only natural. Don't let your old habits drag you back down and tell depression to fuck off.

I have been spending the bulk of my days in bed for the last 8 months. I only leave to piss, shit and buy food. My body is aching. Every biweekly shower is an accomplishment. I drink till I pass out then rinse and repeat. The days are getting longer which makes me feel worse because when it's dark I am not as much reminded about how miserable I am. I hate myself. I hate what I have become. I hate all the chances I have wasted. I used to be full of hope and thought that things will just work out somehow. I have lost that hope and it scares me. I see no way out. I absolutely despise myself.

I feel you on the longer daylight user.

I'd be a lot less depressed if you'd hop in bed with me Dr. Milfy, I mean Melfe. You'd do anything to help a patient right?

thanks senpai
im going to bed late as fuck again i gotta fix that

>im going to bed late as fuck again i gotta fix that
Same here, friend. Good night and sleep tight!

Yeah. I've thrown away 7 years of my to an industry that's probably about to go downhill, and I can smell it in the air. Made a few bucks, but obviously no upward movement. I've been thinking about liquidating my retirement account to a new bank account only my wife has access to then blowing my gay ass brains out.

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Depression is blown out of proportion these days.

Youve got problems. Big problems that are difficult to face. And youre too lazy to put in the work to overcome them. You’re not depressed. There’s nothing wrong with you chemically that requires medication.

Dont let big pharma jew you

>haven't gone to counselling in years
>friends and family are really worried about me
>try to encourage me to get counseling
>finally ask one of my friends to set the appointment
I'm pathetic

At least you have friends and family who care about you. Some of us don't even have that.

I don't deserve them, I don't deserve anything

I just wanna feel loved

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>finally find a comfy Sopranos thread after days of not catching one
>It's all faggots blogging about their boring shit
>mfw

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Learn to love yourself first

At least you have friends and family who care about you. Some of us don't even have that.

Jesus loves u

I literally have zero problems with myself, don't hate myself, in fact I even like the person I am

That changes nothing. I hate that normie advice, "just learn to be alone with yourself"
I know how to be alone, but there's a difference between that and loneliness

same here

>to an industry that's probably about to go downhill
did it get AUTOMATED?

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Reminder that if you kill yourself you'll miss out on

>Dune
>Game of Thrones ending
>Endgame
>the next Taylor Sheridan kino
>Mindhunter season 2
>Fast 9
>Fast 10
>Fast 11?
>The Sopranos film
>Avatar 2
>Avatar 3
>Avater 4
>Avatar 5
>Avatar 6?
>Dune 2

why are you encouraging me

fuck

this
melfi threads are cancer

>he doesnt want to watch littykino

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Yeah man, You're not the problem, everyone else is. Fucken normies amirite reeeee xd

Muh legs

combination of depression + blackpill

Don't forget Bannerlord, Re3 remake, TES6 and James from my fatkino finally popping his clogs.

No. My life is going well and I have a lot of things to look forward to.

>Bannerlord
Literally never going to be finished. It's an excruciating wait.

Sounds like she was always an abuser

Yes, Dr. Mommy-, I mean, Dr. Milfi

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Literally came to post this.

>Yeah man, You're not the problem, everyone else is. Fucken normies amirite reeeee xd

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